Note: there are people in this world who love me and people in this world I don't want to disappoint, but truthfully, I cannot live life when my only motivation is fueled by guilt. So the following are other reasons for me to live (I am still working on accepting and/or embracing these):

• I am slowly but steadily becoming the change I want to see in the world.
• I am full of love, empathy, and compassion. I am an advocate and a healer. I cherish other people and help other people and am learning how to cherish and help myself.
• my experiences must not go to waste. I can use my experiences to promote understanding and love and (self-)discovery, using the pain I have and have had to increase my own and others' (self)-awareness.
• my health may get better than I'd ever imagined it to. I must remember that I don't know the future and that I have gone unmeasurable distances from where I was just five years ago to now.
• life is a challenge, and my potential better health, my potential contributions, my potential future connections, my bucket list goals, my resolutions, et cetera are all worthy things to strive for and achieve.
• my trauma, pain, chaos, and illnesses are worthy things to overcome and/or succeed in managing, because if I can overcome and/or succeed in managing these things, I will be living the ideals of my creed: Drawing strength and vision from my darkness and becoming the power--or even exceeding the power--of my pain.
• I have the potential to become a good student as well as a good teacher and learn from and observe the world wholly, learning from my experience and offering the wisdom I gain from it.
• through my major arts, I offer a variant of feelings and interpretations. I give access to a world people cannot enter easily on their own. I provide different perspectives and express things that are important to me.
• I am eager to share what I find beautiful which, in turn, sometimes gives people a breath of fresh air.
• I need to reframe my mind from the submissive statement "I want peace and rest" to the battle cry "I deserve victory." I don't want to die from despair. I am worth more than that.