✧ NO TRUE STORY IS LEFT TO PICK UP DUST:

• a new year means dealing with yourself and your struggles without a clear idea about who you are or what your purpose is or anything. the girl you like continues to be confusing while your goals for your extracurriculars keep on failing. you just want something good to happen.

✧ F*CKED UP FEBRUARY:

• 02/01/2024 ➣ your head hurts a lot but you carry on to chem with your substitute that you're familiar with. she doesn't like the fact no one stood up for the pledge but respects you enough to know you are going to do great things. a boring class period where you can't speak to your crush but at least you took a picture of chainsawman. you keep on working on the bridge in class and finishing the final touches. you have a boring lesson on cell pathways but you get your shit done while the underclassmen in your class remember you from events last year. so let's get this straight, the stupid church got your cousin arrested because of racism and hating your uncle, your family thinks your other cousin may be gay and might just treat her the same way as the other, and you have been outed for missing all seminary classes. you suddenly remember that the fucked up church was always an issue, even if you got felt better about it.
• 02/02/2024 ➣ you struggle to finish the report in the morning while some doofuses are playing fortnite. you get more work done in class while a random girl seems to be furious about her friend doing devious activity. you try to work on the bridge but you get incredibly tired. you confront your friend about if she's going back to the red flagged naked mole rat which she claims she isn't but you can't be sure, you just tell her that you trust her judgment. it seems like your advisor can't even talk to her daughter during the holidays because of the solar car project, it seems like you guys will have to lock in just for her. isn't it your own fault everyone's in this position. you talk to your crush and try to get her to give a straight answer but she won't, how annoying. she's surprised that you are technically a christian, but you don't know how to feel if she's christian after your religious history. it looks like you will be doing three plays on mlk in birmmingham jail, one about a guy getting bombed by the kkk, and one about a short man. you work on the report til midnight and you keep on pushing and pushing to see what happens in the end.
• 02/03/2024 ➣ you submitted the portfolio, but the lady hasn't responded. maybe you screwed up, until she did respond, you're good. you started playing persona 5 royal on the switch and it is really peak you love the nostalgia. why is solo leveling starting to kinda hit now. you start to do some surveys for your psychology assignment. your friend calls you to tell you the girl who was so quiet from last year has an issue about some mistakes on an annotated bibliography as well as some older guy trying to get into your friends pants.
• 02/04/2024 ➣ you work now to get prepared for sat while also to get more things done for judgment month. even though your head hurts a lot and church was annoying, you got your psychology assignment and biology assignments done and hit the hay.
• 02/05/2024 ➣ a pretty chilly and simple day in chemistry where your teacher shows pictures of her wedding. well well well, so brownie doesn't like a "lil boy" who definitely likes you and happens to be short, the same year as yourself and they're gonna ask them out on valentines? well if that isn't an answer, you don't know what is. even if they aren't talking about you, they have no business in being that rude. yall will stay friends but this romantic rendezvous arc is over. karma will naturally collect your debt so after a lil bit after that it seems like your advisor is dragging children out of class to work on this solar car and you guys have a plan to get shit done before march. after that, a serious lockdown happened where they seemed to be searching for certain kids who seemed to have weapons on them. they were detained and detained right next to you, so you clapped for joy. few minutes afterward, another lockdown would happen which caused all the students to run and jump the gates and other stuff. it was a serious situation that ended with no one getting hurt. you became terified of the idea of dying to some worthless individual, as there are much better ways to go out. you then took and aced a bio test. you updated people about brownie, fell asleep, and dealt with solar car stuff. you didn;t get work done though.
• 02/06/2024 ➣ you woke up pissed and disappointed, no romance, just reality with another failure. the aerospace classroom was as cold as a bitch again and you worked on jackets. you worked on making wood and making agendas only to get called by your advisor and for her to not be in the best mood but it's whatever at this point. you keep on working with her to the point where you had to find her earring. study/com ptsd is back and you're glad your freind can admit that brownie was a dodged bullet.
• 02/07/2024 ➣ you woke up only to try your best to read the boring book for ap english but it's just not reading right now if you know, you just skimmed a lot. you can't even think in peace because time moves too fast. brownie is on something, and that doesn't matter, you'll do what you said you'll do this year. you go ahead and work to get this flower garden thing in action, it's a close deadline but hopefully things work out. next thing you know you get both a lockdown drill and code red drill but just drills. the wax museum is pretty cool because everyone dressed up and did special boards. you said hi to brownie in there only for her to get all serious when you just said hi so it looks like she's gonna start being rude. you work on your new wood project and get ready for volunteer for a lackluster honor roll celebration with horrible food and buns. it looks like your school may be closing down in the future because of student underenrollment, what a crazy time to be alive.
• 02/08/2024 ➣ you play a lil fortnite while thinking about how disappointing you and brownie didn't work out due to external factors. but at the same time, you don't want to go to school tomorrow because brownie is gonna make fun of you and insult you for no reason tomorrow. you worked on making videos to prepare for the scrapbook while also working on your own personal project. you kept on working on your personal project along with some work for ap english. you kept on going while everyone was being a lil annoying. so yeah for this day of fucked up february you got a pretty bad grade on a test. you had an introduction meeting for nhs and got a bunch new members but your advisor says that's about 20% of the group that got invitations. either way, you stayed after school to see a gun forum that was pretty cool and you were proud of your peers who were on the forum.
• 02/09/2024 ➣ yeah so you just still have a feeling she's gonna be rude for no reason, remember, it is fucked up february after all. you keep on doing your best to get chemistry but you see a scary text that you hope isn't a joke. it looks like a college guy came in to educate upperclassmen and it was pretty good for the most part. it's true, a guy you were on the trivia thing with about a year ago seemed to have committed suicide yesterday by walking into a train. several of your friends cried and feel out of it. you hate how all the signs were so noticable yet and it could've been prevented but no. you finished constructing the number on out of wood. you wonder what's the next thing that comes to mind. bio was chill you were just talking about triple a battery's girls deeds and shit but still mourning. well you got a long weekend ahead of you filled with work and deadlines.
• 02/10/2024 ➣ great, you missed the priority deadline simply by forgetting. so you caught up with your friend about fucked up february. you talk about what happened each day of the month while also learning that amelia earhart is an issue. the whole ""lil boy" who definitely likes you and happens to be short, the same year as yourself" might not actually be you but someone else. not only that, but she is still bullying the guy from earlier but saying shit like him watching hentai in public. she is a goddamn monster and you want it to stop. however, you also can't help but feel disappointed about how she used to be such a good soul.
• 02/11/2024 ➣ after you waste another day at church with old geezers who tell you to put your phone away and yapping brats who do nothing but yap, you go home to get stuff done. you got a message from the missionaries and they hope you go on a mission but you know that's not gonna happen. you keep on working but there keeps on being distractions and for some reason your body keeps aching, you keep it up until you get the stuff submitted.
• 02/12/2024 ➣ you wake up knowing you only got a bit of the stuff you needed to get done. you kept on trying to work but you're left with stuff to do while your body is aching. you got two new bracelets, one based on gojo and a valentines one, you don't know what to do with the second one though. you worked hard to get that play done and you eventually did get it done. it is nice to see that the person who worked on the banner is so willing to join us for the solar car challenge. it seems like more people than you thought knew sterlin. it looks like after a long meeting you ogt 9 days to completely make a car from scratch and have it all make sense. you called a few businesses and some of them have poor service. you fell asleep and saw that someone was texting more than usual.
• 02/13/2024 ➣ after your nap, you worked dilligently on your other classes but couldn't bring enough energy to work on that solar car project. so you went to call some businesses and talk about amelia earhart but honestly it's looking like you're putting this arc on an end. after talking a lot during ap english, it seems pretty obvious this should stick as a friendship. you joke around with friends how you're going to miss the era of teenage love, even though that isn't all entirely true, but they don't gotta know about the hidden inventory arc. you had a talk with your teacher about how serious the solar car was going to be and how you should try your best to not continue it. after your short friend took hours and hours walking around and wasting your time, yall just chilled in ap bio. you played tons of games with friends and fell asleep.
• 02/14/2024 ➣ you keep on having weird dreams about nhs, about engineering club, the weirdest was how you were waiting on a date and they came with like 8 other friends including them of all people. they blocked you from talking to them so it's obvious we're at a point where words won't reach them but still it's just weird. so you got on the bus and once you got off you realized why the grinch wanted to steal christmas. when you guys went to the elementary school, you were stuck with an all spanish speaking class so there was obviously a struggle but you guys got it done with 8 hours as well. you hanged around the area talking to old friends, including hearing weird things like a nerd that wants to be you wanting to touch girls tiddies and your friend getting upset over the naked mole rat. you got home and you literally did nothing, you are doing horrible at this because you are mad at what you and brownie could've been. you even had to make an argument on why you don't like gold diggers.
• 02/15/2024 ➣ you showered at 2am and still didn't do work. you gotta fix this. you spoke to your advisor about the car and it seems like she doesn't like how you don't delegate and you discourage, but it looks like we are going to texas no matter what, so that's going to be crazy. once you leave, there seems to be a major code red with tons of security around. you can't even enjoy second period because she's constantly calling children and everything. but you talk with people and even though your main squad all left, you gotta keep on pushing. you inform everyone on what they have to do and you get to it. you keep on pushing, even in the most random of fire drills but you keep on going. you kept on working and posting the club on ig and making an impact. btw, brownie is being much nicer and she's asking all these questions like she thinks you would want to come to her games and how she didn't see you on valentines.
• 02/16/2024 ➣ day two of this endless grind. you almost missed your bus but you still made it to school. you told the ese kid to leave your group because he harasses women on a daily. your "leave" supposedly "parted the red sea". you recorded your friend getting harassed in aerospace class while getting work done. you had to get your team together to make some progress on the solar car. your friends made a joke that 1 out of 6 kids in gen z happen to be lgtbq and it happen to work out when you and five friends were walking together. you worked with your advisor on some documents for the solar car. you got some history work done while also talking about doodle world. you wrote a psychological analysis on osamu dazai after witnessing one about eren yeager in your psychology class.
• 02/17/2024 ➣ day three of this grind that does not seem to end. you were working all the way til 5am on ap bio work while telling your friend about your romantic situation with brownie as your friend was translating for her sister's sore throat at a hospital. you went with your mother to go to some nearby locations to get plants for nhs and it turned out to be an overall success. you played some fortnite until you got really tired.
• 02/18/2024 ➣ you got to stay home and avoid the dreadful day at church. you talked to your friend about her not responding to your text until the very next day, brownie was filled with cap and obviously she thinks a certain way about you. you spent a good portion of the day doing biology and psychology work. all the journeys start some where with a first step. no one's sure what lies ahead, be bold and brave (stand up). roads may be rough and tough. though it will lead some where (nothing easy get up and go get it go). sometimes it's journey itself that teaches. a lot about the destination not aware of. no matter how far (no matter how far). how you go (how you go). how long it may last (carpe diem, no time to waste). venture life burn your dread (you gotta venture life go get it burn your dread).
• 02/19/2024 ➣ yesterday involved you getting a nice haircut, catching up on chemistry as well as some sat studying. you got a decent score on the practice test and you hope you can get a better one by the time of the test. you will say that these fidget spinners become handy.
• 02/20/2024 ➣ you wake up exhausted and almost late but you keep on pushing. you really don't know how you're supposed to have everything for the gala but whatever. you got an ap chem test next class you're gonna fail hard. first once it was a perfectly fine class period and the vibe was good between you and amelia, so that's good. as long as yall stay on good terms, things will be fine. you stress out about the damn car and work on stupid punnett squares while staying after school to work more on the car.
• 02/21/2024 ➣ after waking up from a nap, you worked til sunrise on us history, aerospace, engineering club, and more. so what if you were in class listening to ariana grande, she is surprisingly good background music. you keep on working on the 3d model of the solar car as well as some other items. you keep on doing this until lunch time where a lockdown is called due to neighborhood activity which is stupider than the fact you had to go across the school just for a word document fix. but you kept on working dilligently and never got to do your play. we don't got the flowers at school due to miscommunication and a lack of teamwork, you barely got a functioning car, and so many things are not going the way they planned. you used cartoons and hours to force people to know each other better. you wake up to a stupid psychology teacher who grades too fast.
• 02/22/2024 ➣ you talk to your friend til they fall asleep and you try to get stuff done but that book is so damn annoying to read. you instead try to get the new chuuya and akutagawa. so that dream that featured friends doing gay activity, friends getting into fights, the whole school trying to evacuate to escape police brutality, and more only shows that the dreams are back. "it's the parasite eve. got a feeling in your stomach. 'cause you know that it's coming for ya. leave your flowers and grieve. don't forget what they told ya, ayy, ayy. when we forget the infection. will we remember the lesson?. if the suspense doesn't kill you. something else will, ayy, ayy. it's the parasite eve, ayy, ayy. it's the parasite eve, ayy, ayy. it's the parasite eve (parasite eve), ayy, ayy. ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy. we cannot save you. we cannot save you. we cannot save you. we cannot save you. we cannot save you" you got the new dreaming akutagawa and chuuya. you took a test in ap chem and did better than you expect, maybe there's hope for you after all. you bonded with your ap chem classmates about how your teacher doesn't teach anything at all and how it's frustrating, but they're impress with your special strategies when you need extra points. another boring ap english class where there are no weird questions, still kinda mad you and brownie couldn't be a thing. you spent the entire 3rd period building the model and the fourth period schooling the entire class on probability and during a lockdown. you have a long nhs meeting which involves you working with different clubs and other stuff as well as the new members wanting to be impactful but they understand we need to be quick. you're so annoyed and tired that your mom made a video of you. you got some few assignments done before going to sleep.
• 02/23/2024 ➣ you wake up with things to do but at the same time but you get it done. surprisingly your aerospace teacher is up at 4am. "take back your wildness, vroom, vroom.. clear your throat, um, um. suppressed desires burst out and scream, "follow us or avoid us!" run over me to make the world shudder. follow your inner instinct. here is already paradise. rewrite a brand-new life ever since the beginning. don't tie me, tie me up, tie me, tie me up! there is one and only rule in the gray jungle. it's just a merciless food chain. shout to you, "let's growl!" so bring it on, bring it on, bring it on!" so you get an engineering club shirt for your aerospace teacher while also being acknowledged as number one by some random peers and you talk to them about it for a bit. you spent a long day filled with miscommunication and other issues. but you guys showed up and showed out. you talked to middle schoolers while representing engineering and presenting banger responses and much more. your friends did get in a little trouble with the principal but it's not really their faults for talking when there is a lockdown everyday. not only that but you can't leave us history now because some kids apparently left with you when you are trying to get stuff done. you can never catch a break. you talk about competitions and took back the solar car model to work on at home.
• 02/24/2024 ➣ you know you just are not in the mood to get stuff done. it might be because brownie has disappointed you so much but it does not matter cause you will still try. it looks like your friend told you some very embarassing things about her liking another one of your friends so its bery weird and hopefully it does not go anywhere.
• 02/25/2024 ➣ you wake up early to finish the genshin lantern rite event but also to get some more work done. you worked so much on psychology that you felt the need to ask others about their mbti types. not only that, but you changed your listo background after so many years. you kept working hard at the stupid solar car while brownie kept on texting but your friend describes his experiences at a competition where he got chose to go to nationals.
• 02/26/2024 ➣ this school and all this school work is so stupid. you did some chemistry work and kept on painting the thing silver. you got some ap english work done while brownie keeps on laughing and smiling with you. yoy spent all of third period painting and fourth period just listening about chromosome maps. you stayed afterschool to have a solar car meeting and learned how to navigate the rules. you guys might have to shot to race next year but you'll definitely race this year.
• 02/27/2024 ➣ after falling asleep and your brain being an asshole putting you in such horrible dreams, you wake up fully rested but still with headaches as you keep on pushing. your friend was accused of wanting nudes and feet pics, but hopefully he will recover from that. you realized you need to know you can do anything cause you're number one. so pretty much a lot of kids who aren't passing things they are supposed to will get free items to cool places, when these are the same kids who can only pass pregnancy tests. you do stupid course selection that wastes your time and spend a period signing some hours off. you now have some c's because of things that were out of your control. you stayed after school to get more information but ended up just wasting more time, but you decide to go to a nearby high school to gain some info for the team. the workload is so heavy and you're trying to do all these things but you're slowly getting more and more burnt out.
• 02/28/2024 ➣ these days are so frustrating and so annoying cause no one is communicating with each other and they're practically depending on you to do all of the work. you are just straight up tired and burnt out and you're trying your best to get work done. more ap english and more collab on the on writing book, kinda boring though. you just see that it's practically impossible to get this solar car thing done without sacrificing your own academic career, let's just do it next year and be more proactive. you found it funny that some random fish went from a girl to a dude just because the temperature got hotter. you ranted to a friend a lot about lego ninjago.
• 02/29/2024 ➣ you prepare for your psychology final while also stressing out about life. you paid the $100 for the gala, let's see where this takes us. You spent the morning getting some questions right and being straight up tired, but it's weird that your friend made out with a student that already graduated that they had little connection with. you spend sixth period seeing a kid who obviously has some sort of adhd riding a chair and stool like it's a sex position and throw it back on a whole new level, only to see them break a meter stick and leave a plan to go ahead and hide it. you were able to start a tutoring thing and possibly get the garden idea going back again. us history was tiring as always but you got through it. you stayed after school to work on inventor and realized that your own computer can't run it, oh well. you wake up to write a strongly worded email about your ultimate feelings about racing in the solar car challenge this year, but it ended up with your advisor telling you to rest up and blow the minds of the people at the gala. you then work on other stuff while getting the team to execute this project.

✧ LAST PAGE OF A CHAPTER:

• talk about a fuckton of a month. this shit was literally crazy and there is little reason to not use profanity. because why did so much hell happen. you thought you might've had a girlfriend, but life can't be that easy. not to mention you lost a friend to suicide. there were so many lockdowns that several dreams were related to shooters and police brutality. you had to deal with this challenge practically by yourself with limited help and you just see how stupid your school can be. however, no matter what happens, you will reach your final goals in this life.