aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +
  • "rash boyish-ness" = trouble = gemini moon = fun = trouble
jan 10 2017 ∞
jan 10 2017 +
  • my smell (really my coconut perfume) i now have a reason to restock. it could be pheromones but we will go with the perfume.
  • my pretty cursive
  • the way i touch his face and stroke the stubble of his beard. it's more soft than i expected i like it a lot; against my face.
  • touch his hands, which i like to they are soft
  • my face, he says it's so soft. thank you korean beauty products and my wonderful diet of cutting out corn syrup
  • my kisses
  • my bottom lip, which is to quote "delicious"
  • how calm i make him feel. he's never felt that way before he says. he says he feels lucky
  • his "luck"
nov 15 2016 ∞
nov 15 2016 +
  • although i do often write about my wishes and longings and sad times
  • i am essentially happy with life.
  • not overjoyed and beyond elated.
  • i could always do better, achieve more.
  • but as of now i remain just content and at times very happy.
  • i'm learning to find happiness within myself everyday and to grow as a better person and a happy girl
  • i love life and i think remembering that life means to just be and live every day through curiosity is very important.
  • doing things that make yourself happy and proud and others around happy and proud also (not for the sake of others happiness however, just knowing that things you do have a positive outcome that brings happiness to others)
  • last year this time i was so sad and unhappy and did not know to how fill the void...
mar 24 2013 ∞
mar 24 2013 +
  • Scan Bil Donovoan's Sketches and put them in an urban landscape
  • Study for art history- write it all out sentences and essays included
  • Redo sketches for Marcos
  • Get main points for speech
  • Pick Quote for Designing with Type
  • Finishes poster and start word for Typography class.
oct 19 2012 ∞
oct 19 2012 +
  • started restoring this awesome poster at work. it's a vintage Japanese poster for a movie done by Akira Kusrosawa called Sanjuro. The poster is beautiful and advertised in Italian. Super big and graphic. Japanese Samurai ready to fight. "Blood" dripping from the title Sanjuro.
  • I need to watch this film.
  • i wish i had my camera to take a photo of it. a tangible keepsake for something that i'll never have since it's going to go back to it's owner.
  • i hope i get to finish working on it on thursday when i go back. it's so beautiful.
  • at least i got to touch it and i want to touch it again.
  • after work i met up with my mom at whole foods to get some lunch and snacks to eat at Van Cortlandt Park in the Bronx. We went to see the NY Philharmonic play.
jul 18 2012 ∞
jul 18 2012 +
  • born confused
  • diary
  • the shining
  • memoirs of a geisha
  • hitchhikers guide to the galaxy
  • lord of the flies
  • lord of the rings trilogy
  • american psycho
  • we need to talk about kevin
  • a clockwork orange
  • 1Q84
  • 1984
jun 12 2012 ∞
jun 23 2012 +
  • (forever)
  • a
  • virgin
  • who
  • can't
  • drive
jun 18 2012 ∞
jun 18 2012 +
  • had a really pleasant high today. $35 worth. i need my unemployment to kick in today, i sttill have to tell medar im receiving it and i have to pay akire back $10. karli $9

it was strange i felt high but didnt feel that psychedelic high. which i love from shrooms. this was more internal. like i was waiting patiently for it to kick in and to see wonderful colors and the textures and the patterns respond to my heightened state. we went to the brooklyn museum btw. but none of that happened. it was just so internal and festering. like an anxious feeling. like i wanted to vomit. like i wanted to lay down. my head felt a bit light as well. it was so different this time. i'll reflect and say it was fine rather than be disappointed cos i wasnt fullly upset. after i thought it was just me being unable to get high. we vaped a b...

jul 29 2017 ∞
aug 23 2017 +
  • his rash boyish -ness. it's a lot but reminds me it's okay to be the girl i feel like i am
  • his soft rough man hands
  • his voice
  • his spanish voice lol
  • his love for plantains
  • his comics
  • his fresh stubble
  • how he makes me draw in his sketchbook and my hands tremble not from nerves of drawing but nerves of being next to him so close in his sketchbook
  • his hands on me and holding my hands
  • his eyes "color"
  • his nose
  • his lips are perfect and soft like i imagine my own to be
  • his excitement to see me. he always tells me he is excited. i contain mine and try not to explode and blush n hide behind h...
nov 15 2016 ∞
nov 15 2016 +

It was never that serious

aug 7 2014 ∞
aug 7 2014 +

there is nothing more perfect than the feeling of summer's arrival. it's just the promise of weightlessness.

jun 12 2013 ∞
jun 24 2013 +
  • something truly beautiful about beautiful people
  • i'm not talking about people who look physically attractive, but people who just radiate beauty
  • the way they live
  • dress
  • carry themselves
  • how they express themselves through their crafts
  • it's inspiring and makes me want to achieve that beauty
  • to be comfortable with the person that i am
  • it's so captivating and just draws you in: beauty
  • to feel and be beautiful
  • i want to create beautiful things
  • so I can share the beauty that inspired me - to feel - with others so that they can have that experience
jan 13 2013 ∞
jan 13 2013 +
  • You're making excuses and talking out of your ass.
  • No one has time for that.
  • People don't even like whiners and people who give up so easily. (this one is interesting cos i remember dishing out this advice. maybe i should remember this always)
  • No one has time for that and some people don't give a shit.
aug 4 2012 ∞
aug 4 2012 +
  • The Green Hornet
  • Kiki's Delivery Service
  • The Science of Sleep
  • Scott Pilgrim Vs The World
  • Friends with Kids
  • Pan's Labyrinth
  • 28 Days Later
  • Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Pt. 2
  • Apocalypto
  • Monsoon Wedding
  • Glitter
  • Donnie Darko
  • Hitch
  • Ponyo
  • The Royal Tenenbaums
  • Kill Bill Vol. 1
  • Motorcycle Diaries
  • Fantastic Mr. Fox
  • The Amazing Spider Man
  • Midnight in Paris
jun 13 2012 ∞
aug 28 2012 +
  • playing with negative shape
  • continuous line
  • working with mass rather than line
  • working digitally- photoshop skills
  • watercolor
  • practice painting with acrylics
  • lots and lots of sketching from life
  • museum visits!!
jun 23 2012 ∞
jul 1 2012 +
  • become a working illustrator
  • also print maker
  • live in an apartment or brownstone with brick walls
  • earth toned wall paint
  • books- mostly inspiration and art books
  • un-used gold stained antique frames lying around in a corner
  • paper and art bins
  • warm lighting
  • welcome mat rug
  • 1 bedroom
  • view of the city
  • brooklyn
jun 13 2012 ∞
jun 13 2012 +

How granpa's room became a clutter

She kicked daddy The bed was thrown out 2 months later It got painted over (sloppily) New outlets in stalled (sloppily)

Jessica never took action So I took the space for my paints And painted well from August till June I could have painted some more but summer made it a chore We began the renovations in November I think and the moving of things from the kitchen to Grandpa's room happened And it was the last free open space My mother in that time started bringing home tubs Struggling down the block with them To place bills and clothes in them I hate that I let her do that I wish I stopped her

aug 10 2017 ∞
aug 29 2017 +
  • sleeping with you is great, but i hate to miss out on those hours we are not awake together.
jan 10 2017 ∞
jan 10 2017 +
  • sometimes when I or a friend brings up max rejecting me it's either a conversation where I remain in neutral composure about the situation or I feel completely silly.
  • I'll feel silly for liking him b/c I get the he was nvr interested in you or he was stringing u along. Both I believe. They sting a bit but I get over it, b/c it's not that srs.
  • I also get the well he's your only straight friend. Not tru. I've had straight male friends all my life, and even tho max is the closest I've ever had in terms of a close friendship in my young adult life I know how to function with a male in a friendship and only feel s/t platonic. Tho dnt get me wrong I've def tried seeing them in a romantic sense, but I could nvr b into it honestly cos they're not my type n he n I can only function well as a g...
jul 23 2015 ∞
jul 23 2015 +

is it silly that i want a boy to break my heart? knowing that i will devote myself to him, he could in fact use this to his advantage and bring on an onslaught of emotions and tears and future fears. is it silly that i want something new to add to a chapter in my unwritten auto-bio. a chapter that involves a romance that shouldn't be. i need a valid reason to cry and hate boys and feel vulnerable and dedicate nights to reading warsan shire poetry and days where i only wear black as i mourn the time i was once a naive girl who let someone into her sheltered heart, yet still remain naive. is it silly that i wish you knew that i liked you so you could do this. to say kind words and make me smile and say you like me (love me) even if you don't mean it. but i know you wouldn't because you are beyond genuine and sweet and a good and kind hearted friend (even if you are asshole). but i need a rea...

mar 24 2013 ∞
mar 24 2013 +
  • seeing the NY Philharmonic slightly put my life into a new perspective
  • I want to have a career that let's me travel the world at leisure and for work
  • it seems great traveling the world through and for your profession, like musicians and fine artists do
  • the philharmonic is wonderful.
  • the conductors look awesome and so controlled and at ease when they orchestrate
  • the costumes for the final act of don giovanni were cute and pretty and that one asian chick was hot
  • i want to be a costume designer
  • i thought/debated on going to a party tonight, a really great party that i already paid for- and decided against it
  • i think i may be a bad friend for always flaking on people and not living up to my word
  • my indecisive-ness gets me no where
jul 1 2012 ∞
jul 1 2012 +
  • oatmeal/porridge
  • strawberry jam on crackers
  • water (lol)
  • or peppermint tea w. two sugars
jun 13 2012 ∞
jun 13 2012 +