• my phone
• my ipod
• my binder
• chapstick

• my thighs.
  • i hate them. i feel like they're so much bigger than everyone else's
• my height.
  • i always think i'm too short.
• my jokes
  • am i even funny, or just making an idiot of myself?
• my feet
  • they're ugly, i think. i don't know
• my belly
  • i'm a girl. we all think we're fat.

• yeah i know how to kill/but i hate how it feels/that everyone's in love with someone else
  • got a call - land of talk
• so i'll walk the plank/yeah i'll jump with a smile/if i'm gonna go down/i'm gonna do it with style/you won't hear me surrender/you won't hear me confess/cuz you've left me with nothing/but i've worked with less
  • dilate - ani difranco
• and though it's red blood bleeding from her now/it feels like cold blue ice in her heart/she feels like kicking out all the windows/and setting fire to this life
  • grey street - dave matthews band
• now there's no rolling back, i'm aching to attack/my blood is singing with your vo...

• richard siken
• william golding
• meg cabot
• nick hornby
• brent hartinger
• suzanne colasanti
• anne sexton

• stupidity
• stubbornness
• uninteresting
• unoriginality
• disrespectful..ness
• obnoxious
• really loud
• really sad
• really happy
• things in extremes

• sing
• play an instrument
• be a better friend
• be good at math
• do well in school with even less effort than the already admittedly minimal effort i'm giving now
• write poetry
• stop biting my nails
• fly

• 0 freedoms
• no therapy, no psychiatrist, no jesse, no support system
• i'll have like one friend
• i hate camp
• ethan bidna is going to sexually assault me
• one of the meds i'm on makes me exceptionally sensitive to the sun's rays
• i'll get sunburned and die
• camp actually makes me suicidal
• even greater access to razors
• i'm constantly forced to do things i don't want to do

• camp
  • i'm just going to hang myself or something asfklds;
• it's the month my dad died
• it was the worst month of my life last year
• finals
• school ends like 3 days before camp
  • can someone like end my life please
• i'm scared of like everything rn

• the best of what's around - dave matthews band
• untouchable face - ani difranco
• speedway - counting crows
• so damn lucky - dave matthews
• outta me, onto you - ani difranco
• one - U2
• the space between - dave matthews band
• just another - pete yorn
• still - matt nathanson
• no one's gonna love you - band of horses
• got a call - land of talk
• forever & always - taylor swift
• jaded - aerosmith
• grey street - dave matthews band
• dilate - ani difranco
• doing the unstuck - the cure
• i'm looking through you - the beatles
• landed - ben folds
• grace is gone - dave matthews band
• the engine driver - the decemberists

• rejection
• depression
• addiction
• not having any friends
• winter
• when your best friend gets a girlfriend and never has time to talk to you anymore
• tripping in school
• vampires
• vacuums
• housework
• really loud people
• annoying people
• getting your period
• having a cold
• being mocked
• the world is arbitrary
• we're all going to die and most of us aren't even going to leave behind a legacy
• guidance counselors
• getting caught

• slide - ani difranco
• some are lakes - land of talk
• only ashes - something corporate
• no one's gonna love you - band of horses
• vampires in blue dresses - margot & the nuclear so and so's
• living room - tegan and sara
• got a call - land of talk
• the lucky ones - tim myers

• Dave Matthews Band
• Dave Matthews Band
• Dave Matthews Band
• Ani DiFranco
• Red Hot Chili Peppers
• The Beatles
• Land of Talk
• Band of Horses
• Jamie T
• Flight of the Conchords (c'mon they count)
• Matt Nathanson
• Ben Folds Five
• Margot and the Nuclear So & So's
• Lady Gaga

• don't be the first one to fall in love

• what is WRONG with you
• ok
• here’s the plan
• fuck
• we had homework?
• jesse
• thanks i picked it out myself
• thanks i like it too
• shut up

• tumblr
• facebook
• formspring
• cracked
• google
• webmd

• grey street
• the space between
• konstantine
• howl
• her diamonds
• forever & always
• living room
• vampires in blue dresses

• i'm really sensitive
  • especially when it comes to rejection
• i'm really clingy
• i'm not good at break-ups
• i'm annoying
• i'd want to be together all the time
• i cry a lot

• Kristen
• Jesse
• Annie
• Dan

i have a lot of scars

• my knee
  • tripped over a tree stump, bled profusely
• my chin
  • i used to always bang it on the bathroom counter. so much so that it bled. and scarred.
• my arms
  • SI scars
• my neck
  • a burn
• does a birthmark count as a scar?
  • i have a really cool one
    • it's on my leg, bright red, and looks lik...