January

  • MUSIC
    • le festin - camille
    • clueless - the marías
    • #bra's_off spotify playlist
    • real games - lucky daye
    • out for the night (live) - the marías
    • outta my mind - monsune
    • redbone - childish gambino
    • stay ready (what a life) - jhené aiko
    • loverboy (live/extended) - the marías
  • CONTENT
  • READS
  • PEOPLE
    • the marías
    • TFG ❤️
    • micah and nina my bitchez
    • kaya
    • beakim
    • matt
    • tita glo and tita espie
  • FOOD
    • cheese omelette
    • kaya's dang pizza
    • goldilock's brownies
    • chunky chips ahoy
    • krispy kreme bites
    • lily's peanut butter sandwiches (with the crust!)
    • snickers, especially in the mornings in gonzaga to up my sugar levels for the day
  • LIFE
    • binge-watching videos from my youtube subscription box because i wasn't able to at all when we went to europe
    • live performances by the marías
    • ~fixing~ my spotify playlists
    • listening to more music in general (especially my own spotify playlists which i never actually listen to lmao)
    • being honest with what i want for myself and from others
    • COOKING!!!!!!
    • trying to fix my fuken sleep schedule
    • catching up on seventeen <3
    • waking up to/hearing tita glo playing the piano
    • my daiso hair clamps lolz
    • parking in the north carpark
    • french class!
  • MEMORIES
    • january 6-7; sleepover at micah's with sharel, rhaelyne, donita, bea, and millany
    • january 12; visited tita glo in the hospital and she kept laughing!!! she also kept telling us to leave because it hurts when she laughs and our faces make her laugh. she also held tita espi's hand when she was being injected which i thought was hella cute
    • january 14; went to kaya's and met her parents <3 we exchanged gifts and she made pancakes and pizza and we enlisted for second sem and washed the dishes together. after that i just watched and laughed at her lamenting over her shit schedule HAHAHA. it was a super super lovely day i missed her. strangely still do
    • january 16-17; matt's jta despedida! fav part of the night was when we were telling each other something we liked about each other. super sweet. stayed up til 4 am talking and crying and listening to music. was a fabulous night
    • january 18; MATT'S SURPRISE DESPEDIDA!!! we're so happy it turned out much, much better than we could have anticipated, and he's so much happier than i thought he would be :"( super glad we pulled through
    • january 20; wrote a tinyletter (which has a fucking typo, end me), had breakfast downstairs and talked to tita glo and tita espie about first kisses, sexuality, and fitness! then picked up mar and eliz for our sleepover, and in the evening after cooking our kimchi fried rice and while they ate dinner, i had a last vidcall with kaya in the den
    • january 23; uptc! ate at bistro raviolli alone for the first time, and then bought two crop tops in the same style but diff color. also had a shoot and catchup sesh with legna, which was supa fun. parked in uptc parking's second's level for the first time that day!
    • january 24; the house was so full! we have tita glo and tita espie, tito fer's whole family (applying for their u.s. visa), and tita grace, ate angel, ate emma, and mira. we had dinner at pizza hut that night to celebrate the visa approval of sina tito fer!!! right before that i was hanging out in me and b's room with ate angel and sandra, talking about anime, eating junk food, and trying to decide whether or not i would change my dp that (friday) night or on sunday instead. i had jin ramyeon for lunch and ate milo nuggets—told mommy not to buy them anymore after i finish the ones in the pantry bwahaha. in the evening, i posted a photo from my shoot with legna and saw that kaya liked it. my heart broke again, naturally
    • january 25; vidcalled with matt til 3 am. we started off with him guessing which tinyletter was about him and went off on a billion tangents, as usual
    • january 28; date with matt at the grove! we had lunch at the gardens and then spent the rest of the afternoon talking, walking, and driving. next to normal prod/tm ga's in the evening, before which i bought potato corner with eliz, mar, and sari
    • january 30; date with josh! we talked about so many things and i learned that i genuinely enjoy his company. will talk to him more. went with cheska to the ukay (my first trip in sucha long time) and scored three denim shorts and one khaki pair all for php 292! perfect
    • january 31; areté mat date with beakim <3 tried go! salads for the first time and loved it. we posted so much on her main instagram and her stories, and then while i was scrolling on my phone, i heard kaya call my name. first time i saw her since last wednesday. she went back later when beakim left and gave me back my dice, she stayed for a bit and we talked. ended up texting her, she ended up replying, i ended up not saying anything back. matt left for jta. listened to at your best (you are love) by frank ocean after a while

February

  • MUSIC
    • blue dream - jhené aiko
    • cariño - the marías
    • loverboy (live) - the marías
    • your universe - rico blanco
  • CONTENT
  • READS
  • PEOPLE
    • core :"(
    • beakim
    • sir martin
  • FOOD
    • go! salads rock smoothie
    • mulawin
    • tofu as ush
    • mommy's white sauce pasta
    • CHUNKY CHIPS AHOY, SADLY
    • mommy's bread pudding <3
    • garlic rice and egg from gonzaga
    • snickers
    • alfredo pasta from gonzaga
    • banana muffins from the province
    • goldilocks brownies
    • kimchi fried rice
    • nine three's grilled cheese
  • LIFE
    • practicing CONTROL! i haven't had mcdo fries nor bought ramen from gonzaga, and i've been exercising in the evenings
    • delayed gratification
    • lessening procrastination and doing the best i can in my academics
    • ALL MY FRICKEN CLASSES!!!
    • intermittent conversations with kaya
    • standing my ground and not applying to be blueREP's company manager
    • going to nine three with beakim <3
  • MEMORIES
    • february 1; blueREP plevsem! i think i did well during my presentation!
    • february 2; tried w*** for the first time lmao
    • february 3; most memorable moment was on the bus, von and i had a heart to heart for 2 hours talking about the possibility of me being cm, our similar phase of burnout and mental instability last semester, and more trivial things like our love lives and taste in music. those three days really made me fall so, so hard back in love with blueREP
    • february 5; went to admu press for the first time and walked out with a (signed) copy of kilometer zero and a pig was once killed in our garage, which i'll get signed by sir martin at the end of the semester. the cashier was really sweet, and there was even a table in the center to chill and read. i want to write there sometime. in non-fic, sir martin asked someone from our animalia group to report and when no one volunteered, he said "angkinin mo na ticia." HAHAHA
    • february 6; found a new mole on my right knee. helped out mar and stacey on their thesis on sex workers (along with sari; we got go salads smoothies as tokens!), and read a pig was once killed in our garage the whole afternoon
    • february 7; vidcalled with matt, nina, and micah! kaya texted me during, and what ensued after was our first conversation on messenger since the break up. jr is back !!!!! she asked me out for this monday to make kuwento because she was apparently too busy on the weekend. i also submitted an internship application as per ate yna's suggestion, and quit lithium
    • february 8; finished the non-fic essay i'd been editing since yesterday! i submitted late and so am nervous for the comments and sir martin reading it, in general. had mommy's bread pudding
    • february 10; walked away from areté when kaya made me wait again. hung out at bel by myself and i loved it so much. also got gino's by myself, didn't finish the pizza and ended up leaving two slices. at night after i left the core meeting, i inadvertently talked to rob for half an hour, just walking around skywalk. super lovely!!!
    • february 13; after non-fic me and micah went to the banyo real quick and came back to only sir martin, enzo, and dlc in the room. when we went in sir went, "cw juniors, is the workshop okay?" like bruh HAHAHA. the session made me so happy (he gave us the chance to resubmit our first drafts) that i texted kaya and ended up giving her a ride
    • february 15; picked up mika from her house and drove him and isaac to prom!
    • february 16; finished reading a pig was once killed in our garage. writing it just after i read it—it's a sunday morning, and i finished it in the living room where i was alone, ate lourdes washing the car outside, daddy and earl in the room and b just having woken up. mommy's in the province and isaac's an ynno's
    • february 16; went to the 5 pm sunday mass with daddy and we switched pews thrice (it was too sunny and then the next two pews were on the verge of breaking) only to end up on our first pew LOL. when we were seated na on the ~final pew, daddy realized walang kneeler HAHAHA. also today i saw kaya add songs to her spotify ugly breakup playlist
    • february 18; spent the morning looking through books i wanna buy from the ls bookstore and crying in the office of health services
    • february 20; got an email response from ma'am rica <3 she said she'd give me her copy of grace (eventually) and my heart swelled
    • february 21; got the book from ma'am rica, got an internship and had a lovely conversation with maine, made it back to french on time

March

  • MUSIC
    • my whole dang feb-march playlist (2020 transition)
    • your universe - rico blanco
    • wishful thinking - benee
    • twenties - bren joy
    • go - lemaitre
    • drown in my own tears - ray charles
    • hold it together - the marías
    • tainted love - karen souza
    • jupiter - the marías
    • tadhana - up dharma down
    • u smile - justin bieber
  • CONTENT
  • READS
  • PEOPLE
    • sir martin LOL
    • beakim
    • EARL
    • park seo-joon
    • kim da mi
  • FOOD
    • chunky chips ahoy
    • gonzaga garlic rice with egg
    • snickers
    • skyflakes condensada
    • white sauce pasta
    • frosted flakes (by themselves or with evaporated milk)
    • mommy's kimchi fried rice
    • pancakes
    • (daddy's) chocnut
  • LIFE
    • mm internship extravaganza :") i've been loving this since february
    • back and forth emails with sir martin re: my recommendation for blueREP as company manager
    • borrowing earl's laptop :(
    • borrowing daddy's laptop :"(
    • lit recs without context facebook group
    • watching movies with the family in the den/mommy and daddy's room
    • MY BLEEVE
    • listening to old songs on the dell laptop with b at night
    • journaling every night after reading something (usually from the love in the time of corona virus drive lolz)
    • waking up and b coming in the room after having showered! tapos we'll stare at each other for like 2 seconds after she opens the door and shes still wearing her towel scarf LMFAO
    • hanging out in the den with b
    • hanging out in the living room and doing (or trying to do, lol) work on the laptop
    • using my personal twitter to retweet news on the pandemic and our government
    • scrolling through carousell
  • MEMORIES
    • march 1; received my grade for my first draft (notes on attention) from sir martin. i only got a c+ but he seemed to like the work. he used the word "intriguing" a lot
    • march 3; received my blueREP recommendation letters from krista and sir martin. cried while reading krista's and was pleasantly and disappointedly surprised with sir martin's
    • march 4; accidentally spilled coffee on my laptop at swing space and damaged my keyboard. i am typing this on march 7, on earl's laptop
    • march 5; first night covering for EBT, and i met anna canlas! it was the day i drove to bgc for the first time, and was ticketed for attempting to take a different road. i cried in front of the mmda officer because it was such a stressful week for me
    • march 17; messaged javi recommending twenties to bring him out of my ignored messages. i think i've accepted that nothing between us is going to happen, and i'm glad that i no longer have to worry about it
    • march 20; my miting de avance <3 i thought i did okay, but the comments on the stream were people telling me i was doing good :( + when i ended the live people messaged me that i did well huhu so i'm hoping for a good number of votes
    • march 27; asked gabby to order the eternal sleepover book by messy! it was on sale for $10, total ended up being $15 with shipping. my paypal won't work for shit though, and it's so frustrating it's taking so long for me to pay her back fok
    • march 28; announcement of company manager results :") i'm officially blueREP's 29th season company manager
    • march 29; mommy's birthday! <3 <3 <3 we celebrated with chicken from johnny's and two cakes from the business near the church (where we get the noodles from!). i also ordered the yellow satin skirt ive been eyeing from carousell (my first purchase from there, lowkey nervous) + two forever 21 tanks from the same seller. total amoutned to php 850 + 60 shipping = php 810'
    • march 30; spent the early morning (as in, ~2 am) commenting on micah's nonfiction work and replying to the comments on mine. woke up to sir martin having replied to 4/6 of my comments on micah's work NYAHAHA BITCH I KEPT REREADING THAT SHIT sobrang kilig gago HAHAHA. i'm typing this at 1:33 am on april 1, and i keep rereading the comments. i even made a copy of the doc so he doesn't see me online there all the time lolz juz delulu tingz xoxox
    • march 31; made a playlist full of songs i've been wanting to listen to, old and new! <3 it was also the first day i hung out in our room and it was so nice, quiet, and sunny. placed an order on zalora with isaac. i bought the public desire platform espadrilles! this is my third purchase under quarantine *__* i think this cost around php 762, with discount
jan 3 2020 ∞
jul 2 2020 +