• Unwritten obsessions
  • get out
  • annabelle creation
  • It
aug 28 2017 ∞
sep 19 2017 +
  • summer camp
  • the woods
  • Ratter~~~
  • The Purge Anarchy
  • The Purge Election Year
  • memento
  • absentia (again)
  • mark of the vampire
  • the strangers (again)
  • descent (again)
  • sinister
  • insidious(s)(again)
  • conjuring(s)(again)
may 3 2017 ∞
sep 19 2017 +
  • divinity
  • sordid
  • lurid
  • alluring
  • tawdry
  • gaudy
  • darling
  • sinewy
  • sacharine
  • macabre
  • tragic (tragique)
  • femme
  • transcedning
  • oppulent
  • depravity/depraved
  • wicked
  • horror
  • sin
  • haunting
  • things that go bump in the night
  • tap dancing on a grave
aug 14 2016 ∞
nov 8 2017 +
  • bates motel
  • the affair
  • real housewives bh, oc, nyc, dallas
  • southern charm
  • house of cards
  • blood line
  • scream
  • scream queens
  • AHS (murder house, coven, cult)
  • Big Little Lies (Mini series)
  • Girls
  • Vanderpump Rules
  • Riverdale
  • catfish
  • teen mom (OG)
  • 13 reasons why
  • The sinner (mini series)
  • ten days in the valley
may 20 2016 ∞
oct 27 2017 +
  • Dolly Parton
  • Lana del rey
  • diane von furstenberg
  • marilyn
  • christina hendricks
  • erika girardi
  • lisa vanderpump
  • Alice (in wonderland)
  • Stevie Nicks
  • Bette Davis
  • Sasha Velour <3
  • Glinda the good witch
  • Brie Larson
  • Cleopatra
  • Hila
jun 14 2016 ∞
aug 28 2017 +
  • psychology
  • makeup
  • animals
  • horror movies/pop culture
  • spirituality/after life/etc.
  • where I want to live/travel
  • decor
jul 6 2016 ∞
aug 22 2016 +
  • hair care
    • clarifying/strengthening/shine shampoos
    • shine/strength conditioner
    • teasing combs
  • skin care
    • milky cleansers and deep cleaning/clarifying when I need it
    • face masks/sheet masks
      • purifying clay masks
      • hydrating masks
      • brightening and tightening masks
    • glowy serums
    • creamy moisturizers, light but rich
    • facial mists
    • skin oil for dry skin or overnight use
    • exfoliating skin brushes/konjac sponges
  • makeup
may 31 2016 ∞
jun 15 2016 +

Purse

  • cute key chains (not tacky or lame)
  • cute strap attached

Car

  • mirror frame
  • stearing wheel cover
  • seat covers (soft and simple)

Bed

  • varied types of pillows (not decorative cushions) body pillow, regular pillows with varied pillow cases, large white cushions, some pillows with shams
  • cute stuffed animals (not tacky/cheap)
  • pretty, soft, or simple sheets
  • a luxe comforter (down, white, or delicate, pink)
  • throw blankets of different types, one with fringe, knitted, plush, printed (cute, pretty, not tacky)
jun 23 2016 ∞
sep 25 2016 +
  • generally working out, not eating excessively
  • drinking lots of water, taking medicine first thing
  • keep reading ✅
  • get my license back ✅
  • therapy ✅
  • make own money (some)
  • have own car
  • have own place
  • eventually wealthy and successful, aka more than comfortable with money and fulfilled, able to live luxuriously*
  • married with 4-5 children <3
dec 8 2015 ∞
mar 9 2017 +
  • write love letters - tie them up.
  • flatten flowers in books
  • spells
nov 12 2013 ∞
oct 8 2015 +
  • michael pitt (in everything
  • Kyle Chandler (John Rayburn)
  • JFK
  • james franco (in freaks and geeks and the adderall diaries)
  • fox mulder
  • buster keaton
  • jake gyllenhaal (in donnie darko)
  • ryan gosling (in murder by numbers and all good things and place in the pines)
  • edward norton (in american history x)
  • eli roth
  • joseph gordon levitt (in brick and mysterious skin)
  • christian bale
  • ralph fiennes (in schindler's list)
  • cillian murphy
  • evan peters
  • aaron paul (in earlier seasons of breaking bad)
  • emile hirsch (in lords of dogtown)
nov 26 2012 ∞
oct 30 2017 +
  • detox for tomorrow
  • laundry
  • magnesium
  • no cymbalta
  • zicam and decongestant every 3 + 4 hours
  • yoga
  • lemon water - 4 glasses
  • detox tea
  • do some reading tonight for art history
  • fold laundry in room while mom is gone and watch dr. phil on computer
sep 23 2015 ∞
sep 26 2015 +
  • dinnerware-vintage/thrift/cute cheap/all different
    • bowls
    • silverware
    • cups
    • mugs
    • plates
  • cute shower curtain
  • couch
  • couch cover
  • pedestal for tv
  • things for walls (some)
  • kitchen chairs (2)
  • table cloth
  • bath mat
  • bathroom trash
  • wheely nightstand
  • lamps
  • clothes rack
  • hamper
aug 8 2013 ∞
dec 9 2017 +
  • meditation video when it said everything that's supposed to happen will happen, if you are centered and kind, are working towards what you want, humble, etc, you aren't doing anything wrong, being a "good person" whole and honest with yourself always, never lie to yourself, you won't feel bored and you won't feel lonely because you won't be searching, you can always be building and creating yourself, doing what you enjoy, what you are good at, what you love, that's what you do, we don't have to force ourselves into anything. if you are healthy and happy, you'll push yourself when you need to and you'll relax when you need to, because you listen to your body and instincts, you don't have to guess or always try harder, enjoy life, don't push yourself too much, do what's natural. if you are unhappy, focus on what you hear about true happiness and work ...
sep 3 2013 ∞
mar 28 2016 +
dec 28 2012 ∞
aug 9 2013 +
  • take wellbutrin and birth control
  • call a therapist
  • juice and almonds
  • minocycline
  • work out by 2pm
  • shower
  • lunch
  • snack
  • dinner
  • sleep

through-out day:

  • drink 4 water bottles
  • stay within calories
  • stay positive
  • relax
apr 18 2013 ∞
apr 18 2013 +
  • confident
  • smarter than me
  • strong
  • commanding
  • that they treat me like a child
  • when they get me drunk on purpose
  • tall
  • how they choose when we have sex or do something sexual
  • that they try not to hurt my feelings
  • how they look at me
  • how they take off my clothes
  • how they can be gentle with me or hurt me and like it
  • when they take advantage of me and manipulate me
  • when they kiss my neck
  • when they pull my tights off
  • when they get mad
  • when I'm around them and their guy friends and they treat me like an object to loo...
jan 9 2013 ∞
jan 9 2013 +
  • cozy in bed
  • beach (asleep)
  • laying out in yard
  • living room around/on christmas
  • my room
  • shopping
  • toms river movie theater seeing a good movie
  • nail salon
nov 26 2012 ∞
oct 4 2017 +
  • 30 day shred:
  • level 1
  • day 1
  • day 2
  • day 3
  • day 4
  • day 5
  • day 6
  • day 7
  • day 8
  • day 9
  • day 10
  • level 2
  • day 11
  • day 12
  • day 13
  • day 14
  • day 15
  • day 16
  • day 17
  • day 18
feb 10 2012 ∞
may 19 2012 +
  • sewing
  • cooking
  • dancing
  • acting
  • piano
  • singing
  • french
  • how to read tarot cards
  • about the afterlife and aliens
  • professional makeup
  • how to do hair
  • skin care
  • tbc.
aug 14 2013 ∞
sep 25 2016 +
  • pink
  • little girl
  • older men
  • secrets
  • aliens
  • sad
  • stunted
  • crying
  • sexuality complex
  • appearance
  • suicide
  • love
  • want men to take care of me/hurt me
  • want a man to touch me a lot, kiss me a lot, etc
  • drugs/alcohol
  • skinny/curvy
  • womanly
  • candles
  • romantic colors
  • glitter
aug 13 2013 ∞
apr 22 2017 +
  • summer day
  • warm: 75-78° (stays warm at night too)
  • wake up in a huge (califorania king) comfy bed with the love of my life in a big room, dimly lit because heavy and thick light mauve curtains are drawn over windows
  • feeling gorgeous - weight/hair/skin/toned/tan/white teeth/etc
  • Eat something both healthy and yummy for breakfast made by s.o. if possible
  • work out and enjoy it
  • jump in pool when done working out and lay out, pool made of stone with deep teal water
  • feel like I have a purpose, have a situation where I'm either doing something productive or in a situation where it's okay to do what I feel
  • get my nails done/massage
  • be so happy all day
nov 26 2012 ∞
jun 10 2017 +
  • monument valley
  • moon app
  • small cracks on phone screen (I think they're cute.)
  • bloody ambulances found in scary movies
  • pirates (the mystique)
oct 4 2017 ∞
oct 22 2017 +
  • cran fest
  • conte farms
  • scary movies
    • night of the living dead
    • halloween✅
    • pumpkinhead
    • poltergeist
    • creepshow
    • the funhouse
    • my bloody valentine
    • scream (all)✅
    • trick r treat✅
    • you're next✅
    • coraline
    • phantom of the megaplex
    • tower of terror✅
    • are you afraid of the dark?
    • goosebumps
    • practical magic
    • tbc.
sep 14 2017 ∞
oct 21 2017 +
  • AHS season 6 ep. 1
  • Nocturnal Animals (Dec. 6)
  • how the grinch stole Christmas (animated)
  • little girl blue
  • women he's undressed
  • who took johnnie
  • get out (feb 24 2017)
  • The Smiling Man (short film)
  • Them (french)
  • lake mungo
  • the affair season 3! (nov. 20)
  • natural born killers
  • american pastoral
  • big little lies (hbo) feb 19
  • the Belko experiment
  • xx (feb 17)
  • personal shopper (march 10 2017)
  • fued (Bette and Joan) march 5 2017
  • the beguiled (summer 2017)
  • before I fall (march 3 2017)
sep 15 2016 ∞
oct 26 2017 +
  • a - all good things, american beauty, Alice in wonderland (1951)
  • b - big fish, the babadook, beetlejuice, black swan
  • c -
  • d - donnie darko, dawn of the dead
  • e - elephant, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
  • f - funny games, the forgotten, frailty
  • g - great gastby, girl, interrupted, grease
  • h - hard candy, halloween, hush, the hand that rocks the cradle
  • i - in her shoes, the invitation
  • j - jerry maguire
  • k -
  • l - little children, the love witch, little women
  • m - mysterious skin, murder by numbers, magnolia, my soul to take, mona lisa smile
nov 25 2012 ∞
dec 9 2017 +
  • Bali
  • Morocco
  • Burano Island, Venice
  • Lido Seashore, Venice, Italy
  • Ljubljana, Slovenia
  • The Enchanted Forest, Oberursel, Germany
  • The Enchanted River in Surigao, Philippines
  • doolin/Lisdoonvarna, Ireland
aug 16 2017 ∞
sep 21 2017 +
  • everything is okay
  • nothing is under control
  • "Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final."
jul 6 2016 ∞
oct 14 2016 +
  • a beautiful shade of pink
  • effortlessly sexy clothes
  • a good horror movie
  • a good drama (family, love, personal drama, scandal, affairs, death)
  • reality television
  • the sun, laying out, getting a tan
  • myself
  • feeling confident
  • receiving packages
  • dressing up (halloween, just for fun etc.)
  • home decor - maximalism
  • clean people, clean areas
  • self help - quotes, advice, techniques
  • graphic design - the feeling of inspiration and then working and refining until it's done and it's just a gem of perfection
  • self awareness, good social behavior, niceties
jun 15 2016 ∞
apr 25 2017 +

girls

  • daisy
  • clementine
  • priscilla
  • scarlett
  • rosemary
  • Marilyn
  • Mae
  • Eden
  • Adora
  • Jane
  • Clara
  • lana
  • Alice
  • Dahlia
  • Evie
  • Wendy
  • Lucia
  • peaches
  • Lucy
  • Virginia
nov 27 2012 ∞
nov 9 2017 +

Beauty

  • glossier milky cleanser ✅ moisturizer ✅ balm, and face masks
  • new Gerard cosmetics highlighter
  • hot tools curling iron (big) ⭐ ⭐ ⭐✅
  • new beauty blender ✅
  • sleek highlighting palette
  • perfume
  • nars ita brush✅
  • Louise young super foundation brush
  • juicy shakers✅
  • sheet masks from sephora (dr. jart water replenishing, and sephora sleep masks)
  • caudalie grape face mist
  • ouai wave spray + texture spray
  • boar bristle round brush ✅
  • grandiose wide fan mascara
  • Bobbi Brown Beach oil
  • more mario bedescu rose mist
  • crest professional white strips✅
may 20 2016 ∞
oct 4 2017 +
  • Chris Farley book
  • girl on the train
  • welcome to night vale
  • swans of 5th ave
  • the secret
  • absolutely true diary of a part time Indian
  • little children
  • the messenger
  • speak
  • twilights
  • the silver crown
  • hunger games
  • in a dark dark wood
  • paper towns
  • will Grayson will Grayson
  • behind closed doors
  • sharp objects
  • the couple next door
  • the woman in cabin 10
  • the river at night
jul 27 2016 ∞
mar 27 2017 +

Primer

  • amazing cosmetics Anti-Aging Face Primer, baby skin primer, becca backlight priming filter, smashbox primer water

Foundation

  • estee lauder double wear, revlon colorstay, loreal stay matte, mac pro longwear, soap and glory one heck of a blot, milani conceal and perfect, koki foundation

Concealer

  • maybelline age rewind, maybelline fit me, sonia kashuk hidden agenda palette, nars radiant creamy concealer, koki cocncealer

Powders

  • Coty airspun powder, rimmel stay matte, laura mercier translucent loose setting powder, hourglass ambient powder, L'Oréal ...
aug 22 2016 ∞
aug 27 2017 +
  • Pomeranian
  • fluffy corgi
  • munchkin cat
  • yorkie
jun 26 2016 ∞
jun 27 2016 +
  • thinking from the inside out
  • asking : am I being kind? Am I respecting others? am I living in this moment only?
  • being myself
  • being honest with myself
  • taking the high road, being childlike, letting things roll off me
  • having fun
  • letting go
  • loving myself
  • whatever I want/do/feel is perfect and exactly how it should be
may 31 2016 ∞
sep 25 2016 +
  • dirty dancing soundtrack
  • noble oak
  • patsy cline
  • princess Chelsea
  • kwamie liv
  • Otis Redding
  • song - uoeno
  • music from all good things/American beauty/eternal sunshine of the spotless mind - jon brion
  • the shins
  • 4 non blondes what's going on
  • gene austin - tonight you belong to me
  • drake (lust for life/houstalantsvegas/club paradise/over my dead body/doing it wrong/outro/winters song)
  • as tall as lions
  • the war on drugs
  • Siouxsie and the banshees
  • lana
  • billie holiday
mar 29 2016 ∞
jan 18 2017 +
  • marilyn monroe
  • spirit/ghosts book
  • meditating book
  • about being a mother/nanny
  • the thinking body
  • about film
  • about the kennedys
  • try to get an understanding of:
  • psychology
  • religions
  • film
  • tbc.
  • read horror books (older)
  • archie comics
  • the age of innocence (watch movie too)
  • this book will save your life
  • wuthering heights
  • the bell jar
  • tbc.
aug 8 2013 ∞
sep 12 2014 +
  • maggie gyllenhaal
  • julianne moore
  • thora birch
  • kate winslet
  • winona ryder
  • nicole kidman
  • julia roberts
  • christina ricci
  • drew barrymore
  • rose mcgowan
  • brittany murphy
  • cate blanchett
aug 9 2013 ∞
apr 2 2015 +
  • Series of unfortunate events
  • Buffy
  • charmed
sep 18 2017 ∞
sep 18 2017 +
  • "It's Halloween, everyone's entitled to one good scare." (halloween)
  • "It's just strange. One day someone's walking around, going to work, alive, and then...Nothing. People just disappear, the earth just... opens up and swallows them." "Eerie. Really eerie." (American psycho)
  • "The soul of sweet delight can never be defiled."(William Blake)
  • "I'm not mad, I'm just furious."(don't bother to knock)
  • "I don't like jokes, I don't think they're funny." (Bill freaks and geeks)
  • "I belong to everybody that I walk by like hi, hi" (Lana)
  • "When you don't know what to do, sit still."
  • "Sometimes even a blind pig finds a truffle." (Hell or high water)
  • I'm an enigma wrapped in a riddle and cas...
aug 10 2016 ∞
oct 30 2017 +
  • that mystery novel from Pinterest
  • get nails done
  • 500
  • scary movies
  • tumblr
  • decor
  • tarot cards
  • nick huhn
  • laundry
  • clothes
  • go through tabs
aug 26 2017 ∞
sep 14 2017 +

Do

  • shower
  • use eye drops
  • do purifying mask✅, hydrating mask, and sheet mask✅
  • finish sheets and make bed
  • clean up room
  • LAUNDRY ALL DAY UNTIL ITS ALL DONE
  • wash rug
  • wash towels
  • Clean vanity
  • call Chatlos
  • READ
  • read more
  • be alone
  • work out
  • clean bathroom
  • take nail polish off and make nails nice/paint them
  • stay clearheaded

Buy

apr 22 2017 ∞
sep 14 2017 +
  • scream -scene before/after grocery store with red right hand, that chanty/choir type light woman voice
  • all good things -at health food store and NYC apartment and very beginning
  • great gatsby - on balcony and tea scene with daisy and gatsby, and shirt throwing
  • funny games - whenever Michael Pitt smiles at Naomi watts
  • mysterious skin - jason Gordon levvit at the playground and in motel room laying on bed and when he has his head at an angle and when he smiles
  • american beauty - kevin spacey and mena in living room with annie lennox, end with shooting, anytime kevin spacey is alone (especially shirtless) being daddy like
  • Alice in wonderland - flowers singing all in a golden afternoon, walrus and carpenter, in a world of my own with Dinah
  • big fish - spector poem by steve buscemi,...
oct 18 2016 ∞
oct 22 2017 +

pink, white, black, neutrals and some red that looks warm

  • chandelier for room
  • candles
  • crystal candle holders
  • drapes for around bed - pinks/whites/creams
  • new curtains
  • new rug
  • fancy antiquey stool for makeup table
  • new garbage can
  • even newer garbage can
  • new jersey sheets
  • new pretty sheets
  • BIG ornate mirror
  • quality wall decor (romantic Renaissance art/romantic art/other starlets or old Hollywood in general/old horror)
  • low non-visible bed frame or metal bronzey or antique gold romantic style
  • new bed side table?
jan 2 2015 ∞
apr 22 2017 +
  • true romance✅
  • wild at heart
  • valley of the dolls✅
  • dracula (both)
  • nosferatu
  • ruby
  • running scared
  • salvage
  • what ever happened to baby jane
  • the captive
  • red headed woman
  • baby face
  • female
  • the vanishing✅
  • original wicker man
  • the man who smiles
  • dinner at eight
  • the public enemy
  • leave her to heaven
  • The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari
  • chinatown
apr 10 2014 ∞
aug 27 2017 +
  • bible belt
  • New Orleans
  • Nashville, Memphis, Tennessee (Graceland)
  • Charleston, South Carolina (The Palmer Home)
  • Savannah, Georgia
  • Puerto Vallarta
  • beverly hills hotel
  • chateau marmont
  • tokyo, bunny island, internet/gaming places, cute cafes, downtown, neon areas, clubs
  • marilyns house
  • plaza hotel
  • catacombs
  • pyraminds
oct 7 2016 ∞
apr 22 2017 +
  • go to Edwards school, mt. Misery, trails, etc
  • water park
  • beach✅
  • shell ✅
  • camping
  • movies ✅
  • broadway
  • cruise
  • antiquing ✅
jun 28 2016 ∞
dec 6 2016 +
  • focus on what you DO want ALWAYS
  • fill your mind with beauty
  • BOOKS :
    • dying to be me by anita moorjani
    • the awakening heart by betty j eadie
  • VIDEOS :
jun 15 2016 ∞
dec 6 2016 +
  • vacation/cruise/travel
  • shop
  • boob job
  • nose job
  • lip injections
  • be skinnier and fit
  • go see movies ✅
  • nyc
  • car
  • self help
  • get a therapist✅
  • laptop/computer ✅
  • iphone 6 + ✅
  • record player + gene austin music etc
  • go to barnes and noble and read more✅
  • puppy
  • lingerie
  • nails done weekly
  • massages
sep 19 2015 ∞
apr 22 2017 +
  • romantic
  • lost (not always bad)
  • dream
  • occult
  • fantasy
  • pink
  • sad
  • cute
  • reckless
  • opulence
aug 29 2013 ∞
mar 8 2014 +
  • yesstyle
  • light in the box
  • houzz
  • h&m
  • ali express
  • rakuten
  • etsy
sep 2 2013 ∞
oct 8 2015 +
  • James Mangold
  • Sophia Coppola
aug 8 2013 ∞
aug 8 2013 +
  • I want some things to have wheels on them so it's easier to clean
  • a bay window
  • a garden with pink, white, red, and green flowers, a rose tree, lights
  • a white little car and a white/beige big SUV
  • high ceilings
  • a huge handmade vanity (old Hollywood style, dressing room vibe, light bulbs)
  • an antique chaise lounge
  • lots of trees around the house
  • a tufted and/or antique mirror headboard
  • arrangements of pink/white/red roses/flowers around the house
  • a mirrored antique tray for my perfumes/etc.
  • a spiral staircase up to a sunroom
  • a mini grand piano
  • mother of pearl decor/flooring/etc
  • L shaped desk
dec 28 2012 ∞
nov 8 2017 +

makeup

  • new estee lauder double wear
  • nars bronzing powder (laguna)
  • Photo Finish Primer
  • anastasia brow pen $21 (sephora)
  • nars super orgasm lipgloss (sephora)
nov 18 2012 ∞
mar 25 2014 +
  • sherlock holmes
  • the sixth sense
  • magnolia
  • requiem for a dream
  • saving private ryan
  • pineapple express
  • children of men
  • the machinist
  • the descent
  • silent hill
nov 26 2012 ∞
aug 27 2014 +
  • fox mulder is cute
  • it's 4:40pm
  • I'm hungry
  • weight loss
  • I want to take sleeping pills at night (like seroquel but w/o the appetite)
  • also want to take wellbutrin twice a day
  • I want to use my new mask + gel
  • I want to read nylon
nov 25 2012 ∞
dec 24 2012 +
  • beautiful
  • happy
  • warm
  • tan
  • flowers, green trees, grass
  • so fun
  • pools
  • beach
  • windows open
  • warm at night
  • easy
  • shorts
  • short dresses
  • flip flops
  • parties
  • walking around philly
  • sunshine
  • nice rainy days
  • boys
  • sleeping late/staying up late
nov 25 2012 ∞
dec 24 2012 +
  • journal
  • take medication on time/put phone away from bed so you wake up
  • go to doctor
  • occ with marena
  • lotion
  • stop crying so much
  • CALL ST. FRANCIS COUNSELING CENTER
  • call apple
  • call paula
  • get ID
  • make outline
  • go to H&M
  • finish the 30 day shred
  • get a dress for cody's graduation
  • get new makeup before new york
dec 26 2011 ∞
dec 24 2012 +
  • grey
  • coats
  • don't want to go outside
  • mini heater
  • warm blankets
  • bed ♡
  • halloween, thanksgiving, christmas
  • sweaters, leggings, socks
  • bare trees
  • so cold
nov 25 2012 ∞
dec 24 2012 +
  • lipstick/lip gloss
  • blush
  • ballet shoes/tutus
  • cherry blossoms
  • my favorite cereal bowl + blanket
  • rose diamonds
  • cotton candy
  • victorias secret pink
  • strawberry milkshakes
  • blush wine
  • light pink roses
  • my diaries
  • my cheeks
  • my lips
  • pink floral sheets
  • pink candles
  • pink crystal lamps
nov 26 2012 ∞
apr 22 2017 +