may ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

(5) yall.. i don't log here since like ever! so many things happened but i just weren't feeling opening this site.. i'll be updating some of my other lists and try to log little things here more! i'm currently in such a confusing state of mind, i maybe had a depression episode again and i believe thats why i stopped doing things i liked (like writing and keeping this online diary), idk if it's gone yet but i need to try to organize myself here again to see if my mind comes back to it's natural state.. yk like when ur room is messy it reflects ur mind? i have that online too t.t is depressing. but yeah! i also havent given up on loa, but i believed i consumed to much info that i lost myself, so i'm gonna be trying to only consume more reliable sources and try things by myself, maybe set a screentime on tumblr and tiktok lmao! (7) tomorrow dream is going to announce when they're coming with tds3 and im already sweating and having mental breakdowns...im so nervous. other than that im still trying to update my lists here, i have so many ideas to new lists that i think is going to do me good to put somewhere other than just rely on my own mind lol i also created a guestbook, so if someone reads this (i rlly don't think so but who knows) feel free to send me a message there! :) also i haven't talked about that here since i wasn't online that much, and i really been wanting to rant about that, it's going to be a little long lol but here's some gossip for yall. recently i broke up a friendship (actually the person broke up w me? lol) that i considered so much for years (7 to be exact). the person simply sb me, without saying anything. months before that, that person was acting weird towards me (they were already weird, but im going to keep the details as its too much), i asked them about it and they said they wanted to talk about it and i was like ok whenever u want.. and then they simply never mentioned it again? i asked one more time and they were like no not now so i gave them time. time passed, and they simply sb me ? and by their tweets it was because i (yeah, me) didn't answer them. and i really didn't, because there was nothing to answer to -.- seriously, i don't think i got this mad and upset in a while, i really liked this person even if they were a little weird sometimes and it bothered me (i also talked abt that with them but they never changed or gave me some satisfaction soo..) but i just ignored, bc i was so stupid to not put enough limits when i should just because i liked them. but i learned my lesson now. not only romantic relationships can be toxic, and yall should put limits on your friendships too if they're passing it. i just wish i could forget this person entirely bc i can't even cherish our good moments together without feeling mad. (8) tw rn bc im about to rant again. im so so so so sad, frustrated, disappointed, wanting to kms. dream announced they're coming, and i should be happy w that bc im preparing for it for months, but im not, bc some asshole put them in a shit box "arena". im so disappointed bc i wanted to spend my money to be at a good place, but its impossible to have good view unless ur lucky to be at the very front. and im so sad bc they deserved so much more, we're literally the biggest country in latam yet its always us who have the worst concerts dates and locations. how are they supposed to do a nice show when they're forced to chenge everything because here the place is so small? its impossible. its so frustrating and shameful.

february ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

(1) i think today was one of the most fun but also stressing days ever! i finallyyyyyyy got to watch poor things on cinema, and it was perfect. absolute perfect!!! but i went all by myself, it was easy to go but on my way back home i just wanted to kms (sao paulo core. but i managed to come home safely!

january ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

(3) first log of the year! im so invested in myself, my notion pages are working for me till now, im super hopeful and creating a lot of plans for this year! i think the biggest one is that im plannig a travel with my bestie to the beach closer to the end of the year <3 i hope everything goes well! im still kinda in the vibe of end of the year, vacation, so i didnt started doing anything for that to happen lol but i will soon!!!! cant a girl rest???? (14) last week i went to the beach, i didnt really wanted to go, i got nauseous during the drive til there, it wasnt relaxing during it, but ig it was okay. when i returned home i discovered that i feel so much better when i dont eat that much, and it makes me feel less sick! im just a little afraid of getting unhelthy so ill talk about that with a doctor soon! (31) this month has been fun, i really came out of my comfort zone these last few days, i went out alone some times and this is a very big step for me! i'm very proud of myself <3 also i've been really invested in duolingo, is so fun??? i'm really enjoying it! hope february can be fun!!!!