here's what going through the head of whoever's fronting:

12:43 am

  • I can’t take this... I’m about to snap, I want to sob... I feel so awful and weak and sick... I’ve puked twice and my heart hurts and I feel mentally and physically awful...
  • But I have to be there for Bucky no matter the cost... I need to cheer him up and make him feel better even if I have no strength left... He deserves everything even if it means I have to suffer on my own...

12:51 am

  • I don’t mayter I don’t matter I don’t matter I don’t matter I don’t matter I don’t matter I don’t matter I don’t matter only he matters only he matters only he matters only he matters only he matters only he matters only he matters ow ow damnit ow

1:11 am

  • I’mm sobbing,. Whhy,,. Why nnow.,. I haave tto be sttrong foor Buccky,.,.

1:19 am

  • Shit he wants to FaceTime what do I do what do I do

1:32 am

  • Tthank god he felll asleep,,.
sep 30 2017 ∞
jun 23 2018 +