- finishing Jane Austen's "Pride and Prejudice" in English, and realising that I can read the rest of Austen's books again but in English, because it is so much better and funnier. I can't wait.
- series:
- Gilmore Girls revival
- anime "Little witch Academia" (2017): making my nights easier! and the songs also!
- anime "Snowhite with the red hair"!
- anime "Yona of the dawn"
- Basel (Switzerland), lovely city, maybe its charm was due to it being the summer holidays and therefore everybody was out of town, so basically it was rather empty which is something I always like about a place.
- Rheinfelden (Sw)
- The forest next to the house in Zeiningen; and the field full of apple trees and pear trees and plum tress that is right before the forest.
- Lush lipbalm 'Passion Fruit'.
- looking for inspiration and feels in my life. I am again withouth being able to feel anything and that makes me angry, but at least I can make a cute tumblr still. Also I've rediscovered pinterest which helps.
- 'do I want to write?, and if so, what about?'
- thinking about leaving
- FOOD: ok so this is more of what I have been compulsively eating this month. I am working as an Au Pair, and so, I am living with this family so I have to behave myself, and therefore, thankfully, this compulsive eating doesnt happen every day... however they give me two days off and I have to eat out of the house, so there is where my nightmare begins... the angst before and afterwards is shit. I eat until I am about to throw up, and I feel disgusting all the time... anyways, despite my disordered eating habits, or whatever the fuck that may be called (just "fucking annoying" is how I like to refer to it), I have managed to "enjoy" a couple of food items lately:
- one is a bread loaf, from one of this Swiss supermarkets called Migros, that has walnuts and potato flakes, which is lovely and warm, and makes me feel all comfortable (well, almost... you see, I am never content or present, it's like I'm not here, Im not anywhere, so everything I say I feel is like not really felt, but more imagined)
- chocolate (this Swiss supermarkets have quite a few varieties of organic, fair-trade, vegan chocolates, and I have tried a coconut milk chocolate, and a dark chocolate with 70% cocoa. These are real nice, although I really struggle with having them around... No matter how big the struggle though, I will eat the entire tablet. I have such little control... I gross myself out and that is so not fun... I need moderation :( anyway... it is a big step, as well as the bread, and I am trying to be positive here, and remebering how bad I've been really helps. Little by little. I believe in myself.
- Kookie Cat cookies: "chia lemon", "cacao nibs walnut", and "vanilla choc chips". These cookies were heaven and I just bought three but I am sure that if I would have bought like 20 I would have eaten them all... I dont know why am I writing all of this embarrassing stuff here when I cant even admitt it on my diary... anyway, back to the cookies, really nice and healthy. The day I had them I considered it to by my birthday, although it wasnt. I just have sad or unfortunate events as an excuse to indulge. It's fucking pathetic. uggggggggh
- Broccoli
- muesli with banana powder in the mornings
- herbs and spices tea (with licorice, cinnamon, ginger, black pepper... it was magical).
- hummus
- dates
- Oscar Wilde's writing. I read The Canterville Ghost in a couple of days, and I am now with Lord Arthur Savile's crime, and I am really liking his style.
- songs I've loved these days:
- MILEY'S NEW SONG AND VIDEO 'YOUNGER NOW'!!!!!!!
- 'Valerie', by Amy Winehouse
- 'Cant help falling in love with you' by Elvis
- 'Black Beauty' by Lana del Rey
- 'Gods and monsters' by Lana del Rey
- 'Honeymoon' by Lana del Rey
- 'Purple Rain' by Prince
- 'Little Bird' by Ed Sheeran
- 'Photograph' by Ed Sheeran
aug 13 2017 ∞
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