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别在同一个地方寻找你曾经丢失的快乐

20: broken
21: healing

they were unkind to you. don't let that make you unkind.

daybreak follows:

You don't want them back. Not the way they are now. You don't want to be with someone who doesn't love you. It's immensely hard when you think back to the good times, I know, but you can't bring that back. If you think about getting back together realistically, it doesn't sound that great. You wouldn't be able to trust them anymore, you would probably feel unappreciated all the time, everything you feel now wouldn't just magically go away. It's a heartbreaking thing to realize, but you can't have what you had anymore. You can, however, have that with someone else. Something better even. Also, the fact you're still hurting while they're not probably just proves you're a more devoted and loyal person, someone who loves deeply and unconditionally. You deserve better. Stay strong.

jul 30 2017 ∞
jul 30 2017 +

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나에게 착한, 나에게만 예쁜, 나에게만 재미있는 사람.

그런 사람 하나면, life is wonderful

jan 12 2014 ∞
dec 9 2015 +

You’re stuck in traffic right now. Your car hasn’t moved. The road is jammed. This traffic- will never cease. You won’t get there, darling. You have to get out of your car and start walking. You must let go of the car. It will be almost impossible to do it, for you have invested so much into it and you’re going to lose it. You’re going to lose all of it, all of him. You’ve lost him. But you really have to build the courage to get out of the car and start walking in order to “move on.” You’ll die in that car. The car = him.

may 11 2017 ∞
may 12 2017 +
  • don't change yourself for him, and don't let him change you
  • don't let him call you names for no reason
  • don't let him disrespect you and your problems
  • don't let him overstep your boundaries and force you to do anything you are uncomfortable with
  • keep your pride
  • you miss the memories and the feeling of having someone you can call yours, but you don't miss him and you shouldn't
mar 28 2017 ∞
oct 24 2017 +

"The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to feel so relieved. When you get your heart broken for the first time, you can’t imagine loving someone else again or having someone else love you. You worry about your ex finding love before you do, you worry about being damaged goods. And then it happens. Someone else loves you and you can sleep well at night.

The second time you fall in love with someone, it’s going to feel different. The first time felt like a dream almost. You were untouched, untainted by anyone. You accepted love with wide open arms and desperation. “Love me, love me, love me!” So you did. And then it fell apart and left you shocked to the core. You realized that people could be cruel and break your heart. You realized that people could stop meaning the sweet things they said to you just yesterday. So when you go int...

mar 13 2018 ∞
mar 13 2018 +
  • 9/9/18: "a lot of the things i did in that relationship was out of fear because i was scared of her. there was a power struggle where i kept looking up to her but she was always looking down on me. once we broke up, i felt a loss of identity." | we're a lot more similar than i thought.
  • 9/14/18: late night bbt at coco with the crew after the welcome back party
  • 9/16/18: "sometimes i think about how just last year we barely knew each other and now we go to the same church. you've come a long way, and it's amazing that you gave it another chance because you've been through a lot of hurt and it's like a miracle."
  • 9/20/18: "not sure if he's coming since he graduated" "an alternative is going to his small group" | it feels like they all know that i like him
  • 9/23/18: i used to hate sundays but now t...
sep 3 2018 ∞
oct 8 2018 +
  • November 4 - ECED 416: ASMT 2
  • November 6 - CRWR 205: Quiz 2
  • November 22 - CRWR 205: Interview
  • November 29 - CRWR 205: Quiz 3
  • December 2 - ECED 416: ASMT 3
  • December 4 - ECED 405A: ASMT 3
jan 8 2017 ∞
oct 20 2018 +

I: You were my light and darkness. You shone and taught me what it meant to be cared for and gave me many feelings such as warmth and feeling at ease. Then we grew apart: your light grew dimmer each day, and eventually faded. "I wanted to be there for you but I felt like you didn't like me."

II: Thank you for being there for me when all my friends have left. We met online but it turns out you guys are so much better than the "friends" that live in my city.

III: I tore down my walls and opened my heart for you but you ended up leaving a permanent scar on my now bitter and broken heart. I loved you but all you left me with are overbearing anxieties and remnants of our past.

    • I don't regret us. The person you knew ba...
aug 17 2014 ∞
oct 8 2018 +