aug 27 2009 ∞
aug 27 2009 +
- all of my bones crack
- many of my muscles ache constantly if they are not cracked.
- my stomach makes odd, bubbly noises when i am laying down.
- i love you
- my mind trails off into the past
- i cannot remember anything anymore
- everything runs together like smeared ink in my mind, then i'm lost.
- i don't believe in me
- i focus on other people's happiness and world instead of my own.
- the fact that my dad and brother make me want to scream
- the future and its uncertainty
- i am able to fake smiles and pretend i'm perfectly fine while i'm really not.
- i cannot let go of this impossible dream that love stories and happy endings do exist and will happen to me.
- the fact that everything gets to me in some way.