[Pretty much all you need to do for this is write 5 things, these can be peoples names, places, emotions, a film title, song title, band, anything that sums up your day, do it each day on your listography for a year, copy and paste this at the top of the list so people know what this list is all about. My Start Date: 04/06/2017.]

APRIL

  • 06: wow, it's been one full year since i started doing the 5 things • no coffee this morning • apparently i gained three pounds, so now i weight the most i've ever weighed and it's raining so it's not like i can work out • finished watching rick and morty • i've been making hexagons when i was supposed to be making pentagons, at least there's only 11 and i'm decreasing, so i can reuse the yarn • dinner • kfc • 711 • i was like "ima diet" and look at me now, guess i'd better start running and doing 7 minute workouts but do i really want to? • oh, i want him and he's an asshole!
  • 07: shit morning • GOT MY NINJA SEX PARTY TICKETS, FUCK YEAH • jog • a bit of crochet • nap • jog to 711 and walk back • arrival
  • 08: migraine • asleep until ~5 • pizza • intermittent sleep, weed, and crochet
  • 09: tried to watch some of the gp but got sleepy • pip threw up at 4.20 am • slept till noon • run, pain, but got some great pictures on the walk back • finished the grand prix, yay lewis • why am i so tired? • can't sleep • took out some random yarn and made some hexagons because why the fuck should i NOT start a new project
  • 10: made a mandala • took a lot of pictures • walked home from rite-aid and it was hot • nap • mussels for dinner • a bit of crochet • every night, i'm like "is it too early to go to sleep?"
  • 11: woke up late • crochet • ran/walk to rite-aid and 7 minute workout BECAUSE I GAINED A FUCKING POUND • more crochet • nap • fajitas • mom wanted to talk; apparently she just thinks i'm pushing and pushing until they kick me out, wtf??? • kong: skull island and popcorn
  • 12: FEELING LIKE SHIT • smoked and took my meds and feel better • twitch and grumps and twitch all day, while i fight internally • straightened my hair and it's long, and of course he hates it, but whatever
  • 13: migraine this morning at 12 • back pain like holy shit • sat outside and crocheted for an hour but the pain brought me inside • had to take 800 mgs of ibuprofen, a xanax, weed, and a heating pad to get to sleep • now i'm awake and still in pain but it's manageable • how the fuck did my mom live like this • joint
  • 14: still in pain, what the fuck • crochet • ibuprofen • sleep • figured out what i'm going to do with dad's and s's blankets: completely redo • read an article on why "staying together for the kids" is worse, and WOW that hit home • stayed up till 3
  • 15: slept almost all day • a lot of back pain • is this just life now? • pizza • i just want to finish my blanket but my back • kendrick lamar is amazing
  • 16: easter • bahrain grand prix • sleep • it's fucking hot as shit
  • 17: mild back pain, went away last night; it just feels like my back needs to crack • some crochet • sleep and a fight over the damn fan • sometimes i want him out but i realize i'm overreacting, but i should still talk to my therapist about it • we got some good weed because my back doesn't hurt •
  • 18: emotional doctor's appointment • sleep • picked up sully • sleep • i'm really excited to have tacos rn •
  • 19: got up early to get blood taken but decided not to • went to best buy and got a new computer (!!!) • sleep • got sullivan • this weed makes me so high i can't crochet • this computer is so amazing • so many emotions about computer • pizza • lazy days
  • 20: blaze it • crocheted in the morning • could not take a damn nap • 420 at 420 • kfc • nap again? no dice • went to sleep at like 8
  • 21: i've cleared my schedule and am playing everything all day • pho • clan battles
  • 22: feeling sickish • some twitch and crochet, but mostly sleep all day • and when i'm sick i have plans, such as the african flower catnip pillows and the new exercise scheme i'll start tomorrow; who knows if i'll actually stick with it
  • 23: pip woke me up at 7 • woke at 9 • did my exercise scheme, and it's not too bad, i think i can keep up with it • wegmans • feeling meh, but i'd rather feel meh after doing something (like running) than feeling meh from not doing anything (depression meh) • does that even make sense •
  • 24: migraine • pho • finally felt better at night
  • 25: mom said my face looked bright but i don't want to work out or call any of the people i have to so... • managed to work out and i'm hot but feeling okay • running/walking in the rain is great, it's so tranquil and there's no one else out • took sully to the clinic and he has flu b •
  • 26: exercise • crochet • picked up
  • 27: did a lot of calls and i have no spoons left lol • workout • frogged my dad's blanket alllllllllllllll day • ate a fuck ton
  • 28: migraine • thank god for naked juice
  • 29: hot af today, no workout • stayed up till 4am playing terraria
  • 30: sleepy • it's like 80 degrees and i have no shorts to work out in :\ • been attacking myself all day • couldn't crochet • managed to work out • celebrated by getting a mickyds sundae, what the fuck ever •

MAY

  • 01: exhausted • started aniMAY • worked out a little, but i thought it was going to rain so i came home early but it's 9.15 and it hasn't rained yet -_- • a lot of terraria today • how am i going to make $100 last all month • eodm and mastodon tomorrow guyez
  • 02: dicked around • took me a long time to get ready because fuck cat eyeliner • long talks on the way to the fillmore • panera • russian circles • EAGLES OF DEATH METAL • a bit of mastodon • a great time, i really need to hang out with my friend mike more, he's a great guy • MIGHT be going to see gorillaz
  • 03: exhausted • finished kill la kill and i have a lot of feels about it • picked up • actually listened to rdgldgrn and they're really good and i want to go to that show now and i might have to go alone :\ • picked up • smoked with a friend and risky biznu cops • hotcakes •
  • 04: depressed • can't concentrate • migraine
  • 05: feeling a bit better • tried to work out but overexerted myself • thank god for weed •
  • 06: migraine • depressed • did all the self-care things, but for what? • whatever, i'm getting tacos
  • 07: problems with my mom • it's gonna be nice to have a rearranged private room
  • 08: achieved the runner's high and boy was it nice; gotta remember working out high is the tits • finished my hexagon blanket, just need to weave in ends • gurren lagann
  • 09: stomach probs • no therapy
  • 10: psychiatrist • michaels • fight with sullivan • guardians of the galaxy vol 2 • migraine
  • 11: crocheted • watched some anime and movies • meh
  • 12: post office • library • wegmans • ankle went out in wegmans • nap • should i do my mother's day project, no, let's fucking cross stitch •
  • 13: woke early • ikea • delivery tomorrow! • clean, clean, clean • have a breakdown, which at first take out on sully until he asks what the fuck is wrong and then you cry but he holds you and pats your hair so actually everything is okay • were you actually crying because he moved? • switched rooms, btw • he has his own room • no time to sleep! • rdgldgrn • i'm sad i didn't get to hang out with corey/the band/the after-party • now i'm overthinking he doesn't like me • pah, stop it
  • 14: hfs i am exhaust • watch the race? no • watch the last 10 laps • make scones? no • put bed together • get confused over things • it's not even finished fiona's? no • chilis • happy mother's day, i'm not done your gift or grandmas • i want to get gud with deadlines after today i'm going to make every single one • and from last night, when i thought he didn't like me? pah, he text me, i think wanting to hang out but i was honestly busy! but kewl •
  • 15: cleaned my butt off • slept and couldn't do anything else • basically slept all night
  • 16: grocery store at 8 am is tight • nap • hexagons and twitch • remembered to get sully • got tired and couldn't make dinner • picked up • got really fucking stoned and watched pacific rim • gold from rdgldgrn liked my picture on instagram holy shiot
  • 17: finished gurren lagann • weave in ends wednesday • made some progress on my mom's mother's day bird and i fucking hate it so she's not getting anything for mother's day • let's just focus on her birthday and making something good • starbucks • can't make it to therapy, basically got dressed and ready to go to starbucks • got sullivan • made some cajun shrimp with garlic parmesan cheese sauce for dinner • vape store • tried to roll a backwood and failed • get out
  • 18: working on the lanturn cross stitch • wish i could stream, but i get second thoughts (am i not talented/pretty/interesting???) • needle threader broke = no more cross stitch • made some more shrimp and had two dinners
  • 19: woke at 8.30 • michael's! and now i have all the yarn i need for christmas presents, it's so good to have that done in may • nap • made an amazing dinner, i might post the recipe • hung out with corey
  • 20: made the base to my mom's bed and it's HUGE • can't really concentrate • sleep, sleep, sleep • gonna get things done tomorrow
  • 21: woke up early to get stuff done • exercised • rite-aid and total wine • organized organizational book • nap • crochet • got slammed with emotions • another nap • made dinner • i thought i'd be productive but i'm just depressed and can't go to sleep because i'm waiting to get weed so what do i doooo • klonopin + ash hits + 60s music = feelin ok • got my weed
  • 22: woke at 8 wowee • had to go to 711 because i had no coffee • a bit of cross stitch • starbucks • sully to work • safeway • cicada friend • exercise • nap • dinner • short talk with sully, didn't really get anywhere
  • 23: woke at 5.50, meant to be 5.30, oops • took daddy and sully to work • ½ interval training • food, glorious food • crochet time and it's 7.40, go me • watched an episode of anthony bourdain • nap • walk • crochet and talk with mama time • get sully • put mom's bed together • why isn't twitch working ughh
  • 24: took sully to work • had anxiety, mom didn't want to go to doctor's either • took sully pepto bismal • hot bagel, and they gave me an everything bagel by mistake and honestly changed my life • weave in ends wednesday • bought a webcam! so close to streaming • picked up sully • he dropped me off at the metro station and i walked home • best buy runs and dinner • smoking and of course that's why i'm paranoid but eugh • and then he was talking to two girls, but honestly, why am i jealous? he doesn't have feelings for me, there's no hope! i need to just get over it, and i know that takes time
  • 25: waking up early means monaco free practice 2 and crochet • rickmobile by myself • got pictures! check instagram • einstein brothers bagels • wal*mart • sat outside for like 5 minutes before the cats wanted to come in • making a magic ball instead of working on projects but oh the fuck well • pizza and 10 minutes into prometheus and chill and i felt horrible so i laid down, around 6.30 • didn't wake up till sully got home with goodies at 11 • smoked • slept
  • 26: woke at 8, so i slept like 14 hours • migraine • finished the magic ball and twitch • nap with relpax and xanax • felt like shit • chinese food • crochet and game grumps • picked up • more crochet and game grumps •
  • 27: monaco qualifying • bagels • exercise • smoothies and a blunt with corey • wal*mart • crochet • nap • i can't find the pedal to my sewing machine :( • got a fitbit
  • 28: fucking GAINED A POUND WTF • monaco, winner sebastian vettel • exercise • indy 500, winner takuma sato • nap • more exercise • dinner
  • 29: cross stitch (finished lanturn) and game grumps all day
  • 30: crochet and game grumps • was going to see john but he fucked me over • picked up • smoked myself silly
  • 31: speedrun wegman's at 7 am • tried to work on hexagons • couldn't concentrate and went for a run • started nora's bunny but it's too small so she's not getting it • translated mandala pattern • chili's • forced myself to stay awake to pickup my dad

JUNE

  • 01: holy shit it's june
  • 02: ikea • hobby lobby • making hippos
  • 03: continuing hippos • nap • stream practice 10 - 1.30 • clean • suddenly mike: walk and chill and dog park • finished cleaning • migraine
  • 04: holy crap period pains • 3 naps • pho
  • 05: hippo heads from 10-2 (stream practice) with grandkeys on twitch • nap • weed making me feel shitty • 2 hot showers • more hippo heads
  • 06: sullivan to work • stream practice 7.30 am - 1 pm • walk • safeway • sullivan from work • picked up • chilling •
  • 07: worked on obs • my tattoo artist is drawing my new tattoo yas
  • 08: a little bit of work • nap • feeling meh • slept basically the rest of the day
  • 09: this has got to be the worst period, but i really can't complain because i don't bleed • shoppers & michaels • nap • feeling blah • went to sleep at like 7 again
  • 10: awake at 5.30 • pulled out the nordic shawl • nap • crochet • cleaned • nap • tried to finish the backing on dan's cross stitch but my stitches looked horrible • dyed hair and painted nails • patiently waiting pizza and two more hours, maybe we'll go at 8.30... • didn't go till 10, but had a great time • stayed out till 5
  • 11: i am exhaust • slept and watched xwater's 18 hour stream on twitch
  • 12: xwater is still streaming, how tf am i going to be able to do a stream like that, whatever, we worry about that l8r • said goodbye to dan and gave him the lanturn • feeling like shit • got a picture with dan and i look high as shit whatever • off and on stream practice/crochet • it's hot af and i want to walk but it's like 90 degrees
  • 13: no vote • no therapy • no unique • just stomach pain till like 6 pm • DRINK THE WATER • finished nordic shawl!
  • 14: CHANGED MY LIFE ON JUNE FOURTEENTH • it's runsixblank day, the day where we celebrate a local band from high school • took daddy to work & 711 • took sully to work & 711 • grandkeys on twitch and crochet • nap • feeling foggy • more grandkeys on twitch and crochet • gonna finish this damn blanket today
  • 15: feelin' like shit! • didn't go to daddy's retirement party, i'm sorry • michael's and shoppers and the heat made me feel like shit
  • 16: wove in ends all day • 2 naps • exercised for the first time all week and boy do i feel great • ancient aliens
  • 17: no lavender festival • nap and i feel like shit • walk • sushi!!! • hyperspin, you mean I CAN PLAY BANJO-KAZOOIE? • let's hope this works because i want to play n64 games on my computer holy shit •
  • 18: accidentally cancelled the rocketlauncher thing so it took all day to dl • breakfast • exhausted and basically slept all day, missing a lot of father's day, but that's ok because leaving my dad alone is probably what he wanted
  • 19: downloading the n64 emulator thingy • EXHAUSTED AND IDK WHY • it's 1.30 and i've already taken two naps •
  • 20: sick and exhausted all day • started american gods • pho • webcam arm came in!
  • 21: still sick and exhausted • cancelled psychiatrist • doctor's appointment tomorrow • i have roms, now i need mame for this damn...fucking hyperspin, this had better be worth it • basically slept all day • IT MIGHT BE ANEMIA • an adverse side effect of zoloft is iron deficiency anemia • ate a cheeseburger and i feel FABULOUS
  • 22: awake • migraine, weed, back to sleep • doctors office • seriously considering braids for a summer 2017 look • pulled out my granny stripe blanket • he said he's free next week unasked
  • 23: sooo my aunt and uncle and cousin are staying with us next week woohoo -_- • more tired, but felt slightly better today, was able to crochet more and get some stuff done •
  • 24: feeling even better today • but i'm never satisfied and discontent i can't work on the cross stitch that needs to be complete for next week and idk if i'll make those deadlines :\ •
  • 25: azerbaijan grand prix, which was really exciting but i barely watched • slept
  • 26: literally slept all day • i'm so tired of being tired • given up on june deadlines
  • 27: still tired • when will it end • GOT QUEENS OF THE STONE AGE TICKETS • he is gonna take me to his show :3 • arwen made this weird growl noise at pip, it was intense; cats are weird • walk • waiting for mom with the bagels • we got jimmy johns
  • 28: we're supposed to announce something today but i guess we're not • walk •
  • 29: mom's birthday • relatives came • panic attack • fiona's for dinner • picked up sullivan and weed and joint
  • 30: short time with relatives before they left • sleep • ancient aliens and chill • feeling so much better, but i had a panic attack so those are on the rise since my antideps are down, but like, can't i just get a decent medicine??? • just wanna get laid

JULY

  • 01: woke early • walk • catching up on temperature blanket • alien: covenant and people were talking the whole damn time i was so angry
  • 02: overworked myself on the walk • crochet • hidden figures
  • 03: took sullivan to work • nap • shopping • nap • walk
  • 04: walk to shoppers • cleaned • short nap • walk again • lato in manassas • he wanted to spend time with me! • lost my fit bit >:(
  • 05: woke at 5am on the dot with a hangover headache, took meds and chugged gatorade, which was the worst thing i could have done because then i puked but whatever i've just had a migraine all day • angry (not at me) sully to work • michaels • forever 21 • jcpennys • eye exam & new glasses • picked up • nap • watched a bit of alien: covenant with mom but they took down the good quality one and the other good quality one made you subscribe halfway through the film • iota open mic night to see wes • mike came with justina but whatever she lives in cali • honestly he's giving me some signs • we'll see how friday goes • it's v hard not to have expectations or get excited gdi • still nursing this dang blasted hangover
  • 06: took daddy to metro • psychiatrist appt: i'm stable and have to get a new psychiatrist • sleep •
  • 07: straight hair, don't care • the pinch: jay nixon and the last of them; lindsay collette and the evening stars; touch the buffalo • feeling sickish • migraine
  • 08: resting and crocheting today • talks with mum • a bit of crochet • nap • walk • blister exploded and sullivan had to come get me • mcdonalds • more sleep and feeling like shit • feeling like shit • sullivan bought me a game!
  • 09: austrian grand prix • slept all day • found out an ex is getting engaged = long drives
  • 10: productive crochet • no doctor's appointment = fight with mom • talk with mike, unfortunately he's busy this week but i'll see him saturday :)
  • 11: not going with mom to her appointment :\ • amazon prime day = bought headset, last piece of equipment to begin streaming (!!!) • errands • vape store • weed party • left early because person i went with was being a fuck • then he decided at 3 am he wished i would have stayed *eye roll* • too late
  • 12: pool • made a mistake with mike but remedied (thanks overthinking) and we are good • nap • i'm sunburnt • life
  • 13: ok, fuck the zoloft, each time i take it i'm more tired • pool again • naked tacos • who looks up porn on a shared account on a public computer, c'mon, if i have fucking virus i'm going to be so pissed • late night pick up • late night crochet
  • 14: sullivan to work • nap • moody • checked out tattoos, so excited! • costco • no happy hour • v moody, where klonopin •
  • 15: woke at 5 to needy cats • finished Scarf • kenilworth aquatic gardens • nap time, plus time to overthink because mike hasn't replied what time he's getting me but it's like him to not reply for a while but not like him to not reply; i'm just anxious because (a) anxiety and (b) it's a festival that starts at 4ish and idk what time he has to be there and last weekend i had like an hour to get ready end rant. • no nap rn because it's PHO TIME • amazing festival • amazing afterparty • mike is just amazing ღ
  • 16: breakfast at city kitchen with mike • hangover? so nap • potstickers • long chats with mom •
  • 17: walk • michael's • crochet • nap • crochet • nap • walk
  • 18: exercise • wegman's • picked up daddy from airport • got my mom's tattoo • weed makes me overthink, so i'm going to cut down
  • 19: saw daddy on walk • crochet • therapy, finally! • cheesetique • walmart • excellent dinner • now i'm high and want to see mike but damnit the Love Rules don't allow me to but like...fuck it? • decided not to text, and went to sleep
  • 20: lost weight, woohoo! • motivated me to talk a long ass walk with my dad • breakfast, coffee, crochet • nap • time to make some progress on this blanket
  • 21: sullivan to work • short walk • crochet • picked up sullivan • TATTOO TIME, it went great and i love them, pictures soon • chili's • sleeeeep • might see mike sunday :D :D
  • 22: the tats really don't hurt that bad, but i'm giving my body a rest and not exercising today • michael's • staples • nap • feeling like shit so i took a walk • the mummy with mom
  • 23: TWO cats with me • walk • eggs • crochet • seeing mike tomorrow, can it get here soon enough? • progress on this blanket woo • picked up • shark week
  • 24: guess my day is starting at 4 am • crochet • sully to work • walk • sully's uniform to work • michael's • shoppers • crochet • sully from work • tacos • getting ready to go! • band practice & candids • a photoshoot • spirited away
  • 25: hot bagel • think sullivan is pissed i stayed out all night but idgaf • nap • pizza • not feeling v well
  • 26: it's like 64 outside, gorgeous • short walk • crochet • not feeling well • 2 naps • sullivan isn't even talking to me • more naps • Discovery • sullivan quit smoking • i'm cutting back on weed • pancakes
  • 27: crochet • nap • wanna get all the 3rd round of these motifs done today • show • talks • shitty day shitty life
  • 28: another day • crying off and on • dropped off sullivan at work • picked up and rides • therapy • achievement unlocked: cried in therapy • rain • i've eaten 1 taco today • i was so happy
  • 29: crocheted • eaten barely anything • at least i exercised • wegman's • at least i haven't cried
  • 30: i'm depressed • made donuts • slept and smoked a lot • rick and morty party
  • 31: lost 3 pounds, woo! • depressed • smoked a lot of weed • skyped with dan

AUGUST

  • 01: anxiety • this blanket it's going to get done • ines' father's funeral at a mosque • cemetery • errands • repast/party
  • 02: hangover • back to sleep • mom to vein doctor • busy busy busy • no projects finished • sleep • band practice • migraine
  • 03: packing • airport • the woman on the metro said "washington national" instead of reagan, go u • saw a friend at the airport • flew • hi grandma! • nap • hannaford • crochet • bed early
  • 04: izzy is here! • izzy is a puppy • LAKE GEORGE • mike texted me • exhausted
  • 05: worked on shawl • nap, unexpectedly two hours • lunch • didn't finish shawl • wedding in the rose garden • reception • overwhelmed, so i left early • panera
  • 06: it's 56 degrees wtf • grandmas house • saratoga race track! • placed some bets (won $3.20) and took lots of photos • left after race 5 • nap • marcellas! • it's 8 and i'm about to go to sleep
  • 07: walk • nap • grandma to urgent care but they won't take her insurance so we have to go to her doctor's walk in later • nap • grandma's doctor = prednisone, and they don't know what her rash is • cute pharmacist i would have given him my number but we're 8 hours away ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ • neon sushi • walk • it's almost 8 and i'm about to go to sleep again, what an old fuck • home tomorrow!
  • 08: after being up at 4, finally woke at the intended 7am • packed • bye grandma • taxi driver is moving to san diego and is going to write a book about his experiences being a taxi driver before he goes back into real estate, as an appraiser • flight • hi mom • panera • weed • ok this high is underwhelming • nap • jfc, cats • smoked again, and i'm like meh • lol •
  • 09: weed • doctor's appointment • wegman's • walk to shoppers • migraine • sullivan got into a car accident; he's fine but my car is all janky and my parents are pissed • sleep • it's 11 and i'm awake • 1 year ago i was at paul mccartney
  • 10: woke at 5.30 • migraine • woke later • walk • got ready • movies with mike • food • bought a record • nap • i think i'm stagnant, here in virginia. i need somewhere else. i need to move.
  • 11: got a rental car: ford fiesta • Discovery (sully) • touch the buffalo at o'shaughnesssy's • ღ
  • 12: five hours of sleep, ok • temperature blanket • walk with sully, plus picking up and saw an Asshole at the vape store • chili's • a joint • going through photos
  • 13: more photo work • getting ready for TWITCH TOMORROW • rick and morty party
  • 14: TWITCH TODAY • it went well! • got trolled but oh well • sleep
  • 15: tired • granny square day • "this weed will last until the weekend," she thought, but even though she'd been in a bunch of therapy she didn't remember healthy coping mechanisms, so she stayed high • what am i even coping with??? • i guess i'm depressed for no reason/background depression • maybe i should up my anti-depressants, is it weird i'm in control of them?
  • 16: don't feel like doing a damn thing • got really paranoid and almost deleted this list O_O • meh day • panic attack at vein clinic • nap • migraine • bought some coping mechanisms • it's only been 2 days and he'll be gone for two weeks wtf
  • 17: awoke & routine • walk • streamed! • nap • meh
  • 18: starting off this morning feeling very anxious and depressed, woo • wegmans • streamed • people came into chat! • high of 8 viewers • car is totaled :( • talked to mike a v little bit
  • 19: woke at 4 and talked to sully • back to sleep • running around looking for red bull and eyeshadow primer • found my eyeshadow primer • metro to fair • hung around • dr. robinson's fiasco • good times! bought a ring, took pictures, made some new friends, rode some rides, got sick, and took an uber home • came home and susie puked all over my bed • relax and sleep
  • 20: sore and achey af • woke at 4 with migraine • no museum • michael's, and caron cotton cakes are discontinued :( • in charge of touch the buffalo's social media, so if you're in the dmv, come the fuck out to one of their shows kk
  • 21: woke at 6 to take sully to work • sleep • stream! (2 hosts, 5 new follows, an active chat!) • eclipse • sleep • picked up sully and errands • feeling depressed but i have stuff to do so idk •
  • 21: streamed • picked up • sent mike a video • napped • was depressed • so a basic day
  • 22: IT'S NOT EVEN 7 AM AND I'M DEALING WITH CENTIPEDES • yeh multiple • had to go to 711 and get coffee too not a good start to this morning • panic attack, so no stream :\ • sleep • pho • meeting with jon, officially band manager! • edibles
  • 23: feeling shitty, no stream • on and off sleep and getting high • caught the tail end of dr. robinson's fiasco at villain and saint, with the lounge act and black dog prowl
  • 24: walk • streamed! • parent bought a new car! • chili's! • made a ton of graphics!
  • 25: susie, y u wake me up always • walk • hanging around • *__26:__ john is flaky af • mom said i was acting like a girlfriend >.> • partay • trash mammals played • looking back i probably should have talked to them but i don't really know what i'm doing, which is why i need to talk to robert and john but they're not really... receptive, idk maybe they're busy
  • 27: formula 1 is back • leaving soon! • drive to philly • sleep • nypd pizza • walk to electric factory • mc chris, twrp, NINJA SEX PARTY • amazing show, except for mc chris he sucked :p • bought a shirt • exhausted • more pizza • i doubt zoo tomorrow
  • 28: slept in till 9 • no zoo :\ but we're tired • drive home • talked to mom • nap • walk • picked up • warp world race on twitch
  • 29: migraine • nap • coffee and crochet • dropped off car, bye fiesta • nap • meh • pizza • tried to get the bois a gig, but they already had enough people • is 8.20 too early to go to sleep?
  • 30: no stream, technical difficulties • drove the new car • nap • picked up sully and grocery store • band practice • time with mike • picked up • business cards at 2am
  • 31: anxiety • streamed early: 2 hours, 2 followers, 4 hexagons • nap • metro • show • home

SEPTEMBER

  • 01: woke with a migraine • flaky john :/ • grocery store • and i cancelled stream too... • nap • therapy • migraine, again??? • better go away + mike better reply = hang out tonight PLS • didn't hang out
  • 02: errands: old navy, michael's, bath and body works, grocery store • migraine/nap • crochet and shit • tried to talk to sully
  • 03: depressed af, fucking pms • woke up just in time to see them play the british national anthem for lewis hamilton • cross stitch • took my neighbor's insane dog sheila for a walk with mike and his dog logan • nap • crochet • drive and talk with sully that didn't really get results but maybe just talking will bring future results • should i get my nose pierced y/n?
  • 04: short stream • nap • meh •
  • 05: weird dream about a member of the band that gives me ptsd • stream - baby blanket, sully & mike were there! • then period cramps took me off early :\ • deep nap • crochet • picked up • ohh tinder
  • 06: got my hair relaxed • nap • bath • talked to jay? • purple isn't six, a shrewdness of apes, touch the buffalo at the evening star cafe • ღ
  • 07: holy hangover batman • accomplished smoking almost all of my weed, changing colors on the baby blanket, and ready a few chapters of sandman • and not much else • it's xanax time ya'als
  • 08: STILL hungover tf • feeling better now, but i felt like shit earlier • i've been talking to him a lot • i'm getting paranoid should i use nicknames... • what the fuck ever, idk, i don't think anyone i know irl even knows me on here • got over the hangover • nap • dinner • sent a risky text and he hasn't replied and it's driving me nuts so i think i'm going to just go to sleep
  • 09: fell down the stairs yesterday and hurt my knee and it's fucking killing me, i think i sprained it, so r.i.p. weekend plans, looks like i'll be crocheting in bed for the next two days • HE REPLIED TO THE RISKY TEXT • i'm ok, you're ok, we're ok, everyone's okay •
  • 10: crochet • plans were ruined but then it worked out in the end • platonic rick and morty • i'm depressed
  • 11: to stream or not to stream • i have a lot of things to do tbh • dropped off sully • michaels • wegmans • streamed • started a crochet-a-long • watched rick and morty again • talked to m a little today • sick of spending these lonely nights training myself not to care.
  • 12: michael's application, gotta call sandy tomorrow • strim • worked on ttb graphics • pho • moar strim • jon didn't like what i made, which is weird that i'm so bummed because i didn't like it that much anyway/wasn't very attached but whatever, he's doing the poster, i'm doing ig and facebook event stuff •
  • 13: didn't feel like streaming, but i did anyway, and i'm glad i did • played terraria and crocheted • ate • nap • prettier than matt and most savage gentlemen at the evening star cafe
  • 14: doctor appt: x-ray and physical therapy for knee • streamed: made $5, a mario maker streamer followed me, and i made a friend! • nap • feeling blah • picked up • whatthefuckamigettingmyselfinto?
  • 15: no stream • can i just watch ancient aliens all day and not go to therapy? • went to therapy • got a job interview tomorrow • my emulator worked with my new controllers so i've been playing some snes games :D
  • 16: interview • GOT THE JOB > orientation tomorrow (!) • streamed • chinese food •
  • 17: orientation • cross stitch • metro • dr. robinson's fiasco • joint with keshia and friends • rick and morty with mike and l.j.
  • 18: nervous! but thank god for weed and clonopin • 4 hour shift: register whole time • now i'm high and exhausted lol • whale holee shit, i'm exhausted even after that nap • celebrating daddy's birthday dinner wednesday • cross stitch and twitch
  • 19: woke early • dentist: temporary filling and i need a root canal • cross stitch and twitch • work: i trained someone? • picked up • jimmy johns • cross stitch and twitch • i'm exhausted and it's only 9pm • lul
  • 20: woke at 7 • I GOT A NEW CAR: it's a black honda civic ex coupe • i love it • fiona's for daddy's birthday lunch • tried to finish this cross stitch and failed • tried not to buy yarn and i'm trying hard not to •
  • 21: woke at 6 • saw an ad on tumblr for panera and got a craving for their orange scones so went and was almost late to work • work, register • streamed for an hour lol • nap • i’m so tired but i’m waiting for him to text back
  • 22: streamed: made a pumpkin to celebrate the autumn equinox • nap • date (was it a date?) w/ jeff • up till 1 talking
  • 23: NOT hungover! • panera • work: floor today! fixed canvases for three hours and arranged scarecrows • shoppers • pizza • nap • nausea • but i guess i’m just hungry •
  • 24: migraine • work: floor, super busy and backup register • met mom at michaels lul and subway • chilled and crochet and skyrim • rick and morty night
  • 25: so hecking tired • red bull • red bull no work • work: register • nap • i guess i should pack but all i want to do is sleep •
  • 26: packed • on the way! • warrenton :? • lunch • hike in big meadows • nap • crochet and chats • oh and also we saw a bear
  • 27: morning crochet • stony man hike • lunch and crochet in the car while the boys hiked • nap • evening crochet and it’s chilly • i want to go to sleep
  • 28: felt like shit for a very foggy morning • read the sandman • short hike • to daddy to a hike and car crochet with mom • nap • got ready and then anxious for dinner and now i'm here and feel like a failure and want to cry • talked to jeff and i felt better and made it up for ice cream and saw a man with a possum puppet • then he didn't reply to me asking to hang out and felt rejected
  • 29: woke early • cold af • crochet • drove home • we're home! i missed my cats so much • talked to jeff for like two hours but am i going to see him idk wtf • nap • we talked till 1.30 am lmao
  • 30: picked up • ♥ • errands • crochet and a bit of jaws • nap • work • beer and pumpkin spice

OCTOBER

  • 01: migraine • called out :\ • nap • crochet • rick and morty viewing party • up till 2 talking to jeff
  • 02: panic attack • called out and the asshole manager (who is he?) said i should just resign and i've only worked 8 days but now i'm seriously considering it because that's how my depressed mind works • depressed all day • nap • picked up
  • 03: doctors office • all i want is to see him • nap • went for it • it took him forever to respond, but i'm going to see him• therapy • i'm not quitting • hour and a half drive later we arrive • movies and cuddles • saw like 8 deer on the drive home
  • 04: migraine is GONE, all it took was ibuprofen?? • still felt like shit all day • talked to him a little • is he just moving slow or does he only like me as a friend?
  • 05: no desire to go to work, but i'm going to go anyway • went to work, it was okay • talked to all the managers about migraines *eyeroll* • bought some yarn • tired but there's a show tonight but i just want to see him but whatever whatever whatever • drove down • jahnel daliya, but didn't stay the whole set • touch the buffalo • missed glen echo • went walking around mary washington and mike went through some memories • came home • sleep at 4
  • 06: tired af but that was expected • went to work and was on the register all day • moment where the managers didn't like how i asked people how to sign up for our membership program, but i figured it out • asked out jeff but he has laundry • i figure if he doesn't "like me like that" he'd tell me? • but mama said you can't hurry love, no you just have wait. she said love don't come easy, it's a game of give and take.
  • 07: fuck, i'm tired af and want to quit • didn't • went to work • busy busy busy • talked to coworkers, awh • is 6pm too early to go to sleep...• picked up • we're going to see bladerunner monday night!
  • 08: i guess every day i'm going to be exhausted/it'll be a struggle • floor mostly all day • stayed in the back • nap and woke up wondering where the fuck i was • watched blade runner in prep for tomorrow's date, though i'm not sure if it's technically a date but whatever
  • 09: shift hadn't even started and i wanted it to be over • register all day • v busy • home and got ready • jeff! • agave for mexican • blade runner 2049 • stayed over
  • 10: came home • cleaned a bit • nap • a scanner darkly • sleep early
  • 11: quit my job • migraine
  • 12: new iphone! • nap • meh • started a new project, a christmas project woo, i'm on the right track • nap • feeling like shit but what else is new • sullivan cut himself on a lightbulb so we went to the er and he got 5 stitches • php (<-- wtf does that mean)
  • 13: holy shiot friday the 13th • i think i'm getting sick • wegmans • j's going through some stuff and i just want to help and see him • ended up calling but he was at work • show: kevin olson, glen echo, touch the buffalo • didn't even hear from j all night
  • 14: officially sick • haven't heard from j, which tbh is odd • he read my messages (all 19,283 of them) and didn't reply? • crochet and half of transformers • nap • FINALLY heard from him • felt like shit today mentally and physically lolololololol
apr 6 2017 ∞
oct 15 2017 +
user picture Jenn: I love that you list more than 5 things a day sometimes. :) And I'm so sorry to read that you feel depressed, I know the feeling. Sending you lots of hugs! aug 4 2017
user picture rose: Thank you. :] And lol, sometimes I have a lot to say! aug 8 2017
user picture Jenn: Good luck for your job interview tomorrow!! *fingers crossed* :] sep 15 2017
user picture rose: Thank you so much! I got the job! :D :D sep 16 2017
user picture Jenn: YAY! That's awesome - congratulations! :D :D :D sep 18 2017
user picture Michelle: Ooo. Which iPhone did you get? oct 13 2017
user picture rose: 7, black.
user picture Michelle: Awesome! I have (sort of) the same; iPhone 7 Plus. iPhones are the best. ;-) oct 14 2017