✧ NO TRUE STORY IS LEFT TO PICK UP DUST:

• the girl you liked for so so so so long just isn't it worth it, she tried trapping you and it still feels like she's trying but it doesn't seem worth it in the end. however, it might seem like an old friend might have a crush on you. despite all the love, it might not work out for you anytime soon. it's better to throw it all away, and do your best to live out your life in a way that satisfies you due to your purpose anxiety, start by passing those exams, saying those goodbyes, and by leaving an impact.

✧ THE MONTH WITH COUNTLESS BATTLES AT THE JOURNEYS END:

• 05/01/2024 ➣ it's assistant secretaries birthday. you start preparing for academic signing day by putting up balloons and pennants and many more treats for the seniors. your teacher wanted you back so you had to go back to class without your bag cause it was locked in the classroom. it just seems like brownie is trying a different approach with you, as she wants to become closer, whether that be friends or something more. your gave your friend a bag of popcorn that was one month past the expiration date. you talked to dtb girl and had a good convo when her bf wasn't there, the problem is him, simple. while you are finalizing things for the engineering awards, academic signing day is going on. you take a video of all your friends saying what school they are going to. you clean up knowing how lonely things will get and keep on pushing on. you had your engineering awards, a bunch of medals and food and it feels weird knowing you won't be president for much longer, but you made the right choices. the girl who dyed her hair red, who was two years younger than the age she was supposed to, that disappeared for the start of this school year, was secretly number 3 the whole time. depending on her pathway, she could be an additional threat to your valedictorian spot, especially since you have no way to know where she is. you were exhausted for the whole day.
• 05/02/2024 ➣ you wake up and finish the essay only to see that it will accept up to 2000 characters, not 500 words, stupid system. you gave some more medals and bracelets and other stuff. only to find out the bracelets you got from the stem people at the nhs convention are the 4ocean recycled plastic and stainless steel medals that go for $20 to $30 a piece, we are rich gangggg. you work hard to make a field trip happen even though you aren't going on the field trip yourself. you walk back into a race war where your engineering teacher is going up against like six ignorant students about the use of the n word, it was so stupid and then they unironically starting doing tiktok dances which was honestly some of the funniest shit you've ever seen that left you stunned for a go 40 minutes. your friend is keeping two things from you and it seems like one of them is a crush on someone you know but what's the other is. you go to a pep rally to talk about upcoming testing, of course it's not really the ones you take but the very easy math and reading tests so whatever. you had a great nhs meeting with elections and new officiers that hyped you up too, you made your final decision with the board and wished everyone a fairwell as both the seniors and the advisor will be leaving. the advisor shares that a lot of administration and the english department will be leaving due to the principal, something good to know for the future. your friend got a poor sat score but you realize you both can study together, unfortunately, why are you kinda feeling the vibe that's going down now between the two of yall?
• 05/03/2024 ➣ "i always wanted to stunt so hard (yeah,) i always wanted to ride that whip (always). i always wanted to fuck that bitch (i always,) thank you, god, i fucked that bitch (god). i always wanted to live this life (life,) i always wanted to wear that ice (all this ice). i always wanted paradise, i always wanted paradise, look. now it don't take a lot to make you rich (to make you rich). i'm addicted to a lot of crazy shit (i'm addicted to a lot of crazy shit). but i feel like money is the best drug (best drug). sometimes hate can be the best love." you go into this damn ap chem class one final time before the exam, once you're done with this exam, pass or fail, you don't want to hear a single thing out of this teacher's mouth. you spend some time in another stupid ap class where he just feeds you busy work without any real proper skill or examination for the other ap test. these classes are really just for the gpa boost. your friend got number one in his class, which is good for him. you prepare for an actual ap exam well for ap bio and prepare for the hell that comes on monday.
• 05/04/2024 ➣ after waking up, you study some ap chem. after studying, you get a haircut from the same barber with all his flaws and get back to studying for hours and hours. you take a break to admire your friends' prom pics and whatever. then you get back up to study again and chill. you have a slight chance.
• 05/05/2024 ➣ happy birthday atsushi! you study some more for ap chem but you honestly think it's hopeless at this point. you start playing bungo mayoi and fortnite instead. you go to an awards ceremony and worry that you may not get certain scholarships due to you not having a connection to a certain teacher. your mother tells you not to worry and how it should be based on merit, and you think you'll follow that mindset. there may be no such thing as eternity, these days may not be the ones that we had wanted. yet the next daybreak comes, held together by a thin, fragile thread. no matter what sort of world we live in. i'm willing to live on if you're a part of it within my hell, you were my heart beating on without fail. just as you had done for me. you know you're about to fail that exam and its messing up your entire mood, but it's okay. you'll learn chemistry in the future and use those skills to your advantage. you can only fight the good fight.
• 05/06/2024 ➣ you wake up nervous but you got to take the test. all your friends wish you good luck as you continue to complain about the teacher. you had to go somewhere during study hall only to see that brownie has brought her entire friend group to your study hall and she's still talking about you. after a decent lunch and talk with your teacher about how he feels about his shortcomings, you go and take the test. your necklace and bracelet charm broke but you keep pushing on. it was a long and hard process, but yall did the tiktok where you're like "imma get a 100" and took the test. it was cold, it was hard, it was stressful, and you probably failed, however, you came out with warm sunlight beating on your skin along with a new lesson to start learning by yourself more. your friend got francis ssr three times in a row, how sad.
• 05/07/2024 ➣ a new day means you wake up earlier. so someone needs to tell people on the bus to stop sleeping and/or manspreading cause they are taking up too much space. you go study for a certification exam only your friend to catch you listening to one of your spotify playlist. you then chill and talk to folks, play connect 4, and realize that apparently dtb girl's ugly ass insecure ass boyfriend might've forced her to send her nudes? yeah once you confirm this, you might have to kill a bitch. you spend lunch talking about how insecure people were at prom and spend third period playing suika and smash flas 2. ap bio was chill as usual and much better than ap chem as always. you start making progress to get a job interview and also take your certification exam and pass with a 90% without any help. what sucks is that you technically wasted $900 based on the situation, so you're not all that happy about getting certified. you rush on us history notes, talk shit about this ugly face, and head to bed.
• 05/08/2024 ➣ more days and more tests await you this month. you talk about making an aviation club and it seems to be a go. you checked up with tutoring and got your bracelet and necklace fixed. you find out that the insecure bitch made dtb feel pressured to send nudes but never did, however, you still don't like how he gets insecure if a person that likes girls talks to her. relationship ladies and gents: don't feel insecureeeeee!!!!!! you watered the plants and had good talks and see progress being made. you did a lot of work in us history and got to go home on a normal time. bro kendrick is so good, he bout to be the whole chronicle entry. "dear aubrey. i know you probably thinkin' i wanted to crash your party. but truthfully, i don't have a hatin' bone in my body. this supposed to be a good exhibition within the game. but you fucked up the moment you called out my family's name. why you had to stoop so low to discredit some decent people?. guess integrity is lost when the metaphors doesn't reach you. and i like to understand 'cause your house was never a home. thirty-seven, but you showin' up as a seven-year-old. you got gamblin' problems, drinkin' problems, pill-poppin' and spendin' problems. bad with money, whorehouse. solicitin' women problems, therapy's a lovely start. but i suggest some ayahuasca, strip the ego from the bottom. i try to empathize with you 'cause i know that you ain't been through nothin'. crave entitlement, but wanna be liked so bad that it's puzzlin'. no dominance, let's recap moments when you didn't fit in. no secret handshakes with your friend. no culture cachet to binge, just disrespectin' your mother. identity's on the fence, don't know which family will love ya. the skin that you livin' in is compromised in personas. can't channel your masculine even when standin' next to a woman. you a body shamer, you gon' hide them baby mamas, ain't ya? you embarrassed of 'em, that's not right, that ain't how mama raised us. take that mask off, i wanna see what's under them achievements. why believe you? you never gave us nothin' to believe in. 'cause you lied about religious views, you lied about your surgery. you lied about your accent and your past tense, all is perjury. you lied about your ghostwriters, you lied about your crew members. they all pussy, you lied on 'em, i know they all got you in 'em. you lied about your son, you lied about your daughter, huh. you lied about them other kids that's out there hopin' that you come. you lied about the only artist that can offer you some help. fuck a rap battle, this a long life battle with yourself"
• 05/09/2024 ➣ kendrick is too good dawg. you wake up and ask yourself if you're ready to go to school with such a headache. you spend the first part of your day in a practice mock exam. you finish and leave to get your trophy and head over to lunch. you didn't have much people to talk to, so you did unfortunately have to talk to brownie but it was an alright convo, she needs to knew she's a certified yapper tho. you head over to ap bio with the feeling of not doing any work, and trying to make up an agenda while sining kendrick lyrics with the group. you have a quick meeting that shows this new generation of nhs is capable and head home after your friend scolded biggie cheese on why friendships between girls tend to last shorter than friendships between boys. you watch half of the newgrounds sonic rpg series and got some work done, and some bracelets on the way.
• 05/10/2024 ➣ you cleaned up your room and got yourself ready for school and ready for vistors to greet you when you arrive from school. you go to school to prepare for a presentation and a test in a cold classroom filled with annoying flies. a fire drill takes you out of the freezer only to hear a presentation about the navy, which required you to go up and down the school with sodas. you couldn't even hear your ap english teacher review your essay because of how busy you were. apparently, a certain person was reading essays after your teacher told him to organize them with mr. davis and there were some comments shared, based on the people, you assume that this short guy was trying to flirt with brownie, and that despite whatever going on and how there is no true harm, it seems like a way to flirt. you decide to call this out when you go to the ap english teacher and see not flaws with your reasoning. not only that, but it seems like the witch that dated the rat is starting drama with strawberry shortcake and chocolate fountain, you're quite tired of it. it doesn't help that your friend who you call miles morales wants to get back with his ex, which happens to be the witch. this all tires you out and then you go to class to take a test, hear your name get mispronouced on the annoucements, and go home with a nice trophy with your right hand. and the gang sure knows how to make you feel happy with their physical affection and their kind words. you go home only to eat a chicken tender publix sub and go back out to ja for a quick event. while you got your stipend and an additional giftcard totaling to $300 and also had fun with being hypemen and playing charades with a loud and proud student with a supposed $4500 necklace, you hear from your friend that your tall friend has recently lost his grandmother. the same tall friend that called you on 8/25/23 to check in on why you missed two days of school when your grandmother passed and you were stuck in jamaica. you want to help but you remember that everyone would only remind you of your moruning, so you don't know how to approach. even your baby cousin doesn't know what happened to your grandmother, and that's a bad reminder that your mother tried to comfort you about, but you took her hands of you. you now move knowing more and more things are going to shit and that you're surrounded by death.
• 05/11/2024 ➣ you're so tired that you scared your uncle by almost jumping in your bed even though it's the guest bed for tonight. you fall asleep on the couch and wake up to play countless games with your cousin. you found out about pokerogue and now its a huge problem for you because you know you are going to get addicted. you guys going somewhere out to eat but you find out that you could potentially see brownie. it seems that going to the beach or even hearing her name (since its a common name) might just forever bother you. and theres even more drama about the witch that you can't stand. you come home stuff to play more pokerogue on the cold hard tile.
• 05/12/2024 ➣ it's mothers day and that means we also get to avoid church. your pokerogue addiction has become a problem and you've been playing on the cold hard tile for hours now. you fall asleep with the lights on to keep on playing and you keep on trying until you beat it. family finally left, and that means you get your room back as well as the chance to get complete the missing work. after decimating an frq, you give your mother her mother's day gift while at the same time hearing how she feels about her father's condition and what happened to your grandmother.
• 05/13/2024 ➣ you go to school to learn more about your ap chem's dog with a pooping problem then actual shit in ap chem. you prepare for your exam one last time with words of number 2 surpassing you, good words about students trying to be like you, and words about you being fine no matter pass or fail. too bad brownie cares if you could date hispanic women. while you play pokerogue you finish up the service hour sheets and talk to the gifted teacher about your plan. you work on us history for the rest of the night and go to sleep.
• 05/14/2024 ➣ you prepared for your ap english exam with these words flowing in your head: "i'm a survivor. i'm not gon' give up. i'm not gon' stop. i'm gon' work harder. i'm a survivor. i'm gonna make it. i will survive. keep on survivin'. i'm a survivor. i'm not gon' give up. i'm not gon' stop. i'm gon' work harder. i'm a survivor. i'm gonna make it. i will survive. keep on survivin'." your stomach was hurting you for most of the morning, but your teacher was able to buy donuts, yogurt, bananas, and more stuff, he is so kind. yall are went in to prepare for the test to hear your proctor, the ap chem teacher, talk more about her dog's literal shit. brownie must've had a rough morning, she got a detention for wearing the wrong shoes and also just couldn't deal with it, so she cried for half the mcq and even before then. you had a horrible stomach ache, but you confidently answered both the mcq and finished all the essays. you got two new secme medals to add to your collection. you acted pregant to display roe v wade in a game of charades and showed more administration why you're number one. you get work done while playing pokerogue.
• 05/15/2024 ➣ after going to sleep real late, you get ready to be a teacher's assistant for the day. your name has been called about a special scholarship opportunity you missed due to the school not paying attention, but at least you got the chance to go tomorrow. you were a ta but why your teacher always gotta ask about brownie and how she felt after crying. you prepare for ap bio with the group one last time and start working on your trifolds for engineering. you go home and start to prepare an event tomorrow. you do some final work for ap bio.
• 05/16/2024 ➣ "what sukuna saw is the strongest ghost that he has buried with his own hands." did the king come back? you come to school to be in charge of two different aviation related events, it will requires you to move up and down and share this information with the entire school. it was a lil frustrating, but you got it done. you took your ap bio test and you consistently encouraged your underclassmen friends that they will be fine. you think you did alright and head out to the meeting and it seems like as long as you sacrifice your tuesdays, thursdays, and fridays, you might be able to get a full ride scholarship.
• 05/17/2024 ➣ you talked to your friend about what they found special about haitian flag day. you had a dream with the person that was the closest to your heart, you were surprisingly able to exchange a few words with them this time, it may appear that mental process is being made. so you get a stupid project and do some work, but it's weird that brownie's bestie is always in that classroom with other friends. you also have fun in second period and see three baby opposums. you do a lot more engineering work and while you work on the trifolds your friends work on their ceiling tile and painting it. you talk about the ap bio and as a leader you tell your underclassmen that they will be fine. you go to the cultural pep rally and you head home with a hurting eye cause of someone continously flashing the camera in your face.
• 05/18/2024 ➣ you play a ton of pokerogue and talk to friends. it feels like your one friend is still interested in you and is trying to become closer and closer with you. too bad the gap can't be closed due to brownie and them from a few years ago. you play some fortnite, some roblox uno with the gang, and head to bed.
• 05/19/2024 ➣ after wasting your time at stupid church and overhearing a coversation about a woman having to physically fight off bullies you go home to do a bunch of work. this included a ton of history, some engineering, some other work and some pokerogue. this kept you up til 12am. at least you got to level 100 in this fortnite season only to get 50 vbucks.
• 05/20/2024 ➣ the warm water from the shower refreshes you to make up a lot of work you didn't end up finishing. you rush to finish a presentation on the bus but ultimately did not need it until wednesday. you had to write hundreds of service hour papers up last minute and get them signed. you're glad you did. you were forced to skip history due to the lockdown, but you ended up talking to friends about your situation with your one old friend possibly liking you. you hopped on a call with the gang.
• 05/21/2024 ➣ you wake up ready for another exam. you decide to do some last minute review and you take the test that took way too long. however, you ended up with a level 5 with shows mastery, and that test was lightwork. you then played some more pokerogue and escaped your fourth period cause brownie wanted to show up with her annoying voice. you then go to your first day of the scholarship program, it was alright. you might've messed up your dual enrollment class already, you hope not cause this could really cost you.

✧ A SCHOLAR WITH SOME FAREWELLS:

• 05/22/2024 ➣ you take a shower and attempt to finish this presentation before you leave for school. you single-handelely did a presentation and escorted the person to the classroom, it was about autonomous drones in a global market and making companies out of it. your friends painted some more while you made your trifold and you flexed your 5 to your us history teacher. you also got a medal business going on. brownie and the boy might be a thing, which if they are, thank god, but hopefully she's not playing him.
• 05/23/2024 ➣ you saw the bittersweet jjk 261 that leaves you with mixed thoughts and couldn't bare to finish the chemistry project. you leave first period immediately cause you don't even want to stay in that stupid class. you got some banners and trophies for engineering, you plan to take pictures of our designers and trophies. second period was annoying cause even though you were trying to watch "their eyes were watching god" in class, the big tooth bitch wants to ask weird questions about remarrying and tell you things about kisses. it's fucking weird when you try to make a joke about the movie about one of the husbands having a lot of melanin and height and when you try to make the joke "with big feet comes big meat" big tooth bitch decides to look under the table at your feet and judge you. wtf that is fucking gross this bitch is getting on your last nerve. however, ypu send the next periods making progress with art and more but when your friend comes with you to the engineering room, she outs you out as kelly to the engineering teacher and to others while you hear an underclassmen friend talk about how he started drama in minecraft since he burned someone's house down. either way, you leave to go to the scholarship program and then proceed to be in a mental health room that left you incredibly tense as they take away your phones. not only that but your grandfather is not doing good and you might have to relive the same scenario of death in the family. on the brighter side, you talk to your friend about jjk261 and fall asleep with a headache.
• 05/24/2024 ➣ yeah you still didn't finish that chemistry project so now you gotta go rush to do it this morning. you finished up the bee medals, finished up your chem project, and helped out with other stuff. even though yor friends are all seniors, they went on campus when they are being hunted down and kicked off campus if they get caught. not only that, but apparently the seniors have planned water balloons with itching powder, eggs, and confetti cannons on campus. it was so problematic that it caused a secure where you could not get out of the cafeteria for the billionth time. after all of that, you head home, get ready for a long road trip where you hear so many calls about your grandfather's health situation and his potential death. you eventually reach your family's place in orlando, say hi to your baby cousin, notice he can go bother super sayian blue and has like 16 funko pops, and hit the hay.
• 05/25/2024 ➣ you wake up after being incredibly tired. you get ready immediately for your baby cousins graduation. it was pretty fun and cool and he was cool himself. you and family decided to hit up a burger place to celebrate and them you even bought yourself a nice shirt and a hot wheels car for him.
• 05/26/2024 ➣ you wake up to some breakfast and a nice free day of doing nothing. you play some pokerogue and you play games with your cousin. you witness this cool float ball that you've seen online with cool lights and fans and stuff. you watched the bob marley movie while making your annual pride test survey. when you post the survey, you go on a walk with family and play soccer with your baby cousin while people type on the survey. the responses are actually killing you.
• 05/27/2024 ➣ while catching up on some last minute genshin quests, yoi stay up watching the phone to see if any important texts come through about your situation with your grandfather. you pack up and prepare to head back down home to witness the last moments of your school year. you get home and feast on some leftovers. you miss your friends as they all ride around the city scavenging at walmarts knowing they will graduate soon. you focus on trignometry while helping a friend out with some work.
• 05/28/2024 ➣ you find out that your grandfather has thyroid cancer and there might not be a cure for it depending on the variant, your mother tries to comfort you but it doesn't work. you wake up to an empty bus stop, it's not that you missed the bus but your two friends are either not going to school or taking personal transportation instead. you do a lot of work for the trifold and start getting more and more people to do your gay quiz that word goes around. not only that, but you finished their eyes were watching god in class and it was an alright movie. you finished the 3d prints and her your friend asked if he should get with your one friend and you heavily tell him you shouldn't. the sophomores are a little more mean with you than older folks but it's fine. sat/act practice was kind of annoying but whatever. it's sad when the gang is enjoying their last days and the only other junior who is there does not see that you exist fr but it's also fine. doing all this math and stupid canvas digitial marketing stuff is hurting your head.
• 05/29/2024 ➣ you're so tired and exhausted but you're forced to do trignometry. you worked on the trifold as you saw your friends walk in class and your eyes brightened up. you held a short solar car meeting and worked to get other stuff done. you made sure you fixed your grade and your confused about the big tooth bitch but you got a few weeks left and then you don't gotta deal with her. you come home to study and you study while listening to kendrick.
• 05/30/2024 ➣ very exhausted today but you gotta keep pushing to pass that trignometry test. you come to see the seniors do their thing one last time. while you skip out on breakfast and let more people do your survey in class, you finish up some things for math and other classes. you are happy to hear that your internship could possibly be secured. you also worked with friends to secure a place to build the solar car at your school. while that happens, your friends finish their ceiling tiles and they ultimately say some of their last farewells. a lot of them started to tear up, especially your junior friend who will miss them dearly. you got your crown, heard there were four food fights, and went home without a gang and without some senior activities. after dancing during wellness at the foundation, you study til you can't study no more. you get a calculator last second only to be inable to take the test due to poor software. you write a final message and screen recording and pray everything works out well.
• 05/31/2024 ➣ "of freedom and of pleasure. nothing ever lasts forever. everybody wants to rule the world. there's a room where the light won't find you. holding hands while the walls come tumbling down. when they do i'll be right behind you. so glad we've almost made it. so sad they had to fade it. everybody wants to rule the world." tired as hell from yesterday, you meet up with your friend who was working on her project. you spent sixth talking to friends about the seniors who left and the current state of jjk right now. you spent seventh helping a friend study for her test and you tried to talk to her about something but two lil kids had to sneak up behind you. you chill in eighth helping out a lil more and hugging your friend one last time just in case she leaves. you post a story about how you got no more bus friends since they all left but you decide to dip and people felt bad for you. you played some pokerogue and fortnite while also went shopping for some senior crown supplies.

✧ LAST PAGE OF A CHAPTER:

• a fucking tough month man. so many brutal exams. so many annoying moments with brownie. and one of the final days to see some of the last members of childhood. crazy jjk stuff crazy bungo stray dogs stuff. but it feels like some of the final steps are coming. you can't relax cause a lot of shit is about to happen. hopefully, one of those things isn't the death of your grandfather.