• i once knew a little boy, who proudly collected bad habits.

and to the despair of his mother he'd only eat foods beginning with the letter 'H', demanding primary color plates of huevos rancheros and hash browns for breakfast with a small glass of honey and ice.

he spoke with the fake accent of a sunburnt cowboy, and kept fat, wet toads in jars of mud under his bed. he never looked at the freckle faced girls in the playground but would spend his play-times stabbing holes into his classmates paintings with inky fingers. the kind of sabotage that only a child can get away with without any reasoning at all.

he would cut abstract shapes into his hair, mondrian barbershop attempts, and we would wonder how he could cut such a perfect square without being able to see.

in school talent shows he would perform s...

• black and white films
• gin
• train journeys
• insomnia
• bad movie kisses
• classics
• gym injury
• vegetarian dinners
• travelling west
• stupid sayings
• rekindling what i don't want to rekindle.
• layering
• sushi from that place in soho
• planning
• satanism + art film
• london days out
• rust eyes
• seclusion
• everything is static at 5am

• fruit punch + animee rose beers
• re-arranging
• not buying things for the sake of it
• finally feeling good enough
• chalky hair
• books arriving in the post <3
• new outlooks
• and the way you look tonight
• pagan jewelry
• the bubble tea cafe opened round the corner!
• keeping my head down
• chicken pesto gnocci
• nude lipliner
• reunions, lahmacun, red wine
• explicit girl talk

• ✔ gossip girl
• 90210
• ✔ modern family
• ✔ desperate housewives
• ✔ 2 broke girls
• ✔ new girl

• cut pizza with scissors
• smoke weed, play with kids colouring books
• make up dance routines
• write songs and sing them in secret
• buy people gifts
• eat at new restaurants
• call my mother
• cuddle with my labradors
• sit in the passenger seat in my friends cars and just drive around
• visiting the towns my friends live in
• take photographs of everything
• take naps during the day
• go shopping alone
• spend hangover days drinking tea and watching terrible american teen dramas
• reading books others have suggested for me

• edited porn
• continue religion pieces
• "fishbowls"
• assemblage work

• electric relaxation - a tribe called quest
• wuthering heights - kate bush
• thin line - jurassic 5
• runnin' - the pharcyde
• passin' me by - the pharcyde
• once in a lifetime - talking heads
• head over heels - tears for fears
• guilty cubicles - broken social scene
• combat baby - metric
• the real her - drake
• island, is - volcano choir
• oh i do love you - cap'n jazz
• good friends bad habits - owen
• the outer banks - the album leaf
• girlfriend - alicia keys
• hard to find - american analog set
• our deal - best coast
• shutterbug - big boi
• provider - N*E*R*D
• i'm beginning to see the light - frank si...

• cheese and pesto with tomato
• raspberry jam and peanut butter
• chorizo and poached egg
• marmite and beans
• cinnamon + brown sugar
• cheddar and apple
• houmous
• scrambled egg and spinach
• bacon and marmalade - for when i get migraines
• nutella

• being a cliche with a bottle of bourbon by the bed
• writing at ridiculous hours
• too many coats of nail varnish
• waiting for 1 hour photo development
• fish + chips on the beach
• darkroom printing
• missing old friends
• 35mm shoots every day
• the HAAHAHA playlist on spotify
• disposable cameras + diptych
• being constantly dehydrated
• making huevos rancheros with whiskey
• not caring about my root regrowth
• confessions
• birthday planning

• sophie, want weed, who's got some? ps i am the clit commander!
• pushed my husband into law school, that was a bust, you're a bust tina fey.
• how old are you? i'm twelve! i'm twenny eight!
• i'm sexy wit mine, lets go dq i love u x
• just found the guy i pulled on fazza, he might just be the most horrendous thing i've ever seen, its making me feel ill.
• he has a huge shlong too x
• hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha you know why i'm laughing! because if i didn't i'd be crying due to the lack of commitment to my voice, i tried to call twice but instead your too busy to hear these whiney pipe.. i've had enough
• hey dolls its your other half here. watched a serbian film last night, had a boss wank before bed x
• you want a jesus candle from the popes ho...

• numerous bodies + limbs in our beds
• desperado's + bean bags
• watching movies in the common room
• tea in my glass mugs
• being with friends 24/7
• frilly ankle socks
• wooly socks and boots
• body heat
• disaronno + ring of fire
• weight fluctuating daily
• cliques
• planning shoots
• DVD shopping
• eating and drinking in the supermarket + then putting the food back on the shelves
• hair in a messy bun
• laughter. all the time
• tube journeys everywhere
• religious candles
• fake flowers

• white shoes, leggings, floral top, long blonde hair, black hat
• kitchen for the first time, going to SU, being upstairs with flat 6, breaking the glasses in my cupboard, the virgin story for the first time, the bowl of pasta, singing opera for cheese, step brothers in my room, not getting any sleep.
• getting up for town, missions and discovery, nearly getting run over all the time.
• doing stupid weekly projects, this is england in bed with tea, on the floor glueing coins and being jealous of everybody's decent work.
• not staying awake during the seminars.. ughughhhdhg
• visits from people back home, skyy and rock kitchen with ben and georgina, doing stupid things, no sleep and reading my year book, erik hassle, missing people, grey...

• animal cruelty
• having to get out of bed
• being shushhhhhed
• trying to find work on farm town!
• the wheel of death (mac loading symbol thing..)
• buffering
• fat people wearing too many horizontal stripes
• rejection
• body dysmorphic disorder
• travelling without an ipod
• having no credit
• losing things :|
• death
• hangovers
• cream based alcoholic drinks
• "im a pc"
• new shoes getting scuffed
• liquorice, fennel, celery, aniseed. UGH
• babies crying

• 2nd birthday - party with pingu cake!

pretty sure i had plenty of birthdays at wacky warehouse AND with family, rusty memory for these birthdays.

• 6th birthday - anastacia at cinema
• 8th birthday - big party disco in church hall!
• 9th birthday - hollywood bowl
• 11th birthday - cafe uno and huuuge sleepover
• 12th birthday - cinema and pizza party
• 13th birthday - big garden party
• 14th birthday - had sleepover, went out in Calpe
• 15th birthday - give it a name trip with Becky
• 16th birthday - went for lunch with girls, UK trip
• 17th birthday - Spain suprise visit
• 18th birthday - meal with friends and nig...

• acting out plays as musicals & melodramas
• the slice of pizza at first break - so DIY
• getting abuse about my glasses (rip deirdre)
• "meet me at the cross!"
• common room cafe times in AS
• the treats from chilean chi chi on wednesday mornings
• dancing at lugnasa
• nisa metro trips
• boots meal deals!
• a CAMP for the night, a camp FOR the night, a camp for the NIGHT
• michael's lunging and ellie's stretching battles
• excess cheese - mario kart at emma's instead of spanish on tuesdays
• lynns pantry
• town trips to forum & starbucks

• crucifix keyring from maria!
• the pink orchid in my room
• my bear that ive had forever
• the postcard georgina sent from malta
• the postcard georgina sent from ibiza
• the necklace from my mum (has a diamond from her wedding ring)
• the perfect foundation brush
• pink roses from polly
• my glasses free on the NHS
• fake valentine's day parrot magnet from jordan

• get hair cut, treatments for it, dyed
• get e to s.t you
• stop smoking when you are drunk
• keep at the gym, don't give up
• sort out essays by april 25th
• sell stuff on ebay!
• sort out outlook travel

• only wanting to buy dresses
• constant fixation with sirens and vixens
• tobacco sore throats
• no sleep until 7am--nocturnal
• guilt
• tiger balm + face masks
• tequila whenever possible
• collage + scrapbooking in 'the duchess of malfi'
• lolita
• delphi greek salads on the night bus home
• knowing my body
• wearing sunglasses so i can cry a little on the tube
• raspberry + green iced tea
• measuring my waist
• daydreaming about summer
• figuring out who to trust
• sketching out storyboards + writing treatments for my performance/video art piece

• wine being poured
• applause
• when a song is being played in a shop and you catch everyone humming and singing along together
• cracking my knuckles
• the weird noises you make when you snuggle somebody and you are totally comfy and wriggly
• the way people say 'good morning!' when you've been drunk and misbehaving the night before

• avacados
• beautiful thick honey oat loaf
• sundried tomatoes
• roasted red peppers
• garlic chicken pizza
• saffron monkfish
• char sui ramen
• fresh pesto
• watermelon
• lamachun with fresh beetroot, onion, chilli and garlic
• gambas pil pil
• cherry cola
• warm caramlised onion tartlets
• balsamic vinegar syrup
• roasted broccoli
• fresh mozzarella
• salmon skin rolls
• toasted cinnamon + raisin bagels
• pasta with marscapone + tomato
• cheese mash potato

• that time i nearly burnt a hole in my carpet by trying to burn doilies for my 'seance' art work. i went on skype, spoke to dcrf who was drunk as hell, then sophie and her flatmates walked past my building yelling because they were drunk too and demanded to come upstairs.
• when nobody had uni the next day apart from me and we all ran into each others rooms to hide from the security guard, costa, the graduate and stealing the toaster so r.l could come into my bed post-sex with a.j to spoon and smoke. gross but funny.
• that time when i DIDN'T have uni the next day but i'd had a nap too late in the day. dorito's and dip in j.c's room and then at 10am went to get burger king.
• that time i made brinner and was having a nervous breakdown about my 'landscape' crit the next day. my hair was white, lila...

• nintendo wii with mario kart & just dance
• faux wood storage box i saw in staples
• the perfect black wedge boots
• black lace + mesh palazzo pants from asos
• paparazzi glasses from urban outfitters
• the illustrated plates on sale from urban outfitters
• decent oversized tweed blazer
• new vans

• albatross
• ✔ we need to talk about kevin
• wanderlust
• jiro dreams of sushi
• american reunion
• ✔ into the wild
• dazed and confused
• ✔ away we go
• rosemary's baby
• ✔ drive
• ✔ melancholia
• ✔ daisies
• sophie's choice
• oklahoma!

• illegal substances and 60's musicals
• erasing another idiot
• watching films and eating junk at the flat above the station
• getting alcohol withdrawal
• writing everything and anything
• bad oil on canvas
• heartburn
• poem inspiration
• that rainbow above the industrial estate
• ginger beer and vodka cola mouth
• getting back to the beginning
• running home
• herbal hangovers
• bon iver + WHY? shows
• d-i-s-a-p-p-o-i-n-t-e-d
• too many parties & sugarskulls
• faking accents to complete strangers
• spending £1000 of my loan in a fortnight
• making lists and not doing any of the tas...

• best friend's birthdays
• stained nails
• lychee, papaya and orange juice
• not brushing my hair + no make up
• time wasting
• poetry by ee cummings
• spending too much time in maiyas bed
• reliving nightmare of you
• crushing hard
• nursing a constant hangover
• meadow walks down wasp way
• cup soups
• ebay addiction
• scandalous gossip
• my finger won't stop bleeding
• making strawberry gâteaux's
• the l-shaped room

• a streetcar named desire
• my fair lady
• lolita
• meet me in st louis
• casablanca
• calamity jane
• funny girl

• tie dye hair efforts
• immune system crash
• apple + elderflower waters
• chocolate milk coloured nails
• tomato + basil soups
• too much sleep
• arrested development season one
• listening to other peoples itunes library's
• shitty american teen movies from 1999-2000
• blank whiteboard - no work
• solitude.
• eating left over take out in the common room
• it crowd marathons
• our 'surreal' life
• anxiety attacks
• train journeys
• believing conspiracies too much
• avoiding human interaction

• recycled cake-stand
• teapot flower arrangements
• make up suitcase with dividers
• canvas light
• make hanging clouds

• grape nuts + pop tarts
• relentless laziness
• the cold walk from oakwood
• spitting back into the bowl
• best coast with the curtains closed
• JT leroy novels
• BDD days taking over all over again
• sleeping through lectures
• planning gifts
• the caff on the corner for breakfast
• spending money on my credit card without thinking
• using loneliness to spur creativity

• my world map
• my grandmother's engagement ring
• clean sheets
• sleeping all day
• eating pesto out of the jar
• writing my dreams down on paper
• art history papers
• knocking on my hip bones with my knuckles
• blueberry juice
• hot baths
• luke wilson with a shaved head
• kissing my labradors ears
• the sticker on the back of my phone
• not talking to anyone

• catastrophic
• honey
• seance
• lycanthropy
• narcotic
• intoxication
• disguise
• halo
• dirt
• suicide
• spine
• crave
• depraved
• debauchery
• vinyl
• addict
• punk
• mess
• tyranny
• melancholy
• cocaine

• texas
• tokyo
• hong kong
• malta
• canada
• boston
• new york
• california
• hawaii
• alaska
• berlin
• rome

• wearing neon pink fishnets and a black tartan mini skirt with converse on my first day, I was 12..
• getting hooked on chips and mayonnaise for the first time
• bacon and cheese boci's!!
• napolitanas!
• getting chased by a wasp
• the cockroach incident..
• making shanty houses out of chocolate and cake in geography!
• getting a book thrown at me..
• the trip to the marine life centre in valencia
• the cute wooly pom pom hoodie with grey jeans
• javea port & "whayouwant?"
• kabbalah bracelets with tinetta, carly and sarah
• the radio thing we did: playing babycakes..battyman

GIRLS:

• lola
• luella
• molly
• pippa
• taylor
• casey
• tegan
• marcella!
• talullah
• poppy
• carmen
• brigitte
• florence
• paloma
• heidi

BOYS:

• ethan
• ash
• joshua

• LES and its blue checkerboard floor
• the apartment in 2006
• clinica benidorm
• one digestive biscuit, cherries, one greek yoghurt
• alternative press and my red polka dot bikini
• Gabriel Miro
• the night i thought i was going to die
• neon pink sweater
• house rennovations
• give it a name 2006
• caracol, cocktails & metal!
• sunbathing & billy talent
• one tree hill, flu & pasta
• fame, we will rock you, choir
• the haague & the japanese boy i fancied
• sweet 16 and the train to la marina
• the stripy sweater i got from dan
• holes in my jeans & denia
• benidorm, the builder from any dream will...