mar 16 2007 ∞
may 2 2007 +
- warm weather
- a hammock
- too many bottles of liquor hanging around
- at least 4-5 bottles of wine
- to not be thought of as an alcoholic for the above two statements
- to get along with people
- to actually care whether or not i have friends
- to actually have friends
- motivation to do anything but more specifically, go out
- also, have fun
- also, work
- also, enjoy things
- also, socialize
- to understand what it is i am feeling right now
- to not feel the way i am feeling right now
- to accept that things happen
- to accept that i cannot feel badly if someone is interested in me
- to learn to be mean once in a while
- to shut up and do things
- to make some artwork
- to stop reading so many goddamn books at a time
- to eat
- to eat less
- to get absolutely ridiculously drunk and get everything out on paper
- to heal
- to move away
- to snuggle up tight
- to cry into the space between his shoulder and his neck
- to STOP yelling back, because it's pointless anyway