• A valentine
• A bottle of Jack Daniels
• Red Vines
• Sour gummy worms / sour gummy octopi
• A bottle of ginger ale
• Lilies
• A kitty

Girl friends:

• Liana Katherman
• Melissa Katherman
• Alison Guajardo
• Megan Baker
• Alyssa Sharf

Guy friends:

• Christian Butardo
• Mason Grove
• Mark Vasquez
• Zack Ceniceros

I need more friends.

• White rice w/soy sauce
• Cheese tortellini/ravioli
• Kraft macaroni and cheese
• Alberto's quesadillas
• Chicken-flavored Top Ramen
• McDonald's french fries
• Coffee ice cream
• Cranberry bliss bars from Starbucks
• Hash browns
• Mashed potatoes (home-made OR instant)
• Buttermilk pancakes w/maple syrup
• Peanut butter and boysenberry/grape jelly sandwiches on sourdough bread
• Grilled cheese sandwiches on white bread
• Potato soup from The Corner Bakery
• Penne pasta w/butter and cheese
• Teriyaki chicken/beef
• Chicken fingers from Burger King
• Apple pie from Marie Calendar's (or even store-bought)
• English muffins

• When everyone in my car sings along to an old song
• Having my back scratched
• Dying my hair
• Disneyland
• HANES sweatshirts
• My little girl slippers
• Ginger Ale
• Glasses
• Finding money in my pockets
• Chapstick
• Sleeping in
• Winter

• The Social Network
• It's Kind Of A Funny Story
• Megamind
• Tangled
• Morning Glory
• Burlesque
• Love and Other Drugs
• Life As We Know It
• Zoolander
• Pretty In Pink

• I fucking miss you.

• Give A Damn - A Rocket To The Moon
• Count'em One, Two, Three - The Maine
• Starry Eyed (Jakwob Remix) - Ellie Goulding
• I Caught Fire - The Used
• Home - Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros
• Have Faith In Me - A Day To Remember
• Dakota - A Rocket To The Moon
• I Must Be Dreaming - The Maine
• If It Means A Lot To You - A Day To Remember
• Montauk - Bayside
• Walls - All Time Low
• We Intertwined - The Hush Sound
• I Will Follow You into the Dark - Death Cab For Cutie

http://8tracks.com/shutupamanda/but-only...

• NOT DINNER FOR ALL OF MY FRIENDS
  • Except Liana ... Because I love her
• New jeans
• New sweatshirts
• New bras (especially when they fit PERFECTLY)
• Plugs!
• Hair dye
• Albertos, all the time
  • Decent food in general

• Breaking someone's heart
• Kissing the person you love goodbye for the last time
• Not getting the job
• Watching someone you love cry
• Being completely alone
• Being really cold after a hot shower

• Make an ugly Christmas sweatshirt
  • Wear it to Christmas Eve with my family, and possibly everywhere else I go.
• Buy everyone's Christmas gifts
• Find a fucking job
• Make a gingerbread house
• Own on my math final and actually pass the class
• Completely clean out and pack up my room

• Deathly Hallows symbol on my right side (up by bra)
• Buddy Walk symbol on my left forearm
• Be
  
  ve on my left foot
• Ship & small octopus on my right thigh with "We all carry these things inside of us that no one else can see"
• Anchor & starfish on my left thigh with "They hold us down like anchors, they drown us out at sea"
• Matching sister tattoo (yet to be planned) with Krystel
• Lock, Shock and Barrel crawling up my left ribs
• Two-faced Mayor as comedy/tragedy masks on my left shoulder

• Passive-aggressive posts on Tumblr that I know are about me
• People who complain all the time about dumb shut
• People who aren't grateful of anything
• Kidney infections
• Chipped nail polish
• People who write about me on Tumblr in general
• Lying to my mom about who I'm hanging out with

Old house:

• Bag linens
• Take drawers out of my dresser to new house
• Finish packing my room / bathroom
• Pack mom's jeans
• Take toy bins / frame
• Downstairs bathroom
• Pack things from the hutch
• Take boxed food
• Downstairs closest

GOALS:

• Only eat fast food three times a week
• Learn to accept Mason's compliments
  • Learn to accept compliments in general
• Save up money to move out
• Take at least 12 units at Citrus in the spring
• Get a job (and keep it)
• Stay at a steady, semi-healthy weight
• Adopt a healthier sleeping pattern

THINGS TO DO:

• Get at least two new tattoos
• Learn to knit
• Learn to listen better
• Learn to hate people a little less
• Learn to love myself a little more
• Research Buddhist beliefs
• Read more often

• Cute text messages
• Promises to hang out
• Affection in general
  • Hand holding, forehead/nose/cheek/neck kisses, cute little bites/lip biting, hugs from behind
• Boys who smoke with me
• Boys who don't mind losing their shirts
• Boys with plugs
• Tattoos and piercings
• Drinking and dancing
• Staying out past my curfew and not getting in trouble

• When Tumblr is down for maintenance
• When people don't text back
• When it rains at night
• When my face breaks out
• Always feeling sick to my stomach
• My social anxiety
• When people go back on their word
• When people make a big deal out of something, yet act like it doesn't apply to them
• That the Corner Bakery only serves potato soup Wednesday-Saturday
• When people who are straight-edge act superior to others
• When people call me
• How dead my bangs are

• Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
• It's Kind Of A Funny Story
• Sense and Sensibility and Seamonsters
• Fight Club
• Choke
• Paper Towns
• Catcher In The Rye
• Lord Of The Flies