✧ CONTEMPLATING THE PAST AS YOU MAKE YOUR WAY OUT OF THE IRON CAGE:

• last year was rough. you had deal with the issues of love, betrayal and people talking behind your back, and the lost of your grandfather. but you had some wins with your lessons too. not only that, but it's time for college application season to come and go. you spent the last month meeting up with friends, both old ones from middle school and ones that have gone off to colleges. you passed your exams and classes while also having celebrations and fun all time around. you look towards the next year with many aspirations, goals, new habits, challenges, and a lot more. but honestly, be proud of yourself, it looks like you're becoming stronger mentally with your lessons. you're keeping the promise you made two years ago.

✧ NEW YEAR'S FLOWERS AND THE SCENT OF VICTORY:

• 01/01/2024 ➣ you played minecraft with friends, planned trips, and got new years mori, randou, and ozaki, some good shit. you wake up, play some games, eat well with some sweet potato fries, and you got a good vibe you're feeling. but, let's finish harvard and columbia. you got the scholarship out the way, but it was very tiring, now can you finish the applications?
• 01/02/2024 ➣ you finished harvard and columbia. you prepare and sleep for the next day and you go to sleep. now you got some other things do and games to play. but you start jhu, cornell, and yale, let's see if you can get them done.
• 01/03/2024 ➣ you finished jhu, cornell, and yale, now time for minecraft and gaming. you fall asleep, wake up, do work around the house, and get some more scholarships done. are you ready for the school year, are you ready for the applications, just try to chill out and continue working.
• 01/4/2024 ➣ after playing minecraft with friends and getting full netherite armor, you chill and relax until you head to bed. then you wake up, drive around town going to walmart and publix getting stuff. then you chill, play a lot of brothership, and prepare your plan for the upcoming school year.
• 01/05/2024 ➣ you sit in contemplation after watching tons of college reaction videos. while you watch your winter break end, you work on some scholarships and you finish your applications to stanford and upenn. you find the contact of your old teacher and decided that you'll will message her soon to thank her. you also went to church and your stomach was killing you while also dying of embarrasment about the situation with "ivan" and your church lady you guys take to church. it took many hours, but you finally finished your applications and other sat stuff.
• 01/06/2024 ➣ so today is a very stressful day. after eating ice cream and finishing you prepare your self to return back to your school and finish what needs to get done. you work a little bit on a bridge but run around all around school trying to get stuff done for this magnet open house. before then, you went around various classrooms giving teachers a welcome back snack and/or drink. you then worked on the bridge and stayed after school for an sga meeting. it was fun and your grade level hyped you up as the valedictorian. you returned home, and worked on your application only to find out your recommender didn't do your transcript form and that was quite unfortunate. you rushed to find people to help you out and even though you found a solution, the end product was ultimately disappointing. it felt like the school you appreciated and romanticized so much was just thrown anyway for the silliest reason. it was like you made the smallest mistake kill your application even though you probably weren't gonna get in. you then submitted the application, finished uchichago, helped your friend with her essay, and went to bed.

✧ DISCARDED DREAMS:

• 01/07/2024 ➣ you were just so exhausted from yesterday. it was like all of your care towards an institution was thrown away but it's fine. you go to school and decide to start building a bridge for competitions. during that day, you heard your name of the annoucements and got shouted out for all the schools you got into. you talked with your teacher and friend about stupid schools and sat scores and feel like you're not getting into the top schools. it was this and a headache that bothered you for the whole day. after checking in with your brace advisor about the incident last night and other situations with your ap calc class, you do some work, see the kid that called you a super senior that one night when you were chilling with your dad. you go home, and just relax the entire day because you're stressed and overwhelmed and exhausted. at least you helped a friend with her senior quote and recovered from the stress.
• 01/08/2024 ➣ you woke up and decided to stay home and not go to school today. you were chilling and decided to pull for citlali and got her. nice going. you now work to get a lot of stuff done. you get frustrated about the fact that it seems like you can't get a day off to yourself sometimes. after a lot of scholarships, including a short film and an essay both you and a friend rushed to finish, you got a lot of work done. you also fixed some issues with your application and transcript to mit and prepared more things going forward.
• 01/09/2025 ➣ you wake up refreshed and get ready to go to school for a nhs meeting. you come to school a lil late, but it seems like the meeting you came for got cancelled. you just ended up building bridges while you waited and did other stuff while you waited for the day to end. you walk around, talk with friends, get some stuff done while talking about college.
• 01/10/2025 ➣ a free day off means some time do some work, play some games, and chill out. "shout out to the girls that i led on. for occasional head and always keeping my bed warm. and tryin' they hardest to keep my head on straight. and keeping me up enough 'til i had thought i was airborne. how many raps can i write 'til i get me a chain? how many chains can i wear 'til i'm considered a slave? how many slaves can it be 'til nat turner arrives? how many riots can it be until them black lives matter? when niggas click, clack, splatter, pew, pew that nigga. life a game of basketball, you better shoot that nigga. 'cause if that cop got trigger, he better pull. 'cause when i get pulled over, i usually play it cool. 'cause i know what i'm driving is usually paid in full. and my ego and possessions, will not let me be one (nah). because i got a mansion, my mansion got some rooms. and rooms got some windows and my windows got some views. and views get some stairs and my backyard does too. and if you walk to the bottom, you'll probably see a pool. you better not drown, keep them ten toes up. 'cause if those ten toes down, that mean that you fucked up. and that's what i swim in. and if i drown and don't come back who's gonna know? (maybe then i'll know). and if i crash and don't come back. who's gonna know? (maybe then i'll know). and if i fall and don't come back. who's gonna know? (maybe then i'll know). i'm wondering if i don't come back. maybe then i'll know. don't come back. don't come back. ayy, don't come back. don't come back, no, no."
• 01/11/2025 ➣ so you guys play minecraft and do whatever. you get some work done but you go to school for a trivia tournament. you supported your underclassmen while saying hi to other friend and seeing their smart friends compete. afterwards you sleep and work on some more assignments before killing the enderdragon in minccraft.
• 01/12/2025 ➣ so after slaying the enderdragon and bringing allays home to the world, you go to sleep. you wake up, finish brothership, play a lil bit of dicey dungeons but click with slay the spire. after all of that, you do some calc assignments, a scholarship, and prepare for the upcoming week.
• 01/13/2025 ➣ you wake up tired and exhausted, but you still end up going to school anyways. you were quite tired but you spent most of the day prepping for the magnet showcase tomorrow. this meant making slips, getting drone batteries, and going around the school getting materials. some teachers tell you to do the contests and the scholarships while others complain about trying to get students to come to the high school even though there are fights everyday. speaking of which, there were three fights and you were stuck in the magnet office because of one of them. you were invited to the future parties and graduation parties, that's so sweet of them. "nah, i ain't heard of that. i hit the beach in a furry hat. she got a guy but she purring back. i'm looking like, "where he at?" nigga, get out the way (way), that girl my hay (hey). rock on my hand, nah, this ain't dwayne (hey, hey). this shit neon yellow like pee on it (hey, hey). on both sides, yeah, you could say i'm beyond it (hey, hey). got whips like slaves, the garage like, "yee-haw". horses, more car keys than a piano. and one came with an umbrella like rihanna. nigga, let's be honest (um), be honest." you spent the day building an amethesyt geode in minecraft.
• 01/14/2025 ➣ you stayed up late to finish your amethyst geode in minecraft, now you go to sleep to prepare for the long day ahead of you. on two hours of sleep, you are just working on bridge stuff and helping people around the school. you walk around and listen to some music while testing bridges holding tons of pounds. after that, you sat three to a eat to and from the magnet showcase event and flew a drone around a bunch of kids, you came back home with your ass hurting and a major headache.
• 01/15/2025 ➣ you come home and prepare for the long day ahead. after some bridge building and one of your friends arguably being a hoe from, you get ready for magnet open house after going to various teachers and setting things up. it really puts a strain on your feet after walking tens of thousands of steps in church shoes. it was a good event and you even heard from family members that will kill children to protect their child from your school so it is quite insightful. apparently your aphg teacher's son got into mit but he doesn't even want him to go there, talk about a slap in the face. but you get accepted into purdue engineering, from the easier campus, do two scholarships, finish the css profile, and go to bed. btw, you felt ass cramps from yesterday.
• 01/16/2025 ➣ you wake up still exhausted from yesterday but you're ready to go build a garden. after working on a bridge, you help your magnet coordinator clean her office and drop off some paperwork. you walk around feeling very tired but you get your stuff done. you're tired of people getting into relationship drama.
• 01/17/2025 ➣ you needed to stay home and get some stuff done. after playing some minecraft and some other games, you dance, get some discussions done, and work on the extracurriculars for next week. it looks like triple a batteries girl got into a fight and bit someone quite badly. you're confused on why people are talking about the fight in the main chat. you just play a lot of slay the spire and see while you like some of the classes in the game.
• 01/18/2025 ➣ after playing slay the spire for quite awhile, you wake up to play some games and decorate the amethyst geode you got going on in minecraft. you get some physics work done, respond about the interview, as well as get some other work going. you feel bad about your friend and how you hurt them, you also feel bad about how you felt about their friendships with everyone else in comparision to yours. tik tok is gone and people are incredibly sad.
• 01/19/2025 ➣ after a boring day at church and a scary encounter with that one guy who keeps telling you to put your phone away, you get home, play some genshin, and work on calculus, physics, and philosophy while talking to friends about random stuff. also, tik tok came back, and the world is rejoicing.
• 01/20/2025 ➣ as you prepare for your yale interview, you get word that you're getting an interview at harvard. crazy work. your stomach hurts you as you get ready for the interview. the interview went well and you chill, go eat out food with family, and come back home crazy tired.

✧ STUCK IN A WORLD WHERE COMPROMISE DOES NOT EXIST:

• 01/21/2025 ➣ you wake up ready to go to school with some plans for your professional future and a new president taking charge. and looks likes he has already started with finding illegal immingrants in churches and schools, this guy is kinda crazy. you apologize to your friend for making fun of her figures the other day. on tuesday you work on your bridge for practically the entire day. you walk around to get some stuff done here and there but you just sent out a lot of emails and messages for people to get stuff done. then you get home and barely do anything, talk about annoying. you do get arlecchino and add her to your account while you prepare for the harvard interview.
• 01/22/2025 ➣ you spent the entire day building bridges, helping kids studying, hearing about certain students needing antidepressents, and more. you are working with a science club but also failed to even host an engineering club meeting. your teacher almost hurt the entire bridge competition cause he's been worried about getting broken up with by a girl who he's cheated on. maybe you shouldn't choose him to introduce you at graduation, but it seems like your other choice is not the best either. in a world where compromise does not exist, it seems like we done lost the affirmative action policy for the workforce. you got to do something about this. you do some work before going to bed.
• 01/23/2025 ➣ on another cold morning, you wake up to get work done and to keep on working with a purpose. today will be your last day working on bridges because you got an interview tomorrow. however, you spend the day helping out your nhs advisor with some things while going to an assembly for seniors which was funny. after more bridge building and walking around, you help people out and finish up your bridge. you have a meeting after school to talk about nhs and play random games. you go home, do some work, and try your best to relax.
• 01/24/2025 ➣ you finally get the chance to sleep in and chill. unfortunately some of your teammates are struggling cause a lot of bridges are not the best. however, it seems like it eventually got sorted out. after preparing all day for your interview and doing other work, you just chill and play smash bros. you got into uf, the highest ranking school you have been accepted to so far. you are finally in the t30s. but your dumbass got scammed $20 by someone faking to be your friend. you feel scummy but the interview was very authentic and genuine. then you went to go help a friend with an assignment while doing yours and that did not end the best. not your best day.
• 01/25/2025 ➣ feeling disappointed that you not only got scammed but you missed a deadline, you try to play games to get your mind off of it. you and your friends fight the wither in minecraft and obtain a nether star. when you go to sleep, you play some games to find out you and your team member got 2nd in both the county and the state along with $50. this is all the other teams were given the wrong wood and yall pretty much won by default. you get some work done and play games with friends while listening to some of the natlan story quests in genshin. you got back on your smash bros grind too. "and when the story ends. it becomes a part of me. i've given what it takes. i'll find another way. i used to never know. but now it's crystal clear. this feeling's just a ghost. it's time to face your fear. 'cause when your time has come and gone. i'll be the one to carry on (carry on). and you can throw me to the wolves (throw me to the wolves). 'cause i am undefeatable. i'm hanging on to the other side. i won't give up 'til the end of me. i'm what you get when the stars collide. now face it, you're just an enemy. i'm hanging on to the other side (the other side). i won't give up 'til the end of me (end of me). i'm what you get when the stars collide (stars collide). now face it, you're just an enemy."
• 01/26/2025 ➣ you played super ninja boy with your friend and some other snes games. you wake up to play some games and get a lot of work done. "better fear me better run away. cause this battle's just begun. enchanted whisper in your evil ear. can you hear the words i've won... i've won, i've won. yeah! i'm slashing right through the fire. yeah! i'm slashing might through the fire. yeah! i'm slashing fighting for the power. yeah! fighting for the power. in my path you'll fear me either way. so the truth won't set you free. for the glory of this golden war. as you bow your head to me... to me... to me." you got it all done, but you got an 84% on a test that's worth 60% of your grade. you really got to lock in.
• 01/27/2025 ➣ you came to school today with plans to properly get nationals bridge stuff done. however, while you were trying to get stuff done, you ended up hearing a crazy conversation between your engineering teacher and a friend. it was so loud that it was unavoidable. you eventually was told what it was about, turns out your engineering teacher is a creep, a cheater, a stalker, and potentially a future criminal. you told others about it. other than that, you were helping out your magnet coordinator and checked on your hours throughout the week. you stay after school for a meeting and to help out, go to sleep, and get some work done.
• 01/28/2025 ➣ while you work on some assignments, you head out to your first senior event. it was fun and you got to talk to many seniors about their futures. you did feel like a third wheel at times. however, you ended up going to mcdonalds, go roller skating again, and also do some lazer tag. it's not the same with your older friend group, but it's okay. then you go check out your blazer and polo and prepare for the next semester of this scholarship foundation while helping out others. afterwards, you help out your mom with washing the car. then you go inside and get work done. the ghost of mandela, hope my flows stay propellin'. let these words be your earth and moon, you consume every message. as i lead this army, make room for mistakes and depression. and with that being said, my nigga, let me ask this question. when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? won't you look to your left and right? make sure you ask your friends. when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? do you believe in me? are you deceiving me? could i let you down easily? is your heart where it need to be? is your smile on permanent? is your vow on lifetime? would you know where the sermon is if i died in this next line? if i'm tried in a court of law, if the industry cut me off if the government want me dead, plant cocaine in my car. would you judge me a drug-head or see me as k. lamar? or question my character and degrade me on every blog? want you to love me like nelson, want you to hug me like nelson. i freed you from being a slave in your mind, you're very welcome. you tell me my song is more than a song, it's surely a blessing. but a prophet ain't a prophet 'til they ask you this question. when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? won't you look to your left and right? make sure you ask your friends. when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? the ghost of mandela, hope my flows stay propellin'. let my words be your earth and moon, you consume every message. as i lead this army, make room for mistakes and depression. and with that. do you believe in me? how much you believe in her? you think she gon' stick around if them 25 years occur? you think he can hold you down when you down behind bars, hurt? you think y'all on common ground if you promise to be the first? can you be immortalized without your life being expired? even though you share the same blood, is it worth the time? like, who got your best interest? like, how much are you dependent? how clutch are the people that say they love you? and who pretending? how tough is your skin when they turn you in? do you show forgiveness? what brush do you bend when dusting your shoulders from being offended? what kind of den did they put you in when the lions start hissing? what kind of bridge did they burn? revenge on your mind when it's mentioned. you wanna love like nelson, you wanna be like nelson. you wanna walk in his shoes, but your peacemaking seldom. you wanna be remembered that delivered the message. that considered the blessing of everyone. this your lesson for everyone, say. when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? won't you look to your left and right? make sure you ask your friends. when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? the voice of mandela, hope this flow stay propellin'. let my word be your earth and moon, you consume every message. as i lead this army, make room for mistakes and depression. and if you riding with me, nigga. i been wrote off before, i got abandonment issues. i hold grudges like bad judges, don't let me resent you. that's not nelson-likewant you to love me like nelson. i went to robben's island analysing; that's where his cell is. so i could find claritylike, how much you cherish me? is this relationship a fake, or real as the heavens be? see, i got to question it all; family, friends, fans, cats, dogs. trees, plants, grass, how the wind blow, murphy's law. generation x, will i ever be your ex? flaws of a baby step', mauled by the mouth of pit bulls. put me under stress, crawled under rocks, duckin' y'all. it's respect but then tomorrow, put my back against the wall. how many leaders you said you needed then left 'em for dead? is it moses? is it huey newton or detroit red? is it martin luther? jfk? shooter you assassin is it jackie? is it jesse? oh, i know it's michael jackson, oh. when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? that nigga gave us "billie jean, " you say he touched those kids? when shit hit the fan, is you still a fan? the ghost of mandela, hope my flows stay propelling. let my word be your earth and moon, you consume every message. as i lead this army, make room for mistakes and depression. and if you riding with me, nigga, let me ask this question, nigga. "i remember you was conflicted. misusing your influence. sometimes i did the same. abusing my power, full of resentment. resentment that turned into a deep depression. found myself screaming in the hotel room. i didn't wanna self-destruct. the evils of lucy was all around me. so i went running for answers. until i came home. but that didn't stop survivor's guilt going back and forth trying to convince myself the stripes i earned. or maybe how a-1 my foundation was. but while my loved ones was fighting the continuous war back in the city i was entering a new one. a war that was based on apartheid and discrimination. made me wanna go back to the city and tell the homies what i learned. the word was respect. just because you wore a different gang color than mine's. doesn't mean i can't respect you as a black man. forgetting all the pain and hurt we caused each other in these streets. if i respect you, we unify and stop the enemy from killing us. but i don't know, i'm no mortal man. maybe i'm just another nigga."
• 01/29/2025 ➣ you are so freaking tired man it's crazy. you spent the morning doing work and you have no sleep. you are congratulated on the annoucements for your acceptances into uf, purdue, and drexel. you are quite tired when you are summoned to do work, but you bring your friend with you to report your engineering teacher for his nasty and very outrageous behavior. throughout the day, you hear about how he's apparently sent certain pictures to a minor and other offenses. it looks like engineering is going to collaspe in the near future. other than that, today is the first day the tech team is working. the tech team gets its assignments done and you continue to help your magnet coordinator. they give us guns and drugs, call us thugs, make it they promise to fuck with you. no condom, they fuck with you, obama say, "what it do?". obama say, "what it do?". obama say, "what it do?" i been a-1 since day one, you niggas boo-bo0. your homeboy, your block that you're from, boo-boo. lil' hoes you went to school with, boo-boo. baby mama and your new bitch, boo-boo. we was in the hood, fourteen with the deuce-deuce. fourteen years later, going hard like we used to. on the dead homies. on the dead homies. everybody want to talk about who this and who that. who the realest and who wack, or who white or who black. critics want to mention that they miss when hip-hop was rappin'. motherfucker, if you did, then killer mike'd be platinum. y'all priorities fucked up, put energy in wrong shit. hennessy and crown vic, my memory been gone since. don't ask about no camera blocking at award shows. no, don't ask about my bitch, no, don't ask about my vogues. 'less you askin' me about power, yeah, i got a lot of it. i'm the only nigga next to snoop that can push the button. had the coast on standby. "k. dot, what up? i heard they opened up pandora's box". i box 'em all in, by a landslide. nah, homie, we too sensitive, it spill out to the streets. i make the call and get the coast involved, then history repeats. but i resolved inside that private hall while sitting down with jay. he said, "it's funny how one verse can fuck up the game". i been a-1 since day one, you niggas boo-boo. you eventually get home and tell your seniors about the grievances of their old engineering teacher. while you do work, you find out you've been selected as an outstanding senior leader. many congratulate you, even some started to follow you just to congratulate you. you then play pico park on roblox with friends and rage on it.
• 01/30/2025 ➣ happy birthday. it's been years since we talked and i'll keep the silence you desire. proud of you always. you wake up refreshed with more congratulations, it's time to catch up on work. you catch up on genshin. you play some smash bros and super ninja boy with your friend. you went on two meetings, one for the foundation you are a part of which will get rid of your scholarship if your parents don't go on a trip, and another where you talk about budgetting for your personal finance class.
• 01/31/2025 ➣ you woke up and talked with your elementary school friend about your different passions and how each of you are doing great. you stayed home and played games while catching up on work. unfortunately, your friend that was feeling uncomfortable teacher was cornered and mess up and the engineering teacher might track her down even though he's not supposed to. you tell her what to do and tell her she can always text for help. other than that, you finished the literary fair essay, dba, and talk with friends later that day and watch the beast games. who dem is? nigga, who dem is? who else step in this bitch this jig? who else your bitch say got a bic this big? who else came through with a wrist this flick? nigga, guess my pants, do my dance. spin around, bitch, you could kiss my ass. never seen a nigga in this much raf. still doin' math when i miss my class. was it summertime '06, had the number nine. nigga, never mind, was another time before vince. had the gucci gold tips with the letterman. nigga, dollar sign was my favorite number at the time. fresh freshman 'til they skip my ass. senior citizen, don't forget my pass. been that nigga and you knew that there. make the dick disappear, how she do that there? who dat boy? who him is? who dat boy? who him is? nigga, who dat boy? who him is? who dem boys? nigga, who dem is, nigga? why you niggas feel like that? mad 'cause a nigga neck chill like that. mad 'cause a nigga push weight like that? why you puttin' bad vibes in the? fuck the rap, i'm tryna own a planet. from my other fuckin' business ventures.these niggas these days. actin' like some bitches, like they're fuckin' with ya (yeah). teeth is glistenin', jesus, christmas. he just shittin', she exquisite, bitches be expensive (oh, no, nigga). and i don't even need attention. wang$ap on the bumper sticker, fuck you niggas. fuck global warming, my neck is so frío. i'm currently lookin' for '95 leo. my mom say she worried because i'm so ill. i should stay in bed, but got too much bread. to make, she said watch my weight. so i stayed home and start eatin' some meals. get out of my way, way. boy that's mclaren, that's zero to sixty in two-point-nueve, i'm gone. fuck. you got into georiga tech.

✧ MONTH CLOSURE:

• coming into the 2025, you have some good moments and some rough ones. senior events are starting but you weren't feeling the first one. the tests and assignments are getting harder. you got into some good schools but your engineering teacher is being a preadator and the usa is going to shit. all you can keep on doing is moving forward in this world where compromise does not exist.