• the purity myth
• uglies

• listography
• facebook
• livejournal
• blogger
• tumblr
• twitter
• formspring
• youtube

• painting my nails
• sleepovers
• drunken girl talk sessions
• singing (loudly/horribly)
• cleaning my room
• retail therapy
• successfully dieting
• reading
• curling up in bed & crying
• yard work/gardening
• cuddling with pets
• rearranging furniture
• relating my life to movies where it all works out
• hating the responsible heartbreaker
• finding someone new
• being irrationally mad at the world
• being with friends who don't mind if i cry

• the lovely bones
• an american crime
• whip it
• up in the air
• the hurt locker
• daybreakers
• sherlock holmes
• valentine's day
• the boondock saints II: all saints day
• 17 again
• brothers
• julie & julia
• shutter island

• come home too late
• get attached to people
• bite my nails
• forget to take vitamins/bc
• eat a lot
• pick off my nail polish
• make a lot of noise
• damage my hair
• let my stomach growl
• get too comfortable
• get grades below an A
• forget to feed my fish
• let my room get too messy
• start fights
• cause awkwardness
• show hoe i really feel
• think about how things were

• the vampire diaries
• trueblood
• fringe
• weeds
• antm
• project runway
• models of the runway
• glee
• medium
• spongebob squarepants
• avatar: the last airbender
• the marvelous misadventures of flapjack
• skins

• the breakup
• spud's sudden death
• november
• december
• deep depression
• early morning classes
• late night classes
• having professor nagy

• wisdom teeth (8 january)
• spring semester starts (19 january)

• the relationship
• my grades
• sookie stackhouse novels
• late summer nights
• october
• the second half of september
• finding the kittens
• getting baby rats
• getting little syd
• discovering the vampire diaries
• weeds alllll summer
• learning to love lady gaga
• drunken girl talk
• girls' night

• full frontal feminism
• he's a stud, she's a slut
• dead until dark
• living dead in dallas
• club dead
• dead to the world
• dead as a doornail
• definitely dead
• all together dead
• from dead to worse
• the host

• my ex-boyfriend
• my grandmother
• october 2009
• the vampire diaries (20 more days omg)
• new harry potter books
• being happy with everything
• late nights/love

• & all the roads we have to walk are winding. & all the lights that lead the way are blinding. & there are many things that i would like to say to you, but i don't know how.
• death is not the greatest loss in life. the greatest loss is what dies inside while still alive.
• don't let yesterday's mistake define who you are today.
• the trouble with having an open mind, of course, is that people will insist o...

• first year
• first year seminar - A
• intro to philosophy - A
• 2D design - A
• world regional geography - A
• writing effective prose - A
• color theory - A
• 3D design - A
• western civ 1 - A
• western art 1 - A
• racism & sexism - A
• second year
• western civ 2 - A
• western art 2 - A
• sculpture - A
• life drawing - A
• contemporary math - A

gpa: 4.0

• catch up on all of my schoolwork
• clean my room
• clean the upstairs bathroom
• clean the upstairs carpets
• diet more efficiently
• find an extra job

• broadway
• the phantom of the opera
• equus
• music
• rod stewart
• elton john
• (invited by a friend. would not have gone otherwise) honda civic tour 2007 (fall out boy, +44, the academy is..., cobra starship, paul wall)
• (invited by a friend. would not have gone otherwise) helio presents (paramore, the starting line, set your goals)
• justin timberlake (opened for by pink)
• roger waters
• jyp & wonder girls tour 2009 (with...

• past
• nikita (white german shepherd)
• cowboy (red siberian husky)
• hamlet (potbelly pig)
• sam (potbelly pig)
• biscuit (cat)
• micky (guinea pig)
• elvis (guinea pig)
• no name (guinea pig)
• some fish
• some birds
• a toad or two
• a couple of hermit crabs
• skimpy (duck)
• funlet (wild bunny)
• irish (pony)
• timmy (quarter horse)
• cheap trick (quarter horse)
• giant (greyhound)
• magic (greyhound)
• spud (appaloosa)
• current
• sack (greyhound)
• viktor rat...

• weight
• boobs
• hair
• teeth
• clothes
• feet
• voice
• laugh
• stuttering
• eating habits
• anxiety
• fear of driving
• fear of social situations

• facebook
• livejournal
• realthin
• friends' personal journals
• listography
• update to do list
• browse (someone new)
• lookbook
• yesstyle
• blogger
• google
• youtube
• yahoo
• wpu website

• my parents & brother dying before me
• getting old & everything it entails
• getting fat
• airplanes
• fingernails being ripped off
• eyeballs being stabbed/poked out
• having my piercings ripped out

• eat healthier
• restrict more
• go jogging again
• cut back on the iced green tea lattes
• start stretching again
• crunches
• keep up with my diet diary
• fasting
• soup/fruit days
• more tea
• detox
• regular doctor visits. lol, yeah, right.

• robert pattinson
• brad pitt
• jude law
• lee pace
• justin timberlake
• stephen moyer
• sean biggerstaff
• yulia volkova
• liam neeson
• adrien brody
• natalie portman
• peter sarsgaard

• newspaper octopus/squid
• black paper octopus/squid
• brown paper octopus/squid
• bulletin board
• octopus pillow
• squid tote
• tentacle switchplate
• skinny picturebook
• jellyfish sheets
• hanging jellyfish

• battle royale
• the curious case of benjamin button
• gran torino
• where the heart is
• taken
• seven pounds
• the darjeeling limited
• million dollar baby
• underworld: rise of the lycans
• coraline
• eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
• shutter (original thai version)
• carved/the slit-mouthed woman
• ebola syndrome
• box (from three extremes)
• dumplings (from three extremes)
• the ruins
• juno
• what happens in vegas
• i love you, man
• pumpkinhead...

• ballet
• sewing (more than i already do)
• reading (more than i already do)
• writing (more than i already do)
• contortion
• filmmaking
• cleaning
• singing
• an instrument
• running
• cooking

• her handwriting
• the sound of her laugh
• how incredibly cool she was
• watching british comedies every friday
• she loved blue
• always made raviolis, peanut butter & jelly, toast & bacon & eggs for me & jake
• going to the diner
• jumping & screaming when the toast popped out of the old-fashioned toaster
• christmas eve at her house
• moonlight serenade
• visiting everyday
• sense of humor
• always ordered decaf
• dressed very well
• t...

• fleeing the country
• if i ever decide to drive, my car will need gas $$
• clothes
• gifts
• europe
• an emergency
• tattoo
• piercings
• FUCKIN IKEA ADVENTURES
• nights out with friends

• a vowel (lulz so funny, i know, i know.)
• ipod car.. thing
• black skirt
• black tights
• undies
• cube shelves
• skulls

• eating so much
• being so self conscious
• being lazy
• procrastinating
• spending money
• worrying
• pulling my hair out
• setting unrealistic goals for myself
• staying up until 5am
• being afraid
• being so shallow

• lose 30 pounds
• be confident in romantic situations
• do art beyond what school requires
• read more
• keep my room clean (LOL)
• learn something new
• get an additional job
• be more tactful
• write more shit down
• care more about school

• walk topless in new york city
• attend qlimax
• visit a nude beach
• be classified as "skinny"
• live in a foreign country
• speak a foreign language fluently
• change a tire
• have a child
• go on a cross-country roadtrip
• get married
• have tasteful nude photos of myself taken
• graduate college
• own a home
• go skydiving
• get a tattoo
• sell a piece of my art for over $500
• write a movie script
• have a walk-in closet

• creepiness
• likeness to me
• undying love for me
• honesty
• funny awkwardness stories
• love for hair
• newfound love for tentacles
• openness
• understanding
• intelligence
• sense of humor
• SLEEPOVER PLANZZ
• interest in art
• introducing me to tentacle rape porn (LOL GROSS)
• when he teases me
• love for thighs
• love for midsections
• remember the nonexistent nips?
• "i hate you, then"
• when he shit in the tire swing
• never judges me/others even w...

• elementary
• joey
• andrew
• matt
• anthony
• alan
• high school
• anthony
• brian
• serge
• matt
• joe
• eric
• ryan
• andrew
• andrei
• aaron
• pat
• ron
• kyle
• college
• connor
• dan
• mike
• anthony
• kyle

• in cars
• on the bleachers
• in my driveway
• in his driveway
• in the hallway
• sitting outside
• in the woods
• on couches
• in an elevator
• in school buildings
• in a parking lot

• seen:
• the ring 1
• dark water (japanese)
• suicide club
• carved/the slit-mouthed woman
• doremifasolatido
• oldboy
• the red shoes
• battle royale
• project makeover
• a tale of two sisters
• spider lilies
• strange circus
• audition
• cello
• the sweet sex & love
• the wig
• shutter
• ebola syndrome
• want to see:
• the ring (0 & 2)
• the grudge (1 & 2)
• battle royale 2
• the eye (1 & 2)
• one missed call
• dark water (thai)

• currently have
• left nostril
• 3 right lobe
• 2 right cartilage
• 3 left lobe
• 4 left cartilage
• right rook
• belly button
• have had
• nipples
• tongue web
• smiley
• want
• left vertical tragus
• septum

• interview with the vampire
• mean girls
• the last of the mohicans
• legends of the fall
• dances with wolves
• the search for john gissing
• mar adentro
• el bola
• let the right one in
• knocked up
• la lengua de la mariposa
• marie antoinette

• robert pattinson
• syd barrett
• andy warhol
• gemma ward
• gary oldman
• alan rickman
• liza minnelli
• audrey kawasaki
• dbsk
• jack nicholson

• like
• archive
• county
• dazzle
• glitter
• aguacate (spanish)
• discard
• chalk
• golden
• chandelier
• socks
• muchadumbre (spanish)
• coconut
• convoluted
• vicariously
• dislike
• moist
• stink
• hygiene
• panties
• episode

• accio
• avifors
• engorgio
• expelliarmus
• flipendo
• expecto patronum
• impedimenta
• incendio
• nox
• lumos
• locomotor mortis
• morsmorde
• obliviate
• petrificus totalus
• priori incantatum
• serpensortia
• riddikulus
• reducto
• wingardium leviosa

• slovakia
• russia
• south korea
• argentina
• sweden
• new zealand
• japan
• england
• spain
• france
• canada
• portugal

• hear others' thoughts
• breathe underwater
• fly
• walk through solid objects
• freeze time
• know the future, even objectively.
• shape shifting
• superhuman strength
• superhuman speed
• superhuman senses
• switch genders at will

• my heritage
• my book collection
• my clothes & the fact that they're color ordered
• my pain tolerance
• my immediate family
• college scholarship
• VFW new jersey art winner & national finalist
• various art awards
• my intellect
• my self control
• my hair? sometimes?
• my poker face

• pea coats
• leather jackets
• boots
• scarves
• big earrings/necklaces/bracelets
• dresses with ruffles
• foreign/unique clothing
• things made of colors good enough to eat
• ex. pink/blue-cotton candy
• purses big enough to hold all of my shit
• my chic glasses
• big sunglasses
• tight jeans
• high-wasted anything
• old tshirts
• checkered vans (only when they're dirty)
• maryjanes
• nail polish
• heels
• hoodies
• cute underwear
• my leopard thong
• soft green...

• leg jiggling
• pulling out eyelashes/eyebrow hairs
• biting the insides of my cheeks/lips
• twitching at the sound of anything high-pitched
• closing ears with index fingers
• crying when frustrated
• organizing things by color order
• books
• clothes
• paints
• colored pencils
• food
• OCD
• colors
• lined up text
• size order
• condition of things i own
• dislike sharing very much
• reading nutrition labels
• memorizing sequences of numbers & letters

• soft paint brushes
• my dogs' ears
• my face
• other people's lips
• boobs & other parts of both males & females (heh)
• bristol board
• soft hair
• fuzzy plant leaves
• beads/buttons in a jar
• feathers
• soft skin (could i be any creepier)
• eyebrows & the tips of eyelashes
• salt crystals
• the little scrolly ball on my mouse
• baby powder when it's compacted together
• my invader zim blanket & my green robe
• stingrays' backs
• paint that has ...

• how i look
• body
• boobs
• thighs
• teeth
• inability to move on
• discomfort in social situations
• time spent on the computer
• choice of love interests (generally speaking)
• disrespectfulness
• outlook on myself
• outlook on life
• inability to take criticism
• paranoia
• regret
• over-analysis

• girls
• annika
• oksana
• evelyn
• cheyenne
• ofelia
• amelia
• anneliese
• boys
• tristan
• rush
• armand
• aslan
• booker

• boys who just can't be nice
• children
• people who try too hard
• fat people who dress like they're thin
• high-pitched noises
• being treated like an object (sexual or otherwise)
• bad music
• stupidity
• awkward moments
• peas
• greasy food
• being called stupid
• hearing "i'm so fat"
• humidity
• sudden vampire fans. shut the fuck up.
• split ends
• inevitable breakups
• clingy people
• approaching people
• being told i'm not good enough or i can't ...

• facebook
• listography
• livejournal
• robert pattinson
• horrible art projects
• reading
• crying
• insomnia
• depression
• stalking/creeping (see: facebook)
• dieting
• shopping
• laughing
• friends & family
• working
• waking up late
• cleaning
• pretending
• singing
• hormonal imbalances
• day dreaming

• alan
• anthony r.
• brian
• pat
• matt f.
• serge
• ron
• dana
• britt
• nick
• mary
• matt d.
• dave
• payton
• connor
• anthony g.
• kyle

• red plastic spoon
• gum
• 17 orbit gum wrappers
• 1 piece of spearmint
• 10 pieces of wintermint
• 3 tampons
• a pad
• a condom
• my wallet
• sunglasses + case
• sephora mirror
• ipod
• various lip balms/glosses
• makeup case
• pencil case
• separate art supply case
• hello kitty change purse
• 5 twilight movie tickets
• hello kitty highlighter
• car keys + attached key chains
• ipod touch
• hello kitty chopsticks + case
• 3 pens
• blue
• black fountain
• black (nonfunct...

• wrong number - dbsk
• mirotic - dbsk
• laisse tomber les filles - france gall
• list of demands - saul williams
• amigo - shinee
• tell me - wonder girls
• nobody - wonder girls
• 이 바보 - wonder girls
• all i need - radiohead
• lasagna - the knife
• marble house - the knife
• restless - mount sims
• time to pretend - mgmt
• erotica - madonna
• long shadows - lunatic calm
• rabbit in your headlights - unkle & thom yorke
• be there - unkle &...

• boys
• light eyes
• taller than me
• tight jeans
• pajama pants
• in shape
• nice skin
• good sense of style
• beautiful teeth
• nice laugh
• sense of humor
• intelligence
• body hair (haha i'm gross)
• compassion
• thoughtfulness
• girls
• thin
• nice hair
• beautiful teeth
• laughs
• intelligence
• pretty eyes
• voices
• nice clothes
• nice skin

• sushi (mmm tuna rolls)
• celery & peanut butter
• apple slices with the peel still on
• hot green tea
• pierogi
• yogurt
• key lime pie
• zucchini cake
• bananas
• pineapple chunks
• iced green tea lattes
• bubble tea
• green tea ice cream
• dumplings
• rice crackers & seaweed
• soy milk
• salsa
• wasabi peas
• sweet potatoes
• taiyaki
• black bean noodles
• pears
• raw chopped meat & garlic powder
• scrambled eggs
• bloody rare steak

• the southern vampire chronicles series
• the vampire mysteries series
• aztec
• the alchemist
• the perks of being a wallflower
• animal farm
• 1984
• nightwatch series
• twilight series
• the host
• the happy hooker series
• harry potter series
• white oleander
• flowers for algernon
• the great gatsby
• potato tree
• hunting in harlem
• the lovely bones
• the scarlet letter
• the da vinci code

• dbsk
• leftover crack
• death from above 1979
• lykke li
• adam ant
• wham!
• younha
• tae yang
• vitalic
• wonder girls
• tv on the radio
• lcd soundsystem
• the knife
• zeigiest
• yelle
• saul williams
• sasha dith
• radiohead
• pink floyd
• mount sims
• mgmt
• clazziquai
• donkey rollers
• dizzee rascal
• bon iver
• aphex twin