• schedule! (10:00 appt?)
• veg week pledge (2:00)
• type reaction paper
• schedule critique appt tomorrow
• do math HW
• start a review sheet (if finish)
• start Thermo HW
• start/finish application for Appleton :D

1. The Kinks - Lola
2. Tammy Wynette - Stand by Your Man
3. Patsy Cline - I Fall to Pieces
4. The Temptations - My Girl
5. Bob Dylan - Blowin' In the Wind

• I'm sorry.
• Thank you.
• I miss you.
• Things I learned from Mom/Dad
• Secret Nicknames
• Friends
• Memories
• Pros/Cons of Careers

• Co-ops
• Groundwater & Environmental Services (Exton, PA) http://www.gesonline.com/jobs
• LMI (McLean, VA)
• Appleton Paper
• REU
• Penn State! (apply online)
• Maryland? (apply online)
• Environmental & Occupational Health
• Internships
• Appleton! :D

• string lampshade
• loft bed
• stencil pillow cases

• Mario Party!
• Anthony's Birthday :)
• Pizzaaa
• Baking Breadstickss
• & making sauce
• Going to Jim Thorpe
• drinking coffee
• eating
• pizza!
• Flow :)
• awesome inn
• cute shops
• Mauch Chunk 5 & 10
• used books :D
• & more!
• beautiful homes
• walks
• Watching Documentaries
• Cuddling
• Frisbee :D

1. The Cove
2. Coal Country
3. Fresh
4. Tapped
5. 10 Things I Hate About You
6. Julie & Julia
7. Future of Food
8. Garbage Warrior

1. It's Complicated
2. Away We Go
3. Food, Inc.
4. No Impact Man
5. The Cove
6. Future of Food
7. Garbage Warrior
8. The World According to Monsanto

1. It's Not You It's Me - Coconut Records
2. If You Asked Me - Meaghan Smith
3. Time of the Season - The Zombies
4. Foundations - Kate Nash

1. Susan Griffith - Woman & Nature
2. Joan Brumberg - The Body Project

1. Old Man Cactus
2. Moth Orchid
3. Other Orchid
4. Lucky Bamboo
5. Living Stone
6. Kalanchoe
7. Begonia

1. apply for research position at mascaro center :(
2. meet with adviser for co-op & fill out paper-work
3. make a schedule for fall semester
4. meet with advisor
5. apply for REU's
1. fix resume
2. fill out applications
3. pick up unofficial transcripts
4. ask mccarthy for recommendation letters
6. file taxes
7. fill out the fafsa
8. find a new apartment for next year

• Daydream Believer - The Monkees
• Put a Little Love in Your Heart - Jackie DeShannon
• Instinct - Strike Anywhere
• Infrared - Strike Anywhere

Fun

• Eat, Pray, Love
• Food Rules
• In Defense of Food
• The Botany of Desire
• A Place of My Own
• Second Nature

Required, maybe fun?

• Something New Under the Sun
• Silent Spring
• Omnivore's Dilemma
• Red Sky at Morning

• go for a run once in a while
• study outside class every day
• brush teeth & make bed every day before leaving for class
• call, write, visit my Dad more often

1. Someday
2. Alligator
3. Arrow
4. Hell
5. On Directing
6. The Cure
7. Red Belt

• "cleopatra's theme" cleopatra
• "say you'll be there" spice girls
• "barbie girl" aqua
• "i got you babe" sonny & cher
• "mouth" merril bainbridge
• "maggie may" rod stewart
• "knock three times" tony orlando
• "one tin soldier" coven
• "baby, one more time" britney spears
• "edge of seventeen" stevie nicks
• anything hanson
• anything backstreet boys
• anything pat benatar
• anything by tina turner

influence from my parents? haha!

• botanist
• artist
• fashion designer
• interior decorator
• writer
• photographer
• professional environmentalist
• chef
• literature-ist (haha)
• traveler
• wanderer
• explorer
• researcher
• lover
• friend
• teacher
• mom

I want to become so many things.

• spending time with Anthony
• reading a good book
• finding a song that fits my mood perfectly
• eating/cooking
• a relaxing bath
• a good workout

• post-it book
• organizing computer files/photos
• organizing photos
• organizing memories
• scrapbook?

• the oc
• one tree hill
• the office
• 30 rock
• friends
• will & grace
• the golden girls
• the facts of life
• seinfeld
• gilmore girls
• 7th heaven
• project runway
• that 70's show
• boy meets world
• desperate housewives
• sex and the city

• In my dreams
• I smile
• and run
• and laugh
• and pray.
• Here I am
• and nowhere.
• I want to be
• somewhere.
• What happened
• to your motivation?
• You are
• sensational.

• my mornings are wasted sleeping in snoozes.
• time is spent and cashed in for dreams brimming with anticipation, but
• your savings account is running low on love.
• you could ask me for a loan, but
• I don't think you want this money, honey.

• it never is bland
• it never was nothing
• it never has lollopped
• it never will bet
• it always is beautiful
• it always was natural
• it always has loved
• it always will be

1. He's Just Not That Into You
2. Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
3. Changeling
4. My Best Friend's Girl
5. Adventureland
6. I Love You, Man
7. Memoirs of a Geisha
8. 27 Dresses
9. Made of Honor
10. Bride Wars
11. Science of Sleep
12. Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince (reg & imax)
13. Waitress
14. (500) Days of Summer
15. Whip It!
16. Where the Wild Things Are
17. A Christmas Carol

every day:

• doing alll my Russian homework
• showering
• spending so much time cooking
• missing Anthony
• my negative impacts on the environment

some times:

• exams!
• driving long distances
• what my bank account looks like
• what I look like
• waking up
• running/exercising
• cold weather

never:

• spending time with Anthony
• sleeping
• cuddling
• eating good food
• coffeeeee
• the sun on my face on a cool day
• fall leaves

• kayaking at Black Moshannon
• crafts when I was young
• singing me to sleep with coven's "one tin soldier"
• reading every night before bed
• when she came to my sporting events (& then after she would tell me everything I did wrong)
• camping
• riding in the car talking [usually drives to/from Dad's]
• arguing because we would miss each other when I went to Upward Bound for the first time
• when she actually got her hai...

• I think I dropped it somewhere.
• Along the path of parents and puberty.
• Next to my smile &
• growing tall with the oak trees.
• But, I've already decided.
• I'm going back, and picking it up.
• Just for me.
• Just for me.

• my insides in a pressure cooker
• they shimmy around
• searching for the perfect
• (smile)
• that one hint of happiness
• to drown the frustration
• sit up, exhale, hero position
• this body is peace of mind

I want us to exist, like the lines of exultant verse, but this poem has defective vocabulary. It is overflowing with rhyme, and it is lacking in pulse. The tune is crooked. What's more, the spirit is wrinkled. Hope has been replaced and misplaced with apprehension. We plummet, like empty candy wrappers from fingers of children who will experience the kind of love that we can't ever recognize.

to let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore. it doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. letting go isn't winning and it isn't losing. it's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. it's not giving in or giv...

things I have written on post-its in random places to make me smile

• Just keep holding on. What is meant to be will be. & what is not, won't.
• smile!
• one day at a time
• be happy
• catch the rushing breeze
• play the hand you're dealt

• actually cross everything off the to do list, once.
• make it a habit.