because i lost all my spark & spice.

• i was more knowledgeable about politics & governmental dynamics.
• i used to read so many philosophical articles & books.
• i was more of an intellectual tbh.
• i used to draw much more than i do nowadays.
• i used to play (bass) much more than i play nowadays.
• i used to write like a beast (14k words per day, average, wtf).
• i was less chaste, prudish, embarrassed, & insecure around my lover.
• i listened to good music, not only club music & loud bass.