1. naming my first daughter after my mother (Laura)
2. how lucky I am to have found a guy that treats me well
3. I want to learn how to make a marble cheesecake
4. maybe moving away from Chicago because no one here talks anymore. I would have to convince Dirk to move with me, but hopefully he will want to as well
5. college applications for next year.. if I can get money from the gov. for being emancipated then I wi...

• $$$$ ruins things
• I hate how everyone is too busy to talk
• I miss hanging out
• The weather sucks
• Please call me so we can catch up
• I'll give you money that he owes you, please just be my friend again
• I called and sang to your voicemail on your birthday and you never called back

Mrs. Mullin thinks Steph and I are so "avant-garde":

• tarnished ugly mind, charmning nightmares came to the doorman
• lukewarm milk pretending to be static on the television set
• I spoke of unpleasant porcelain, an artist swam dramatically trapped within boiling skin
• listening to pocketwatches, time disappeared over the years
• invisible sisters jumped impatiently, watching cliche bullshit
• I lied about feelin...

• If you would let me inside, I would give you my everything-I-have-left. It's not really valuable and it's pretty much unbreakable at this point.
• Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my hearts going to cave in. (love this movie)
• I'd really like to smoke marijuana with Al Pacino
• I may go here

Map out your future, but do it in pencil:

• I might like something like this
• related to Elliott Smith:
• "amity caught stars in her arms"
• something like this which I really like
• Memory related:
• A lion's head on my foot in earth tones with sunflowers entangled in the mane
• "believe in this sweet madness" (probably on my ankle above the lion's head)
• "Like prisoners buried in a cave, led by perilous route back in...

1. book fair on Saturday 5/9
2. registering for classes at HW soon!
3. Boats 'N Hoes party at Dan Davis' house 5/15
4. last day of class 5/19 (Semesters to follow)
5. graduation!!! 5/29
6. graduation party/bonfire(not really looking forward to this) 5/30
7. moving out (need to figure out exact date soon)

1. hair appointment at 9 for highlights
2. get nails done at Brenda's house around 12
3. braid in my hair/straighten the rest
4. get dressed
5. Victor picks me up at 2:45
6. take pictures around 3:00
7. dinner at 5 at Prime Quarter
8. pre party somewhere (?)
9. dance 8:30-11:30
10. go to Angela's for the night

Update: Got completely trashed at Tyler's farmhouse before the dance, went to the dance, went to buy more liquor, went to Angie's...

• re-pierce my nose, and possibly pierce my monroe or some strange place on my ear
• move in with Emily and Nicholas Ridiculous
• escape my mother (finally!)
• Bonnaroo (probably not going to happen, but it's a possibility)
• get a new job in Chicago
• Bro Party!
• meet cute boys
• mend old friendships/relationships
• roadtrip with Emily
• go to Canada or Mexico
• read a lot of books
• attend a fancy dinner and drink wine
• flea marke...

1. freshly baked chocolate chip cookies
2. cookie dough
3. asparagus with soy sauce
4. bagels from Panera w/extra cream cheese
5. basil tofu from Thai Hut
6. strawberry/mango daiquiri
7. toast with real butter

• I don't understand why I am so drawn to him, and why I want to be with him so badly.
• he isn't even that good looking
• but he is perfect to me, I suppose
• He called me today to come over
• my grandpa's funeral is tomorrow
• my mom wanted me to stay in
• I cried because I couldn't see him
• Why did I do that?
• Bad bad bad bad idea
• but very fun
• very stupid
• I still miss the previous tenants of my heart, and it sucks to thi...

• graduate
• buy things I need
• bedroom stuff
• new hair straightener
• lose 15 more pounds (I've lost 10 already)
• let my hair grow out
• figure out where I am going to college
• register for school asap
• figure out work study stuff if possible
• get a job in Chicago
• pack all of my belongings up

• the happy glasses
• afghan in the woods
• Emily's VW bus
• going to Chipotle/Jimmy John's/Panera
• teasing
• sitting downtown Cherry Valley
• Bauman Park
• going to the skate park/smoking squares at the skate park
• California in the Summer
• Audrey and Kelsey
• Longboarding to the plaza
• Coldstone cake batter ice cream
• Surfing/Taco Bell on the beach
• adventures with Emily (usually involved the smoking of weed and then Taco Bell, P...

• hot over cold
• baths over showers
• dogs over cats
• fruity candy over chocolate bars
• Summer over Winter
• old over new
• boys over girls
• scruffy over cleanly shaven
• truth over lies
• yes over no
• vinyl over CDs
• noise over silence
• freedom over religion
• magazines over newspapers
• vanilla over chocolate
• apples over bananas
• reading over televison
• arrival over departure
• bongs over bowls
• sandals over heels
• deep over shallow
• West over E...

1. Elliot Smith
2. Jude Law
3. Sondre Lerche
4. Hugh Laurie
5. Conor Oberst
6. John Stirratt (everyone likes Jeff Tweedy)
7. Emile Hirsch
8. Anthony Kiedis
9. Kevin Drew
10. Devendra Banhart, ha.
11. Patrick Fugit
12. James Franco
13. Jack White
14. Jim Sturgess
15. Chad Michael Murray (bro)
16. Kevin Spacey

• Ambulance sirens
• Boys that lie
• Cake (unless it is ice cream cake)
• Drug tests
• Eavesdroppers
• False teeth
• Goat's milk
• Hamburgers
• Insults
• January
• Ketchup smell
• Licorice (black)
• Mother (except recently she has been alright)
• Nosy neighbors
• Obedience
• Pop quizzes
• Quiet
• Restlessness
• Sobriety
• Television commercials
• Urine
• Vodka (well, it's a love/hate relationship)
• Water beds
• X-rays
• Yorkshire puppy rat things
• Zoos

• Airports
• Blogging
• Cannabis
• Direct deposit
• Elliot Smith
• Friends that stick around
• Games
• Halloween
• Incense
• Jimmy John's
• Kayaking
• Liquor and loud music
• Money
• Nicotine
• Orchids
• Pie
• Question game
• Reese's cups
• Sex
• Tater tots
• Unfamiliar places
• Vicodin
• Watermelon
• X :]
• Yellow
• Zodiac

• games/board games
• Mancala (that one marbles game)
• Apples to Apples
• Twister
• Scrabble
• making lists, both on listography.com and in my listography book
• Capri Sun juice pouches
• short skirts
• skinny arms
• stop motion films
• Continental 8 original flavored soy milk
• orchids
• big flannnel shirts
• the flea market
• libraries
• working out (bro behavior, I know)
• hiking
• riding bikes
• swimming
• television
• places
• Madison, WI
• Chicago, IL
• SanFra...

• I can't get that sound you make out of my head. I can't even figure out what's making it.
• You used to give me butterflies (of the stomach variety)
• I miss miss miss miss miss you.
• My job is actually somewhat enjoyable
• minus the fact that I can no longer wear my black corduroys and have to purchase ugly black pants.
• I get hit on a lot at work as well, which is not necessarily a bad thing when the boys ar...

• April 9th/10th, leave for Florida
• going to Key West and Ft. Meyers Beach
• April 19th, arrive home from Florida
• picking up fat paycheck
• April 20th, 4:20...
• having a night with David
• May 2nd, Senior Prom :/
• May 4th, Senior Skip Day
• May 22nd, last day of classes
• May 29th, Graduation!
• sometime in the beginning of June, moving out!

1. Pushing Daisies
2. Skins
3. It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia
4. House (I have seen approx. 5 episodes so far, and I like it)

• art director for a magazine like Nylon, Under the Radar, or Vogue
• audio technician that records bands for a label
• art director for a record label
• music/art therapist
• journalist for National Geographic (of course)
• boutique owner
• cafe owner?
• art history teacher
• modeling agent
• really hip real estate agent that goes to those cool parties

1. It honestly was beautifully bold, like trying to save an ice cube from the cold, but even if we had been sure enough it's true we really didn't know. Even if we knew which way to head but still we probably wouldn't go.
2. He said really I just wanna dance. Good and evil matched perfect it's a great romance. I can deal with some psychic pain, if it'll slow down my higher brain. Veins full of disappeari...

1. How to love, and keep.
2. Why my parents act the way they do, and do the things they do.
3. The game of chess
4. French, Spanish, Russian
5. Why my mom keeps trying to "save me" from the path that I want to be on. I know what I want.. and I am fine, really.
6. How someone could do something so horrible.
7. Laws of attraction
8. The transportation system in Chicago (I will eventually have to know this)
9. Why we aren't friends an...

• It's pretty bad, because I think I like him a lot.
• He is a bad influence... like bad.
• Good kisser
• Cute face
• I trust him even though he's shady to certain people.
• I wish he would spend more time with me
• He is moving to Chicago too, so that's good.
• It's not even so much that I want to date him.. I just want to be with him. I don't know... I am stupid.

• I got a job at Wendys!
• Everyone is so dark there. Hah
• It is by a tanning place that I used to go to, and I decided to go tanning today.
• I got burnt, and dislike tanning a lot.
• I will finally have money!!
• Yay

1. I hope I never wake up in puke again. Vodka is not my friend.
2. I can't fucking remember!!
3. My mom found out about pretty much everything.
4. I am probably getting a job tomorrow (fingers crossed)
5. I need to convince my parents that I am okay
6. I need to get my phone back
7. Get out of going to Bridges (treatment)
8. Buy things when I get my tax return
9. I need a new wardrobe
10. boy? maybe.
11. I don't trust myself right now.
12. I lik...

• I get attached to people extremely easily. If you show me a little attention and I think you are an awesome person I expect you to give me attention all the time. This gets annoying. I don't express this feeling to anyone, and I never complain about being ignored, but in my head I get frustrated.
• I'd really like to make steady friends at school. People that I can hang out with quite frequently.
• I re...

1. Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury (required)
2. Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton (required/already read)
3. Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card (required)
4. Side Step Me by Alex Geana
5. High Fidelity by Nick Hornby
6. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith
7. Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathon Safran Foer
8. Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
9. The Collected Poems by Zbigniew Herbert
10. Like You'd Understand, Anyway by Jim Shepa...

• Sew (well) because I want to make cute clothes for myself so I don't waste 23952035 dollars at stores like UO.
• Learn more Spanish. I am pretty good at formulating sentences and understanding things, but it'd be handy to be fluent.
• Also learn Dutch so I can travel to Holland someday.
• Knit/crochet a scarf for a cute boy (Need to find said boy)
• Convince people to give me money for free
• Upholster a chair
• Ma...

• Become a surrogate mother
• Donate my eggs= $8000/egg (can do every 4 months or so)
• Exotic Dancer (lololol, no)
• Sell things door-to-door
• Get a real job
• Work study
• Ughhh, I need money.
• FAFSA makes no sense.

1. Most likely, I will not do anything fun on New Years
2. I have gotten rather large
3. I have no way of paying for college, and my "parents" aren't going to help me
4. My hair desperately needs to be dyed
5. I am uninspired, and bored with my life
6. I am stupidstupidstupid and miss him
7. He is unattainable at the moment
8. I want to do something incredible, but I have no clue where to start
9. I need to read that Charles Bukows...

1. FINISH my colored pencil shading
2. Come up with ideas for my mixed media
3. Hang out with Emily (duh?)
4. Christmas parties
5. Chicago
6. Drive somewhere interesting (be drove someplace, in my case)
7. Not sit around for the first week and a half not doing anything, and then realize that break is almost over, and I have nothing to show for it.
8. Figure him out
9. Buy a cape (finally)
10. Finish Christmas shopping
11. Make cookies and th...

• Kennedy
• Sutton
• Anthony
• Delilah
• Ellen
• Rilo
• Honor
• Elliot
• Eden
• Forest
• Adele
• Sienna
• Rivers
• Lola
• Lisar
• Kyle (for a girl or boy)
• Peyton
• Amelie
• Raegan
• Ezra
• Jack
• Presley
• Leo
• Axel
• Mae
• Lane
• Dallas
• Bjorn
• Jackson
• Summer

• Garage Band so I can start a podcast (I really want to do this)
• A new camera lens. I hope to get a cheap one on eBay because Drew wants his back :///
• Vinyl vinyl vinyl
• New clothes
• A pair of sturdy leather boots
• Thick warm fuzzy socks
• A trip to Europe!

1. I don't know where to start and when to end
2. I either can't get into them, or can't get over them
3. I always like someone I can't have
4. Or someone who has a girlfriend
5. Or someone too old
6. Or too young
7. Or too short
8. Or too tall
9. I can never seem to find a boy who sticks around
10. and has decent taste in music
11. and mary jane
12. Or dresses decent.
13. I need to expand my horizons
14. I am a bitch
15. I don't like to hang out alone all the ...

• Drive more often
• Dye my hair a pretty color
• Buy a cape
• And some tights
• Figure out when I am going to Chicago next
• Apply to colleges (SAIC, Eugene Lang, Columbia, Roosevelt, UWW)
• Make new friends
• Break the bad news to you-know-who
• Decide what I want
• Attempt to make peace with people who hate me
• Register my computer under our wifi so I can speak to Emily and the rest of the world
• Charge my phone nightly
• Work ou...

1. Apparently I did a few lines of coke and gave Spencer Carajuana a blow job AND fucked him all within my 20 minute study hall. Lololol.
2. And apparently I am lying and starting rumors about me and a certain someone. Not proud of it. Sorry. Wasn't great, and I didn't tell people. So stfu.
3. I'm in Chicago in the SAIC computer lab with Emily DAY
4. PIE is good
5. Yelling outside of Cameron's apartment about stupid...

1. Page France
2. Born Ruffians
3. The Hood Internet
4. Lykke Li
5. The Teenagers
6. This HORRIBLE cd in art class. It sounds like a dying cow with Evanessence in the background. Some boy brought it in on Monday and we still listen to it.
7. Metric
8. Micah P. Hinson (Thank you, Emily)
9. Really old r&b and rap songs from middle school

• If you are going to do something, be willing to own up to it. Don't try and lie about it, especially to one of your best friends. They'll find out eventually.
• I hate how this hurts me so much, but doesn't even render in your heart or mind. It's so easy for you.
• Don't tell me about girls that you like. I don't want to know. Well, I do.. but it's too hard.
• You try way too hard, but you are always there...

1. Twitter
2. You have changed, and I'm proud of you for some reason.
3. I haven't changed.. but I've grown up a little.
4. Only time will tell
5. Love isn't a feeling, it's an ability
6. I have no skills
7. I need money, but not to buy happiness with.
8. I think way too much, and I think about the same things everyday. I go through this story in my head, and convince myself that it is reality. I know it's not. It just hasn't s...

• I need to get over this. It's over, but it's fucking not fair. It's really not.
• Do you like him? I want to know, but I will not ask.
• I am glad there is no drama. Really.
• Tomorrow morning is going to be awesome.
• You need to get over yourself. You treat me like complete shit, and I've kind of known this all along, but chosen to ignore it. I guess I love you, but fuck it. I just want to have fun now. I h...

• Family
• is who you make it
• I want to know my biological dad
• And the rest of my family
• But my friends are my family
• St. Louis
• Might move there later in life
• But it probably won't happen for a while
• it's just a thought
• Chicago
• Halloween
• is going to be funnn
• I want to dress up.. and I need costume ideas
• Apartment
• Emily's mom better let her
• I want a pet turtle
• Taking a year off
• Might be a good idea
• Or could be a very ve...

1. Apparently my mom/aunt really loves restraining orders, because one was put against my biological dad
2. I wished every year on my birthday from ages 9-14 that he would come into my life
3. And I blamed him
4. He contacted me, and he wants to meet me now
5. I am scared
6. And really pissed at her
7. I want to know him
8. I have all of the contact information
9. Someone needs to drive me to St. Louis
10. Hopefully over Christmas break...

1. I don't know what I want from you, or how I will get it.
2. I'm sick of this bullshit
3. I need you around
4. You obviously still like her
5. I don't know why I hang out with you, or let you do things like that. I don't like you, and I hope you don't get the wrong impression.
6. I miss my friends
7. I feel sick to my stomach
8. I want some orange cranberry juice
9. Arm amputation?
10. Birth control
11. I still have those fucking flowers i...

1. This pretty shirt
2. Dress for homecoming, maybe
3. shirt thing
4. 1
5. 2
6. This is on sale
7. skirt
8. Sandals
9. Cape thing
10. Skirt and bag
11. Headband
12. I WANT THIS BAG!

I will add to this.

1. 1
2. 2
3. 3
4. Buy leggings and printed tights
5. Finish sewing caplet thing
6. Clean my room
7. Go to H&M sometime this month
8. Write scholarship essays
9. Decide what I want to do with my life
10. Make new friends
11. Visit Shelby at her 1/2way house
12. Document the above
13. Take pictures for art class
14. Finish large girl painting
15. Stop spending money on pointless things
16. Go grocery shopping
17. Lose 18lbs before Christmas
18. Pass all of my classes

I really ha...

1. Emily Day- I don't get to see you anymore, but hopefully I will come visit soon. I hate that I can't randomly call you while I'm at work anymore. You get me, for the most part.
2. Jaime Balke- You and I get annoyed with each other a lot, but I've got your back, and I can always call you to hang out. I love driving around with you and Nate. And your family is really nice.
3. Dillon S.- You are adorable, an...

• This entire outfit, especially the cord ...
• Dress
• New hat?
• Sweater
• SHOES!
• Dress, that I would shorten
• this thing?
• Dress thing
• THIS!
• Sweater
• Coat

Will finish this later. I have a lot more to add.

1. Bottled water
2. Pampered Chef parties
3. Divorce
4. Juno
5. Asian takeout
6. Soap Operas
7. Graduate school
8. Whole Foods and Grocery Co-ops
9. Living by the Water
10. Yoga
11. Gifted Children
12. Barack Obama
13. Having gay friends
14. St. Patricks day
15. San Francisco
16. Hating corporations
17. Proactiv
18. Music Piracy
19. Standing in the corner at an awkward party where they are the minority
20. Threatening to move to Canada
21. Easy-Mac
22. Toyota Prius
23. Smart Cars
24. Expensive sandwiches
25. N...

I hadn't talked to these people in a long time, but recently I've been conversing with them: And it's kind of random.

1. Brice
2. Omar, apparently Kris10 blocked everything
3. Sam
4. Lauren

1. I finished our internet scavenger hunt
2. This is the only site that I can get on that isn't blocked
3. I am sitting by myself
4. It's rather funny, actually.

• Someone always ends up getting hurt between the two of us. I want to be friends, but more than friends. And I don't know if it's possible to be more than one thing at once, but if it were possible, that is what I would want. You have a good heart, but it's been played with, and mangled and now you aren't the same. I hope I don't fall in love.
• Once again
• I am stupid. Stupidstupidstupid.
• I wish you liv...

1. Riding in the VW bus with Emily
2. Emily Day in general
3. Sitting after school with everyone like 2 years ago
4. When Stephanie and I were best friends, and nothing else mattered. And she didn't think she was better than me. And she didn't try to say that I have no life ahead of me.
5. Riding to school with Greg last year. Before Kirsten started riding with us, and even after. I don't know.
6. Visiting Nick at Chipo...

1. Braids, in my hair.. or on clothing
2. Incense
3. Smelly markers
4. Boys, and the way they smell
5. Dry-erase boards
6. Foreign films
7. Brick walls
8. Flea Markets, and trinkets
9. Tangerine lip color
10. Sour candy
11. Spicy food
12. Bonfires, and star gazing
13. Camel Filters
14. Bamboo plants for good luck
15. Lava lamps
16. Brown eyeshadow
17. Tickle fights
18. The internet
19. Chow Mein
20. Marijuana
21. Red wine
22. New things.. anything brand new
23. Playing bongos in my room
24. My passenger w...

1. Study for Consumer Ed test
2. Study for Psychology test
3. Do Consumer Ed project by Monday
4. Read my art history book
5. Make friends with that new girl who has the awesome tote bag
6. Carpool with Greg again (possibly)
7. Grow magical mushrooms in my closet
8. Uh.. yeah

1. Sondre Lereche- "After All"
2. The Ladybug Transistor- "Windy"
3. Okkervil River- "Do What You Gotta Do"
4. Regina Spektor- "Radio"

and subsequently I cannot listen to right now:

1. Cloud Cult
2. The Get Up Kids
3. Her Space Holiday
4. That one Aerosmith song
5. Any of the songs we sang on SingStar at Randie's house.

1. Are not annoying
2. Or self centered
3. Who listen, and actually talk to me
4. Are not dicks
5. Don't have kids already
6. Like good music
7. Don't ruin my birthday, basically
8. Will take me to Chicago to see Emily!

• Talk
• Smoke
• Make things awkward
• Make things less awkward
• Fuck with people
• Get screwed over
• Make my mother angry
• Change songs like 349865 times before settling
• Continue to be indecisive
• Get my feelings hurt
• Try not to care, but still do
• I need to make friends :///

Fuck I'm confused.

1. You are amazing. A douchebag, but amazing. I hope we get to hang out more. I really do.
2. You better not be lying. I hope we reconnect.
3. You are sweet, but you also have a gf. So, we'll see.

Okay I feel better.

1. School shopping tomorrow? Hopefully.
2. My birthday on Wednesday
3. Bookday on Wednesday
4. Kevin comes back on labor day
5. First full day of school Sept. 2nd
6. Jaime's birthday on Sept. 5th
7. Soto thing on the 6th

1. Very sad that Emily is leaving
2. My head hurts from crying
3. Nervous because I hope that apology was sincere
4. Anxious for school to start
5. Jittery from the 467758 cups of coffee I just consumed
6. Hopeful that this year won't completely blow
7. Scared that I will lose my job.. but almost hopeful?Haha
8. A lot of mixed feelings about tonight
9. We'll see what happens?

1. Bedhead curl serum stuff
2. Kneehighs/tights
3. Blank C-D-R's (haha)
4. Brown liquid eyeliner
5. Mascara
6. Really skinny curling iron

Scarves

1. Yellow/gray
2. Sapphire
3. Amazing
4. Ivory

New shoes

1. Mary Jane flats
2. Elves oxfords
3. These from Target!!!
4. Peep flats
5. Blue moccasins
6. And a bunch of cheap random ones from shoe carnival/payless/burlington

1. Alex Edwards- I kissed you in Kindergarten and the teacher moved me to the other side of the room.
2. Jason Meeks- I was infatuated with you from 4th-5th grade. You told me if I lost weight you would date me. That was really mean. Hah.
3. Chase- You lived in my neighborhood and I really did like you. We always went to get ice cream downtown CV, and I would hold your hand. Then you moved away, and I cried ...

1. Homeroom- Davies
2. Consumer Ed.- Bolen
3. Art History- Mullin
4. Christian Lifestyles/Gym- Easton/Horvat
5. H. Art 3- Patterson
6. Psychology- Yagle
7. Senior Composition- Rozanski
8. Study Hall

Uh... yeahh!

In chronological order:

1. Adam from St. Louis- We definitely survived a tornado together in my grandparents basement. I met you when I was 2 years old and we took baths together. When we got older you had to drink warm milk before bed. Your mom was terribly English.
2. Abby from St. Louis- Your mom and my biological mom were best friends, and the last time I saw you was at the funeral. You were really sw...

Have Lived:

1. St. Charles, MO (I was born there)
2. Ft. Meyers Beach, FL (infant)
3. St. Louis, MO (infant-3years old)
4. Cherry Valley, IL (3-5years old)
5. Pleasanton, CA (6 years old)
6. Rockford, IL
7. Oakland, CA (on and off)
8. Walnut Creek, CA (every Summer, up until last Summer)
9. Cherry Valley, IL (Currently)

Will Live (prediction):

1. Chicago, IL (August of 2009- August of 2013)

Would like to live at some point in the next 20 ...

1. Thanksgiving break - California, hopefully
2. Christmas break - North Carolina
3. Spring Break- California

To Chicago:[visiting Emily/Cari]

1. Mid/End of September for my birthday
2. End of October
3. Beginning of December
4. New Years Eve
5. Beginning of February
6. Beginning of March
7. Beginning of May/ All of May basically

1. Hash Bash
2. Amoeba Music
3. Elliott Smith
4. Bonnaroo
5. McCaren pool party

1. Shrooms
2. Quit smoking cigarettes, maybe
3. Road trip to CA
4. Take a train across the U.S.
5. Move away
6. Record a song
7. Learn to speak better Spanish
8. Learn French
9. Learn to play the acoustic guitar better
10. Live in a townhouse
11. Foster puppies? MAYBE.
12. More live music
13. Knit a scarf

• Elliott Smith
• Conor Oberst- The new album is amazing.
• Great Lake Swimmers
• She & Him
• Ween.... wtf?
• Coconut Records
• Feist
• The Decemberists

• cigarettes
• stupid boys
• soda
• ice cream (I eat too much)
• having a cell phone
• tanning
• money

1. Daytrotter
2. Facebook
3. Listography
4. Last.fm
5. Twitter
6. Postsecret
7. News
8. Filter

1. Stupid people outbidding me on eBay
2. eBay on most days
3. The fact that they don't make Polaroid film anymore
4. Itches
5. Bitches
6. Not having things to say to people
7. Awkward conversations

Supplies to buy:

1. PAINT (liquitex)16 oz. jars
2. A few more brushes
3. Canvas
4. Oil pastel paper stuff
5. Charcoals
6. Polaroid film (FUCKERS! I have to use eBay now)

Things to finish:

1. Big painting of girl
2. Get better at figure drawing
3. Some sort of oil pastel?????
4. Paint the picture of my brother
5. Colored pencil project

• The Meaning of 8- Cloud Cult
• The Crane Wife- The Decemberists
• In/Casino/Out- At the Drive-In
• Relationship of Command- At the Drive-In
• Lifted- Bright Eyes
• Noise Floor- Bright Eyes
• Takk- Sigur Ros
• Love is Hell- Ryan Adams
• Surfacing- Sarah McLaughlin
• Sometimes- City and Colour
• Beneath Medicine Tree- Copeland
• XO- Elliott Smith
• From a Basement on a Hill- Elliott Smith
• New Moon- Elliott Smith
• Dusk and Summer- Dashboa...

• 135
• 130
• 125
• 120
• 115

• Audition for the play
• Focus on having a good time
• Visit Emily & Cari frequently
• Work and save $ for college
• Not let things get me down
• Start working out again
• Work my way up to running long distances
• Find my dad? Maybe. Maybe.
• Get over this certain person, because obviously it is nothing, and never will be. I don't know why I bother to stay in touch. Asshole.
• Maybe learn to drive??? Maybe.
• Learn how to deve...

1. Been outside of the United States
2. Gone on a road trip with friends
3. Ate cow tongue
4. or brain
5. Posed for a calendar
6. Bought a Fruitista Freeze
7. Worked outside of fast food/carry out
8. Been jealous when a boy that I like hangs out with other girls
9. Stopped loving him
10. Said I love you and not meant it to some extent
11. Had Bubble Tea
12. Gotten a tattoo
13. Wanted my lip pierced for real
14. Stopped wanting my Monroe
15. Liked living in my p...

• Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse

1. Old men who wear short shorts and socks with their sandals
2. The feeling of bugs crawling on me
3. Insects that bother me whilst doing important things
4. Mosquitoes in my ear
5. Masks! Like all of them...
6. Parents
7. Especially ones who sit there and talk to you for hours
8. My mother
9. When your phone rings, you answer and the other line hangs up without saying anything
10. People who stare at me for too long
11. Open wounds
12. Really m...

• This bike in taxi yellow
• Fun camera
• Cardigan thing
• 3 piece set
• Fringe sandals