• january: the realization of how fast time flies
  • february: another wasted year
  • march: persistent blur of all things
  • april: depression
  • may: the west coast
  • june: holocene
  • july: virginia's dreadful humidity
  • august: more depression
  • september: transitions
  • october: black & white striped sweater
  • november: you and you and sometimes you
  • december: the time of year that kills us all
aug 21 2012 ∞
aug 22 2012 +

in-state (including dc):

  • *american university: $39,000
  • virginia tech: $30,000
  • george washington university: $45,000

out-of-state:

  • *northwestern university: $43,000
  • *university of southern california: $35,200
  • uc berkeley: $12,000 / $35,000
  • uc irvine: $14,000 / $37,000
  • *ucla: $12,000 / $35,000
jul 26 2012 ∞
aug 25 2013 +
  • the sound of your voice
  • picnics with the whole family
  • talking to you everyday
  • fall/winter
  • knowing what it's like to not have any weights on my shoulders
  • the tiny things you would do
  • my cousins on my dad's half-side
  • visits to chuck e. cheese with mom and onai when we were kids
  • my parakeet that died six years ago (yeah idk)
  • you, even though i know i shouldn't
  • when everything was simpler
  • thanksgiving 2010
  • not worrying about every little thing
  • the memories i made with you
jul 14 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • stay in one place your whole life
  • eat at one restaurant and order the same exact thing everytime
  • save up your money for a plasma tv instead of a plane ticket
  • talk a lot about things that hurt you in the past
  • try to relive those moments that hurt you
  • have an affair with someone you don’t even find attractive
  • refuse to forget someone who meant everything to you
  • make it impossible for yourself to do anything without remembering that you used to do it with them
  • miss out on everything
  • remind yourself daily of how empty you feel
  • find new ways to make yourself sad
  • get drunk all the time
jun 7 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • laundry detergent
  • garlic
  • daisy by marc jacobs
  • cupcakes
  • the ocean
  • cucumber melon lotion from b&bw
  • basil
  • cherry blossoms
  • gasoline (sometimes)
  • honey suckles
  • cigars
  • the fresh scent after rain
  • bbqs from a distance
  • coffee
  • fresh mint from my grandmother's garden
  • springtime
  • sweet pea lotion
  • cucumbers
  • old books
  • coconut
  • men's axe
may 10 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • when people constantly lie to you
  • ripped toms
  • when you don't see your best friend all day
  • cancelled plans
  • waking up to bad news
  • deadlines
  • seeing old people alone
  • plane delays
  • having to say "fine" when someone asks you how you are
  • falling for the wrong people
  • humidity
  • not being able to afford something
  • losing hope
  • rainy days on weekdays
  • writer's block
  • feeling bloated after a delicious meal
  • when your favorite jeans rip
  • waking up early on weekends and not being able to fall back asleep
apr 25 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • go to bed earlier
  • exercise at least once a day
  • pray
  • take nighttime walks
  • find the time to finish all the unfinished poems
  • find a hobby that makes being alone something to look forward to
  • spend more time with zorro
  • learn a new word every day
  • eat less & eat healthier
  • spend more time with my parents
  • learn to let go
  • take time to revisit the places that made you who you are: the house you grew up in, your old middle school, your hometown. these places may or may not be here forever; you definitely won’t be
  • dream bigger
  • study more
  • identify your fears and refuse to let the...
aug 21 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +

spring -

  • california weather (when it's not raining)
  • cherry blossom festival in d.c.
  • sunny
  • blooming flowers
  • unique smell of spring
  • colorful clothes
  • spring cleaning
  • school's almost out

summer -

  • no school
  • avocado season
  • driving with the music up and the windows down
  • greener grass
  • hookah
  • pineapple & mango smoothies
  • late sunsets
  • storms
jul 25 2012 ∞
aug 5 2013 +
  • fifty shades of grey by e.l. james
  • sold by patricia mccormick
  • the bluest eye by toni morrison
  • an abundance of katherines by john green (finish reading)
  • 1Q84 by haruki murakami
  • the sun also rises by ernest hemingway
  • a farewell to arms by ernest hemingway
  • lucy in the sky by anonymous
  • the fuck-up by arthur nersesian
  • boy meets boy by david levithan
  • wake, fade, and gone by lisa mcmann
  • the unabridged journals of sylvia plath
  • slaughterhouse five by kurt vonnegut
  • the hunger games by suzanne collins
  • catching fire by suzanne collins
  • mockingjay by suzanne collins
  • north of beautiful by justina chen headly
  • before i die by jenny downham
  • things fall apart by chinua achebe
apr 24 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +

boys:

  • eli
  • jones
  • alec
  • julian
  • noah
  • david
  • jude
  • sufjan
  • elias
  • adam
  • elijah
  • jules
  • alexander
  • ezra
  • lucas
  • liam
  • jameson
  • dean
  • ali
  • jacob
apr 24 2012 ∞
jul 22 2013 +
  • go on a walk
  • read your favorite book again
  • bake / cook
  • get out of the house
  • watch a movie
  • call a friend to hang out
  • clean your room
  • watch a ridiculous reality show that will make you feel better about your life
  • write
  • go on a car ride
  • DON'T go on tumblr / facebook / twitter
  • drink tea
  • go to the neighborhood playground
  • play with the dog
  • go get some frozen yogurt
  • wait a year from now where you say "holy shit, i can't believe i was going to kill myself"
apr 28 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • "Your depression shows when you talk about home. You said, 'I can't wait to leave this town and go away on my own'."
  • "I'm not afraid to watch you change me."
  • "I don't need another friend when most of them, I can barely keep up with them. Perfectly able to hold my own hand, but I still can't kiss my own neck."
  • "Even if things end up a bit too heavy, we'll all float on."
  • "I thought I heard a plane crashing, but now I think it was your passion snapping."
  • "It’s hard trying to hold on with all that I have lost. It all seems so wrong, but I trust you, oh God."
  • "The greatest cruelty is our casual blindness to the despair of others."
  • "Somebody said that life isn't fair when somebody else was saying a prayer."
  • "Take me to a place where I don't know an...
aug 21 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • travel to see the northern lights
  • be on good terms with everyone at one time
  • spend an entire night stargazing
  • visit a banksy mural
  • learn a new language
  • road trip to coachella
  • backpack through a country with a blanket, cash, and a book
  • wish on a shooting star
  • have a poem published
  • visit every continent
      • africa
      • antarctica
      • asia
      • australia
      • europe
      • north america
      • south america
aug 13 2012 ∞
jan 3 2014 +
  • your creativity takes you to great heights
  • there is never any harm in asking an honest question
  • your love for music will be an important part of your life
  • you should have a talk with a friend today
  • everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it
  • great acts of kindness will befall you in the coming months
  • many new friends will soon be attracted to your friendly and charming ways
  • your co-workers take pleasure in your great sense of creativity
  • you'll never know what you can do until you try
  • your ambitious nature will help you make a name for yourself
  • you are talented in many ways
jul 14 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • marc by marc jacobs watch
  • more pins for my u.s. map
  • mason jars
  • yankee candle's pink sands car freshener
  • "the freewheelin'" bob dylan & suze rotolo print
  • more sleeveless button-down collared shirts
  • new iphone case (preferably floral or a solid color)
  • prints/posters for my room
  • new macbook before mine crashes
  • simple tea cups
  • a plane ticket to california
  • steve mccurry: in the shadow of mountains
  • steve mccurry: looking east
  • "afghan girl" print
  • pretty mugs
  • new jeans
  • red pillow cases for my bed
jul 27 2012 ∞
aug 5 2013 +
  • logastellus:

a person whose love of words is greater than their knowledge of words.

  • tristifical:

causing to be sad or mournful

  • ya'aburnee:

the hope that you will die before you love because you cannot live without them.

  • kenopsia:

the eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place that’s usually bustling with people but is now abandoned and quiet—a school hallway in the evening, an unlit office on a weekend, vacant fairgrounds—an emotional afterimage that makes it seem not just empty but hyper-empty, with a total population in the negative, who are so conspicuously absent they glow like neon signs...

may 10 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • singing
  • managing & using my time wisely
  • drawing
  • finding the right words to say
  • dealing with physical pain
  • making friends
  • talking in front of people
  • whistling
  • running for more than two minutes without feeling like i'm going to pass out
  • decision making
  • not stuttering
  • thinking before i speak
  • parking
  • story telling
  • managing my anger
  • talking on the phone
  • math
  • not sucking at life
may 1 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • accepts my crazy mood swings
  • builds forts with me
  • deep, husky, low, and sleepy voice
  • puts the toilet seat down
  • hygienic
  • tells me if i look fat in that dress
  • cooks (or at least helps me cook)
  • willing to watch chick flicks / rom-coms with me
  • dresses well
  • makes it easy for me to trust him
  • has prank wars with me
  • over 6'0 tall
  • takes showers with me
  • nervously rubs his hands on his neck
  • has dark eyebrows
  • doesn't buy me expensive things (like diamonds) for my birthday just because that's what society expects from him (plus, i hate diamonds)
  • lets me wear his clothes
apr 28 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • walking to lake anne to feed the ducks and buy blue raspberry lollipops
  • our mutual obsession with parakeets
  • sleeping next to her all the time, even now that i'm eighteen
  • spilling ketchup all over the carpet (first & last time she ever yelled at me)
  • teaching me my prayers
  • the crazy number of plants she has in her apartment
  • never saying no when i ask for a back massage
  • going to thrift stores
  • the amazing homemade yogurt she makes
  • sleepovers at her house almost every week when i was younger
  • her delicious pasta that many have tried to make and miserably failed
  • spending monday afternoons at her house in elementary school
  • teaching me how to sew
aug 14 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • plane tickets are much cheaper
  • everybody dresses up everyday
  • target sells their mens moccasins all year round
  • i'm married to andrew garfield
  • cancer doesn't exist
  • there are no exceptions to love
  • clothes you see & like on tumblr magically appear in your closet
  • food doesn't make you fat
  • everybody knows every language
  • there is no sadness
  • people choose to die whenever they wanted to (not suicide, just merely choosing to die when your role in the world is accomplished)
  • there's no such thing as poverty
  • you never get sick of a song, no matter how many times you listen to it
  • concerts don't sell out
  • everybody has a british accent
jul 25 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • death of others
  • being alone for the rest of my life
  • snakes
  • drowning or burning to death
  • public speaking
  • not being able to have kids in the future
  • gas masks
  • extremely high stairs
  • rape
  • being the last one left on earth
  • falling
  • things that limit/cease movement (coffins, straightjackets, etc.)
  • making a fool out of myself in front of people
  • being a bad mom
apr 25 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • Turning down invites to places whether it’s because you have responsibilities or you simply don’t want to.
  • Hitting a (possibly suicidal) bird while driving.
  • Being late for work. They likely keep you after your scheduled shift from time to time; so don’t feel guilty for clocking in a few minutes late.
  • When you miscalculate and have to leave a lower tip than you typically would.
  • Being afraid of the dark. (With all of the paranormal movies and television shows coming out in recent years, our imaginations are being fed terrifying material)
  • Falling asleep during Oscar nominated films.
  • Rejecting advances from a person you’re not interested in. (It’s better than leading them on, though it may not feel like it at the time)
aug 23 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • where every book ended without its last page
  • where war was a casual event (i guess it kind of is already)
  • without tea or coffee
  • where people constantly lied about everything without reason
  • where music was banned
  • where slavery still existed
  • with rainy, hot, and humid weather every day
  • without love and compassion
  • where humans were the pets and dogs were the owners
  • where everyone was a republican
  • with no internet
  • where schools taught math all day, every day
aug 14 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • worrying about things i have no control over
  • lights
  • things that happened in the past
  • things that will happen the next day
  • thinking about the future
  • thirst
  • other people snoring
  • television
  • the thought of you with her
  • fear of not waking up in the morning
  • schoolwork i didn't finish but probably should have
  • neighbor's loud music
  • loneliness
  • eating way too much food before i go to bed
  • daydreaming
  • a scary movie i watched that day
  • you
aug 4 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • this too shall pass
  • good things come to those who wait
  • don't let your dreams be dreams
  • make them wonder why you're smiling
  • accept what you can't change, change what you can't accept
  • good things will come your way
  • you can't expect other people to make you happy
  • when words fail, music speaks
  • if you concentrate on what you don’t have, you will never have enough. if you are thankful for what you do have, you will end up having even more
  • everyone eventually leaves
  • life begins at the end of your comfort zone
  • carpe that diem
  • what doesn't kill you fucks you up mentally (sadly)
  • it'll all be worth it in the end
may 10 2012 ∞
jul 30 2013 +
  • rain pouring outside, especially late at night
  • crashing waves
  • justin vernon's heavenly voice
  • keys on a typewriter
  • camera shutters
  • birds chirping in the morning
  • train whistles
  • frighteningly loud thunder
  • static
  • turning a page in a book
  • gusts of wind
  • my grandmother's voice
  • the crackling sound of burning wood
  • sleepy voices
  • a plane flying closely above you
  • wind through trees
  • bells during the holiday season
  • morgan freeman's voice
  • crickets chirping at night
  • streams & rivers
may 10 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • laying in bed listening to music in the morning
  • when my room is clean
  • knowing you're the reason behind someone's smile
  • the first step you take on another country's land
  • maps
  • sharing comfortable silences
  • the idea of heaven
  • when days get shorter and colder
  • foreign accents
  • discovering new music
  • people who know the difference between "your" and "you're"
  • adventure walks
  • catching up with someone you haven't talked to in a while
  • my grandma's hugs
  • spending an entire day reading
  • lists
apr 25 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • attend one of my top 5 universities
  • go to grad school in california
  • live in the city
  • work for a news station / work as an editor
  • get married (preferably to a man who wears cardigans and has a beard)
  • take a year off to travel
  • publish a book / poem
  • have children
  • take a road trip without a map, gps, or any intention of knowing where to go
apr 24 2012 ∞
aug 25 2013 +
  • "I'm still writing about you and you haven't read a word."
  • “There are a million ways to bleed. But you are by far my favorite.”
  • "When the world pushes you to your knees, you are in the perfect position to pray."
  • "There is nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shore line, no matter how many times it is sent away."
  • "I leave before being left. I decide."
  • "I felt I was on fire with the things I could’ve told you. I just assumed you eventually would ask."
  • “The heart will rest and feel relief if it is settled with Allah and it will worry and be anxious if it is settled with people.”
  • “If a writer falls in love with you, you can never die.”
apr 24 2012 ∞
sep 18 2013 +
  • australia
  • paris (again)
  • alaska
  • machu picchu, peru
  • england
  • colorado
  • afghanistan
  • turkey
  • chicago, il
  • grand canyon, az
  • antelope canyon, az
  • egypt
  • capilano bridge in canada
  • dubai
  • thailand
  • provence, france (again)
  • ireland
  • germany
  • boston, ma
  • italy
  • greece
apr 24 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +
  • "this too shall pass" in arabic on inner arm
  • "patient, fine, balanced, kind" on wrist
  • "i am, i am, i am" on lower neck / wrist
  • mountain on wrist
  • "i suffered, i learned, i changed" in arabic on inner arm
  • grandma's eye/evil eye (back)
apr 26 2012 ∞
jan 3 2014 +
  • exercise everyday, if possible
  • do well in my first year of college
  • be on good terms with everyone
  • lose enough weight to regain my confidence
  • be less awkward
  • learn how to dance
  • read more books
  • don’t talk back to mom & dad and strengthen my relationship with them
  • appreciate the little things
  • get a job
  • spend at least 20 minutes a day with zorro
  • eat out less
  • make the best out of everything
  • learn to let go
  • don’t stress over the little things
  • make the biggest regret of my life
  • speak up
  • think less about the past and more about ...
apr 25 2012 ∞
jul 25 2013 +