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July

  • 1 | Played a lot w my doggo!! Filmed some videos of her. Too cute. | Read a lot of my book its so good aaa | GREAT OFFERT FROM NAT!! She suggested we did a writing collab: I'd write a history with her! And she'll try to publish it in Amazon aaaa | Played terraria with doge for 2 hours! Very great game. We had a lot of fun ❤ | FESTA JULINA IN SCHOOL. Duas amigas minhas (Gi e Ísis) me deram bolo. Beccs also didnt come. But even so it was really nice. I walked with Lucas and Bryan the entire night, we chatted a lot. It feels good to have close friends. Hanged out w Ana B and Igor at a time too, and ate batata no cone and churrasco >:D
  • 2 | in madrugada, after arriving home, played some hours of Terraria until 2am. Bryan noticed it and called me an addict and we chatted in steam | after waking up, talked to Nat about her idea history! Its abt a circus. She wants me to write it w her aaa | had a walk with dad. I was wearing black sweaters so I was melting. Im dumb | FINISHED MY AGATHA CHRISTIE BOOK SHES SUCH A GENIUS | Suffered with Math. | Grandma's house. Struggled to post my fanfic, but finally did it! Nat helped me a lot. | My mood lowered at night. Watched one episode of Friends to cheer me up before going to bed.
  • 3 | cucpakes!!! i ate a lot of them. Evania is a good cook | Watched 2 eps and a half of Breaking Bad (father arrived earlier) | Watched some bts practice dance videos. I love how Hoseok dances in Boy Meets Evil. Sighs. They r so good. And handsome. WHY CANT I BE LIKE THEM | Worked out! This time, w clothes I like. Dont wanna feel uncomfortable | studied for 2 hours, mainly geography | Started reading nat's tale | Downloaded some anime eps using torrent. Idgaf, I guess I'm going to watch them before I finish Breaking Bad.... | Was going to write but meh, didnt have enough time | Watched one ep of friend tht got me sadder than i was. Great. Ive been thinking too much, getting too frustrated
  • 4 | difficult day. had a bad dream, related to my worries. first thing I did when I saw beccs in school was hug her and cry on her shoulder. | argument w lari in the morning. apparently, I upset her very badly too. now we're both sad | Im glad i spent all day in school today, it distracted me and I spent some good time with friends. | Had deep talks with Nat throughout the day, specially after school. Altos desabafos. It was good to take some things off my chest. | played terraria with doge! It cheered me up ❤ | At 10pm, watched 4 episodes with Friends with mom - and this time, my father joined us. | Also, chatted with Lari, normally this time. It's good to know we're ok :') I love her so much, I hate to see her sad
  • 5 | Finished nat's tale in class and at home, started reading another book (fantastic beasts script). took a nap | its freezing. It was hard to work out in the cold, but somehow I made it | studied for one hour. I'm proud of myself because I made all physics exercises right. | I cant stop sneezing. | Particular nglish class, review for tomorrow test | Arrived home, read some of my book | Studied more or less of chemistry | At 9pm went to computer. Was going to write but meh, gave up on it. instead, played 30min of dont starve. meh. | Watched 4 eps of Friends with fam | Lari being a cutie ❤
  • 6 | After school, was going to read but slept instead AGAIN. Also, I have a bad cold. I can't barely breath and I keep coughing/sneezing. Ugh. I hate being sick | Last therapy session and last english class before vacation. I'm free! Yay! | Im so ill aaaa it sucks. Spent some time reading and doing nothing, chatting a bit, then went to study (history and geography). Stopped to watch 1 ep of friends w fam
  • 7 | UGH i need to stop wasting time in twitter and facebook when I could be reading or studying after school. | spent some quality time with Lari today ❤ after my bath, we made an audiocall and she invited me to play dont starve together. unfortunately her network was failing so it didnt last much, but still worth it ❤ we stayed together after it too | mom took me to uberlandia shopping w sis to buy me a shoe | arrived home and did my physics tasks. did all exercises right! | went out again, to the shopping center this time. was feeling rly dysphoric, but Lari comforted me with her reasonable words. Also, I met with Céci, so she cheered me up <3 We talked about school and, uh, BTS. Also I ate freaking good pasta. | At home, did more homework and read for a while.
  • 8 | Was going to sleep, but Lari showed up and we made each other company. Meanwhile, I also played a bit of Plants vs Zombies in cellphone | Woke up at 1pm, chatted with Nat about our writing collab. | Studied for bio. I still need to study other subjects too.... u g h. | Outback with english classmates was cancelled :'c | At 4h30 PM, went to computer and played a lot of Age of Mythology. Was very confused at first, but then left the Campaign mode to play in a Random Map, and formigo helped me a lot, sending a large amount of audios. Had to make some stops tho. | At 8pm, read for some time, studied random things, took my bath, read more etc. At 11pm, started to draw with wacom and continued until later night.
  • 9 | As soon as I woke up, drew with wacom for hours! Got really hyped with it, and started painting last night's drawing. Received many praises from Nat. | Lari was worried about issues regarding our relationship and the fact that she hasnt told her mom abt it and I did my best to help her calm down and know its ok | Freaked out studying Math, while listening to french music (Carolis showed me a french spotify profile) | Finished my book (fantastic beats script). Makes me want to watch the movie again | Played stardw valley at night, while spending some time with her <3
  • 10 | Just right fter school, had fun w Lari. Tht type of fun. And I basically spent all day w her. | Studied from 4pm to 6h30pm | Too lazy to work out. Just chillin'. Last week of class too, gotta take easy on myself. | Bryan suddenly called me saying he wants to become an unicorn?? And I'm helping him!! He asked for advices. | Also, Lucas suddeny wants to start writing stories too. And I'm helping him!! Told him all advices and all. Meanwhile, sit down to write a thing, ended up writing another thing. I had this idea for my oc (Noah) in atemporal and i miss tht history so much ALTHOUGH I SHOULD HAVE FOCUS. | Gabs chatted w me a bit. | Watched 4 eps of friends with family | My whole body tensed up and got stiff and rly sore all of a sudden. Lari was so worried with me because of my pain :')
  • 11 | Back from school, read a yoonmin oneshot until Lari showed up. I was worried w her because she sent me messages being unwell in madrugada. | I randomly fell asleep for 30min because my couch was rly comfy and I was nuzzling in a blanket so couldnt help it. Woke up and take some time to get up bc it was so comfy. And Lari kept calling me a baby. After talking to her abt k-groups (theres a guy whose stage name is wow??) and other subjects, started studying. | Finished studying just at 7h20pm, aa. | In the living room with fam, read that yoonmin oneshot until I was done later. Made some interruptions to show Nat some of my favorite poetries made by me. She praised and said I'm rly talented and ( /)w() it made me really happy ;w; | I love Lari so much, I spent such a good time talking to her in the afternoon and at night ;; | Watched 3 eps of Friends w mom
  • 12 | Started reading a new fanfic at school | Lured her to dirty fun again. heh. it was very good. Also chitchatted with her for a while <3 | Studied from 4h30pm to 7h30pm. Intended to finish all math subjects today but I started getting distracted and gave it up. At least, I managed to understand all those trigonometry shit. And did a lot of exercises. | Sent Lari some drawings <3 plus a 1min doodle I did to her. She's a cutie who pampers me. And spent some more time w me uwu | Played the last door! Finished third episode! AND AAAAAA THIS IS SO FUCKING GOOD. | played some 30min of terraria. Stopped because was feeling rly bored and its nicer to play with doge | watched 4 eps of friends w fam
  • 13 | After school, watched Castlevania in netflix! It's really really good, the animation is unerring. The sad thing is that it only has 4 episodes and the second season won't be here in a while. SIGHS. | Lari woke up rly late and I picked on her bc of tht. She also said I looked like a hANMSTER. idk why. Studied for my test (did math exercises and just skimmed through my history schoolbook) while talking to her <3 | Had to make a really quick pause in the study because Isa arrived of trip to her. We just chitchatted a bit (I'm so awkward and unconfortable around my cousins. SIGHS. | Played a bit of stardew valley. Chatted a bit with doge and more with Lari! I sent her a picture of mine, we talked about The Walking Dead and she sent me cute/sweet messages on steam. | Today, talked to formigo about Castlevania earlier and, later about how the last door is. | My other cousing, Jota P, arrived too. He's taller than me ugh. I didn't pay much attention to him tho bc I was busy | Managed to write a bit! Very little, but it's something | Short deep/melancholic talk with her before bed, about distance and stuff
  • 14 | Last day of school semester! Went well on simulado, but kinda disappointed because of some stupid mistakes. I could have gone better. After I was done, spent some time laughing with Bryan, Laura and Isabela until my mom picked me up. It's good to spend some time with them like this! | At home, watched one episode of Breaking Bad and 2 eps of Little Witch Academia. Also added a lot to watch later on my list. Bless ya netflix | Morgando in bed, while chatting with her, before my family reunion. I sent her a pic of me before, then took more pictures of me wearing social clothes (I'm so glad I can wear things I like now) and sent to her and to Nat. Received lots of praises. I was kinda embarassed tho, | Bodas de diamantes of my grandparents. My uncle's new house is so stunning! The food was just amazing, specially that camarão. GOD. The problem is tht I ate too much and started to feel ill bc of it. Also my aunt insisted I should socialize (but I ignored her lol) | Lari wanted to distract me from the bellyache and cold I was feeling so she proposed we did Q&A! It was fun. When I got home, talk abt past relationships and insecurity and etc.
  • 15 | Stayed with her until 4pm ❤ we freaked about a fanfic she recommended me and how hot taehyung is,,,, She also teased a little. | Family time. Lunch was churrasco at my grandma's. the ponche was just amazing. tried to read but my cousin wouldnt stop talking. he's very different now: became less hyperactive now, not addicted to his tablet, more talkative and more interesting. He's rly smart and is a know-it-all about History. | Watched 3 episodes of Little Witch Academia with my sis and JP. | Outback w English classmates and teacher! We waited for a place inside for over an hour, but it was worth it. We talked about so many things! Unfortunately, we didn't eat tht much bc no one felt like it. I also chatted a lot w Ana B, specially about school and teachers, and i didnt know she liked the same songs as me | At home, stayed in sofa in the living room with my parents, while trying to read
  • 16 | Read fanfic and then started a semishira history myself, in english, in madrugada. It feels so good to write in english... It feels more natural. | Didnt sleep well. Managed to fall asleep just when the sun was rising. Distracted myself reading my phylosophy book in the meantime. | Lunch at grandmas again, was very tired so didnt interact much (and my cousin chided me for it. I hate bossy people so much) | Wasn't feeling well so I just retired home. Discussions about gender in nyah post killed my mood too. In compensation, mom sent me a cute video and hugged me and we watched 4 eps of friends together! | Failed to draw in wacom | Came out to bryan (nice reaction of his, made me really happy ;;) and gotta do the same to lucas yet | Played the last door. It's the last episode aa
  • 17 | Played terraria with doge until 1am. Went to sleep at 3h30am | Woke up at 12h30pm. Watched To the bone with my mom and sister. Evania made salty popcorn AND sweet caramelized popcorn. Its so good. I ate too much. | After it, time to tidy my things up! Put some Owl City music and rolled my sleeves up. Rummaged part the box I keep beside my bed (also know as my personal garbage can ™), which was chaos, and found 639473 lost stuff (including medicine, paperwork, a key, missing bottoms etc). After it, organized my school bag and delivered all my essays and tests of this bimester to mom. Gonna keep my old school notebooks (from 2015 and 2016) because they are so organized and visually pleasant. MY NOWADAYS NOTEBOOKS ARE HELL, totally messed up. At least my handwriting became smaller and less round. | Worked out. Kinda. Was rly lazy. | Started feeling bad because of a dream I had (where she had left me for someone). Tried to talk about it to Lari and cried (a lot) because it really is something that upsets me, because gathers so many insecurities of mine. She said she wasnt worried because she knew I'd be ok. Too practical. Also desabafei about it with Nat. | Watched 3 eps of friends w mom | Went to computer, messed w listography | 1h audiocall with Bryan and Lucas!! Played gartic with them and Bryan played his guitar. Showing off his talent (jk).
  • 18 | 1 year together. God, everything passes so fast... I wish today had been more special, though. I wanted to overflow with love, with her. Well, we didnt spend that much time together but it was still nice. We got up at 12h30am (11am was too early for us), and started a call and to play together Dont Starve. However, my mom thwarted my plans arriving just 30min later. Sighs. | Went to the homeopata. Chatted with her and with Nat meanwhile <3 My mood got better. | Went to grandma's, had lunch there. Talked to Formigo. First, he congratulated me and Lari for our anniversary, along with some touching words. He's a really good friend. Then, we exchanged memes, youtube poops and bad jokes. | Felt somewhat bad while waiting for my mom to go home. Ik I am too negative, but I wish today had been more like I expected it.... | At home, found a really nice fanfiction and read it. It motivated me to plot my new semishira fic and gave me more ideas ❤ wish I had written today but didnt. sighs. | Had a chat with Bryan, about loneliness, then did a small Q&A with him | Watched 6 eps of friends w mom (most of them past midnight)
  • 19 | Went to the cinema with Bryan, Laura and Lucas. We watched Spider Man: Homecoming. Laura dropped half of her popcorn bag on my lap. Cool. Then we ate at burger king's, then walked aroud in saraiva and online, then we drinked milkshakes at lol's. i made a fool of myself trying, multiple times, to toss a paper ball in the garbage can. when mom arrived, I bought my new game control! Stayed in the shopping from 3pm to 8h30pm, cool. | At home, played with my newest - and first ever - game control, in Ori and the blind forest! I FINALLY overcame that difficult phase and entered a really beautiful part of the game. Also, chatted with doge, formigo and Lari (and said hi to Ariel in whatsapp), while I played. Got tired of playing at 11pm, when I started to plot and write things. Semishira is my new otp >:D
  • 20 | plotted and wrote (in multiple docs + physical notebook at the same time) until 3am. Different ideas were popping up so I had to multitask. | had some spontaneous dirty fun w Lari until 5am ❤ | Got up at 1h30pm (1h after mom had stormed in our bedroom and told us to wake up), stayed in the sofa just chatting a bit w Nat and formigo (feliz dia do amigo!!) and with Doge. | Watched 2 eps of Little Witch Academia, had to interrupt it because Lucas and Bryan wanted to do a call in skype. After making my and my sister's beds, i joined the call, which lasted for 2 hours. Unfortunately, Lucas had to leave just some minutes after we started, so I chatted mostly with Bryan. Did it while playing with Ori (I love my new control so much). He showed me his doggo and its so cuteee | After the call, watched 4 eps of Little Witch Academia. Netflix has no more episodes of it available so I'll hv to download it. sighs. | Felt kinda bad for overthinking and resenting things. Need to learn to have less expectations and just enjoy things. Had to write a big desabafo text and took some time to get better. | Watched 5 eps of friends with mom and dad
  • 21 | so, at 3h30am, I was talking to Lari (she was ranting abt her game. So cute) and reading a fanfic when I literally just turned to my side and slept out of the blue. I woke up 4h hours later and realized I hadn't said goodbye to her. My sister told me she tried to wake me up before but I was dead asleep. AAA. Went back to sleep and woke up at 1pm. Had a crazy dream and Bryan and Lucas were there, and I told Bryan about it. We're chatting so much lately, it's so nice | Since we were out of elecrticity until 5pm, I didnt do much today, because I just lounged around in my couch, using 3g to chat with people (which includes her, formigo, ariel, nat and bryan). Then, decided to draw! And just stopped it at 9h40pm. Managed to create a lot of things and to finish a drawing and post it in facebook. | Went to computer after bath to write. My mood wasn't one of the best, and it hindered me to think straight, but after it managed to distract myself and write a bit.
  • 22 | Madrugada started with me being sad, and kinda talking about it with Bryan, but I got better eventually. Wrote a lot at my semishira fanfic, in my cellphone (it offers less distraction than writing in my pc so i guess its better), and went to sleep at 4h30am | After waking up, Lari told me about a dream she had with me ❤ It was really funny and cute and sweet. It made me all happy and smiley. I also checked my cellphone gallery to recall some memories. Nostalgic time. | Walked for 40min with my dad and dog and sister. After it, asked him to hang the punching bag so I could use it for a while. It's really satisfying to do this kind of exercise, and it's a way to overflow anger and frustration. During the intermittent pauses, chatted with Bryan about deep things like socialization and friendships and loneliness and stuff | Chitchat with her and read a tiny bit of my philosophy book after bath | Went to my cousin's (Tony). We played two rounds of chess. I lost at both (not surprised), but I went really well, specially because I hadn't played it in over a year and am not very familiar to the game. After, played 3 rounds of damas with him. Won both and the last one ended in a draw. | At home, frustrated intention to watch Moonlight. Parent didn't allow me to. Ugh.
  • 23 | Instead, watched 4 episodes of Friends with my mom, until 1h30am. It improved my mood (I was apathetic before.) Then, I went to play Terraria in computer and only stopped at 3h40am. It's so nice! I progressed a lot in the game (specially in exploring/mining and crafting) and discovered things. Also, chatted with Doge all the time during it ❤ | Was going to sleep, but Lari showed up. We chatted about how cute babies r. Went to sleep past 5am | Had some trouble sleeping because of agitated mind, so woke up only at 2h30am. Spent some time reading fanfic. Then, at 4pm, played Terraria for 2 hours, while chatting with doge. Also talked about the game with Nat and Bryan and showed them some screenshots. | Then, since I was doing nothing, watched 2 eps of Friends with parents | Spent some time doing NOTHIN in my bed. Tried to download some books of Lovecraft in mobi BUT IT DIDNT WORK GRR. After my bath, read more fanfics! as to inspire myself. | Watched 4 episodes of Friends with parents again (until 1am)
  • 24 | My mood wasn’t one of the best in madrugada. Had a lump on my throat bc of stupid emotions. Distracted myself with writing, and continued it when I went to bed. Slept at 4am. | Today was great! I mean, I was unproductive all day, but I still had a great time. I need to relax more. First, started reading some random oneshot, then I watched Moonlight. It’s a very good movie, but kinda monotonous. | After it, chatted a bit with Gabs (he told me abt a overwatch character), then wasted time taking pictures of me (I feel hella handsome today). | After my bath, went to shopping with my mom and sister. We just ate there. I dropped icecream in my shirt. On the way, chatted with Formigo about cards against humanity. | At home, was going to read BUT got distracted talking to the chat squad. First, we had a deep conversation about prejudice and religion and etc, and then we RANDOMLY DECIDED to reveal our AS. It started with Babs, who is leaving soon. DI GOT ME AND SAID SHE’S GOING TO WRITE A SEMISHIRA FOR ME YAAAAY | After it, conversation with Lari. It started serious before, then I made a desabafo about how I’d treat her well if she was upset etc etc. I’m rly glad she understood and we playfully bantered about our personalities after it. I had a great time with her ❤ | Bryan created grupo dos bostas e reclamoes, which includes him, me and Lucas. We chatted and they sent cards w powers. | Came out to Lucas. He understood so well, I wish I had done it before.
  • 25 | AAAA FREAKED OUT WITH FORMIGO ABOUT MEMES. I showed him 438787 haikyuu memes with funny captions. Then he sent me JOJO memes. | Dirty fun with babe ❤ Went to sleep at 4am. | Another lazy day. Got up at half past noon, stayed laying down in sofa while reading a great semishira oneshot. Also played with my sister (aka made a fuss with her over Evania, poor her). | At 5pm, drew for a while, filled a blank page with doodles. | Then, took my bath. Received Céci and her mom over. Showed her my drawings. Ate very good food (mom made a heavenly hot chocolate). She showed me bts pics (as always) and made me watch House of Army and Suga as a girl drama. | When she left, watched 4 eps of Friends with parents | Deep talk with Bryan again | Read more
  • 26 | Finished reading that great oneshot. Talked a lot to Kaus meanwhile. Started translating my portuguese semishira fic to english. | Failed to sleep well. Got up at 11am super tired, then went back to sleep and woke up at 1pm. Watched 1 ep of LWA. | I have my premium spotify back! Went with mom leave my sis and her friends at the movies, then she bough my watercolor set for me. Its so cool! Arrived home and drew and painted for almost 3 hours! I'm still learning but its so good. | Beginning of a DR with Lari. Desafabo from me about feeling dismissed. But we got better later and stayed together for the rest of the night ❤ also tried to comfort Nat. Oh, and my dad is planning our trip to SP! I mentioned it to Lari and we talked about all the things we could do aaa i love her. And I actually told the plans to my parents and they agreed on it! | Watched 5 episodes of Friends with mom.
  • 27 | Chatted a bit more with her, then just read an oneshot before going to sleep at 2am | Woke up at 12h30pm. Did nothing for a while then took a bath. Went to computer and downloaded Dream Daddy! (Im sorry to be pirating but I got no money.) It's better than expected! I mean, I loved the art, the scenarium and the character designs. Also the scenes are adorably funny, have a nice catch to it. Played it for more than 2 hours, while talking about it with Kaus (in the squad chat) and with Doge. I sent screenshots to them and to Bryan. I was excited, sorry. | at 4pm, Tony came over, along w his sister and Lara. We ate popcorn. I still stayed in pc for a while. Then, we had to look after the dogs (they brought Kiko - mom gave him a bath - and my doggo Nina was smelling him all over and pursuing him. Poor Kiko.) Then, we played 4 rounds of Chess. I lost 2, but the other 2 ended up in a draw. It's definitely a progress for me. After it, we watched 2 episodes of Breaking Bad and 1 ep of a sitcom he recommended. Mom also made us a batch of brownies!! | When he left, back to Dream Daddy. MY SAVES WERE DELETED SO I HAD TO START OVER. Played it with intermittent pauses, as I was chatting with people meanwhile. | FORMIGO AND ARIEL ARE TOGETHER NOW!! They made a group chat in messenger to tell me (first person to know)!! Even thanked me for introducing them for each other. Im happy for them ❤ After it, they created a chat in whatsapp with Lari included. We chitchatted and teased (and Lari was cute and i wanted to beat them w sappiness, but they r cheesier than me). It was fun | Chat about Dream Daddy and a bit of Dramatical Murder (I wanna plaaay it) w kaus and carolis at squad's.
  • 28 | some fun with bae ❤ but she went to sleep early, at 1h40am. | Got up at noon, went straight to computer after having my meal. Talked to Lari basically the entire beginning of the afternoon! We talked more about my trip to SP, kinda “scheduling” our plans and which days we’d meet and what we’d do and where we’d kiss. I bet cinema. I’m probably going in Wednesday (August 9). | Played Dream Daddy since waking up until 4pm or smth. Completed Robert’s Date 1 and Amanda’s acception scene and started Mat’s Date 1 BUT GOT STUCK AND STRESSED OVER A STUPID MINIGAME UGH. Talked about the game with Nat ❤ | Failed call with Bryan, Lucas, and Laura. Also failed attempt to play Gartic. Everyone was bugging everything. At least I laughed and swore a lot. | Wrote a bit of semishira! Yay. | Told Formigo about the news!! We talked about when would we meet and I warned him abt few things. I’m looking forward to it (even tho im nervous aaa). Meanwhile, headed to Praia Clube. I didn’t swim, just sat there while reading and chatting. More nervousness about the trip. Lari and I kept comforting each other that everything would be ok and assuring that ofc we’d love everything abt each other. And Lari scolded me for overthinking, told me to be myself and assured tht ofc she’d like me and each one of my quirks. | We ate at the Praia’s restaurant before going home. There, I tried to distract her from anxiety and told her a continuation of Nahn’s and Irali’s story!! It was fun. | Formigo started a talk with me that got me tensed up, bc it involved my gender, but he was nice. And Lari’s cute being overprotective.
  • 29 | Doin nothin, just staying with her. Formigo sent me a freak video. We talked abt animus and I lent him my Netflix account. | Had trouble falling asleep and, in addition, lost sleep at 9h40am or something. So I got fewer than 6h of sleep, prob. Stayed in bed and finished reading Lucas' text — he's really creative, I'm proud of him. Just needs to work on his writing and grammar, but he's got potential — before getting up at 11am. | Then, french studying! For 3 hours! While listening to blink-182 and alikes. I wrote down every new vocabularies I had found through these days, and reread some of my specific notes while strengthening skills in duolingo. | Then, Dream Daddy. Isn't this game addictive. I finished Mat's Date 1 (won that fucking minigame), as well as Demien's and Hugo's. | Got tired, took a 20min nap, then downloaded a Lovecraft's tales collection in epub and started reading it, while talking to Doge. | Made a pause to watch 3 episodes of Friends with mom | Read more after bath. | Finished The Last Door last episode. Need to play the 4 minisodes yet. Looking forward to buying the Season 2.
  • 30 | Went to sleep at 3h30am, had spent some time chatting with her and reading articles about activism. | Woke up at 11h30am but only got up at 12h30pm. Watched 3 episodes of Little Witch Academia, then played 2 dates of Dream Daddy (Craig and Brian). | Feijoada at lunch today. After tht, tried to surpass my sleepiness to go for a walk with my dad, but my feet was really hurting when I did so I stopped mid-jogging. Just did 30 abdominals instead. | Watched 3 eps of Friends with mom | Instead of reading a book, decided to read new stuff and learn! Read an article about Tanukis (a japanese folkloric creature) and watched a video of 10min on japanese yokais. | Then, played one more date in Dream Daddy (Joseph) and played Ori afterwards with my control.
  • 31 | Watched 2 episodes of Little Witch Academia. Read a bit, then went to sleep. | Woke up at 12h30pm. Just took a bath and went out to have my hair cut. Read a Lovecraft tale while was at the hairdresser | went to grandmas, ate pão de queijo, kinda freaked out abt the new high school reformation that has been approved. Talked to Lari <3 and finally calmed down | At home, read some self-help articles, and watched a debate with a neurologist (?) about sleep in tv | watched 4 eps of friends w parents. Went to sleep earlier

August

  • 1 | 1st day of back to school! All day in school, doodled during basically ALL classes (and I had 10 of them today). Caught up with Beccs and other friends, knowing how was their vacation. Pissed Lucas off by scribbling on him, it was funny. Played bandeirinha estourada at Physical Ed. | Got home at 6h30pm, ate brownies mom made. Little argument with my sister (I hate when she yells at me ffs), upset mood, but then got better. | Watched 1 ep of Breaking Bad | chatted with Lari about cute notebooks and the upcoming trip to SP and etc. | Passed my special gel pen over the drawings I made at school. Was planning to paint them but it was too late already. | Spent the other hours in mom's bed, just in my phone. Watched that cute animation In a Heartbeat, chatted more, and read for a while
  • 2 | Great day! I was really drowsy in the morning and I slept during almost 3 classes, woops. Also read fanfic in school. | Talked a lot Lari since after my classes were over, from me playfully attempting to convince her to get out of bed to a lil talk abt insecurities. Basically spent all day with her ❤ We made an audiocall! We played Don't Starve Together without interruption for one hour or so, but then my network failed, and I had to continue the call in my cellphone. Had to restart my pc and the game all over, then our servers didn't match, then her game was lagging, so we gave up on it. After a while, we decided to play Stardew Valley together. We finished the call at 6h30pm, after almost 4 hours. | Went to study. My school changed the exams system this bimester and I think its way better now tbh. Got excited over physics and did some math exercises. | Watched 5 eps of Friends with mom, while still chatting to her a bit (more like luring and teasing her /tapa) ❤ Also, sad news from Doge :c Tried to comfort her. I hope she can get over her breakup and be well soon... she deserves so much better, ugh.
  • 3 | The day started well and took an abrupt turn because of bad news. At school, there was a happy mood and I kept singing "Take On Me" and "Never gonna give you up" with my friends. I arrived home, ate a lot (bolinho de arroz!!) and was excited for the day, but then mom told us that we weren't going to SP anymore... My first reaction was anger and frustration. I had raised so many expectations and made so many plans and was so happy that I would finally be able to see Lari and kiss and love her in person and to see Formigo too and to know the city... Ugh. I cried a lot, tbh. Maybe I overreacted but was rly disappointed. Lari tried to comfort me, but... I was still down. Just slept before therapy. | Therapy cheered me up a bit because I talked about other things. After it, watched a girl singing songs in twitter, then went home. Was still really upset so I cried some more. | Mom made me hot chocolat to cheer me up. Yum. Watched 2 eps of friends with her. | Talking to Lari also cheered me up. I love her so much. She made a desabafo with me, we shared our sad feelings and support, and then she started to be really cute and affectionate and aaa ❤ we sent a lot of cute stickers to each other and joked around and were in a sappy mood. | Studied Geography and History for a while. Distracted myself with a song lyrics that I wrote for Lari ❤ More sappy mood. | Before going to bed, spent more time with her and showed her some of baby pictures of mine and my sister's! Super cute, ik.
  • 4 | Day was pretty cool. Drawed all class again. | Kibe assado de almoço!! | At home, procrastinated a lot, while attempting to finish reading a Lovecraft tale. Chatted to Nat about our writing collab! New ideas for the history, yay. | After I was finally done reading, took an spontaneous, involuntary 50min nap and woke up at 6h30pm. | Drawed for almost 3 hours! listened to EXO meanwhile. Sent pictures of them to Nat. She motivates me so much!! | After my bath, started watching the third season of Voltron! Watched 3 eps with my sister. Told Formigo about it.
  • 5 | Watched 3 eps of Friends w mom and dad. Spontaneous dirty fun with bae before going to sleep | Woke up at 11h30am. After some rushing and being late anyway, stayed in the car for some hours, while listening to Monsta X and Arctic Monkeys. We "delivered" my sis to her friend's party and picked up Chris before we finally made it to Silvina's chácara. There was a HUGE costelada barbecue there. Like seriosly, there were 5 big meat chests roasting in a campfire. And god wasnt it so tasty. Cecília and Lucas (Chris' son) were there too, we talked a lot about games and hanged out. Also had some more personal talks with Céci. She opened up to me in a way she isn't used to. She even cried :c I gave her a big hug and support. She said she loves me and admires me :'0 I'm glad I have her as a childhood friend | Went home at almost 6pm. Took a lot of pictures of the sunset in the road. | I had to delete all my 500+ songs because my phone storage had no more avalable space. RIP. | At home, did some stuff in computer and watched some beautiful poetry recitals from Button Poetry (yt channel). They inspire me a lot. Then, watched 5 eps of Friends with mom. We finished Season 6! | Then, at 11pm, went to computer to try to write some poetry. Chatted with Formigo about Boku no Hero (and memes sacanas).
  • 6 | talked to Lari for a while and went to sleep at 3am. | woke up at noon and a half and went straight to the living room. Watched the last 4 eps of s3 of Voltron with my sister. The season finale was great. | Then, started my essay before lounging around before I had a walk with dad. Did it for 30min or so, then made sit-ups and some weight lifting, while listening to a7x and Led Zeppelin. Also did homework and finished my essay while listening to the 2016 album of A7X. | Had an argument with dad during dinner. HE MAKES ME SO ANGRY AND STRESSED. I hate when people try to impose things. He started to make threats just because i didnt want to watch a missa. Go shove your religion up your ass instead of down my throat. | After the stress, played around with my sis (im so childish around her.) Then, read Lovecraft's tale for a good while. After that played for 30min a date of Dream Daddy (I had missed it.), while chatting w doge (and a bit w Lari) | Then, before going to bed, watched 2 eps of Friends with mom.
  • 7 | Today was good, I guess, although I wasn't that productive as I had planned. Chatted a little with Gabs after school, studied some french and then finished reading The Call of Cthulhu. Took a spontaneous 40min nap. Once I got up, did my school things. | Played a little with my dog, and then worked out! Did 50 sit-ups, some weight liftings, then danced 5 musics. Found out a cool steampunk playlist. | After my bath, played Dream Daddy (Robert's date 2.) aaaa I wish I made as good art as the game's. Rad to replay it tho, because I wanted a Rank S. | Got tensed up because I heard footsteps and I was on my own at home. I made some ruckus but I knew it was nothing deep inside. And my reasoning was right. | Shortly visited my grandma, just to say hi and do some company, and showed her my drawings. She offered to buy me some professional anathomy/art tutorials/studies! | Planned to finish reading the tales book but got caught up in a more serious convo with Lari. My mood started lowering as I got blue and pessimistic, but the talk ended well as always and I watched 2 eps of friends w mom to cheer up.
  • 8 | Read a lot in school today, specially in the afternoon. Finished my book and read a whole chapter of a fanfic I decided to reread. | Chatted a lot with Lari during my lunch break ❤ Also stayed with Beccs, Bryan and Bilau. | Did nothing in Physical Ed, just talking with Beccs. When she left, I was a listener for Bryan's desabafos. I try to help him, but he's way too pessimistic (and obstinated about it.) | At home, read more, talked to Lari a lot (about relationships and abt cute things). Watched poop videos like The Cool Guy and Charlie the Unicorn (thx doge!!) and POWERTHIRST. | My dog came back from the petshop SHE IS SO CUTE SHE SMELLS WELL AND SHE IS USING A TIE AND HER FUR IS SO SOFT AAA | Talk with Bryan, advicing him and showing him memes | As I said, started rereading Hot Dad Alliance!!!! I love this fic so much, it's so fun reading it. Even relinquished time to play in order to keep reading it, at home. Showed Doge a lot of parts of it and some of the meme videos from it to her. | Watched 3 episodes of friends with mom before going to sleep
  • 9 | Read half an chapter of HDA (hot dad alliance) in school. After class, watched one episode of BrBa with Evania, was intending to watch another but somnolence got the best of me. Had an one hour's sleep. | Then, finished reading that chapter. I love this fic so much. | Went to study. Revised Geography and Biology while listening to a new steampunk playlist I found on spotfy (its rly cool!!) and chatted with Lari a bit, she told me about her day. Was planning to study Physics too, but cousin randomly passed by and invited me to go to grandma's. So I spent some minutes eating coxinha (uma de pernil e outra de queijo!!!) at grandma's with Bibi and Carol. Discussed some stuff with them. My granny is stubborn and thinks psychiatry is better than psychology zzzz | Forced to go to Missa. Nhe. | Arrived home, and decided to write! Did it until I needed to go to sleep to be honest (and chatted a bit w Doge at the end of the night). Did some research on Lazer Tag info for my history and started writing another disconnected scene.
  • 10 | After school and having my lunch, laid down on bed and finished reading the chapter I started during class, while eating icecream | Then, watched 2 episodes of breaking bad! It ended in a fucking HUGE cliffhanger and it took me great efforts to resist the temptation of finishing the season in a row. I had to study. | Started studying at 5h30pm and kept on it until 7h30am, when I chatted to people for a while, including "Queen V". I showed some of my drawings to her! | Spent almost the entire rest of the night reading fic, almost coming to its end. Also talked with Nat abt feelings but she got worried. She shouldnt. And a bit with babe ❤ Just stopped reading to watch 3 eps of Friends with mom
  • 11 | Finished re-reading hot dad alliance in school. second time reading it and I'll still miss it. School was strange today. Free pieces of chocolate cake, and I only had 2 classes today. 4 EMPTY CLASSES. And part of one hour to answer an evaluation of our teacher's manners. Used the available time to read, do some homework and draw, and also interact with my friends, at the end of the class. Meanwhile, classmates put a lot of funk music to play. Ugh. | After my post-class meal (aka lunck), went straight to watching Breaking Bad. FINISHED SEASON 4. And fuck, that season finale was just epical. | Then, Lari showed up and told me how her morning was ❤ Then we got in a sappy mood and then in the mood. It was great. After it, she went to sleep. I took my bath and, after it, did a quick french practice (studying french musics lyrics) while chatting with Doge. | Started reading a new book! Commented it to Nat. Its about circus so I got inspired to write on our history as well. Went to computer and wrote all of my alternative ideas and a minor character profile in our collaborative docs. Also, under Lari's influence, I XABLAUed. Subscribed to my first Delipa!! | Went to Cajubá's and used my new shirt (mom gave me!). ATE A FUCKTON OF FOOD. A. Just stayed listening to the live performance of a band while chatting with the squad, Nat and Lari (she helped me decide the name of my newest oc!) in my cellphone. | At home, decided to assemble all of my OCs in a list in a document, and started to do summarized profiles of them, with their curiosities! It was pretty fun to do that.
  • 12 | Finished writing just at 00h45am, when I decided to draw my newest oc! Finished it at almost 2am I guess | After waking up, completed my autobio by pasting all the stuff I had written over the days and added it to the wordcount. After it, drawed more (fixed the drawing I made but i think i worsened it lol) and chatted and showed it to nat ❤ | churrasco at my grandma's. that frango grelhado was so hella great. talked a lot to bibi, specially about college things | after eating, went home and drawed more. finished a digital sheet of positions practice. Then, watched 3 episodes of friends with mom | played cards against humanity with formigo!! it was so nice, we found some cool people who entered our room. the chat was pretty agitated too. AND I WON. 12 POINTS HAHA the second place was like 7 points. unfortunately, formigo couldnt play another round, so I played w the same former players (but didnt stay until the end). a guy in there said I was cool and tht he lowkey wanted to befriends w me :D | after tht, just drawed. but when i got excited, my wacom pen stopped working. ugh. | felt kinda apathetic later at night, just reading my book (its great, btw)
  • 13 | Gave a big hug on my dad as soon as it was past midnight. Slept at 3am after reading some more and after writing autobio stuff | Woke up at some minutes after noon. Went to grandma's after bath, expecting to meet my cousins there, but they had already left. So i just stayed there, listening (mildly talking) to my granny and to my aunt Luísa. Also Tina is such a tiny dog. It was kinda boring tbh so I said I was hungry and went back home | After meal, read for a while, but my patience was low tbh. At 5pm, decided to play Dream Daddy for one hour or so! Played Damien's and Mat's Date 2. Funny pot scene that I commented w Kaus. | THEN, DRAWED!! Wow i feel addicted to drawing lately. I was continuing drawing I took up yesterday but kept being fucking interrupted. My aunt called me and tried to convince me into buying dresses ughhhh and then I got stressed. Cousins came over bringing a bunch of dresses I had to try out. most of them didnt fit. felt dysphoric and ugly but after everything was done I was relieved | Talked a bit w Lari in my way to my other grandma's. Was feeling dysphoric and sad about my body (i wish i had broader shoulders) and she tried to cheer me up. The squadchat made me laugh a lot w that "MelStronda" convo tho. Also talked my feelings out with Nat ❤ | Once got home, while listening to music, finished that drawing!! Its the first digital painting I conclude in ages lmao. Praises from Nat and Laura ❤
  • 14 | dad's birthday!! | watched 3 eps of friends w mom! After it, chatted a bit with babe, who had been busy all day. Tried to draw more but failed. Isis showed up out of the blue looking for some she could desabafar to. Went to sleep at 3am or so | woke up at noon, read a little bit in my sofa after eating. was planning to write just after it, but cousins invited me over to try more stupid dresses for that stupid wedding. ugh i cant take it anymore. | was back home at 3pm, I guess. Chatted a lot with doge in the afternoon. I wrote plenty, but not what I was supposed to. | Then, until 5pm, studied french while listening to french music! Added things to vocabulary notebook, then re-read some grammar notes and strengthened skills on duolingo. | Then, studied physics and math, still listening to Les Discrets. | Cousins came over again and I had to try more dresses and show it to my grandma and aunt and had to heard stupid comments zzzzzzzzzz I want to yell "IM A DUDE DONT MAKE ME WEAR DRESSES" at their faces. | Lari had showed up wanting to chat tho and it cheered me up ❤ Shes a cutie. We talked about our days and kept chitchatting throughout the night. I tried to write more but failed | watched 4 episodes of friends with mom and dad! talked to her meanwhile, about names and stories.
  • 15 | went to computer again to try to write my fic for delipa, but ugh i couldnt. was distracted and didn't know where to start. i think ill write it in english screw it | instead just teased lari before she went to sleep and reread some old stuff i had written in evernote. AND decided to continue a text I had made in Gray's pov and kept writing it until 3h30am. | pretty cool day. Got up at 11am, went out at 1pm, as a belated celebration to dad's birthday. (Also, Bryan and Lucas made me laugh in our chat). We met with Céci and her family in a fish restaurant. She showed me and my sis a bts video and we talked a lot. Then, we went to their house's construction! the structure is done, I guess. And their pool r ready. ALSO I FOUND OUT IM ONLY 162CM TALL AND IM SO SAD. I thought i was at least 165cm. ugh. We played around a lot, shes such a good friend ❤ had lots of fun with her. | then, at 4h30pm, we went to uberlandia shopping and met with a friend of hers, Julia. I was kinda off the subject but it was fun anyway. We (me, ceci and my sister, who was with us all the time) spent 80 bucks eating, wow. And I played a bit of pokemon go as well. I got home only at 8pm. | Talked shortly to Lari from 6h30 to 8pm or so, she is out of 3g and her house network is failing. | Just wrote some autobio and procrastinated as always | Talked about our collab history with Nat!! Had some cool insights and we've been plotting a lot together! Developing alternative ideas and all. The theme is way darker now. | Watched 3 episodes of friends with mom before bed. Also ate some cake pieces mom made.
  • 16 | It was funny (but kinda embarrassing) to talk about dirty things with Beccs at school today. She and her bf are as corrupted as me and my gf, or maybe more. | After eating lunch, marathoned Little Witch Academia! The episodes wich were missing finally aired in Netflix and I watched the five last ones in a row. Its rly good. | Talked to Lari (told her the things I chatted with Beccs), and procrastinated to study. Finished my math exercises at 7h30pm, i guess. | Then, worked out! Tried a new activity to strengthen arms, did 60 abdominals and danced 4 musics in a row. Was done 50min later. | Was going to read or write after bath, but was a potato basically most of time. | At 9pm, told Lari how I was insecure about my height and those manliness stereorypes. Our talk cheered me up. Then we discussed about ethnic issues. | Watched 2 episodes of Friends with mom. found out that Formigo's batman.
  • 17 | House was out of energy when I arrived home after school, so I basically used 3g the entire time orz | My grandma keeps insisting on taking me to buy clothes U G H | Was going to read and study before I went out, but barely managed to. Talked to Doge and to Lari (she told me about the lectures she'll watch and aaa i envy her.) ❤ | Therapy was very good. My psychologist says I'm making a lot of progress, and I concur with her. | aaa I missed English class!! And I guess I'll be able to go to it twice a week this semester! | Went to grife with mom and sis, made some English exercises while we ate at a lanchonete | Got home at 7h30pm or so, studied History and review some things for tomorrow test. I was done pretty quickly. | The rest of the night went by smoothly. I talked a bit to her (bolinho is a messer) while reading for a while. Quickly helped sis with her homework, then watched 3 episodes of Friends with mom!
  • 18 | 13 months together!! After coming home, talked to her for a good while ❤ Wish i didnt have to go out. | Went out with mom and grandma to a clothing shop she wanted us to go. As soon as I entered there, I realized this place wasn't for me at all. I hate how she wants to shove feminine clothes for me, I wish I could just tell the truth. At least, was able to impose myself enough to not wear any clothes I hated (like most of them). Luckily enough, I found a nice baggy jeans and a more masculine shirt and decided to take it. | Arrived home at 4h30pm and had fun with babe, for 2 hours <3 Stayed chatting with her while i did other stuff too. | from 6h30pm to 8h30pm, painted with my watercolor! it was pretty fun. also organized my drawing album | joined in #brart tag in twitter | went to computer to write with Lari ❤ procrastinated more than everything, but at least I started delipa fic. Talking abt the plot with her helped me develop things better.
  • 19 | at midnight, watched 4 episodes of friends with mom. then, read a bit before going to sleep at 3am. | woke up at noon, procrastinated in bed, read some chapter. after 1 hour, said hi to lari, then kept reading | at 2h30pm, sorta, went to computer to continue writing my delipa fic. basically spent all afternoon in, while also chatting with the squad and with her. | hanged out with my cousin, Bibi! shes a cutie and It's her 18th birthday in 2 days ❤!! sister and I went out with her and her fam. we ate that fancy and delicious churrascaria and chatted a lot. then, we went to her house and played with the kitten shes taking care of ;; hes so cute and beautiful and agitated. we also stayed at her room and chatted about books!! | went home at 11h30pm
  • 20 | watched 3 episodes of friends with mom, until 1am. then, went to computer to do my history task, but procrastinated a lot. also chatted with Lari a lot ❤ teasing and a funny conversation about chests and nipples and body. then, we had that type of fun for 1h (*eyes*). went to sleep at 4am | woke up at noon. messed things up about my delipa fic and I thought I had upset gf and then I got upset. Was sad and emotive for a while, but at least it inspired me to write some poetry. Made reviews for Lari's fic, I just love to make her happy | Had a walk with dad and worked out! a lot of weight-liftings yay | those funny, twisted waifu and husbando tests she sent me. i refuse that "'3 genital lenght". Formigo knows how I feel. | read while chatting with her, until 8pm, when I stopped to write my essay. after I was done, kept reading until I finished my book | tried to play dream daddy but was too distracted, talked a bit to Nat | more chatting with Lari! we showed some random test results to each other, like, "how are you in bed" and stuff. It was funny. Also made that kinks test w her again. | Watched 3 eps of friends w mom
  • 21 | In class, a funny talk about kinks with Beccs (and then Bryan and Laura and Isa and Lucas joined in). She started to enter in "sexual positions" topic during break, shes so dirty. And Lucas is so innocent he didn't know what the word "fetish" meant. | after school, watched 2 episodes of breaking bad. then, lari showed up, and spent some time together (and had tht fun too) | Studied for two hours, chatted with doge ( I missed her ;__;) a bit. Felt productive today. | Then, worked out. | After I was done, went to computer to get some things done. It took me a while, but I finally posted my delipa fic in ao3!! First english fanfiction posted!! Also, one of my favorite writers in that site left kudos and a comment that made me really happy ;; Then, finished my history task and printed it. | Started to feel bad. I wish she could live inside my chest so she could understand better what I feel. Talking about it made her sad, though :c i don't want her to feel guilty i just dont wanna keep everything inside me so much, its suffocating. Sighs. My feelings are like a double-sided blade. I just miss feeling longed for, feeling important, and not feeling so replaceable. Guess that's my bad tho anyway. I wish I was special (insert Creep song lyrics here) | Watched 1 ep of friends with mom to cheer up. Didnt work that well.
  • 22 | Made some desabafos with Beccs during our break. I'm just overwhelmed with negative thinking :/ | I didn't interact much during classes, but overcompensated for it during lunch/almoço. The meal was great as always. My friends — Lucas, Bryan, Isabela, Laura and Pedro — decided to hang outside of school (first time i do that), so we strolled around its surroundings. I made a lot of jokes. I didn't feel like walking too much so I got back first. | Lari showed up during my break, I was worried because she seemed down. I don't wanna see her sad. I want our love to be blooming writ large like before :c | Beccs made a desabafo during afternoon 15min break. I wanna punch those guys who are disturbing her, really | Barely participated in Physical Ed., stayed listening to music. My sis walked around me and Beccs and Rafael. Beccs told us how she killed a lil chick when she was 4yo by clutching it to death. She's the pinto-killer. We made a lot of jokes and puns about it. | At home, stayed reading for a while, although I was distracted by television mom was watching. Then, went to computer, did some stuff, and played a bit of Dream Daddy (but had to start Craig's date over grr). | She was having a hard time and I tried to support her. I was kinda hoping she'd open up, but didn't happen. At least she got better. | Watched 2 eps of Friends with mom
  • 23 | Today was pretty unproductive tbh. My FICO group (friends) discussed our task theme during class. There's no unanimity for now. Difficult. | Came home and stayed in sofa. Was going to watch series but didnt, just was slouching in sofa. Read fanfic and talked a bit to doge, she's been kinda absent these days. Took 1 hour nap, between intervals. | Then, sticked to studying! For 3 hours. While listening to Pearl Jam in Bryan's behalf. | Took my bath. And wow I never singed in this shower this much. After it, stayed with family, but instead of reading, played 2248. I missed this game after all. Lil chat w Lari too. | Bad news: my spotify premium is dead. I have no songs to listen to offline. I might die. | watched 3 eps of friends with mom
  • 24 | Mom's birthday!! | Was feeling sorta blue in the morning, too pessimistic feelings again. Its just that stupid "i dont feel loved" thing again. But friends cheered me up. | After school, talked to Lari. Ended up discussing what I feel, saying I miss those in love moments, asking her to open up more. It flowed really well and we actually started blabbing abt other stuff, like heights and insecst, then we went back to the conversation just to conclude it. We spent basically all afternoon together! She showed me her aesthetics, I told her I was reading the fic she recommended me, we talked abt how our parents drive and etc. | English class was cool today. Did some speaking activities. | At home, ate, chatted more with her (about kpop and involving my sis). Then, starting at 8pm, started studying for my math + physics test tomorrow. I'm afraid uhhh. Made 1h of call with Bryan to study along w him, while listening to Nirvana and Pearl Jam. It was nice ❤ | After it, completed autobio, chatted a bit in wpp. Also, talked to Lari about more bio things, and later she made a desabafo about a friend with me. | Watched 3-4 episodes of Friends with parents. We finished another season ;_; i dont want it to end aa
  • 25 | spent the morning chanting, with my friends, "FODEEEEEEEEEEEEEU" bc we were about to have math and physics test. However, I think I actually went well on both! Felt proud. | At home, procrastinated in my couch for a while, and then decided to play Dream Daddy for two hours, I guess, starting from some minutes past 2pm. Finished Crag's date and did Hugo's and Joseph's. | After it, was going to sleep, but actually didn't. Just lolled on my sopha. Then, went to computer again, and wrote some stuff. Completed and contabilized autobio and developped some prompts I came up with. | Prepped to go to Pistachious, as a belated celebration of mom's birthday. Ate pizza. Met Céci there. She had her school materials to study for her Saturday text and she was kinda distressed :T At least she opened up to me and I tried to cheer her up. She had to leave early from there, and my mood dropped heavily from that. I was feeling really dysphoric and discontent with my height and my narrow shoulders and my round-shaped face and meh. | At least, when got home, talked a bit with Formigo about an anime, and then joked around with my friends in wpp. It made a bit better.
  • 26 | From midnight to 2am, watched 3 episodes of Friends with mom. Also, Lari showed up. She offered some practical solutions for me to feel better abt my dysphoria and then we had some sweet moments. Shes so cute. | Woke up at noon. Spent basically all my afternoon reading fanfiction, until past 4pm. Had a lil misunderstanding with Lari in the beginning of the day but we sorted it out quickly. | Bryan decided to stalk mine and Lucas's old fb posts. Funny things in comment sections. | Studied history quickly while listening to the strokes. | Went to computer to draw with wacom! Did it for a bit more than one hour. I'm really proud of how my new drawing is going and how fast I actually made it. | Went to my cousin's! Stayed in computer there, we played some chess matches online. I showed Lari some radiohead songs ❤ and joked with her guessing what she was doing. Got home almost at midnight.
  • 27 | Was excited to hang out with friends at Parque do Sabiá later, but we cancelled it :c But we joked around a lot in the chat, it was so fun. Im so glad I made such good friends. And Bryan told me some histories about him and Laura and their disagreements. | Lari made me a lot of company ❤ We chatted a lot about lots of things (including the possibility of her and formigo travelling here aaaa) and had some really good sappy moments. I wanna slap my 4 days ago self for not feeling loved. I mean shes so sweet why was i like tht. | Also, watched 3 eps of friends with mom. Went to sleep at 3h30am. | Woke up at 1am. For one hour, discussed with friends in whatsapp regarding possible themes for our FICO task. Kinda stressing but at least we're done. | Then, went to computer. Listened to some old songs of Sleeping with Sirens (nostalgiaaaa) and Foo Fighters, chatted a lot with Bryan and wrote MS!! It was nice. But I got distracted chatting and watching Friends videos so I stopped writing. | Had a walk with dad and, after it, did some weight liftings | that talk with mom about the conversation parents had with my psychologist. Its good to know they are being supportive the way they know, makes me feel hopeful. Also considered the possibility of me practicing some martial arts. I've always wanted to learn how to fight. | While doing my essay, discussed interactions limits with friends w lari (in a playful way tho). also, THOSE MONTAGENS BRYAN MADE AAA it was funny. Chatted a bit w formigo abt games, then talked in wpp group | watched 3 eps of friends w mom, while spending the night with babe
  • 28 | Tried to teach math for a friend from the 9th grade during break in school. Why cant he just pay attention to class god | Got home and lounged in my sofa for a while, reading a bit. Then, started following that "Dear David" history in twitter. Kinda creepy but also sorta sensationalist, cant tell if its true or not. Chatted with her ❤, then slept for one hour. | School stuff, from 5pm until past 7pm. Suffered a lot w physics. All of this while listening to BTS. | Was gonna work out, but television wasn't working well, so just did abdominals and some weight liftings. Chatted with Nick in wpp, and took some pictures of my forearm muscles and my shoulders, just to compare posterity working out/HRT results. | Went to computer to write a bit from 8pm to 10pm, almost. Little progress because was distracted, but worth it anyway. Talked a bit w Bryan and Lucas and Gabs. | 2 eps of friends w mom
  • 29 | Played around a lot with Bryan during class. We made fun of Lucas's weirdness (he kept doing waving motions with his belly, dude.) i also drew a bit. | at lunch break, stayed with Bryan and Lucas and Beccs and chattered, then Davi, Bilau and Gabriel joined in. We talked abt funny things. Lucas was turned down by his crush and i tried to cheer him up by showing him kpop videos. He didnt like it. Gabs also showed up to talk a bit! | Played racquetball/peteca with guys in Physical Ed. | The yummy churrasco from school is back!! Got 2 espetinhos and 1 picolé. | At home, lounged in sopha, completing my autobio. Then, watched 2 episodes of Friends with mom, made a pause to eat, and watched one more. Since then, did few productive things, but at least talked for quite some time with Gabs and read!
  • 30 | Annoyed the shit out of Bryan in class today. Funny. Drew! Started a drawing of Yoongi in school and finished it at home, after 3pm. Then, did nothing useful for a while, when I finally decided to finish reading tht fanfic. Its kinda childish and mushy but cute anyway | Got a bad temper from sleepiness, headache and hot weather and my sister was pissing me off. Tried to take a nap but was too uneasy. Took a bath to get better. | Tried to study but was really distracted. | Lari improved my mood, we stayed together while I failed to do school things. I made lil illustrations of reactions 2 her and a cheap comic strip. Also discussed height again and intimacy issues DHSJDJ it was funny and cute. | Went to the living room and played almost 1h of dont starve!
  • 31 | Past midnight, watched 2 eps of friends. Went to sleep at 2am. | Got up at 11h30pm. Read my book and did vocabulary research for the entire morning/beginning of afternoon, with some pauses to talk a bit to Bryan. | Studying time! For more than three hours, did math, physics and biology works. Was done by 7pm, and was feeling too unmotivated to work out. Instead, from 8pm to 10pm, played terraria! I was missing it. | while shortly talking/being sappy with Lari (a cutie aaaaa), watched a movie with mom.
jul 24 2017 ∞
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