• Sunday, January 22, 2017
    • I just got through burning sage. This place feels so much better.
    • Since I was getting so thoroughly upset with politics, I took two whole days (more or less) to relax. And it's been marvelous! I've loved it ^_^
  • Monday, January 23, 2017
    • People who see my pictures tell me that I am naturally good at photography, but this makes no sense. All photography is is capturing something that resonates with YOU. You are not making beautiful work by taking a picture. Rather, you're just taking a picture of something that was already beautiful. With that in mind, I fail to see how there is such a thing as bad photography.
  • Friday, January 27, 2017
jan 22 2017 ∞
jul 19 2017 +
  • I feel like I hate sex. I'm very frustrated with its existence and I really just wish it was something I didn't need to deal with. How can it be an ultimate expression of love when cuddling is so much better in every way?
  • I mean, you could be perfect on paper with someone, but then sex gets in the way of that. You aren't "sexually compatible" and everything is ruined. How is that fair?
  • I'm sad because I feel this way to begin with.
  • I'm sad because of why I feel this way.
  • I think I hate sex.
  • Satha-the-boyfriend says that it doesn't matter to him. It matters a lot to me, because I know it will matter to him. I know it I know it I know it.
  • A part of me wishes I was dead when I think about sex.
jul 19 2017 ∞
jul 19 2017 +

I have a letter journal, where, to put it simply, I sometimes write letters.

  • to the United States of America: Two Steps Back
  • to Sanjay
  • to Ivory: Thank God You Aren't Here
  • to Republicans
  • to good men
  • to everyone that cares about me: To Everyone outside the Wall
  • to the Universe
  • to boys: It's a Lie
  • to St. T
  • to Republicans
  • to Satha
jan 20 2017 ∞
jul 19 2017 +









This has the potential to be a very LONG list, and of course I'm not done. If you have any websites you like, or articles, or anything else, go ahead and drop it in the comments!

relevant lists

jan 14 2017 ∞
jan 14 2017 +

Why the U.S.? Because Trump is our fucking president and I'm going to need to look on the bright side.

jan 11 2017 ∞
jan 19 2017 +
  • When Metal came up to me in the hallway and I knew he was an intense son of a bitch and was happy he was in our group.
  • When I skipped so many days that one year I got a letter from court hahahaha
  • Learning to draw. I would draw on everything--my notes, my tests, my tabs.
  • I drew an eyeball monster in a stall. It was the one and only time I ever did that, and naturally I did it a week or so prior to graduation.
  • Having that pseudo-crush on my Public Speaking and English teacher in freshman year. I did so great in those classes haha
  • Being in General Music with those two girls that we're interested in trying out stripping. We put a piece of cardboard in my binder and one of them was like, "You're going to find that years from now and wonder why it's there." XD
  • Having lots of fun with that one boy in s...
jan 7 2017 ∞
jan 7 2017 +
  • What is it you're wanting to do, Cole? What is it you're wanting to say? Why do you keep coming back only to leave shortly after? Why can't you leave me alone?
  • Jasper, why can't you grow up and stop acting like you did when you were fourteen?
  • Do you keep hoping I'll say that we should meet up or something? We exchange a few words once or twice a month now. Why would I want to see you?
  • I don't really understand what it is you see in me. . . . I'm not saying that I think I'm unworthy, because I'm not. I think I'm awesome and anyone would be lucky to have me! But I don't get how you're already so "into" me, that you already feel the way you do.
jan 6 2017 ∞
jun 19 2017 +
  • Books
  • Articles
  • Movies/Television
    • Modern Family S05, "First Days"; said by Eric Stonestreet playing Cam
      • Gentlemen, today's a new beginning, and that can be scary. I'm gonna ask things of you that may not make sense right now, but they will. Success is not guaranteed; it is not handed to you; success is earned. Today, we are forging a new path.
  • Videos
  • Poetry
    • "Although They Are" by Sappho
      • Words which I command are immortal.
    • "Ode" by Arthur O'Shaughnessy
jan 5 2017 ∞
jul 12 2017 +

This was inspired by the wonderful and amazing ... *drum roll* ... the invisible girl!


  • the Resistance
  • eating peppers with everything I can


  • the Craft
  • the Resistance


  • subliminal audio & affirmations




  • tarot
  • collecting money


  • money money money
jan 1 2017 ∞
jul 19 2017 +
  • One of these days your heart will stop and play its final beat.
  • One of these days your eyes will close and pain will disappear
  • When your time comes to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Sing your death song, and die like a hero going home.
  • The boundaries that divide Life from Death are at best shadowy and vague. Who shall say where one ends, and the other one begins?
  • It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live.
  • Until the very end.
  • Someone has to die in order for the rest of us should value life more.
oct 28 2016 ∞
jan 9 2017 +
  • Spirituality
    • What is your spirituality like?
    • What religions and beliefs do you draw inspiration from?
    • Why do you believe in demons?
      • What things have you seen?
      • What are some things you do to protect yourself and others?
    • Why do you believe in angels?
      • What things have you seen?
      • What are some things you do to invite the angels into your life?
      • Do you focus on your guardian angel?
    • What is your idea of God?
    • What is your idea of the Devil?
    • Would you like other people to practice your idea of spirituality?
    • What do you believe happens after death?
oct 21 2016 ∞
oct 21 2016 +
  • I LOVE sitting and laying on floors. Most of the time, when I first sit down on the floor in someone else's home, they get all strange and tell me that I can sit on the couch / chair / what-have-you. If it really seems to bother them then I'll sit there, but I always try to stay in my comfy zone.
  • It bothers me if I kill NPCs in video games.
  • It bothers me if I kill dream characters (in my dreams).
  • It can bother me a lot when people harm animals . . . or bugs . . . or trees (especially if I'm in particular moods).
  • I write (and occasionally draw) on myself. Sometimes it's to feel more creative, and other times it's just because "why not?"
  • I stand in corners to write various things down (e.g., characters, lines, song tit...
aug 30 2016 ∞
jun 19 2017 +
  • Get 'Em
    • Nice Bras.
    • Nice Panties.
    • Dresses
      • white
      • red
      • blue
      • purple
      • yellow
      • brown
    • Skirts
    • Shoes
      • black
      • white
      • purple
      • Boots
        • black
sep 11 2016 ∞
jul 11 2017 +

I don't really have a favorite food, but here are some of my favorites:

  • Swedish Meatball Burgers
  • Coconut Chicken
  • Stromboli
  • Shrimp and Pepper Noodle Bowl
sep 8 2016 ∞
sep 16 2016 +
  • Create-A-Sim
    • Basics
      • name: Brandi
      • species: human
        • perfectly acceptable to change to witch
      • sex: female
      • body: fat
        • some muscles
        • well-endowed
      • age: young adult
    • Hair and Looks
      • hair: longish curly hair (comes with Seasons) or short curly hair (comes with World Adventures); brown
      • eyes: "almond" shaped (first row, second column); brown
sep 3 2016 ∞
jan 22 2017 +

In my bucket list I note that I want to talk to at least one person from sixty different countries for at least three months, so this is the list to keep up with that goal (as well as who helped me reach it)!

  • United States
  • Morocco
    • Hassan
    • Mustapha
  • England
    • Cole
    • Aaron
  • Germany
    • Leah
  • Kenya
    • Chrystyn Anne
  • India
jul 7 2016 ∞
dec 9 2016 +
    • For starters, I'm not actually a Christian. However, if you're refusing to talk to any Christians at all (and it doesn't matter what the reason is), then that's really just showing how close-minded you are.
  • "You can't be racist against white people."
    • By definition, a racist is someone who thinks another race is superior to another. It's kind of stupid to say that it's impossible that a black person can think that black people as a whole are better than white people (just for example). As a side note, I was bullied every day for being white . So, yes, it's possible for a white person to have problems because of their skin tone. "Reverse discrimination" exists.
  • "White people are being oppressed! Stompe...
aug 22 2016 ∞
nov 28 2016 +
  • Harry Potter
    • James and Lily
    • Sirius and Remus
      • only at Hogwarts age, though, because I support Remus and Tonks as well
  • Death Note
    • L and Light
    • Mello and Near
    • L and Near
  • Naruto
    • Rock Lee and Sakura
    • Gaara and Sakura
      • strictly in things like fanfiction, though, and not in canon
  • Kuroshitsuji
jul 17 2016 ∞
jan 23 2017 +

Soon, we arrive in a broad plaza, dazzlingly white, where hundreds of small, elaborately dressed Geminin dash about, all wearing thick sunglasses and interacting with unseen people and things.

"This plaza is Gemini's Imaginarium." As Hysan explains, I remember. "People come here to interact with their own imaginations. When you're wearing the glasses, anything you envision in your mind becomes real . . . but only to you.

[...] "The technology extends the length of the plaza, and it only works when paired with those heavyset glasses. As long as you feel the weight of the glasses on your nose, you know you're still in the Imaginarium. It's the only way to keep from going crazy."

may 18 2016 ∞
nov 9 2016 +

That I Like . . .

  • Bulls
    • I wouldn't say that they're my favorite animal or anything, but when I was out today and seen a herd of cows and bulls I realized that I admire how much they love to relax and enjoy the good things in life, just as much as I admire how they are willing to fight for themselves if they're provoked.
    • Then again . . . I'm a Taurus, the Bull of the Zodiac. XD So maybe I would say this.
  • Scarves
    • I've never had a scarf before--not one to use more as a "fashion statement" than to keep your throat warm in the cold. I realize now that I like them and want to start getting some. ^^
apr 14 2016 ∞
jun 26 2017 +

I've always gotten in touch with my creativity when I'm doing something quirky--or, at the very least, out of the ordinary of what I normally do. So without further ado . . .

  • Stand in the corner of any room and write the first things that come to mind.
  • Jot down various ideas on numbered index cards and place them in various spots. Then, draw a number (or perhaps have someone else give you a number). Retrieve your index card and write about the prompt.
  • Write in the car with no air.
  • Write underneath the kitchen table.
  • Write in the yard.
  • Tape a piece of paper to the wall and write a few paragraphs, or perhaps a poem, or a short description of a character.
  • Pretend that you are the protagonist of your story and write about your actions (of how you awoke one sweltering hot aftern...
jul 13 2016 ∞
nov 28 2016 +
  • Hogwarts
    • House: Gryffindor, where dwell the brave at heart
    • Wands
      • originally 13 inches, dragon heartstring, and yew;
      • currently 13 1/4 inches, unicorn hair, and maple
    • Pet (if any): Smudges, a barn owl
    • Blood Status: Half-blood
      • Muggle father, witch mother
    • Favorite Hogwarts Hang-Outs
      • my dormitory
      • any empty classroom available
      • any part of the grounds where there weren't a lot of people
    • Favorite Rule-Breaking Moments
aug 21 2016 ∞
aug 29 2016 +

I won't lie: 2016 has thus far been a rough year, and I've never cried so much about non-alcoholic things, except for when I was a baby.

And because of that, when I actually cry because I'm happy, which rarely ever happens . . . well, I'd like to remember it.

  • I can't remember what it was.
  • I said something I immediately regretted to Jasper and was so afraid he and I were going to get into a huge fight when I didn't mean how it sounded, but he didn't even take it that way and we just went on as usual.
  • Possibly something here, but I can't remember.
  • I got so happy that Cole isn't a guy who'd force you to have sex / do anything sexual with him that I cried.
  • "Many angels and Masters surround you and are offering their guidance and assistan...
jul 16 2016 ∞
jan 15 2017 +

I'm a huge dweeb. This isn't a secret at all. And, as of yesterday, here's a list of things that I do that are particularly dweeby. . . .

  • August 28, 2016 - I went to Wal-Mart briefly to buy some water, and my chashier had her nametag on (naturally). The first letter was under a smiley face, but I was still pretty sure it was Brandi.
    • "So is your name Brandi?"
    • "Uh, yeah. . . ?"
    • "That's nice. My name is Brandi too."
    • (laughs) "Oh, okay."
  • September 3, 2016 - "Steal it up if you like!" That's what I told Rose on this list. "Steal it up" HAHAHA WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME
  • June 25, 2017 - I almost ran into a tree in front of Brandon hahaha
aug 29 2016 ∞
jun 26 2017 +

Necessary Qualities:

  • I look for people who are against violence (of any kind).
  • I look for people who are compassionate.
  • I look for people who are body-positive.
  • I look for people who are open-minded
    • about sexual and romantic orientations
    • about non-binary gender identities
    • about religious and spiritual beliefs
    • about practically anything, so long as no one or nothing is getting hurt
      • unless they like getting hurt.
  • I look for people who are not sexist, racist, or otherwise practice discrimination.
  • I look for people who can bull shit with me.

Bonus Qualities:

jun 16 2016 ∞
dec 25 2016 +

Don't strive to be better than others. Strive to be better than your best self.

  • My best self does not fear her family or her friends. She trusts them not to be violent.
    • In the case where doubt creeps in, she expresses her worry in a kind manner, in a way that allows for people to help or be better.
    • In the case where her doubts are proven, she fixes the situation--and "fixing the situation" depends on the situation.
  • My best self expresses anger and hurt in a way that does not blame, but instead opens the door to either strengthening a good relationship or ending a toxic one.
  • My best self does not allow herself to end up in toxic relationships, and instead surrounds herself with kind-hearted and well-meaning people.
apr 26 2016 ∞
oct 23 2016 +

Ah . . . I've seen this around a few times, so I guess I'm jumping on the bandwagon!

  • 01
    • surgery (ears)
    • time I have gone ghost hunting
    • time I have been in love
    • song that's been written for me
    • drawing of me that is not a self-portrait
  • 02
    • traffic accidents
    • best friends I have had at the same time
    • loved ones who have died
    • roommates I've had
    • fires started while I was cooking
  • 03
    • times I've hyperventilated
jun 20 2016 ∞
nov 9 2016 +
  • J. K. Rowling - For a long time, she's been what one might call my hero. I don't really think I would call her that, but she has been something like a role model for me. It's not just because I'm a major Harry Potter fan, either, but because of her epic story and everything.
  • Mitch - My best friend. I've never had a friend like him, who is constantly wanting to achieve more and do better and further himself. It's something I really admire though, perhaps because I'm an INFJ personality type (and that's supposed to be a "thing" with us). I really love talking to him and everything.
apr 6 2017 ∞
apr 6 2017 +
  • Sims 3 Ambitions
  • cauldron
  • pentagram
  • Doreen Virtue and Radleigh Valentine's(sp?) Guardian Angel Tarot Cards
  • an astrology book from Barnes & Noble
  • a numerology book from Barnes & Noble
  • a spirituality book from Barnes & Noble
  • an angel book from Barnes & Noble
  • first season of Charmed
  • money
  • Harry Potter journal
  • the Marauder's Map
  • Chocolate Frog
  • Bertie Bott's Every-Flavour Beans
  • Pumpkin Juice
  • Butterbeer
  • Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them
  • wind chime
  • crystal quartz
  • aventurine
mar 28 2017 ∞
may 23 2017 +

I'm Brandi. :)

  • currently Resistance-obsessed, so you'll forgive me if I post a lot of political notes
  • INFJ-T
    • but would be Ravenclaw otherwise
  • Taurus Sun, Capricorn Moon, and Pisces rising; lover of astrology
  • lover of the occult
  • questioning sexuality
    • heterosexual with issues? asexual? bisexual? oh well
  • fucking awesome
  • damn I'm cool
  • Sims 3 nerd
jan 22 2017 ∞
jan 22 2017 +
  • Drink green tea. "Instead of turning purple with rage, get green with a cup of herbal tea. Green tea is a source of L-Theanine, a chemical that helps relieve anger. Boil the water, pour it out, and take a soothing sip."
  • Have a spoonful of honey. "Besides being a natural skin moisturizer and antibiotic, honey also provides compounds that reduce inflammation in the brain, meaning it fights depression and anxiety."
  • Meditate.
  • Take concentrated deep breaths.
  • Daydream about things that make you happy.
  • Drop cool water on your wrist and behind your earlobes. There are arteries there.
  • Drink herbal tea such as chamomile or peppermint.
  • Be alone.
  • Be in nature.
jan 15 2017 ∞
jan 15 2017 +
  • “Show me the quest for scientific proof that heterosexuality exists. It begins and ends with even just one person saying, ‘I’m straight.’” - Any Andre
  • "When all Americans are treated as equal, no matter who they are or whom they love, we are all more free." — Barack Obama
  • "Why is it that, as a culture, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands?" — Author Ernest J. Gaines
  • "It takes some intelligence and insight to figure out you're gay and then a tremendous amount of balls to live it and live it proudly." — Jason Bateman
  • "All of us who are openly gay are living and writing the history of our movement. We are no more - and no less - heroic than the suffragists and abolitionists of the 19th century; and the labor organizers,...
jan 14 2017 ∞
jan 14 2017 +

Being Taurus, you know, this doesn't happen often.

  • Jan. 10 - Sappho's poems are so beautiful.
  • Jan. 10 - lemon and sea salt face scrub
  • Jan. 13 - Hershey's Hugs
  • January - activism
  • January 18 - having someone over for dinner. Seriously, we've never done that.
  • January 20 - Kit Kat Red Velvet
  • January 23 - sugar scrub
  • February 6 - ATB
  • April 4 - new job at McDonald's
  • I tried an iced mocha from Starbucks.
  • I tried frappes from McDonald's.
  • I tried Pure Leaf (and oh my gosh they're good).
  • Burger King breakfast
  • July 19 - vanilla yogurt raisins

I've actually been doing a fair bit of new things here lately, but I just haven't been documenting them.

jan 10 2017 ∞
jul 19 2017 +
  • January 5 - A lot of running from things; bulls chasing me.
  • January 6 - Pregnant girl being constantly sick; spoiled girl thought her dead father wanted her to go with "Mexico's family," but agents caught her.
  • January 7 - Although the trees had been cut down, we were planting more seeds.
  • January 8 - There was a school trip to the beach, and Luna was the friend I was going with. I had forgotten all about it! We watched a race. The one that was marked as "Christian" came in second place and then literally destroyed the area.
  • January 9 - There was trash all over our yard and I was trying to pick it up and throw it in the dumpster; I went to a hair salon for a sick throat; I was talking to an older man and my mom was freaking out.

recurring theme: sickness. "On a more direct note, this dream may ...

jan 5 2017 ∞
jan 31 2017 +

about rape.

  • Saying that someone who was raped should "share the blame."
  • Saying that they deserved it
    • because of their clothes
    • because they were outside at night
    • because of their attitude
  • Saying that males cannot be raped.
  • Saying that grown males cannot be raped.
  • Making fun of someone who says they were raped.
  • Accusing someone of doing nothing more than seeking out attention.
  • Pressuring someone to call themselves a "rape victim."
  • Pressuring someone to call themselves a "rape survivor."
    • Yes. Stop implying that everyone who calls themselves a rape victim is in some way... you'd stop making them feel bad about the...
dec 17 2016 ∞
dec 17 2016 +
  • "American Gothic" - Creature Feature
  • "Come Little Children"
  • "Absinthe" - The Damned
  • "Hollow Hills" - Bauhaus
  • "Here There be Witches" - Creature Feature
  • "Boris the Spider" - The Who
  • "Vampire" - Xandria
  • "This Is Halloween" - Marilyn Manson
oct 31 2016 ∞
oct 31 2016 +
  • I would pretend that I was psychic, or that I remembered at least one of my previous lives, etc., and would talk to other people about this. Usually my peers in an effort to spark a friendship.
  • I would pretend to be a zookeeper, which was of course made relatively easy with all of the stuffed toys.
  • I would pretend to be kidnapped and tied up, especially when it was night-time.
  • I would pretend to be riding in an RV. The RV would have a compartment at the bottom that would allow me to travel to different places.
  • I would pretend that my favorite characters (Harry Potter, Naruto, etc) would come with me wherever I went, especially at school. I would talk to them and everything else. My imaginary friends!
  • I pretended to be sick a LOT. Diseases and other such things....
oct 23 2016 ∞
oct 23 2016 +

What's Changed? Added goals to Relationships (Romantic); marked off a goal under Aesthetics; marked off two goals under Home and Living.

  • Relationships
    • Romantic
      • Marry.
      • Get to the point where I can say I am no longer in love with Cole.
      • Fall in love again.
      • Have a boyfriend.
      • Have a boyfriend I am in love with.
      • Enjoy reading a book while someone I love (romantically) is reading a book with me.
      • Go through the questions.
      • Have a sleep-over date (with no sex involved).
      • Go on a road trip with your significant other.
jan 19 2016 ∞
jul 12 2017 +
  • Someone told my fifth grade history teacher to give me $5 because I was a good girl and I came from a "good family."
  • What did Cole mean when he said he couldn't tell me? I know it was going to be dirty but still.
  • Who was it really, in the J.R. story?

(Darn, I'm going to have to actually think back haha)

oct 9 2016 ∞
oct 10 2016 +
  • 6-8: my childhood best friend (Luna), some of her family, and myself went to a little beach a few towns over. I didn't know how to swim, but I got in the water anyway. I tripped over some of the rocks and fell and couldn't get back up. I didn't want to make a scene, but I was mortified to drown in shallow waters, so I didn't try to draw attention to myself. Good thing Luna's sister didn't think I was just playing.
  • 12: My friends doubled dared me to try to eat a bunch of Pixie Dust, and I almost choked! xD Fail (but no, it was a pretty near thing).
  • 18: Car crash! To be fair, I don't actually know if it would have killed me, but there's a good chance of that. I got into a crash around this time last year with a motorcyclist. Thankfully no one was hurt, but I was the one driving and the back ..._shredded_ . Just another inch or two and I would ha...
sep 9 2016 ∞
oct 1 2016 +
  • I'll Cut You
  • Live and Let Dye
  • Cut and Dye
  • Florist Gump
  • Curl Up and Dye
  • Stack of Slacks
sep 10 2016 ∞
oct 25 2016 +

Unless it's to see Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them, or any other Harry Potter movie, I'm just not a fan of things related to the TV. I also clam up in crowds, and even if a restaurant is relatively empty I'd still be moderately uncomfortable. So, if things were to go my way . . .

  • Town
    • Spend time walking around on the streets and talking about whatever.
    • If there are any antique shops then we could go in and explore.
    • If I seen a really nice house I could tell him he should buy it for me haha
    • Do something new that neither of you have ever done before that the town offers. If you've never gone to a restaurant (especially if we can just order to go), or you've never been to an area of the park, o...
sep 16 2016 ∞
sep 16 2016 +
  • Astrology
    • Each planet in our solar system rules something. So, what does Earth rule?
      • If there is no life in any of the other planets, does Earth rule nothing?
      • What new Zodiac sign would there be for life on other planets?
    • How does astrology work for other solar systems?
  • Life after Death
    • Reincarnation
      • What is the most amount of times a soul has ever been incarnated?
        • What is the least?
      • Is there a goal beyond ascension?
      • Who are the Ascended Masters?
aug 31 2016 ∞
sep 10 2016 +

My mom, for as long as I've known her, has never been a really feminine person. That's not a bad thing, but it's certainly had an effect on me, and I think maybe especially in my clothes. More or less my entire life up until the latter half of 2015 has been a "fashion embarrassment," but I'll try to remember some of the main ones:

  • wearing baggy jeans and a nice shirt for Picture Day
  • wearing all of those really so-called "old lady" shirts when I was in elementary
  • I pretty much always had baggy jeans, I swear
  • shoes that were always dirty because we could really only afford to buy one.
  • for a time I would wear nothing but black day in and day out. I don't actually regret this one as much as the others, though--I'll probably end up making a list on ...
sep 1 2016 ∞
sep 9 2016 +

Otherwise known as, "Oddest Food Combinations I've Come Across"

  • peanut butter + mayo sandwiches
  • peanut butter + mayo + baloney sandwiches
  • peanut butter + mayo + raw onion sandwiches
  • French bread sandwich + honey mixed with butter
    • thank you galaco!
    • just realized that I should probably note that this one isn't something my mom eats haha
  • pepper sandwiches (they're good too xD)

This can get bigger, trust me.

sep 3 2016 ∞
jan 18 2017 +

Season 1

Episode 1

  • Joke 1
    • Gloria: Ayy, I can't believe my little boy's going into the fifth grade. He used to hold my finger with his little hand and look up at me with those big eyes.
    • Jay comes and kisses Gloria.
    • Gloria: Oh, he mi niño pequeño, Jay!
    • Jay [unsure of what she said]: Yep, they grow up.
  • Joke 2
    • Cam calls Claire and hands the phone to Mitchell.
    • Claire: Hello?
    • Mitchell: Hey, hi, uh--not a big deal, just wondering. When your kids were small, did you ever . . . I dunno, smack their heads into a wall?
aug 30 2016 ∞
jan 18 2017 +

I was inspired by Milena and lua f.

  • a body part: brain
  • a building: educational center
  • a Cardinal direction: East
  • a career: astrologer
  • a celestial object: stars
  • a character: Joy from Inside Out
  • a color: gray
  • a continent: Europe
  • a day of the week: Thursday
  • a direction: left
  • a Disney princess: Belle
  • a flower: morning glory
  • a fruit: kiwi
  • a hobby: studying
  • a landscape: forest
  • a language: Italian
  • a listographer: the invisible girl
  • a musical instrument: flute
  • a natural disaster: dust storm
  • a negative feeling: lack of self-confidence
aug 27 2016 ∞
jan 6 2017 +


  • Saturday, May 7, 2016
    • My sorta-friend wanted me to spend the night with her at her brother's place, but I kind of don't want to? So instead of telling her that, I'm just chilling out in my room. I at least did message her on Facebook. I'm in too crappy of a mood to deal with her brother; Crookshanks (my mother's cat) peed on me when I tried to give him his medicine. Sigh.
  • Friday, May 13, 2016
    • Blatantly ignoring that one guy because he's just . . . so . . . boring. . . .
  • Monday, July 4, 2016
    • I went OFFFF on some dude on YouTube. Yes, he really was being a prick . . . but he was coming from a place of pain. I knew...
may 7 2016 ∞
jun 19 2017 +

"It was June, and the world smelled of roses. The sunshine was like powdered gold over the grassy hillside."

  • tiger lilies growing out by the shed and the neighbor's fence
  • my room smelling like various scents of vanilla
  • my room smelling like sugar cookies
  • the scent of the pond that carried all the way over to my home
  • the fern trees I used them when I was pretending to be a cook
  • the constant want to go swimming
  • the Big Dipper standing above the horizon, dulled by the city lights as we floated in the pool
  • the heavy scent of marijuana in a boiling bathroom
  • the ground steaming from the summer shower
  • the strawberry moon of the summer solstic...
jun 10 2016 ∞
dec 9 2016 +

From my bucket list: Have a bookshelf dedicated to things that I have written and worked on (for example, notes, poetry, stories, etc). This will be a list of subjects that I'm wanting to dedicate a lot of time to.

  • Finished
    • Drawing Binder I
    • Journal I
  • Working on Them
    • Drawing Binder II
    • Numerology Binder
    • Astrology Story/Planning Notebook
    • Fantasy World Building Binder
    • Little Poem Book
    • Journal II
    • Astrology Binder
    • Book of Shadows
      • Natural Tools
      • Experiences and Angels
jun 27 2016 ∞
jan 13 2017 +

in my house

  • in my room
    • Orion - The first four smartphones I had carried this name proudly.
    • Queen Cassiopeia - my Samsung Galaxy Sky
    • Charlie - The snowman in my snowglobe's name is Charlie.
    • Jasmine - There is a black and purple owl (two-dimensional) hanging in between my A/C and my computer area.
    • Haku - My air conditioner has the name of a character from Naruto who wielded the ability to control ice.
    • Grimauld - My candle holder that resembles a dragon.
    • Gregory Smarmy - my computer
    • Casey - African violet
      • I know, she's not inanimate
  • bathroom
may 17 2016 ∞
mar 26 2017 +

I'm putting this in the "spiritual" category because I think it's the best place for it to go. This is a list of wise sayings and life lessons that I learn throughout the days, months, years, or however long I decide to keep this list up.

  • Love
    • Never worry about finding your soulmate; it is destiny.
    • If he wants you, he will come and find you.
  • Relationships
    • Eventually you realize that sometimes people stay in your heart, but not in your life.
  • Life
    • We have all the time in the world.
    • Don’t carry your mistakes around with y...
apr 8 2016 ∞
dec 9 2016 +
  • "Look y'all: freedom!"
  • I started laughing when I remembered Jasper telling me the story about how he got mad at someone who at honked at him and then he followed them and honked the entire time
  • There was a black shadow in the middle of the road at probably 3:00 A.M. that I had to swerve to miss, but then it disappeared. At first I thought I had just been seeing things, but then Jasper and Mitch told me that they had seen it as well.
  • "Those are los toros! And me, I'm a la tora. Well, no I'm not. There are no female bulls. How the hell do you say 'cow' in Spanish?"
  • As we crossed the Alabama Bridge: "Whoa!"
  • The car rides that were always so awkward with my parents going to the meet-up point at the Trace, and how life would always get fun again when we finally met up wi...
jul 12 2016 ∞
aug 29 2016 +
  • I love how I carry an air of knowledge; since I was young, people around me have guessed that "I'm smart."
  • I love that I have an insatiable thirst for more and more and more knowledge.
  • I love that I do not believe that intelligence is something that matters, in the sense that it should determine whether a person is "valuable"or not.
  • And I love that I am a social justice advocate, and that I believe that all of us should have the right to the pursuit of happiness.
  • I love how I love astrology,
    • and numerology,
    • and occult lore.
jul 5 2017 ∞
jul 5 2017 +
  • Attended a wedding.
  • Attended a traditional funeral.
  • Been on an air plane.
  • Been on a bus that did not belong to an educational center.
  • Went to a march.
  • Went to any type of protest.
  • Lived in a house.
  • Had a brand new car.
  • Been on a train.
  • Vlogged.
  • Rode a roller coaster at an amusement park (I've only done that at fairs).
  • Visited another country.
  • Went to another continent.
  • Learned how to swim.
  • Been to a professional sports game.
  • Seen a white Christmas.
  • Been waxed.
  • Moonbathed.
  • Performed a spell with another person.
jan 23 2017 ∞
may 23 2017 +

"From the 200,000 disabled people murdered during the Holocaust, to the ugly legacies of eugenics and prison-like institutions for the disabled, to the 2016 attack against disabled people in Japan, both history and the present are awash with examples of governments and individuals enacting ideologies which aim to maintain a “pure” and healthy gene pool."

This has the potential to be a very LONG list, and of course I'm not done. If you have any websites you like, or articles, or anything else, go ahead and drop it in the comments!

relevant lists

jan 17 2017 ∞
jan 17 2017 +
  • If in the U.S., you can sign up at This Is My Oath. Doing so is completely free, and they will provide you with informative links, as well as places to donate to help your cause, and give you ideas of things to do, such as call the nearest PFLAG chapter and ask them how you can help. You are in no way obligated to donate or do anything by TIMO.
  • PFLAG - an organization that helps LGBT+ individuals, their families, their friends, and their allies.
    • Mega Simple Ways to Support PFLAG
      • Buy anything at all from Amazon, and they will get a minimum of 5% of the money.
      • Become familiar with organizations that support them, and buy from them if they sell something to your taste.
    • Direct Ways to Support PFLAG
jan 13 2017 ∞
jan 14 2017 +
    • just some of the most important points, in my opinion.

× For 240 years, our nation’s call to citizenship has given work and purpose to each new generation. It’s what led patriots to choose republic over tyranny, pioneers to trek west, slaves to brave that makeshift railroad to freedom. It’s what pulled immigrants and refugees across oceans and the Rio Grande. It’s what pushed women to reach for the ballot. It’s what powered workers to organize. It’s why GIs gave their lives at Omaha Beach and Iwo Jima; Iraq and Afghanistan — and why men and women from Selma to Stonewall were prepared to give theirs as well. So that’s what we mean when we say America is exceptional. Not that our nation has been flawless from the start, but that we have shown the capacity to change, a...

jan 11 2017 ∞
jan 22 2017 +

You know when you're talking to people romantically, and...well. These are just my rambles.

  • Sigh...dude, I'm sorry, but if I said I had a crush on you it'd be a lie. It always sucks to deliver that kind of news.
  • You immediately bother me hahaha
  • Ramble ramble ramble. You want me to talk, and yet you don't know how to say more than one or two words.
  • Like we never talked when we went to school and ?
jan 9 2017 ∞
jan 26 2017 +
  • Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins.
  • Kuroshitsuji (Black Butler) by Yana Toboso.
  • When they tell me that I'm safe with them.
  • Red Dead Redemption: Undead Nightmare
jan 7 2017 ∞
jul 12 2017 +
  • Astrology
    • Virgo Liliths might get off to various degrees of humiliation.
    • Is there something about Aries ascendants who are somehow . . . "inclined" is far from the right word . . . but I wonder if that there is something about incest, when it comes to Aries risings. Not necessarily that they like it, but . . . mm, I'll explain better one day.
    • Pluto aspected with the Ascendant: if they have a less dominating ascendant sign, will they still be inclined towards dominating others?
  • Numerology
    • When it comes to the birth number, I don't think that we should add up the numbers to fit a single digit. In other words, instead of me being an 11 birth number (or...
aug 30 2016 ∞
jan 6 2017 +
  • basics
    • The rarest type, making up less than 1% of the population, or up to 2% (depending on the source).
    • It is a diplomatic personality type.
    • INFJs are capable of reaching their dreams.
    • They tend to want to help others, but their passion tends to be to get to the source of the problem.
    • Tend to be strong-willed and decisive people.
    • They prefer to speak in "human terms" rather than through logic.
    • To INFJs, the world is full of inequality--but it doesn't have to be.
    • They are intuitive.
      • some may be claircognizant or clairsentient
jan 6 2017 ∞
jan 8 2017 +
  • Crookshanks stretching on the table. IT WAS SO FREAKING CUTE!!!
  • The way the sunlight shone upon the brown rocks in the morning.
  • The half Moon peeking out from the clouds.
  • Snowflakes coming down, down, down.
  • The feeling of being surrounded by angels.
  • Pink and orange clouds coat the horizon as the Sun sets in the West.
  • The weather was once so biting, and now it feels like spring.
  • The Moon appearing behind the hazy clouds.
  • The Full Moon of Cancer.
  • It's late January in America and we have the A/C going. It's beautiful, there's a breeze, the clouds are wonderful....
  • I went outside and there was a guy walking around the block and singing a tune. I ...
jan 1 2017 ∞
apr 6 2017 +

And I mean close, genuine friends, and not just people I liked hanging out with.

  • Luna, my best friend from kindergarten to third grade.
  • Trisha, my best friend for a few months in fifth grade.
  • Jasper, my best friend from the ages of ten to nineteen.
  • Ivory, my best friend for five years.
  • Sanjay, a very close friend from August 2016 to January 2017.
dec 17 2016 ∞
apr 4 2017 +
  • I would hire a lawyer or some other financial consultant that would help me learn how to make even more money.
  • Get a brand new car.
  • Buy some land and then work on building a house.
  • Help my mother to have a place of her own.
  • Buy plane tickets to India where I could get Sanjay. He would live with me for a time until he was able to get a place of his own.
oct 15 2016 ∞
oct 15 2016 +
  • If your soul was a monkey, what kind of monkey would it be?
  • Ooh I'm tired of digging a hole in the yard. Hiding bodies is a lot harder than it used to be, I swear.
  • I've got this magical doorway by my desk. I have to talk to Mr. Wallis from time to time!
  • You're a sweety-pie pumpkin-butt!
  • If you were a [...], you would be a good [...].
    • jellyfish
    • cabbage patch
  • If you were a [...], you would be my favorite [...].
    • nose
  • I care about you a lot! I just want to fold you into squares and keep you in my pocket.
sep 10 2016 ∞
jun 19 2017 +

I say "screw that" to . . .

  • Never going outside of America and seeing the world.
  • Never exploring my own country.
  • Not ever getting some way to make money by the time I'm twenty-three.
  • Never having lived alone by the time I'm thirty.
  • Never going on a roller coaster.
  • Staying in toxic relationships--whether they're friendships or romance.
  • Not doing what is best for me.
  • Not doing what is best for other people (so long as what is best for them is not terrible for me).
  • Not being alive. Not feeling alive. Pretending to be a paper bag when really I can be, and act, and say so much more. When really I can inspire others to be so much more. No more feeling afraid of offending other people for things that aren't off...
sep 7 2016 ∞
apr 4 2017 +

Here is a list of things that I really like, most of which I want to incorporate into my look in some way or another and / or am using for inspiration. In other words, if I link you to a model wearing a Lolita outfit, it doesn't mean that I want to wear that outfit, or something vaguely like it. It could mean that I like the pattern, or the color, etc.

sep 12 2016 ∞
sep 16 2016 +

"Autumn seemed to arrive suddenly that year. The morning of the first September was crisp and golden as an apple."

  • Orion, the Little Dipper, Sirius, and Canis Major
  • "Here There Be Witches" by Creature Feat...
    • Here there be witches on the edge of town
    • Can't you hear their cries?
    • Press them with stones to see if they lie
    • Sever their heads and gouge out their eyes
    • Recite your prayers in the dead of night
  • breeze, breeze, breeze
  • leaves falling into the car on the first day of autumn
  • orange is the theme here
  • the feel of power
  • the feel of life; the fear of death
sep 3 2016 ∞
oct 1 2016 +

Some of these characters I love! But, looking at them realistically, a lot of times even the ones I love I wouldn't actually get along with.

  • Harry Potter
    • James Potter - At least probably not until his sixth or seventh year, but even then it's hard to say.
    • Sirius Black - Probably never.
    • Draco Malfoy - Blah.
  • I'll Give You the Sun
    • Noah - Or at least I wouldn't make friends with him while he was in his preppy phase.
    • Jude - Like her brother, I wouldn't have been friends with her while she was in her preppy phase.
  • Modern Family
aug 30 2016 ∞
aug 30 2016 +

This list was inspired by the epic Olivia. I'm having so much trouble thinking of anything, though xD

  • In England, the price or princess became king or queen as soon as they turned eighteen.
  • And royalty is exactly how you see it on Disney.
  • Both Scotland and Wales were a part of England; Wales was a small island to the southeast of England, and Scotland was Northern Ireland.
  • My toys would come to life at night and strangle me.
  • If I gave my toys away, or let anything happen to them, I would be a bad mommy.
  • If I had to scratch one arm, I would have to scratch the other to make sure it didn't feel lonely.
  • And that extended to absolutely everything.
  • Kindergarten would be like high school in...
jul 6 2016 ∞
sep 16 2016 +

I've been hitting the "generate a list topic" for a fair bit now, and here are some of my favorite list ideas.

aug 6 2016 ∞
jan 7 2017 +

Interpals is a website that allows people to become virtual pen-pals . . . basically. People use it for all kinds of things, but that's the "official" use for it. I've been on there for a year now, and I've come into contact with some . . . interesting characters. Here they are:

  • The guy who told me that he had been put into a hospital for the mentally ill. "I liked it there. It was like the Internet. Everybody said what was on their minds."
  • A person who told me that they had an OOB experience. According to them, they switched bodies. Originally a man, but now a girl. Was married and everything. Highly unrealistic, and if it's the truth then they're a crappy husband if they'll give up the love of their life after two or three missed phone calls!!!
  • Cole, the guy I fell in love with. Also t...
aug 25 2016 ∞
jan 6 2017 +
jun 7 2016 ∞
apr 6 2017 +

"King Arthur is a medieval, mythological figure who was the head of the kingdom Camelot and the Knights of the Round Table. It is not known if there was a real Arthur, though it is believed he may have been a Roman-affiliated military leader who successfully staved off a Saxon invasion during the 5th to 6th centuries."

  • Theories of the Real Author
    • Some believe that he might have been a Roman-affiliated soldier who lead a British military against the Saxons.
      • A Saxon monk wrote a book on the Saxon invasion, however, and no one by the name of Arthur was ever mentioned.
    • A bard in the sixth century by the name of Aneirin crafted a collection of poems, and a heroic figure named Arthur was spoken of.
aug 21 2016 ∞
sep 3 2016 +

WARNING: Contains spoilers.

  • Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince by J.K. Rowling
    • Dumbledore's death destroyed me, it really did. I remember crying in the small bedroom and being as quiet as I could so I wouldn't wake my parents up.
  • Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix by J.K. Rowling
    • I actually didn't read OotP until after I finished HBP . . . yeah, I know, that's really awful and as a nerd it'll always be one of my biggest regrets.
  • Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows by J.K. Rowling
    • It took me a few re-reads, but I did eventually cry because of Dobby's death.
  • The Fault in Our Stars by John Green
    • To be honest with you, I seen the ending coming as soon as I seen the cover, with ...
may 20 2016 ∞
jan 6 2017 +
  • I kept at least mostly cool under attack and got enough evidence that I knew would be needed to support my side of the case.
  • I decided to quit wasting time and became more productive.
  • I am constantly in the process of trying to grow emotionally.
    • I know this isn't something that is actually DONE but I'm counting it here anyway, because it's a lot better than the way I was a few years ago.
  • I've learned several constellations and other astronomy facts.
  • I've learned a ton of astrology, and am also always learning more. I really am proud of this one, perhaps because of my Pisces influence or perhaps because it all seemed really daunting at first, and now it's not so bad.
aug 13 2016 ∞
jan 23 2017 +

Not a very long list, is it? XD But I'm hoping that it will get longer as time goes on. :) I've been to some smaller cities (e.g., Tupelo, Mississippi, Dickson, Tennessee, etc.), but I'm talking about big cities.

  • Memphis, Tennessee: I went there with my parents when I was younger (maybe seven and eight years old) to go to Liberty Land, an amusement park that I'm pretty sure has since closed down.
  • Tulsa, Oklahoma: Jasper, his brother, his sister-in-law, and myself all traveled to Tulsa to see their father's body. I was just their for moral support.
jun 16 2016 ∞
aug 29 2016 +

This section in my bucket list was getting pretty lengthy, so I thought I might want to create a separate list for it. o.o

  • Go to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter.
    • Spend at least four days there
    • Go to Hogsmeade
      • Watch the Frog Choir Perform
      • Check out the Flying Ford Anglia
      • Ride on the blue dragon in the Dragon Challenge
      • Ride on the red dragon in the Dragon Challenge
      • Attend the Harry Potter and the Forbidden Journey
      • Attend the tour of Hogwarts Castle
        • Listen to the portraits
      • Visit Honeydukes
jun 13 2016 ∞
jul 12 2017 +
  • Some things to keep in mind:
    • Even though this is in the Main folder, it probably should go in the Ongoing one. Whatevsss! ^_^
    • I recognize that male and female are not the only genders; however, I've separated this list into those two sexes for convenience!
    • I also recognize that there are many unisex names out there: "Ariel," for example. Because I would rather name my girl Ariel than my boy, I've put it in the girl's section. Nothing personal, right?

Now, onto the list. . . .

  • Male
    • A
      • Albion
      • Alexander
jan 18 2016 ∞
aug 29 2016 +

One should note that just because I think something is over-rated doesn't necessarily mean that I don't like it--but it might. xD

  • The Hunger Games .
    • It's just freaking awful. It takes soooo long for anything to happen . . . not to mention the author writes the same freaking story every time she writes a book. Or at least it seems that way from the trilogies I've read from her.
  • Twilight .
    • Jacob Black, especially. I can't call myself a Twilight fan, but Jacob Black is definitely my least-favorite thing about the entire series.
  • Vampires and werewolves.
    • Yep, sorry. I am so sick and tired of the..._Twilight_ , of course).
apr 26 2016 ∞
jan 7 2017 +