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be easy.
take your time.
you are coming
home.
to yourself.

vic follows:

“I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it’s hard to stay mad when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much; my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold onto it. And then it flows through me like rain, and I can’t feel anything but gratitude—for every single moment of my stupid, little life. You have no idea what I’m talking about, I’m sure; but don’t worry….you will someday.”

― Alan Ball, American Beauty.

feb 18 2018 ∞
feb 18 2018 +
  • I always feel this pressure of being a strong and independent icon of womanhood, and without making it look my whole life is revolving around some guy. But loving someone, and being loved means so much to me. We always make fun of it and stuff. But isn't everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more.
  • You can never replace anyone because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details.
  • Even being alone it's better than sitting next to your lover and feeling lonely.
  • Memory is a wonderful thing if you don't have to deal with the past.
  • Life's hard. It's supposed to be. If we didn't suffer, we'd never learn anything.
  • Like sunlight, sunset, we appear, we disappear. We are so important to some, but we are just passing through.
  • If you want love, then this is it. This i...
feb 8 2018 ∞
feb 8 2018 +

"And even if we never talk again, please remember that I'm forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me."

- Chasing Amy

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

''My sister told me a soul mate is not the person who makes you the happiest, but the one who makes you feel the most.''

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

“Someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready. They can love you in a way you have never been loved and still not join you on the bridge. And whatever their reasons you must leave. Because you never ever have to inspire anyone to meet you on the bridge. You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love, more love that you have never seen, out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready.”

― Nayyirah Waheed

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

''O sonho encheu a noite

Extravasou pro meu dia

Encheu minha vida

E é dele que eu vou viver

Porque sonho não morre.''

Adélia Prado

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

''i have always depended on the kindness of strangers''

jan 17 2018 ∞
jan 17 2018 +

when you’re down and out, when your storms feel too heavy to hold, when you feel like staying above water is too much to bear—know that after the rain it gets better. rainbows are coming.

(alexandra elle)

jan 13 2018 ∞
jan 13 2018 +

''If all the world hated you and believed you wicked, while your own conscience approved of you and absolved you from guilt, you would not be without friends''

(Charlotte Bronte)

dec 20 2017 ∞
dec 20 2017 +

do amor pouco sei e quase tudo espero

- cazuza

nov 12 2017 ∞
dec 12 2017 +

Para Maria da Graça

Agora, que chegaste à idade avançada de 15 anos, Maria da Graça, eu te dou este livro: Alice no País das Maravilhas.

Este livro é doido, Maria. Isto é: o sentido dele está em ti.

Escuta: se não descobrires um sentido na loucura acabarás louca. Aprende, pois, logo de saída para a grande vida, a ler este livro como um simples manual do sentido evidente de todas as coisas, inclusive as loucas. Aprende isso a teu modo, pois te dou apenas umas poucas chaves entre milhares que abrem as portas da realidade. A realidade, Maria, é louca.

Nem o Papa, ninguém no mundo, pode responder sem pestanejar à pergunta que Alice faz à gatinha: “Fala a verdade Dinah, já comeste um morcego?”

Não te espantes quando o mundo amanhecer irreconhecível. Para melhor ou pior, isso acontece muitas vezes por ano. “Quem...

nov 1 2017 ∞
nov 1 2017 +

''It was him not fighting for me. I gave him the ultimatum and he let me walk away. I didn't want a life separate from Luke, and that's all he could give me. It's like Luke is driving a car and I just want to be in the passenger seat. He's locked the door and I have to hold onto the bumper. I am not even asking him to open the door for me, just leave it unlocked and say come in, but he didn't do that. So I am hanging on to the bumper and life goes on and the car goes on, and I get really badly bruised and I'm hitting potholes. And it hurts. It really hurts. So yesterday I had to let go of the bumper. Because it hurts too much.''

- Lorelai Gilmore

oct 24 2017 ∞
oct 24 2017 +
  • “the refusal of offered love

is some kind of death”

  • mom says I am so good at making something out of nothing

and then flat out asks me if I am afraid of dying no Mom I am afraid of living

- Sabrina Benaim

oct 6 2017 ∞
nov 1 2017 +

"A piece of the sky, immune to reality, Cast away, adrift in the dark."

oct 3 2017 ∞
oct 3 2017 +

"Do you wanna leave soon? No, I want enough time to be in love with everything... And I cry because everything is so beautiful and so short."

- Marina Keegan

sep 25 2017 ∞
sep 25 2017 +

stay afraid, but do it anyway. what's important is the action. you don't have to wait to be confident. just do it and eventually the confidence will follow.

- carrie fisher

sep 11 2017 ∞
sep 25 2017 +

amar e mudar as coisas me interessa mais

- belchior

sep 1 2017 ∞
sep 25 2017 +

Então, minha querida Amélie, você não tem ossos de vidro. Pode suportar os baques da vida. Se deixar passar essa chance, então, com o tempo, seu coração ficará tão seco e quebradiço quanto meu esqueleto. Então, vá em frente, pelo amor de Deus.

— O Fabuloso Destino de Amélie Poulain

aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +

Você não pode ver o que eu vejo porque vê o que você vê. Não pode saber o que sei porque sabe o que você sabe. O que vejo e o que sei não podem ser acrescentados ao que você vê e ao que você sabe porque são coisas diferentes. Também não podem substituir o que você vê e o que você sabe porque isso seria substituir você mesmo.

— Douglas Adams

aug 30 2017 ∞
dec 12 2017 +

People feel that being alone is a bad thing, that it means you will rot if you don’t reach out. I feel that being alone gives you the luxury of hearing yourself. — Tsai Ming-Liang

aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +

O que as pessoas mais desejam é alguém que as escute de maneira calma e tranquila. Em silêncio. Sem dar conselhos. Sem que digam: “Se eu fosse você”. A gente ama não é a pessoa que fala bonito. É a pessoa que escuta bonito. A fala só é bonita quando ela nasce de uma longa e silenciosa escuta. É na escuta que o amor começa. E é na não-escuta que ele termina. Não aprendi isso nos livros. Aprendi prestando atenção. — Rubem Alves.

aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +

What keeps my heart awake is colorful silence.

(Claude Monet)

aug 30 2017 ∞
sep 25 2017 +

"I know how everyone else’s life is supposed to fly by

then someone turns and says what about you?

and I stand here

mouth open

mind blank

this should have all worked itself out by now

The map of my life should be clear and precise

With little red dashes and circles so nice

Showing roadblocks

And landmines

Oh, I am not unbreakable

I am breaking right now

Maybe everyone can’t have the dream

Maybe everyone can’t kiss the frog

Maybe it’ll be me and a dog

And the little stuff dolphins on the floor

aug 30 2017 ∞
dec 12 2017 +
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  • tem um ser dentro de mim que me odeia
  • se a vida é simples, do que eu tenho medo?
  • tem que ser imenso pra saber ser sozinho
  • i don't mind being alone, but i don't like to feel lonely
  • minha alma é uma orquestra oculta
  • sou fera ferida; no corpo, na alma e no coração
aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +

''I think I'm sick, and I don't know if my ailment has a name. It's just me sitting and staring at the internet or the television for long periods of time, interspersed by trying to not do that and then lying about what I've been doing. And then I'll get so excited about something that the excitement overwhelms me and I can't sleep or do anything and I just am in love with everything but can't figure out how to make myself work in the world.''

Mistress America

feb 24 2018 ∞
feb 24 2018 +

quando a gente encontra alguém vizinho da mesma solidão.

(ana larousse)

feb 8 2018 ∞
feb 8 2018 +

"Every day I discover more and more beautiful things. It’s enough to drive one mad. I have such a desire to do everything, my head is bursting with it."

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

“It's like the people who believe they'll be happy if they go and live somewhere else, but who learn it doesn't work that way. Wherever you go, you take yourself with you. If you see what I mean.”

― Neil Gaiman

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

assim como se atreve um trecho do sol espiar o mundo na fresta das nuvens num dia cinza assim como se ajeita uma flor a enfeitar uma árvore que já se pôs inverno assim como se esgueira um aranto numa rachadura ao alto de uma igreja secular assim como dança uma senhora na frente do espelho num dia que era pra ser como todos os outros assim como assusta bom um sorriso abraçar um outro na noite fria de uma cidade vazia

assim fora de hora só pela surpresa tem amor

(ana larousse)

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

''I used to live in the darkness

Dress in black, act so heartless

But now I see that colors are everything

Got kaleidoscopes in my hairdo

Got back the stars in my eyes, too

Yeah, now I see the magic inside of me

Yeah, maybe my head's fucked up

But I'm falling right back in love with being alive

Dreaming in light, light, lights

This kitty cat lost her mind

Been lookin' for a star-sent sign that I'll be alright

Look to the skies

I’ve found a rainbow, rainbow, baby

Trust me, I know, life is scary

But just put those colors on, girl

Come and play along with me tonight

I'd forgot how to daydream

So consumed with the wrong things

But in the dark, I realized this life is short

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

“You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should have behaved better.”

(Anne Lamott)

jan 23 2018 ∞
jan 23 2018 +

“I didn’t get accepted into any of the universities that I wanted, and I ended up going to a lesser quality school. I hated being there. On the first day, I thought about buying a plane ticket and going home. I felt like I had nothing in common with the people around me. I felt like they belonged and I didn’t. My plan was just to survive-- get through six lectures a day, keep to myself, and get back to my dorm room as soon as possible. I didn’t even talk to my own roommate. I’m ashamed of it now. I was so rude and self-centered, and it ended up making me lonely and miserable. I felt depressed. I was barely sleeping. Then one night I overheard my roommate talking on the phone with her mother. And I could tell she was having family problems. After she hung up, we stayed up all night talking. I told her that I was having a hard time too. She became my best friend after that night. W...

jan 17 2018 ∞
jan 17 2018 +

''In your place, if there is pain, nurse it, and if there is a flame, don't snuff it out, don't be brutal with it. Withdrawal can be a terrible thing when it keeps us awake at night, and watching others forget us sooner than we'd want to be forgotten is no better. We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster than we should that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to feel nothing so as not to feel anything — what a waste!''

- Call me by your name

jan 4 2018 ∞
jan 4 2018 +

"Ouça, Virgínia, é preciso amar o inútil. Criar pombos sem pensar em comê-los, plantar roseiras sem pensar em colher rosas, escrever sem pensar em publicar, fazer coisas assim sem esperar nada em troca. A distância mais curta entre dois pontos pode ser a linha reta, mas é nos caminhos curvos que se encontram as melhores coisas. A música, este céu que nem promete chuva, aquela estrelinha que está nascendo ali... está vendo aquela estrelinha? Há milênios não tem feito nada, não guiou os Reis Magos,nem os pastores, nem os marinheiros perdidos... Não faz nada. Apenas brilha. Ninguém repara nela porque é uma estrela inútil. Pois é preciso amar o inútil, porque no inútil está a Beleza. No inútil está Deus."

(Lygia Fagundes Telles, trecho do livro 'Ciranda de pedra')

dec 11 2017 ∞
dec 12 2017 +

You are allowed to be both a masterpiece and a work in progress, simultaneously.

- Sophia Bush

nov 4 2017 ∞
nov 4 2017 +

“Sarah, of all my kids, she’s kind of been my teacher, you know? She’s the one that in life has taught me more about unconditional love. She never went after the material things in life. She was all about love. She was all about really giving her heart to the people that she cared about the most.”

- Braverman

oct 24 2017 ∞
oct 24 2017 +
  • It’s the loneliest thing in the world, waiting to be found.
  • I never had a real house to grow up in. You know, home. I never belonged anywhere. And all my life, I was looking for that thing, you know. Thinking that it was out there somewhere. That all I had to do was find it. But I think, maybe, that home was us. It was you and me, together in that stupid car, riding around, smoking cigarettes. I think that was everything. I’m sorry. I should have known that you were one person who always stays. And you were my best friend.
  • Thought I lost you there for a second, just when I was getting used to you.
  • I should have known that you were one person who always stays.
  • everybody thinks im a piece of shit tweak-head. you seem to think im something better.
oct 22 2017 ∞
oct 24 2017 +

Meanwhile in my head, I’m undergoing open-heart surgery.

oct 3 2017 ∞
oct 3 2017 +

“The world is full of nice people. If you can't find one, be one.”

- Nishan Panwar

sep 26 2017 ∞
sep 26 2017 +

i am a lover without a lover. i am lovely and lonely and i belong deeply to myself.

― Warson Shire

sep 11 2017 ∞
sep 25 2017 +

''I am generally thankful and happy about what I've got in my life. But I always feel like there is a black hole in my heart that no one would understand, some pain just won't go away and I'm trying hard to live with it.''

sep 4 2017 ∞
sep 4 2017 +

a solidão necessária para aproximar-se do outro

nao, da outra.

para se enxergar e pôr no papel

melhor, na folha.

para que uma mulher passe os olhos

não, a visao

sobre todo meu corpo

perdão, minha matéria e substância.

e possa ler nas entrelinhas e linhas de expressão

nas marcas

não de roupa, mas de tempo

droga, a idade

todas elas inscritas na minha pele

um discurso

não, uma palestra

sobre o ser nós e o ser eu

sobre a coletividade

impressa na individua

sujeitas subjetivas não subordinadas

todo meu escrito é mulher

sep 1 2017 ∞
sep 1 2017 +

The reason I forgive you is because you are not perfect. You are imperfect, and so am l. All humans are imperfect, even the man outside my apartment who litters. When I was young, I wanted to be anybody but myself. Dr Bernard Hazelhof said if I was on a desert island then I would have to get used to my own company just me and the coconuts. He said I would have to accept myself, my warts and all, and that we don’t get to choose our warts. They are a part of us and we have to live with them. We can, however, choose our friends and I am glad I have chosen you. Dr Bernard Hazelhof also said that everyone’s lives are like a very long sidewalk. Some are well paved. Others, like mine, have cracks, banana skins and cigarette butts. Your sidewalk is like mine but probably not as many cracks. Hopefully, one day our sidewalks will meet and we can share a can of condensed milk. You are my best fri...

aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +

She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn’t supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something.

Rainbow Rowell, Eleanor & Park

aug 30 2017 ∞
sep 25 2017 +

“if the ocean can calm itself, so can you. after all, you’re both made from saltwater and air.”

aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +

Talvez eu me arrependa, Elena. Mas agora eu preciso descobrir o que sobrou de mim mesma. Não posso te arrastar para um vida de comparações. Você merece coisa melhor do que alguém acampado numa encruzilhada tentando enxergar o caminho. Qualquer caminho. O amor exige muito e eu tenho muito pouco pra dar. Nem sei se com esse pouco se faz vida. As emoções escorrem. Nada penetra.

Talvez eu me arrependa, Elena. Talvez.

- Júlia, Como esquecer.

aug 30 2017 ∞
sep 25 2017 +

I’m not broken. Maybe just a little chipped.

(Lorelai Gilmore)

aug 30 2017 ∞
dec 17 2017 +

''the universe has to move forward. pain and loss, they define us as much as happiness or love. whether it's a world, or a relationship, everything has its time. and everything ends.''

sarah jane

feb 13 2018 ∞
feb 13 2018 +

''I'm happy you're saying that, because... I mean, I always feel like a freak, because I'm never able to move on like... this! You know. People just have an affair, or even entire relationships... they break up and they forget! They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals! I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with. Because each person have... their own, specific qualities. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me. I never fully recover. That's why I'm very careful with getting involved, because... It hurts too much! Even getting laid! I actually don't do that... I will miss on the other person the most mundane things. Like I'm obsessed with little things. Maybe I'm crazy, but... when I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me to see why. I was looking...

feb 7 2018 ∞
feb 7 2018 +

“Someday, somewhere - anywhere, unfailingly, you'll find yourself, and that, and only that, can be the happiest or bitterest hour of your life.”

― Pablo Neruda

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

“How long has it been since someone touched part of you other than your body?”

(Laurel Hoodwrit)

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +
  • there is hope, even when your brain tells you there isn’t.
  • you remember your first love because they show you, prove to you, that you can love and be loved, that nothing in this world is deserved except for love, that love is both how and you become a person and why.
  • you’re both the fire and the water that extinguishes it. you’re the narrator, the protagonist, and the sidekick. you’re the storyteller and the story told. you are somebody’s something, but you are also your you.
  • she told me that beauty was mostly a matter of attention. ‘the river is beautiful because you are looking at it,’ she said.

(j.g)

feb 2 2018 ∞
feb 2 2018 +

"i am afraid that if i open myself i will not stop pouring. (why do i fear becoming a river. what mountain gave me such shame.)"

— Erosion, Jamie Oliveira

jan 24 2018 ∞
jan 24 2018 +

''I hope you find someone who's real with you. someone who's capable of telling you when you're wrong, when you're about to make a mistake. I hope you find someone who's not afraid to love. someone who's not afraid to get hurt. I hope you find more than just a lover. I hope you find a friend, and I hope they love you, really love you and I hope they love themselves as well. I hope you find someone who cares, but not just someone who cares about you but also someone who cares about others, someone who cares about making a difference, about leaving some kind of mark in the world. to heal it, change it for the best. in the most genuine way, i hope someone like this finds you, whether you're searching for them or not.''

(r. m. drake)

jan 17 2018 ∞
jan 17 2018 +

''we wanted people to remember that there's a person inside that suit, and it will hurt if he falls.''

about tony stark

jan 4 2018 ∞
jan 4 2018 +
  • the old life. is an old life. one you have already lived. one you do not have to keep living. you are too wondrous. for one life.
  • your heart has loved you from the beginning.
  • with the right people. a year is a lifetime. find the people who want to live lives with you.
  • feel it. the thing that you don't want to feel. feel it. and be free.
  • i love listening. it is one of the only spaces where you can be still and moved at the same time.
  • there is the kind of kindness. that opens you. without touching your doors.
  • and i said to my body. softly. 'i want to be your friend.' it took a long breath. and replied 'i have been waiting my whole life for this.’
  • do not worry. everyone's working through ...
dec 15 2017 ∞
jan 17 2018 +

''im not a child and i've learned that when i've spoken in anger i usually regret the way i express myself. so i've been waiting to feel less angry, and when i'm ready i'll say what i have to say" (Uma Thurman)

nov 4 2017 ∞
nov 4 2017 +

''it was your eyes you have the saddest eyes they were sadder than mine''

- olivia pope

oct 24 2017 ∞
oct 24 2017 +

e se perguntarem o que nós temos diga que nós temos muito amor.

- castello branco

oct 24 2017 ∞
oct 24 2017 +

Do not feel lonely, the entire universe is inside you.

oct 6 2017 ∞
oct 6 2017 +
  • every time I ask Lord: are you gonna take me? Because I’m alone. And he say: not yet, not yet, not yet.
oct 1 2017 ∞
oct 1 2017 +
  • ''you know, sometimes i think i was born with a leak, and any goodness i started with just slowly spilled out of me and now its all gone. and i'll never get it back in me. it's too late. life is a series of closing doors, isn't it?''
  • "in this terrifying world, all we have are the connections that we make."
  • ''on my first day in training, my instructor told me that there are going to be times when you'll see someone in trouble. you're going to want to rush in there and do whatever you can to save them, but you have to stop yourself, because there are some people you can't save. cause those people will thrash and struggle and try to take you down with them."

- bj.h

sep 14 2017 ∞
dec 12 2017 +

''I like to think the best of people but I actually think most humans are terrible''

sep 4 2017 ∞
sep 4 2017 +
  • "treat people how you would like to be treated. don't just look at life just through your perspective but through others"
  • "follow your heart because it always knows"
  • "good can come from broken"
  • "you are where you need to be. just take a deep breath."
  • "we need to learn how to embrace the darkness, because it's there for a reason."
  • "you don't have to put your uglies away, you just have to learn how to live with them"

- Lana Parrilla

sep 1 2017 ∞
sep 1 2017 +

O tempo parecia pouco, e a gente se parecia muito.

— Paulo Leminski.

aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +

é calmo e profundo o silêncio entre mim e o mar. mas há saudade. sabemos que há uma saudade invisível que se expande por toda imensidão e ainda assim, não cabe no oceano. e há versos. presos, entalados, amarrados na laringe. mas a amargura do sal arde em meus lábios e não me deixa sentir. a maresia cheira à desencanto. e há a sua falta. que mora no fundo das conchas (e entre os grãos de areia e entre as estrelas que refletem acima do céu azul marinho) e retine baixo, num canto harmoniosamente triste. contemplo o encontro sublime entre o oceano e o luar estrelado e é bonito te sentir. emaranhado dentre as coisas que deixamos pra trás e ficaram guardadas nos nossos refúgios particulares. de repente, não ouço mais os ponteiros correndo. o tempo não mais existe. te amo quando amanhece e o sol vai clareando devagarinho o contorno das ondas. e te amo quando anoitece e a turbu...

aug 30 2017 ∞
sep 25 2017 +

you are so pure, and it has nothing to do with your eyes or your smile, everything to do with your heart, all torn and weathered on your shirt for the entire world to see, so they can tear it up some more. you are so golden, and i fear that you don’t know how good you are — oh my, you are so good — because you cry when you get home most days, and you can’t lift your body from the ground. is your body heavy from the people who have walked all over it? why did no one help you? you are so kind, so kind, so kind to everyone that you forget to be kind to yourself. — you are so pure and yet so broken // r.e.s (via thoughtsintorhymes)

aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +

Eu vi estrelas no céu, mãe, eu comi estrelas e agora elas brilham em mim, eu estou chorando porque quero voar mas não consigo, o céu, mãe, eu quero morar no céu onde ninguém machuca meus braços e as minhas mãos não são esmagadas; aqui eles apertam a minha voz, aqui eles chutam meus sonhos para a vala, aqui eles querem me ver preso à dor. Eu não aguento, o paraíso é muito distante daqui? Porque se der, eu vou a pé, eu vou com os pés no chão contando os minutos para que eu veja tudo indo embora: você, meus amigos infelizes, meus professores angustiados, a população morrida, mãe, as guerras na Síria me afetam, há poetas perdendo seus dedos pra guerra e a gente só pode pedir para o infinito os guardarem, e a seca dos interiores consomem meu cérebro, a gente pode levar água mãe, a gente pode salvá-los, diz que sim, eu não aguento esse mundo, estão pisando nos meus...

aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +

quando você diz que eu sou sim uma pessoa boa, mas eu não sou. porque eu acordo com olhos de vidro e vejo meu mundo caindo. porque eu ando em ruas que me fazem perder a fé no amor e em mim mesma. e você diz “você é tão paz” e eu tenho vontade de chorar. porque, por Deus, se eu pudesse ser algo como isso eu já estaria feliz. eu estaria saindo por aí vestindo meus medos no corpo e dando a cara à tapa pra meias verdades. eu estaria por aí calçando meu desespero nos pés e caminhando por esquinas felizes em domingos cheios de agonia. eu estaria sustentando meus sonhos em castelos de areia, como crianças que acreditam que no fim tudo se resolve e soltam pipas na varanda de casa enquanto a chuva não vem. eu estaria te esperando me ensinar a ser algo como adulta que não erra e mesmo assim é humana. eu estaria esperando outra face de mim, essa que você enxerga e vê paz. quand...

aug 30 2017 ∞
aug 30 2017 +