where I literally just talk about shit ,, usually how my day's been and whatever

• [6/1/18]: It's 1 am and I cannot fucking sleep.. I had coffee earlier (like 8 hours ago lmao) and the caffeine just now kicked in. I'm super hyper, god I need to chill. Birthday's in 22 days AAAA
• [still 6/1/18]: It's night time and I thought I just heard footsteps or something wtf my parents are asleep I hope its just my imagination
• [6/2/18]: I love Green Day
• [6/3/18]: Honestly today was ehh.. kinda bad ,, my mom forced me to clean the house this morning and now, I was trying to make my bed and the bottom blanket wouldn't cooperate so I got fucking pissed at it (it doesn't help that its umm.. that time of the month...) and decided to sleep on the floor. also my blankets are wet, one because it didn't dry all the way and the other I have no idea how
• [6/4/18]: I'm still sleeping on the floor just out of pure lazyness, it's kinda comfy though as I have carpet flooring
• [6/5/18]: happy birthday Pete Wentz :)
• [still 6/5/18]: today was supposed to be a good day. I was sending my other best friend (not Alex, let's just call this best friend Melanie) pictures of band members I found cute. I sent her a few pictures of teenage Tre Cool *dreamboat* and told her about how once I stared at those pictures for 10 minutes straight (true story) because he's so fucking adorable. and Melanie had the nerve to reply "but he's not even that cute". that pissed me the fuck off and now let's just say I'm not replying to her texts any more tonight. call me overreacting, but I'm just super pissed. it's not like I ever said anything like that about HER celebrity crushes (Shawn Mendes, gross) well, until now
• [6/6/18]: bored. listening to Blink-182 and playing Animal Crossing to pass the time :p
• [still 6/6/18]: we went to a restaurant and my mom found a sharp piece of metal in her food. the manager only gave us a $2 discount. sucks because I liked that place
• [6/7/18]: band practice today, just my dad and I but we might go practice in our guitarist's basement (you read that right lol) tomorrow. not a lot happened today, except our water stopped working. birthday's in 15 days and I'm hella excited
• [6/8/18]: Voodoo Glow Skulls played on the radio twice in an hour and I'm so happy about it
• [6/9/18]: whoop my parents went to a concert and decided not to tell me until 10 minutes before they left
• [6/10/18]: really shitty day... my grandma has a blood infection and her leg will probably be amputated ,, knowing how weak she is I'm worried she won't make it much longer. I don't want her to die like this.
• [6/11/18]: went to visit my grandma in the hospital today, she's in the icu and honestly looks a lot worse than she did yesterday. :(
• [6/12/18]: grandma's still in the hospital, luckily she's looking a bit better but she'll probably be there for a few more weeks. birthday countdown: 10 days
• [6/13/18]: didn't go to the hospital today out of pure lazyness. made a new listography that's CS-friendly just to showcase basic shit.. birthday countdown: 9 days
• [6/14/18]: took my pants off and put them on my head because screw norms. birthday countdown: 8 days
• [6/15/18]: watched a bunch of old Christina Grimmie covers, then cried. wishing my birthday would come sooner, I'm tired of waiting for the party. birthday countdown: 7 days
• [6/16/18]: technically today ended 38 minutes ago.. had like 7 cups of coffee today and now I'm suffering from caffeine withdrawl ,, help. birthday countdown: 6 days
• [6/17/18]: it's father's day, so my mom and I baked a cake. birthday countdown: 5 days
• [6/18/18]: my dad and I discovered a Russian Misfits cover band called Mistits. birthday countdown: 4 days
• [6/19/18]: you learn new things every day, an example being how I learned Glenn Danzig's birthday is the day after mine. from now on I'll be celebrating for two. birthday countdown: 3 days
• [6/20/28]: my birthday party is tomorrow. birthday countdown: 2 days
• [6/21/18]: my friends are over at my house. I bought WAYYYY too many band shirts at Hot Topic ,, I also met a pretty cool employee there, I got her phone number and we literally spent about 20 minutes just talking about punk and grunge bands. birthday countdown: 1 day
• [6/22/18]: oooof it’s my birthday
• [6/23/18]: hbd Glenn Danzig! :)
• [6/24/18]: my dad is an adorable child. he used to be in two bands when I was little (I was his biggest fan ,, little me would always be up front staring at him in awe) and today he decided to play a bunch of his old songs, along with some from bands he would tour with. literally though after every song he'd be like "did you like that one? was that a cool song or what?" like I've never heard them before, and when I said I like them he literally started squealing like a fangirl and shit ack it was so cute
• [6/25/18]: watched a bunch of punk documentaries and Creepshow 2 with my dad
• [6/26/18]: There’s a tornado warning here, shit
• [6/27/18]: my grandma came home from the hospital today, and I got my dad into four bands I love (AFI, Sunny Day Real Estate, Voodoo Glow Skulls, and Goldfinger) so I'm super happy today holy shitttt
• [6/28/18]: goddammit why do my parents have to get me addicted to tv shows
• [6/29/18]: tomorrow is my nephew's birthday party and then I have to go do something (nobody told me what) with my mom and her best friend uGH I JUST WANT TO SIT AROUND THE HOUSE AND DO NOTHING ;-;
• [6/30/18]: during my nephew's party my brother gave me some firework poppers (those things that when you throw them really hard they kinda blow up a little) so I was outside throwing all of them on my porch
• [7/1/18]: art fight doesn't want to load on any of my devices for some reason
• [7/2/18]: my mom didn't tell me I had an orthodontist appointment tomorrow until just now
• [7/3/18]: aw boo my braces are going to be on for longer than I thought
• [7/4/18]: didn't watch fireworks because we didn't feel like it. happy 4th of july
• [7/5/18]: my mom brought home a bunch of donuts from work so today was great
• [7/6/18]: I just discovered a new gender and it really speaks to me ,, also art fight is working for me now yay
• [7/7/18]: its 1 am and the radio decides to play my favorite Nirvana song, my 2nd favorite Incubus song, and my favorite Marilyn Manson song at the same time on different stations. why must this happen to me ,, I want to listen to them all ;-;
• [7/8/18]: my phone keeps overheating, shit
• [7/9/18]: my dad didn't tell me band practice was today until literally a half an hour before we left ,, also there's a bird that keeps looking at its own reflection in the window of my mom's truck and trying to fight itself, ending in window scratches and bird shit everywhere so my dad ended up trying to shoot it, and when he missed and almost hit the truck, my mom yelled at him for it so he got a water gun and now he keeps going outside and spraying it with water
• [7/10/18]: I started a hatchery on fr
• [7/11/18]: I spent the whole day just working on my hatchery
• [7/13/18]: it's friday the 13th. nothing interesting happened yesterday or today
• [7/14/18]: my cousins are coming over next week and I'm freaking out because I literally haven't seen them in a year
• [7/15/18]: everyday I'm just growing lazier and grumpier I swear
• [7/16/18]: on quotev some of my friends and I started a group called "the r00d squad" and I came up with the catchphrase "Lazer Bollie and Finger Fucker available with every purchase"
• [7/17/18]: I photoshopped a bunch of pictures of my friends and I because I was bored
• [7/18/18]: I put on a dress, leather jacket, and boots and pranced around my house just because I felt like it (I don't even like wearing dresses ??)
• [7/19/18]: I have to go see my cousins tomorrow (originally they were coming to my house but there was a change in plans) and I'm hurrying trying to pack eeeh
• [7/28/18]: this week went by so quick dvsksks,, the trip was fun ig but our hotel really sucked. I applied for a job a few days ago and school starts soon so eeeeh.. also I was just at the gas station and tHIS DUDE WAS CHECKING ME OUT OOF but I think I need creep repellent because if guys check me out its never handsome guys and/or guys around my age. no, it’s always 40 year old fucking hillbilly creepers (and like?? why me?? there’s some really pretty girls I know but it’s always just me that gets stared at by them??) I just... what? the fuck??? and part of me is like really happy because wow I guess someone thinks I’m pretty but the other part of me is disgusted like sTOP STARING AT ME LIKE IM A FUCKING SUPERMODEL (also on a totally unrelated note I made this today and I’m so proud of it)
• [7/31/18]: Green Day played on the radio today ,, and I got my hair done and there were these elderly twin sisters there that were hilarious. also I went to my grandparents house today for a minute, my grandma is sick again apparently
• [8/3/18]: apparently my grandma is back in the hospital, oof
• [8/4/18]: Green Day played on tHE RADIO AGAIN TODAY HOLY SHIT YES PLEASE KEEP DOING THIS
• [8/6/18]: so I made a Vampire Freaks account
  • EDIT: I deleted it because the people there were starting to freak me out :’)
• oh my god. I just got a message ,, apparently one of my friends committed suicide
• [8/8/18]: I’m still sad about my friend but I’m feeling better than I did
• [8/9/18]: open house was today so uhh that was great I guess... also today is my dead friend’s birthday :/
• [8/11/18]: I made my mom cry today. God, I’m a terrible person.
• [8/13/18]: ughhhhh school starts tomorrow and I don’t want to go
• [8/23/18]: sorry I haven’t been on in forever but my past week has been just peachy, my friend (the one who committed suicide)’s sister died too and now her girlfriend (another one of my friends) is depressed about it so uhh yeah
  • on a lighter note I found my old roblox account and wOWWW it’s cringy as fuck
• [8/29/18]: this day has been so shitty that I don’t want it to make this post any more negative so I’m writing it separate
• [9/21/18]: wowow I haven’t been on here in like a month and I’m sorryy,, but the past few days have been reAlLy eventful and today is probably one of the best days of my life but probably the worst for my fren
  • so yesterday we had a field trip and one of my dude friends hung out with me for like the entire day
  • at the park we sat together and talked and tWO OF MY FRIENDS KEPT ANNOYING US by being all “omg you guys should date you’re so cute together I ship you”
  • but when we got back into our school hE AsKed mE tO hOmeComIng (and ofc I said yes because I was 99.9999% positive nobody would ask me because I’m a derpy emo potato)
  • so flash forward to today. today was homecoming day and we had a football game and then the dance
  • I have a crush. I have no idea when he figured out I liked him (I think his ex told him and I probably shouldn’t have told her but at the same time I’m glad I did otherwise things would’ve probably ended up way different)
  • at the game he sat by me for a majority of the time. we talked and talked for about an hour (mainly him asking me stuff because he’s really talkative and I’m shy SURPRISINGLY)
  • he left because his ex and his friend were talking. I waited about 2 mins and then he came back and aSKED ME OUT
  • and I was freaking out because omg omg my crush wants to fUCKING BE MY BF WTF THIS ONLY HAPPENS IN MOVIES AND FANFICS
  • so I said yes. and he asked me if I wanted to go to the dance because we’re dating. and at the time I totally forgot about the other dude because I was so mesmerized by the handsome emo mexican nerd that I call my crush
  • and I said yes.
  • so we’re all “ok cool” and since I was wearing heels, when we went to walk down to where the dance was he kept asking if I wanted to be carried (I would say yes but I’m fat and he’s really tiny and I didn’t want to squish him) and I kept saying no so he’s like alrighty and then started to hold my hand and we literally held hands for the entire walk
  • he was being such a gentleman though it was so fucking cute he was like “are you ok? do I need to walk slower? do your feet hurt because I can carry you if so please let me know babe”
  • oof sorry got off topic I just really like him,, anyway we got to the dance and then I saw him. the guy that asked me first. and I was like bOI WhAT tHE FuCk hOlY sHIT I FORGOt
  • and I texted him and he said it was ok and that I could be with my bf instead but I felt so bad because I think he has a crush on me and I literally just left him out in the cold while I got a boyfriend and went with him instead whoops bye
  • but the dance was kinda awkward,, me and my bf pretty much just sat in the corner being derps and talking about morbid shit and how bad the music was that they were playing
  • and we held hands almost the entire time. and my friends kept either a. mocking me or b. telling me how cute we were together, mainly because of us holding hands and him calling me either cute or beautiful every 5 minutes lIke pLEASE BABE nO
  • his parents are strict so he had to leave early,, we didn’t kiss but we hugged and that’s good enough for me
  • and now I’m like freaking out because LITERALLY my first and only other boyfriend was in 2nd grade and it lasted a day so it didn’t really count. nOw all of a sudden my FUCKING CRUSH asks me out and calls me beautiful aAAA
  • also my friend made a ship name for us, I’m not saying it because I want a lil bit of privacy lol but she says we’re the cutest couple she’s ever seen (stop lyingggg)
• [10/8/18]: wowie I haven't been on here in about 2 weeks... anywyayyyyay
  • so we broke up. man. but I'm fine, he was being a douche to my friend and I don't tolerate that shit so I dumped his ass. he was kinda a dick anyway, didn't know why I didn't realize it until now.
  • I'm being a huge fuckin procrastinator owo
  • oh also remember the fren I kinda dumped for major douche? he has a bOyFrIeNd now!! i'm so happy for my lil gaylord
• [10/9/18]: haha haha ha my ex threatened to hack my phone and I’m really scared
  • I told the vice principal about it and he said they would take care of it but I’m terrified that they’ll mention me when talking to him and he’ll do something to me
• [10/14/18]: the problem was taken care of
  • also I learned that my principal likes blink-182
• [11/18/18]: I haven't been on in a month oops
  • my best friend was homeschooled this year but she's back in my school yayay and I missed her so much so now that she's back its like eeeeee <3<3<3
  • also bruh I got a new bf,, remember when I was talking about the homecoming game? well, before my now ex asked me out and sat next to me, his best friend was sitting next to me and being all cute and shit and recently he told me that he's had a crush on me for a long time and I asked him out and he said yes jsdhfksgfhjs
• [1/2/19]: gosh I literally only come on here now once every few months oof, but happy new year
  • ALSO ALSO ALSO I can’t bELIEVE I haven’t said anything about this yet but my best friend’s mom bought me a ticket to a pANIC! CONCERT and I get to gO WITH THEM TO IT IN FEBRUARY AND GEHSVJSDBID IM SO FUCKING EXCITED
• [2/9/19]: ok so I went to the concert last weekend and IT WAS SOOO FUN
  • I was kinda jealous tho because our seats were wayyy up high and we didn't get to meet Brendon Urie or really even see the stage that well, plus a few days later one of my friends went to a panic! concert and met Brendon and took a picture with him :(
  • but it was like one of the greatest days of my life
  • also the opening acts were hella good
  • anyway, yesterday I went to a school dance with my boyfriend and we were slow dancing and some girl I didn't know came up to us and told us to get a room
    • it was fun tho
    • and I got flowers
    • but now I'm sick, because the flu is spreading around
• [2/24/19]: my boyfriend broke up with me because of my friends. they kept yelling at him because he said something that made me a little mad, but I told them I could take care of it and they didn’t listen. now they had to fucking screw everything up for me. and today would have been our 4-month anniversary ;-;
• [3/10/19]: ahahaha im a drama queen. we got back together like 2 days later cause my boyfriend was like "yeah I cant do this anymore I didnt really wanna break up with u in the first place"
• [4/13/19]: today is national homestuck day and i was so happy until two hours ago... my bf broke up with me. we had dated for almost six months. I’m crying rn, I miss him already, I’m so fucking sad ;-;
• [5/10/19]: um okee so sorry for not being on in about a month but it’s not like anyone really cares;; a lot has happened lmao I’ll bullet everything
  • I didn’t realize how much of a dick my bf was until now
  • I got a crush on this guy and my friend told me he talked to her and said he liked me and he’d say yes if I asked him out
    • and then I proceeded to ask him out and he said no and I was like sigsigisgugsgsi dude you lITERALLY SAID—
    • but he said it was because he doesn’t know me well enough which I guess is understandable but still??? what???
    • and I’m 100% positive he still likes me even thoughhh
  • I gOt A bOyFrIeNd, but he doesn’t go to my school
  • damn I’m a hoe lmao
  • anyway uhh he actually makes me really happy
  • and some other things happened but I’m trying to hurry and finish this so I’m gonna say my phone broke and I got a new one so that’s cool and OtHeR tHinGs tHat dOnt mAtTeR
  • oh and also the dude I had a crush on sat by me at lunch today cause there was no other room at our table, and I glanced at his phone because he was listening to music and HE WAS LISTENING TO LIKE A RAT DOES CHEESE AND I SCREECHED INTERNALLY BECAUSE YES
• (5/26/19): ok so basically my best friend for eight years and I got in a fight last week and now she wants nothing to do with me and I’m pretty damn certain she hates me, so that’s fun... shit sucks man
  • her boyfriend is one of my friends and he told me he’ll try to talk to her and get things worked out and I’m hoping she’ll want to be friends with me again but at this point idk what will happen and that kinda worries me
  • also... if she doesn’t want to be friends with me anymore then our band is kinda fucked... plus I share a lot of profiles with her, so um
• (6/10/19): my best friend and I are friends again, she talked to me last week and said she didn't hate me and wasn't mad, she was just hurt and needed some time alone to think... I'm so happy about that
  • also I'm now backup singer for a band!! I wanted to be lead but im not old enough, the girl that is the lead singer is pretty cool though (and REALLY PRETTY ngl if I was single I would totally want to date her cause shes bi and single),, however the thing is I haven't been able to rehearse... and we have three or four shows this week......he l p
  • I made a tumblr without telling my parents hahahha lol if they find it they will kill me
    • oh well
  • oh! also! my best friend's little brother came out as gay today!! :) I told him that if he tells his parents (he hasn't yet) and they don't accept him, he can come live with me.. im anxious to see what will happen, but im glad he told me and I hope he's happy and his parents accept him because hes pretty much my little brother too and I love him so much omg
  • birthday countdown: 12 days
• (6/16/19): I found out a few things about my bf that make me like him even more
  • psych is his favorite show
  • hes a cat person
  • he has 2 cats and a bird
  • he likes green day
  • also we pulled an all-nighter and video chatted the entire night a few days ago and we're doing it again tonight
  • life is good
  • birthday countdown: 6 days
• (7/16/19): OK SO IM SORRY FOR NOT BEING ON IN A MONTH BUT IM FUCKING SHOOK BECAUSE UMMMM
  • BASICALLY
  • I GOT ENGAGED
  • AND IM CRYING
  • SHEISHIDHISHUSGUW AAAAAAA
  • the only bad thing about it is I’m worried because we’ve only been dating for a few months and idk what is gonna happen and I’m scared about it; my friend was engaged a few years ago but he broke up with her because of several cheating incidents because of stress... so uhh I don’t want that to be us;;; also idk what my parents are gonna say
• (9/16/19): welp guess who’s single.
  • haha I actually loved him but I guess he didn’t feel the same way back ;w; I’m gonna go cry in a corner now
• (2/15/20): woah it’s been a year, haven’t really got an excuse for the inactivity but hey