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the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting --
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

vagabond follows:
el music (2017.)
lilou observations (my room)
Michelle observations (good things in 2017)
pinkfleur names (current favorites)
galaco one good thing a day (2017)

all the things, some more trivial than others, that are weighing on my heart

  • The genocide in Aleppo
  • The Water Protectors in North Dakota
    • the obscenely violent ways the police are reacting
    • all the violations against Native American treaties that are occurring
  • A Donald Trump presidency
    • Concern for people of color, Muslims, everyone who is most directly affected by their skin color or religious garments
    • What this means for sexual assault
    • The end of democracy?
  • Studying abroad next year
    • Am I ready?
    • What if I have an emotional breakdown and I'm across the ocean and my mom can't help me?
  • Summer plans
    • Should I apply for this research position? Would it make me lose my mind?
    • Should I get a job?
      • How will anyone ever hire me when I don't have anything to put on a resume?
  • Loneliness
    • God, I am so lonely
    • But I like being alone
  • The way black people are disproportionately targeted by police and by the "justice" system
  • Thinking about stray animals alone and hungry in winter
  • I don't know how I'm going to pay tuition next semester - will I have to drop out?
  • I can't stop thinking about cutting
  • I don't know if I can survive depression.
  • Feelings of ineptitude
  • Grandpa's cancer.
dec 16 2016 ∞
jan 15 2017 +
user picture jeka, the pion: i really sholdn't had read this list, cause it talks to me deeply. dec 16 2016
user picture vagabond: It's so painful. But at least there is some comfort knowing we're not alone in these feelings. dec 20 2016
user picture lilou: "What if I have an emotional breakdown and I'm across the ocean and my mom can't help me?" Then I'll help you, and so will my mum ♥ dec 21 2016
user picture vagabond: ILY ♥ dec 27 2016
user picture lilou: ILY2 ♥ dec 28 2016
user picture the invisible girl: holy crap, I just can't with this list. "Loneliness - God I am so lonely but I like being alone". I just re-read all of your lists and feel like we're soulmates. dec 27 2016
user picture vagabond: You are too amazing (and I'm sorry that you also feel that sense of loneliness. At least listog is here so we feel a little less so!)
user picture Michelle: "I can't stop thinking about cutting. I don't know if I can survive depression." I know how you feel, love. Please know you're not alone. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to talk with (about anything), I'm always here for you. <3 jan 14 2017
user picture birdie: I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time right now. I wish there was something I could do or say to make things better. Just know this: from what I've read, you're brave and passionate and smart. You're stronger than you think and you'll get through this. Just keep your chin up, kid! I'm here if you ever need help jan 15 2017