MONDAY

1. finish thermo
2. start diff. eq problems
3. type some of EnviroPol paper

TUESDAY

1. finish diff. eq problems
2. study for diff. eq exam

WEDNESDAY

1. finish EP paper
2. read EP
3. study for diff. eq exam
4. read Women's Studies

THURSDAY

1. study for diff. eq exam

1. It's Not You It's Me - Coconut Records
2. If You Asked Me - Meaghan Smith
3. Time of the Season - The Zombies

1. apply for research position at mascaro center
2. meet with adviser for co-op & fill out paper-work
3. file taxes
4. fill out the fafsa
5. find a new apartment for next year

1. Old Man Cactus
2. Moth Orchid
3. Other Orchid
4. Lucky Bamboo
5. Living Stone
6. Kalanchoe
7. Begonia

1. It's Complicated

• Daydream Believer - The Monkees
• Put a Little Love in Your Heart - Jackie DeShannon
• Instinct - Strike Anywhere
• Infrared - Strike Anywhere

• Eat, Pray, Love
• Something New Under the Sun
• Silent Spring
• Omnivore's Dilemma
• Red Sky at Morning

• go for a run once in a while
• study outside class every day
• brush teeth & make bed every day before leaving for class
• call, write, visit my Dad more often

• repot/fertilize plants
• clean fish bowl
• clean out PITT email
• clean off computer
• clean up internet bookmarks

1. Someday
2. Alligator
3. Arrow
4. Hell
5. On Directing
6. The Cure
7. Red Belt

• spending time with Anthony
• reading a good book
• finding a song that fits my mood perfectly
• eating/cooking

• botanist
• artist
• fashion designer
• interior decorator
• writer
• photographer
• professional environmentalist
• chef
• literature-ist (haha)
• traveler
• wanderer
• explorer
• researcher
• lover
• friend
• teacher
• mom

I want to become so many things. Will I ever get there?

• "cleopatra's theme" cleopatra
• "say you'll be there" spice girls
• "barbie girl" aqua
• "i got you babe" sonny & cher
• "mouth" merril bainbridge
• "maggie may" rod stewart
• "knock three times" tony orlando
• "one tin soldier" coven
• "baby, one more time" britney spears
• "edge of seventeen" stevie nicks
• anything hanson
• anything backstreet boys
• anything pat benatar
• anything by tina turner

influence from my parents? haha!

• Powershift PA 2009
• Wrote letters to Senators about Clean Air Act
• Adopt-a-Block with Free the Planet
• Sent e-mails about coal ash to DEP & EPA
• Phone calls to EPA, fly ash IS hazardous waste.

• post-it book
• organizing computer files/photos
• organizing photos
• organizing memories
• scrapbook?

• the oc
• one tree hill
• the office
• 30 rock
• friends
• will & grace
• the golden girls
• the facts of life
• seinfeld
• gilmore girls
• 7th heaven
• project runway
• that 70's show
• boy meets world
• desperate housewives
• sex and the city

every day:

• doing alll my Russian homework
• showering
• spending so much time cooking
• missing Anthony
• my negative impacts on the environment

some times:

• exams!
• driving long distances
• what my bank account looks like
• what I look like
• waking up
• running/exercising
• cold weather

never:

• spending time with Anthony
• sleeping
• cuddling
• eating good food
• coffeeeee
• the sun on my face on a cool day
• fall leaves

• my mornings are wasted sleeping in snoozes.
• time is spent and cashed in for dreams brimming with anticipation, but
• your savings account is running low on love.
• you could ask me for a loan, but
• I don't think you want this money, honey.

• In my dreams
• I smile
• and run
• and laugh
• and pray.
• Here I am
• and nowhere.
• I want to be
• somewhere.
• What happened
• to your motivation?
• You are
• sensational.

• it never is bland
• it never was nothing
• it never has lollopped
• it never will bet
• it always is beautiful
• it always was natural
• it always has loved
• it always will be

1. He's Just Not That Into You
2. Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
3. Changeling
4. My Best Friend's Girl
5. Adventureland
6. I Love You, Man
7. Memoirs of a Geisha
8. 27 Dresses
9. Made of Honor
10. Bride Wars
11. Science of Sleep
12. Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince (reg & imax)
13. Waitress
14. (500) Days of Summer
15. Whip It!
16. Where the Wild Things Are
17. A Christmas Carol

• kayaking at Black Moshannon
• crafts when I was young
• singing me to sleep with coven's "one tin soldier"
• reading every night before bed
• when she came to my sporting events (& then after she would tell me everything I did wrong)
• camping
• riding in the car talking [usually drives to/from Dad's]
• arguing because we would miss each other when I went to Upward Bound for the first time
• when she actually got her hai...

• I think I dropped it somewhere.
• Along the path of parents and puberty.
• Next to my smile &
• growing tall with the oak trees.
• But, I've already decided.
• I'm going back, and picking it up.
• Just for me.
• Just for me.

• my insides in a pressure cooker
• they shimmy around
• searching for the perfect
• (smile)
• that one hint of happiness
• to drown the frustration
• sit up, exhale, hero position
• this body is peace of mind

I want us to exist, like the lines of exultant verse, but this poem has defective vocabulary. It is overflowing with rhyme, and it is lacking in pulse. The tune is crooked. What's more, the spirit is wrinkled. Hope has been replaced and misplaced with apprehension. We plummet, like empty candy wrappers from fingers of children who will experience the kind of love that we can't ever recognize.

to let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore. it doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. letting go isn't winning and it isn't losing. it's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt or sadness. it's not giving in or giv...

things I have written on post-its in random places to make me smile

• Just keep holding on. What is meant to be will be. & what is not, won't.
• smile!
• one day at a time
• be happy
• catch the rushing breeze
• play the hand you're dealt

• actually cross everything off the to do list, once.
• make it a habit.