january:

    • 01. in bed until the evening, another facemask, the camp cast - christmas special was really uplifting, tomorrow start the grind!
    • 02. woke up really late again, doing a bit of maths, but not much, tomorrow you literally have to start working, movie reviews, got to sleep at 5am.
    • 03. woke up at 5pm like how, don't know how i'm going to get my sleep schedule back on track at this rate, need to wash my hair.
    • 04. woke up at 3pm, washed hair, reddit videos oof, got to sleep at like 5am, yoonkook fics.
    • 05. woke up later than i wanted to, missed the metro, town with kayley, bought some clothes from monki, messed around in waterstones, hot chocolate at cafe nero, ninja and thanos memes, the good place season 2 is iconic and i'm loving it so far.
    • 06. woke up so late, looks like its an all nighter to pull off all this work rip me, colors music show, my lip is swollen?, the shower was broken, fell asleep at 6am.
    • 07. slept in so mum called school, cute outfit, loved seeing my friends again, cool talks with charis in frees, maths test went pretty shit, so tired, went to sleep at like 9.
    • 08. missed chemistry yesterday so didn't really know what i was doing, mum thought i skipped school like fuck off, really want to rewatch mr robot, shower's still fucked, sasunaru fics, really late night.
    • 09. school late, only just missed a B in physics, marked chemistry and i got an A, watched the first 5 eps of mr robot, the scene with bill always kills me, felt really tired but still got to sleep at 1am.
    • 10. school late, naming countries with charis and kayley, charis: "chile is so skinny", just scraped a C in maths, didn't wash my hair.
    • 11. lie in because mrs huntley is off, lunch with charis and kayley, naming countries, maths was boring, brooklyn 99, season 6 started, the first ep was great i missed them so much, the finale of the good place, season 2 made me so emotional yet motivated, maybe i should take some advice from eleanor, late night.
    • 12. talks with charlotte in bed, the good place, season 3, didn't get as much work done as i hoped.
    • 13. lips are really cracked ad sore, all caught up with the good place, started rewatching brooklyn nine nine, season 1.
    • 14. chemistry experiment, lots of frees, really tired, don't know what i'm going to do on thursday for chemistry and EPQ (i haven't done my work for either).
    • 15. tired all day, izzie joined physics class, didn't get much work done.
    • 16. kicked mrs walsh in the shin by an accident, staying at mamas, i really like it here, printing off notes, ralph released his top movies of 2018, staying up till 3am finishing work, completed my chemistry file.
    • 17. registration on time, it's snowing!, understood chemistry, heading in the right direction with my EPQ, ranting about the gilette advert with charis and kayley, pretty sure molly hates me, laughing so hard at lunch time with charis and kayley that my stomach was hurting, it was because of kayley's werid habit of shaking her foot, maths lesson kinda sucked, papa was talking to harry (lives round the corner), walked home with mama, papa, adam and hugo, adam is so cute, there was a fight at whitley lodge?!? (harry was talking about it), found the british reddit video - the guy in the purple's really funny (his name is george i googled it), bed really late cause listening to music.
    • 18. didn't go to school until 3rd period, in a bad mood, feel ugly, motivated to do work, sleeping at mamas, adam is the purest human being.
    • 19. mario kart with adam, finally came back from mamas and i'm already sick of my family, watching stick it with charlotte.
    • 20. woke up late, literally did nothing all day, watched the latest episode of brooklyn nine nine (scully and hitchcock oh my god) and the good place, rewatched john mulaney: kid gorgeous at radio city.
    • 21. i love my friends, listening to my kpop playlists with charis and it was so funny, watched make happy and it's so important and i cried, also watched what and its less polished but just as funny, feeling really depressed, a year ago today i wrote landscapes of the universe, klance fics.
    • 22. really bad cramps, came on my period in physics, watched the social network and it was really good, i felt so bad for eduardo though, rewatched prisoners and it's so suspenseful, also i love jake gyllenhaal with all my heart, klance fics.
    • 23. chemistry lesson was quite fun, cramps ugh, rewatched the zodiac and although it's a bit of a drag, it was so well made, got quite a bit of work done, watched se7en, it was amazing, my full reviews on letterboxd, charis' birthday card, drew yuzu and wrote a letter.
    • 24. late to school because it was icy and i had to tiptoe to school so i wouldn't slip, but psych... i did slip!!!, it was the worst and i'm definitely gonna have a bad bruise, skipped chemistry, on the bright side: charis loved her card, reviewing the oscar noms at lunch with charis and kayley, actors roundtable.
    • 25. tired of wearing the same jumper to school but it's cOLD, watched hereditary late at night, not a good idea, it was really good though, i want to start watching sex education
    • 26. woke up at 1, didn't get out of bed until 3, watched the whole of sex education, mama and papa round for tea, completely miserable, on the verge of another break down.
    • 27. did nothing all day, hair's greasy, late night (3am), talks with esther.
    • 28. late to school but mum rang in, feeling ugly, talking about hereditary with kayley at break, talking at lunch and in free about books with charis, didn't understand anything in maths, walked home with charis, my skin is so ugly, rhy maresh.
    • 29. chemistry rp, getting frustrated in physics cause i didn't understand and mcmenzie is shit at explaining, raining really hard on the way home, doing homework, rhy maresh, started narcos: mexico - it's really interesting and so are the characters.
    • 30. didn't wash my hair so it's pretty greasy, only went in for one lesson and it was pretty pointless, pausing narcos: mexico to watch narcos first, escobar's character is really interesting and the story is overall better, but the american/narrator pisses me off and i find myself siding with the "bad guys", crying cause the shower wouldn't work and i had to wash my hair with cold water in the sink, hair is greasy cause i couldn't rinse all the conditioner out, staying up till 1am doing physics.
    • 31. skipped chemistry, physics experiment with will, talking to charis about rhy, laughs with charis, worked with kyle in maths and we both didn't know anything lmao, walking back with charis and kayley, watched some diego luna interviews and he seems like a really politically smart guy (gael garcía too).

feburary:

    • 01. didn't go into school until break, physics practical, walking home with molly, guillermo del toro interviews, didn't wash hair because shower is broken, r/humansbeingbros, ralphthemoviemaker.
    • 02. y tu mamá también fics cause i just want my boys to have a happy ending, sardonicast, power went out and it was scary, finally watched the you. video that kept on being recommended, cody and noel are the best comedic duo i should really watch more of there videos, picking at skin, read part one of ari and dante, ari is who i am and dante is who i aspire to be lmao.
    • 03. woke up at like 12 nice one, watched b99 - ep4, i'm gonna miss gina, i've been watching cody and noel and i just found out that noel was the one who did the "it's ya boy uhh skinny penis" vine like wtf, didn't get to sleep until 7am, listening to sardonicast.
    • 04. went into school to hand in homework and that's it, watched shaun of the dead and started watching hot fuzz, i'll finish it later i'm just tired, didn't wash hair because i'm tired, beso, jósean log.
    • 05. didn't go in for chemistry, hair's greasy, i'm tired, discussing the avengers: endgame promo clip with kayley, fuera de este mundo, rubytates, picked up on narcos, episode six again, got up to half way into episode nine, i still don't like the american characters, washed hair, watched a documentary about paedophiles on youtube and it really bummed me out.
    • 06. missed reg as per, olivia and i missed the RP last week in chem so she told us just to leave, oops, watching documentaries about the mexican drug cartels, got a few sheets of physics notes done, finished episode nine of narcos, as if i didn't already hate the american guy enough... he pulled a gun on someone for getting mad that HE drove into their car, oh my gOD he just strangled someone, fucking asshole.
    • 07. long ass day ahead, i smile when i walk into mrs meyers and charis is there, i'm thankful i have her as a friend, she told me more about her struggles with the OCD thing, i hope it all works out for her, maths was tricky but i had my textbook so i got through it, got some work done yay, still a really late night though, rereading inception fics at like 3am.
    • 08. hating my hair, thinking about dropping EPQ, i'm so tired, mum scares me, aunty vicky cut our hair, mines still fucked though, i wish i could love my family but they make it so fucking difficult, everyday i'm in that house fucks me up a little more but i can't get out and i don't think i ever will, reading ari and dante at the hair salon and crying, some of that shit's so relatable, dominos pizza, listening to music.
    • 09. this guy is a fucking G, did nothing all day tbh, satrted watching the kingdom of dreams and madness, went down to mamas, watched hot fuzz and it's my fav of the cornetto trilogy so far, read reviews on letterboxd about the bungou stray dogs movie and made me want to start watching it, started watching the first ep - it's cringy but i love dazai so, i kinda spoiled the whole atsushi/tiger thing but i guessed that straight away so...
    • 10. probably gonna have to do an all nighter tonight, reading bungou stray dogs fics, didn't get to sleep until 3am.
    • 11. why am i so ugly, skipped maths, mum found out about me skipping, spanish indie playlist, baking dads cake, started watching coco.
    • 12. dads birthday dinner, reading ari and dante and feeling upset that i'm over half way through, really relate to the book though, who am i?, asking family what their fav artwork is, papa and dad being racist, me: wow doesn't that mark on the doorstep look like vincent van gogh, mum: omg yeah!!!, charlotte (vaguely in the distance): you guys are SO weird.
    • 13. remembered the movie killers and how i used to love it as a kid, it's got like a 1/10 on IMDB lmaoo, didn't get any work done like i wanted to, watched some EPQ videos though.
    • 14. thinking of extending EPQ till next year, physics revision with sam in free, talking about politics stuff as well, talking about ari and dante with charis at break, physics test went ok (16/22) - we marked it in the lesson so, lunch and free with charis (talking about anime), best boy *clap clap* is rhy maresh, kayley made me a big time rush valentines card we love, adam is the cutest i love, animal quizzes at dinner time, making up creatures with adam for his school project, his was an LGBT icon if i do say so myself, it was a multicoloured creature called cosome that shot love hearts out of its chest and had cosmic shoes, mine was a small little white creature called cosina that was very smart and gave nice hugs.
    • 15. quizzes in physics, feeling ugly about my skin, i wish it was clear, and that my hair was better again.
    • 16. started reading the western passage again, finally got all the way through coco, i cried so much at the end, charlotte got in a fight and is in trouble, watched the first half of roma - its a bit slow but the artistry is amazing, went ice skating with the girls, it was really fun but i got cramp and had to sit out for the last 20 mins, but sam talked with me so it was good, really tired, reading wild, rewatching thats cringe: girl defined and who took the L?.
    • 17. reading more of the western passage, genuinely the best fanfic ever, kind of a slog of a day, sorting out stuff for tumblr, mum brought me back mcdonalds, listening to music.
    • 18. woke up at 11 but stayed in bed until 1 reading the western passage, charlotte saying my skin is ugly great way to start the day, watching XO videos, stephen tries is really funny, didn't wash my hair but i should have.
    • 19. doing nothing all day, reading ari and dante - i love this book so much, finally washing hair, crying a lot in the shower, when i got out the smoke alarm went off and everyone got mad, which set me off crying again oof, watching big fat quiz of the year 2013, one of the comments said jimmy carr's laugh sounds like a birds mating call and i can't stop laughing everytime he does now.
    • 20. replied to work exp email, did a bit of work finally finished roma, watched the first episode of tidying up with marie kondo - i don't think i'll continue, missing rhy maresh hours, even though i haven't even read the books lmao.
    • 21. awake at 9am because friends are coming round today, ew my skin the foundation looked so bad, cleaning kitchen with mum, walking to my house with charis, i left my keys so we just talked outside, kayley arrived yay, we went through my old memorabilia and laughed, going through my laffs playlist, watched monsters inc and mIkE waZowsKi's legs oh my gOD, then we watched love, simon and boyyy was it an emotional trip, me and charis were clinging on to each other lmao, got to sleep at 4am cause i was up late crying about my skin.
    • 22. woke up at 9, went to figure out travel routes for work exp with mum and papa, feeling really sick in the car, got back around 12, tidied my room.
    • 23. watched heathers when getting ready, dads 40th at grandmas, the food was good for once, me and mum left at 22:30, talking to max, started reading a sasunaru fic, really late night.
    • 24. woke up at 8 with stomach cramps, on my period yay, mum made me a hot water bottle and i went back to sleep, woke up again at 11:30, reading some more sasunaru, dad offered to take me down to mamas, baked cookies, decided on an outfit, had some tea, watched an episode of narcos, finally got through the pilot of deadly class, didn't get to sleep until 3am.
    • 25. woke up early cause it's work experience, turns out it's 9:30 not 9 so i'm an hour early, sat in cafe and drank hot chocolate, also finished part 5 of ari and dante (poor ari), it's so much chiller than i thought, did a powerpoint, mum bought me mini eggs, the oscars were a disappointment but whats new, watching some narcos, really tired.
    • 26. woke up later today and actually got to work experience at the right time, my task today was to design my dream home, architecture is hard oof, dad picked me up for lunch and we drove to a spot which had a nice view of the tyne, had a talk about my future careers with 80s music in the background, big aspirations, charlotte's ceiling fell down??, set up tvtime, there's this fly in my bedroom and it's really annoying, took a late shower, started watching the skam remakes, isak looks really old in the italia one oof not a fan, i like jonas in it though, in the france one i'm just excited to get to season 3 for evak, both of the sana's are still iconic, penetrator and regular chris' are let downs, and both of the vilde's are too pretty - although skam italia's vilde is cute i love her.
    • 27. so tired this morning so i didn't have time to do my hair, another architecture task but it's a public building so not as fun, did some maths, stayed at work later cause dad was picking me up, reading some more ari and dante when waiting, watching a bit of skam italia, went on a david dobrik vlog binge.
    • 28. it's so misty this morning, kind of a boring day, elen was in, tired, ok so maybe the bohemian rhapsody cast is kinda cool, rewatched spider-verse, late night.

march:

    • 01. last day of work experience, didn't get bts tickets, reading these letterboxd reviews, had a cool conversation with ellen, mum is pissing me off, watched the social network twice tonight ohmygod, first time was by myself in my room, i was flipping off all the characters and every time eduardo came on i was like: "my boyyyy", second time was with mum after i ranted to her about it.
    • 02. woke up at 11:30 wow, dad made me a bacon sandwich for lunch, watched the latest b99 episode and wow i luv feminism, finshed season 1 of skam italia, i wish i could merge skam italia's girl group and skam france's evak that would be the best, started the umbrella academy, reading fanfiction late at night but i was so tired.
    • 03. woke up at 11:30 again whoops, made myself some lunch, really want to watch skam france s3, finished skam france - season 1, doing my maths cause i left it till last minute, watching some more umbrella academy at tea, stayed up too late doing maths, _sasunaru fics.P
    • 04. back to school, papa gave me a lift, skipped assembly even though i was on time, got maths done in free, lunch with charis and kayley, free with charis talking about books (mainly the raven cycle), had a really restless night.
    • 05. the maths test went horrible, dad shouted at me, david dobrik vlogs.
    • 06. didn't wash my hair last night so it was greasy, david dobrik vlogs, thats cringe.
    • 07. library was closed in the morning so spent my first two lessons skipping from toilet to toilet, feeling lonely, mr rivett actually doesn't like me omg, memes with kayley, crying with laughter, yms oscars review finally came out.
    • 08. i got bts tickets!, drawing donkeys in physics, me and charis wore the same clothes and kept on saying the same thing lmao, playing guess the country on tinycards, got a D in maths oof, doing some work in the IT room waiting for kale, watching vines with kayley, having the funniest conversations with kayley as we were buying food, the sImUlatiOn, captain marvel, ahh it was good, nandos and nice conversations, mum hit a car oops.
    • 09. woke up at 12, did nothing all day, watched the latest b99, tried some spicy chicken and it was really nice, rewatched crazy, stupid, love and thAT scene is so amazing.
    • 10. skam france season 2, i've been questioning my sexuality a lot as of late, excited to watch druck s3 at some point, aksel is a great human being/lgbt ally, finished _skam france - season 2, watching some more of the umbrella academy - it's definitely picked up now.
    • 11. talking about books with charis, laughing about "the simUlation" talk with charis and kayley, making plans for movie nights, talking about kpop with kim and charis, seungri scandal, finished the umbrella academy, rewatching zootopia, didn't wash hair.
    • 12. charis has a crush on mason and it's adorable, got my progress check - physics (A), chemistry (A/B), maths (D), disappointed about maths but happy with everything else.
    • 13. feeling cozy in my jumper, finished watching zootopia - there's some really clever lines in it, i totally forgot that nick becomes a cop though, they should have ended it before the dance number.
    • 14. woke up so late today, skipped reg and EPQ, talking about LGBT stuff with charis and kayley, parents evening was cool, avengers: endgame trailer, cody ko lowkey cute though like it be like that.
    • 15. uwu productive day, i love charis and kayley, watching dead poets society and our inside jokes are so funny, charis doesn't think thats cringe is funny but it's ok everyone makes mistakes.
    • 16. why am i ugly thanks a lot mum, ok so maybe juanpa zurita is lowkey cute and really cool it be like that, i'm gay/bi??!!?, watched the first episode of druck s3 and ahhhhh my boyy matteo i love him, the latest b99 was so wholesome.
    • 17. woke up at 11, watched the first ep of skam france s3, watched what i had left of queer eye - season 1, i can't believe i dropped it for so long when it's so good, ooh i also watched the whole of season 2 and ended up crying at loads of the episodes, i really want to consume more LGBT media so i think i'm going to (re)watch sense8, watched the first episode of queer eye - season 3 and i LOVED it.
    • 18. chemistry wasn't on, watching the rest of stunt it with kayley and crying with laughter, guess the song at lunch, watching more queer eye and crying, the cancer and lesbian episode oh mY GOD, really late night, bnha fics.
    • 19. skipped reg, finished queer eye - season 3, crying about my hair and skin
    • 20. watching sense8 and wow a show has never made me feel this way before
    • 21. skipped EPQ again, went to bed without drying my hair so i know it's gonna be a disaster in the morning, klance and sheith fics.
    • 22. slept in so mum called school, doing some chemistry and physics homework in my second free, physics was kinda pointless but hey, got a 10/10 in my quiz, first cake friday in maths, kind of a chill lesson, talking about figure skating at lunch with charis got embarrassed cause miss held up my cake friday sign up sheet i made, free with charis last lesson and i did some work, charis and kayley back to mine for movie night, watched oceans eleven and i wasn't the biggest fan, watched gods not dead and it was hILARIOUS, jamming out to the end music scene, charis' cute granny dance, bopping out to throwback songs.
    • 23. woke up at 9 to watch figure skating, yuzu didn't win :(, but i'm still so proud of him, sucks for shoma though, finished sense8 - season 1, and watched the 'happy fucking new year' episode, the devilman crybaby soundtrack is lit asf.
    • 24. gresay hair, not doing anything all day, tidied my room and decluttered it, hopefully this will make me more productive, watching some buzzfeed unsolved: true crime, started devilman crybaby, i think i spoiled it for myself though oops i hate me, it's so good but trippy asf, it wasn't as serious as i thought it was going to be though.
    • 25. actually ate breakfast this morning, curled my hair with curlers and it's much nicer, sense8 is amazing wow.
    • 26. the boys in my physics class are all sexists yay, finished sense8 and i'm really sad it's over, except i still have 1/2 hour left of the finale to watch tomorrow, didn't wash my hair.
    • 27. so tired, hair's greasy, finished sense8 finale, period pains, skin broke out real bad, watching some more devilman crybaby and idk but it's not as good as it could be, it's still really good though, although i am mad that judgement OST wasn't used as well as it could have been.
    • 28. physics was really funny, hunger games simulator at lunch, so tired, mr johnson didn't ask to check books, physics club after school was fun, talking with the two lukes and holly, playing with adam after school at mamas, baking cookies and brownies, finished devilman crybaby and dammnnnn.
    • 29. ate lunch with just charis and kayley today, its hot, dcotors appointment didn't do shit, milk bottles, devilman crybaby soundtrack, watched the first hour and half of spirited away, but then charlotte came into my room and stayed the night.
    • 30. up early to wash hair, grannie betty's for afternoon tea, my relationships with my family are pretty good now, buzzfeed unsolved.
    • 31. woke up at midday whoops, buzzfeed unsolved, doing homework, dad bought chinese food.

april:

    • 01. papa came up with a genius solution for my hair - wear a glove, turns out my chemistry test are of wed and thurs, mr johnson wasn't in so maths was off, walked home with charis, saw a beheaded pigeon, bought some soba from onestop.
    • 02. tired, sick, buzzfeed unsolved, the goatman episode is hilarious, didn't wash my hair.
    • 03. off school sick, reading lyanna/rhaegar fics.
    • 04. off school again, staying at mamas, want to play piano again.
    • 05. at school today stayed off for the morning though, feeling myself today tbh, more matthew and chris drama, charis was more than happy to spill the tea about it, so tired.
    • 06. woke up at 1, hair's greasy ew, mum made spicy chicken for tea, my hair curled really nicely, staying up late reading todobaku and yoonkook fics (like until 4am).
    • 07. woke up at 1 again whoops, doing some physics notes, laughing so much at the reigein_thirst.mp4 video, it made me cave and finally start watching mp100, i only watched 3/4 of the first episode though, rereading some short(-ish) dazai/chuuya fics.
    • 08. woke up at 11, reading more dazai/chuuya fics from memos, charis and kayley round, watching the eurovision nominations, me and kayley keep on thinking of the same references and it's hilarious, rewatched se7en because the amélie link didn't work, charis didn't like it but we kind of talked throughout it anyway, didn't get to sleep until 4am.
    • 09. woke up at 1pm and didn't get out of bed until 4pm, i hate myself, tidying my room.
    • 10. i don't give a fuck imma just watch narcos: mexico without having seen all of narcos, i was rewatching quackity's discord got talent videos and they really funny, inspired me to go look at mr beast's channel and the one with ninja is actually really good idgaf.
    • 11. this is where the realisation that i have completely fucked my sleep schedule sets in, watching narcos: mexico and i can't believe i'm saying this but diego luna is cute (but in a rat ?? kinda way), watching gus johnson's youtube videos an i loVE THEM, also watched kurtis conner's video about the dating show and it's really funny.
    • 12. charis and kayley round, looking through my laffs playlist and having a good ol' time, literally started crying because they didn't know what the room was, had to call max and we ended up talking to him for 1/2 an hour bless, ahora te puedes manchar, finally watched amélie, kayley went home early.
    • 13. didn't get out of bed until 2 whoops, so i've decided i'm going to watch bungou stray dogs before mp100 because season 3 is out, holy shit i love it so much, i keep on reading skk fics and ahhhhhhhhhhh.
    • 14. woke up so late, bungou stray dogs, eating dinner with the whole family, watching the latest episode of brooklyn nine nine_ and i missed the jake/amy relationship.
    • 15. the new episode of game of thrones is out, it wasn't as good as i hoped but i do feel they're trying to just catch the characters up to speed, finally got the the episode of bungou stray dogs where chuuya is introduced and its amazing, staying at mama's for now, finished bungou stray dogs — season one.
    • 16. why can't i sleep at night uggghhhhh, watching seth everman videos, he's a cool guy, mum and charlotte brought a mcdonalds but at like 10pm thanks guys.
    • 17. woke up late uhhh yet again, i'm whipped for jungkook and his curly hair, organising tumblr, there's a moth in the shower and i'm terrified, buzzfeed unsolved.
    • 18. sorting tumblr, i forgot it was thursday today so i ended up washing my hair yesterday.
    • 19. woke up at 10 to go pick charis up, legs were so itchy on the way down, she wasn't in!!!, kayley came and we watched animal vines, we walked hugo down to charis', it's so hot, hugo legit just stopped and lay down, we had to take turns carrying him, charis was in, she was buying food when i knocked, we have so much food now, we all sat and had ice cream whilst watching funny videos, watched burlesque, it was so much fun, cher is our mum, reading todobaku fics by shaekspeares.
    • 20. woke up at 10 but didn't get out of bed until 12, finished cruel to be kind, shaekspeares, didn't really do any work, so hot at night.
    • 21. it's easter but we're not doing anything, jun's kitchen's videos with cats are so wholesome, mum called me disgusting for eating chocolate, it's hard to not cry when she shouts at me, i want to but i don't want to give her the satisfaction, i wish i was stronger.
    • 22. todobaku fics, mama and papa are back, staying over at mamas, all nighter to do work.
    • 23. it's 6am, i did the all nighter, i feel like shit, started to listen to mbmbam, blindwave — bnha reactions, i love bakugou, chemistry test went well, falling asleep in maths, mrs huntley wasn't on so went home, fell asleep on mamas sofa, got woken up at tea time, didn't eat much because i felt sick, tidied my room, chemistry practice questions, didn't get to sleep until like 1am oof.
    • 24. watched brooklyn nine nine — episode 13 whilst getting ready, chemistry test no.2 went well, doing my physics catchup, shower, watching the japanese game show video with kayley and dying of laughter, also crying of laughter at the swirl snapchat filter, it's endgame bitches, got a costa with kayley and holly, maggie and amy (and reuben) joined us and we had a good chat, HOLY SHIT, i can't even vent my thoughts, they did good (except for cap's ending & the kids???), back home so late, chapter 3 of i go for the door (the place where you are).
    • 25. so tired, ew my skin, showing charis the japanese game show video, cool talks with holly and that other girl in my chemistry, turns out one of the guys is in a band called 'hey say jump' and that prompted me and charis to dig up drama about the nonce manager called johnny, tired in maths, picking at my skin.
    • 26. feeling ugly today, charis and kayley round again, we stopped of at the spar to get some food, tried the new cadbury's dark-milk chocolate (it was really nice), my stationery from aliexpress and inthemoodfor came, i unboxed it with them, we didn't watch any movies but we did watch a bunch of memes, we also looked through my 'little thoughts' at all the times they were both mentioned, watched the first episode of ohshc together.
    • 27. organising tumblr, hair's greasy, i go for the door (the place where you are) was updated, didn't get to sleep until 4am idk why.
    • 28. sorting tumblr, bungou stray dogs — i love chuuya so much.
    • 29. katie apparently cheated on her chemistry test and i'm somehow involved, spent free talking with kayley and leah, charis watched train to busan, spent lunch talking to charis, mum bought mcdonalds for tea, game of thrones — episode 3, holy shit, it was so dark though i could barely see anything, didn't wash my hair so it's probably going to be greasy tomorrow, todobaku fics.
    • 30. it is greasy!, not doing much, don't feel confident, charis recommended me monsoon — hippo campus and it's good, i'll put it in my may playlist.

may:

    • 01. just one lesson today!!!, making my may playlist, i keep on doing the thing (weuHEUEHUH) like kayley ew, mama bought me socks yay, bopping to old kpop — flower power/seventeen/exo/bts, listening to classical music idk, the _todobaku fic_was updated, i have a weird feeling in my stomach like i'm going to break down soon.
    • 02. got an A in my chemistry tests, chemistry was fun as well, i sat with caitlin and leyton and it was good crack, 2nd period was a free so i spent it with max and charis, had a lot of laughs, bought a muffin for myself but it got squished :(, trying to read upside down poems with kayley and charis, it was funny cause i couldn't do it, and then charis waltzes in and does it perfectly ??? like fuck off ?!!?!, watched the double black episode of bungou stray dogs and hOLY SHIT THEY'RE SO ICONIC, didn't curl my hair at night cause i was too tired.
    • 03. didn't go into school until like p2 cause i needed to do my hair, mum pretended to go in to work but then came home so she's in trouble, omg so mason (charis' crush) apparently understood a gods not dead reference — charis needs to marry him asap, charis comes round today!!!, we weren't allowed home straight away because mum was talking to mama, so we sat in the cafe near school and people-watched, then we went home and we were going to watch old kpop videos but ended up getting distracted by the legend yuzuru hanyu himself, there's a video of him dancing to one ok rock and it's the funniest thing ksjfds, we did end up watching kpop videos though (mainly seventeen) and that was a lot of laughs.
    • 04. kinda a lazy day but when are my weekends not, reading soukoku fics, listening to old kpop songs and getting hyped, infinite have some bops.
    • 05. woke up at 6am randomly, my hairs such a mess cause i went to bed with it wet oof, finished bsd — season 2, i just want more chuuya tbh, also mori is legit a nonce and no-ones saying anything?? mama's for tea, papa's being problematic oof, todobaku fic was updated yay, soukoku fics.
    • 06. soukoku fics, woke up so late, the weather is miserable, watching mp100 and holy shit it's so funny and exciting, i love the body improvement club, might go to kelso next weekend, i love jungkook,.
    • 07. my hair curled really weirdly so it doesn't look that nice, discussing the met gala outfits at break, laughing in physics because nathan was all_"luke... i've never wanted to snap anyone's neck as much as i have yours",_ pmi's latest video was really funny, watching mob psycho 100 with my lunch,_ got some physics work done, started bsd: dead apple but i got tired so i didn't finish it.
    • 08. sat with leyton and caitlin again in chemistry and it was fun, felt organised in physics, got all wet from the rain walking home, i just found this post of dazai from 2016 and it reminded me how much i hate it when i know about things years before i actually get into them, like i've been missing out for so long, i had this feeling so i went into charlotte's room and ended up having such a good time with my family (i'm going to kelso with them now), started reading all for the game fics and i love them so much imma buy the books, also found out that andrew (and niel tbh) is fucking tiNY, like he's smaller than me lol, didn't get much sleep because charlotte woke up crying because of her braces so i had to comfort her.
    • 09. so tired today like wow, makeups cute yay, charis told me all about swan lake, she went to see it at the theatre royal, maths hurt my brain, doing quite a bit of work, anime openings, reading more aftg fics, i go for the door was updated yay!!
    • 10. so tired ugh, the weathers really good, lay in bed for an hour when i got back, packing for caravan, reading aftg fics, didn't leave for the caravan until around 8/9, got mcdonald's on the way, nervous driving in the dark, using grandmas electric blanket.
    • __11._ woke up at 6 ?!!?, idk why, but i went back to sleep until 8 and then just read aftg fics until 10, made my physics flashcards and revised using them, popcorn, doing some practice questions, stopped working at around 2 ugh, went on a walk with charlotte and dad, took a bunch of really cool pictures, walked to the top of the hill, it was really fun.
    • __12._ got out of bed pretty late, ew my hair's kinda greasy, it's !!! so !!! hot !!!, fun drives on the way home, reading aftg fics when i got home, late showers.
    • 13. talking about movies with kayley in period 2, harry cook was telling me all about languages, then max joined us, wow a lot of fun, talking with the girls in maths, walking home with charis, i just realised that h. p. lovecraft's weird monster thing in bsd is based off one of his books.
    • 14. physics test went well, stayed back at lunch to finish off, spent the rest of lunch eating outside cause it's sunny, maths test went bad, didn't wash my hair tonight.
    • 15. missed an important assembly, greasy hair, it's so hot, wishing my hair would grow out, _i go for the door was updated, tidied my room, watching some mob psycho 100, mum read some of tsoa to me before bed.
    • 16. it's so hot today so i actually wore a t-shirt, did okay in my mechanics part of the test but i'm nervous to get the stats part back, actually had a decent dinner, doing my homework.
    • 17. did good in my physics test (38/48), the class average was 27, watching danny gonzalez and drew gooden videos, went to the beehive for uncle chris' birthday dinner, i had the fish and it was so nice, charlotte was being annoying in the car, had a lovely time with adam, he's so adorable.
    • 18. woke up at nine for some reason??, washing my hair at around five, made a toastie, bought some food from onestop, it's eurovision time!!!, it was so much fun, the results definitely weren't what i expected, my boys from iceland were iconic though, so tired when i got home.
    • 19. woke up at nine again, i love andrew minyard, not really doing any work whoops, trying to figure out tumblr themes, cancelled my crunchyroll premium trial before i even watched bsd: dead apple oops, but i found anther website to watch it on another time, reblogging stuff onto my resources tumblr.
    • 20. i spent all day in school just to find out my maths lesson was cancelled??, great !!!, got a saw throat, mama came round to say hi, reading zutara fics, spoiled the ending of game of thrones for myself but i don't really care tbh, sansa though huh ??, that's pretty cool.
    • 21. woke up at 6am because my throat was sore, didn't get back to sleep, finished watching the game of thrones finale and i can't bELIEVE i thought sansa was going to be queen, it just meant queen in the north, that's still fucking cool though, shame season 8 was shit, watching the good doctor.
    • 22. only had one lesson today (physics) because chemistry was cancelled, i went back to mama's, we went up to the silverlink to get charlotte's birthday present, i got some t-shirts for me, and a boots giftcard for charlotte, watching expert reacts videos, i was going to start watching the society but dad was using netflix (he's binged s1 and s2 of stranger things so fast), have a really bad earache and can't get to sleep, crying in the bathroom at 4am because it hurts, i took some paracetamol and dad made me a heat up teddybear so the pain went away.
    • 23. not going into school, worried i'm gonna let charis down because i said i would bake with her, feeling like shit, chapter 10 of i go for the door (the place where you are), it's nearly finished and i'm sad, feeling like shit ugh, somehow i'm dealing with an earache/headache/blocked nose/coughing up mucus, also it's hayfever season so i'm all itchy, mum got a job!!!, charlotte lost her phone at the stables but somehow they found it, i came on my period so now i have cramps as well yay, having a lot of fun with mum and dad, watching the society.
    • 24. not going in again, feel disgusting, the wifis off so i have pretty much nothing to do, watching more of the society.
    • 25. baked charlotte's birthday cake at mama's, it's the one i don't like so yay, guess i won't be eating that, suddenly got back into detroit: become human idk why.
    • 26. charlotte's birthday!, i woke up at 9am despite getting to sleep at 4am, mum bought me some fudge, ok look idk how this happened but i was lying in bed reading and i must have fallen asleep cause next thing i know its 6pm like ?!?!, went to mama's for tea, papa was being bigoted, that combined with dad being a prick put me in a pretty bad mood, didn't really sleep, tiny meat gang podcast, detroit: become human, organised pinterest boards, really into the infinite dream atm.
    • 27. i think i napped for a few hours?? like between 8am and 9am, decided for some reason to watch the lord of the rings: the fellowship of the ring, i found it kinda boring, until i realised i loved legolas, and i was live-texting kayley about it which was hilarious, found galileo galilei's, album 'alarms' and it's the best thing.
    • 28. galileo galilei, lord of the rings, percy jackson, did nothing today :/
    • 29. hey! say! jump, watching the opening scene of the dark knight cause it's art, dimash, galileo galilei.
    • 30. galileo galilei, went to the bank with mama and adam, name change, i'm officially 'lauren mitchison', bonding with adam, he's so cute bless, mama bought me some mini waffles from sainsbury's, finished the society, university challenge — season 44, andriel fics, stayed up late,
    • 31. woke up late, euodias' japan vlogs, university challenge — season 44, andriel fics.

june:

    • 01. grannie betty's, our tyre went into low pressure so we had to stop off at a car maintenance place, the guy there was really nice, mama was all "i'm just a stupid woman" (probs cause grandpa says stuff like that), but he was all "no nO you're not stupid - i'm the same with computers", he helped us fix the tyre, and then when we tried to pay him for helping us he told us to give the money to charity, good people do exist, started reading the foxhole court and hoLY SHIT, andrew is so much more of a little shit than i expected, aunty vicky dyed my hair and cut it, grannie was so sweet, she kept on thanking us for coming, finished mob psycho 100 — season one and WOW, it's my favourite anime of all time and i'm not even finished, i'm so proud of all of them.
    • 02. haikyuu fics (oikawa/iwaizumi), tiny meat gang podcast, cody & noel's 'love island' series, tidying my room, salmon sandwiches for tea, mum gave me some of my money back (£100), noel's 'react with chat' series.
    • 03. first day back at school and it was a nightmare to wake up, doing chemistry tests in p1 and p2, lunch was good cause i got to catch up with charis and kayley, i then had a free p4 with charis and we mainly talked about books, but also open days and planning them, when it got to maths i was ready to fall asleep tbh, sardonicast, washed my hair so late.
    • 04. woke up and decided to start stanning stray kids idk, i've saved a bunch of videos to watch later, maths was so boring, briefly talking about stray kids and pdx101 with charis at break, reminiscing about southridge with the girls in physics, decided to stay in at lunch with charis, we looked at the produce x 101 profiles and i think i'm gonna start watching it, watched the miroh mv and whilst i don't like the directing of the mv the song absolutely slAPS, i also watched some videos of the aussie line speaking english and it's so funny ksdjhf, like how does felix have such a baby face but then he opens his mouth and !!!, finishing my chemistry group 2 notes.
    • 05. it was a short day, although i got home early i still stayed up way to late doing nothing.
    • 06. so tired the whole day, charlotte ate most of my pizza but i still ate some, stayed up till 2am watching panel show videos, some of them were really funny so i guess it was worth it.
    • 07. so tired, read some more of the foxhole court in the library, had some rocky road in physics, watching the obsession, boyfriend music video with charis, kayley bought be a dark milk chocolate bar ♡, practicing calligraphy with molly, walked home with charis, finished black mirror — striking vipers, i also watched the whole season, smithereens was so intense (it's probs my fav episode from this season), the miley cyrus ep was kinda cliche but still good, watched good time, got to bed soo late.
    • 08. sorted my national rail card, just realised there's a bunch of great movies/tv shows on amazon prime as soon as my free trial is about to end... great, i'll have to use mum's in the holidays or sumn, ordered a pizza again for tea, watched what we do in the shadows on the last of my amazon prime trial, "the point, deacon, is that you haven't done the dishes for FIVE YEARS", watching some more panel show videos
    • 09. grandad bill died, charlotte came through crying, it's the first time i've seen dad cry, apparently he was begging: "i just don't want to live", rewatched the last two episodes of mob psycho 100 — season 1 and started season 2, the dub isn't fully out so i won't be able to binge it
    • 10. watched the trailer for death stranding and wow it makes me want to get a ps4, although it sucks cause the ps5 should be coming out soon and i don't want to waste money.
    • 11. death stranding reactions, got some good music from the trailers.
    • 12. looking through r/gaming, what has my life become, hideo kojima.
    • 13. raining really badly, my headphones broke and now only one ear works, didn't get to sleep until like 3am, shohei ohtani and ichirou suzuki.
    • 14. realising how little i've done and how i'm gonna fail all my tests, did this weird learning exercise in physics where we stood in a circle and explained concepts to the people around us, we then had to give a post-it to who we thought did best, i didn't get any rip, shimmixes kpop rewind 2015 with charis at lunch, ohh the memories, feeling ew.
    • 15. instagram edits, shohei ohtani, dominos cause mum burnt the tea, RAPPER JUNGKOOK, nicki reads the foxhole court (tumblr blog).
    • 16. nct and ateez member profiles, i love ten (nct), yuzuru hanyu is ranked no2 in japan for celebrities people want to sleep with the most lmao, i hate that now bts/kpop is mainstream all these people on twitter like to take the piss of fandoms even though all fandoms are just as bad??
    • 17. forgot to bring my student ID so i had to get a new one, luckily for me the physics test was the one i'd practiced, i still messed up on a few questions though whoops, had tea at mamas, i'm so screwed for the maths test tomorrow :(, turns out i fucked up and booked my manchester train tickets to the wrong station and they don't do refunds, fuck me.
    • 18. turns out the maths paper was actually the 2018 one and if i'd just fucking looked over it then i would have got nearly full marks, at least i can prep for paper 2 though, stressing about the manchester trains, reading more of aftg and i really don't want it to be over :(, i can't remember getting out the shower?, like i think i zoned out cause i didn't finish washing up.
    • 19. grandad's funeral, i hated it, i didn't know anyone there and they didn't know me, at least mama and papa were there, we went to the hunting lodge after, but i didn't stay long i just talked with papa for a bit, this guy who papa knew from the golf club worked there, he goes to leeds university and was telling me about it, didn't do much revision for my physics, j-rock,
    • 20. the physics test just ended up being the 2018 one so i fucked up there, the maths one was a modified version of the 2018 paper so i kind of knew what to do, the stats section was still really hard though, downloading anime themes, loving mp100 hours.
    • 21. kayley and charis came round in the morning, kayley came first and whilst we were waiting for charis we were laughing at this survival show (beast mode) she'd seen on netflix, watching the latest updates to my laffs playlist, we watched this really cute video of a chinese boy dancing, watching another episode of ouran, taking the mick out of utapri, it sounds so ridiculous ksdjfjsd, watching train to busan,_ it wasn't as emotional as the first time round but it was still fun, remembering the old exosexo videos with charis, felix here's ur ramen bruhhh, got quite a late night whoops.
    • 22. woke up at 5:45 to get to the train station on time, my carriage as really loud rip, watching some of dark — season 1 on the train, so lost when i got there, it took me so long just to find the university and i totally drained my battery doing it, did two computer science talks, this creepy guy was sat next to me, the student-led talk was amazing!, met up with charis and max for lunch, it's so hot!!!, max went off to a talk so me and charis went to the museum, it was so interesting, izzy joined us too, after that we just walked around the city, max got shouted at by a homeless guy, we split up and i walked back to the station, i got there 2 hours early so i had a lot of waiting to do, i read more of the king's men, i was so tired on the train back that i just listened to music.
    • 23. reading quite a bit of the king's men in the morning in bed, hair was greasy so i didn't really do much all day.
    • 24. chemistry was cancelled, so tired all day, yamada ryosuke, I LOVE MOB PSYCHO 100, i saw a video about how netflix no homo-ed evangelion but it actually made me want to watch the original so i'm excited to do that, rewatching some itadaki high jump episodes, reading more of the king's men, i'm so close to the end and i'm not ready.
    • 25. physics lesson was canceled, had school photos taken, looking through the mp100 tag and i'm so happy, honestly... recently i've just been listening to anime ops and i don't even care.
    • 26. scrolling through all my friends twitters and realised how much i don't like most of them, itadaki high jump, cody and noel videos.
    • 27. itadaki high jump, watching a lot of youtube, the jojo's op is so good, piano covers, watching tiny meat gang tour videos.
    • 28. york open day with papa, watching dark on the way, went to the computer science talks, had lunch and the pizza wasn't that nice but it's ok, looked around the accommodation and it was really nice, so tired when we got back, domino's pizza.
    • 29. charis came round but i wasn't expecting it whoops, was watching drew gooden and danny gonzalez videos before she came, talking about our open days, talking about japanese voice actors, watching utapri videos lmao, going through the old kpop playlist, watching the first episode of osomatsu-kun and it's so funny, charis appreciated it taking the mick out of utapri and all th eother animes, went in the car on the way back to charis' and we saw charlotte out with her friends when she wasn't supposed to be lmao.
    • 30. hairs kinda greasy oh no, jaemin, nomin fics, watching random celebrities moments videos idk why, watching 'faith in humanity restored' videos and crying, why am i so weak for nice things lmao.

july:

    • 01. having good fun with charis in my frees, watching nct videos, ten is a confident gay we stan.
    • 02. my lessons were kinda interesting today, stayed for lunch because i had my chemistry test, it went alright except the multiple choice was i bit uhhh, just missed adams sports day by like 10 minutes oof, had tea at mama's, watching nct videos, i love ten, planning nct dreams.
    • 03. walked home with charis after break, it's hot out, didn't do much when i got back from school, take off — wayv, watching rainbowV series and wow i absolutely stan wayv they're so great, they inspire me to be creative, ten x winwin 'lonely' is the best thing i've ever seen i nearly cried it's so moving.
    • 04. doing my physics work in the first two frees and it turned out really pretty, talked a bit with nelly and oscar, physics class is so chill, went back home to mamas for lunch, papa was trying on new glasses bless, rewatching the rainbowV videos, stranger things — season 3 is out so i'm watching that, reading tencas/luten fics, didn't take my makeup off until really late.
    • 05. staff training day today so i'm off school, i'm not liking the new season of stranger things that much tbh, it feels really goofy? and like more of the same idk, charis came round at 12, talking about my new love for wayv, watching the latest editions to my laffs playlist, foReiGn sWaGgeRs, showing charis the rainbowV series especially the lovely choreography, going through more of the kpop through the ages playlist, introducing charis to the concept of dark academia, omg remember the call me daddy demo lmao, embarrassingly acting out knk — knock because i couldn't remember which song it is, kpop worst vs best vocals videos, watching videos of the mot iconic kpop moments and that title is surprisingly accurate? there were so many good moments we forgot, we decided to make a list of kpop idols we thought might not be straight, charlotte was talking to us about free rein, went out for a meal with grandma pat to the beehive, mum didn't come because she was going to a work-do, everyone was in a good mood and we had nice conversations, i didn't manage to eat all my fish though, went back to grandmas for a bit afterwards, we were all laughing at uncle david for taking so long to put his stuff in the car, charlotte was in a huff when we got back but she apologised for being mean??? what au is this, mum didn't end up going out with her colleagues what a surprise, washing my hair tonight even though i'm tired so it wouldn't be greasy tomorrow.
    • 06. i think i woke up earlier but then fell back asleep and woke up at 10:30, reading tencas fics in bed until around 12, didn't really do much all day tbh, loving ten hours, motivation to learn languages again, i want to pick up mandarin and thai, watching wilde (1997) and i'd risk it all for young jude law, found out that michael sheen played the creepy vampire dude in twilight and it ruins everything.
    • 07. cameron boyce died what, was going to get the bus to the silverlink but as i was waiting for the bus charlotte and dad drove past so they gave me a lift, finally bought a pair of jeans that fit me yay, saw spider-man: far from home, i love jake gyllenhaal, the fight scenes with mysterio were so cool, got a lift back from kayley's dad, mum thinks i've lost weight, really late night.
    • 08. kinda late to school, wearing my new jeans, we've been given this new chemistry project that's due for thursday??? there's no way i'm finishing it wtf, watching the first 5 episodes of mob psycho 100 — season 2 and it's so fucking good ohmygod
    • 09. hastel youtube edits, watching yuzuru hanyu videos and i came across this one interview that just makes me so happy, liek he's so goofy???, trying to plan my chemistry project but i literally can't be bothered, downloading edits.
    • 10. doing my chemistry project last minute, didn't finish until like 1am rip me.
    • 11. so tired in the morning, chemistry presentation was alright, was in chris' french class for a bit during my free, regretting wearing a turtleneck because it was so humid today, the thunderstorms were so bad during physics, finished maths early, late shower, chenle is my fav omg, his laugh!!!, nct 127 interviews, i'm happy now that i'm into nct as a whole instead of just wayv, yuta speaking japanese is so satisying, found the best nct interview with mark and jaehyun (koreanenglishman), it made me love jaehyun so much, stayed up way to late doing homework.
    • 12. missed getting my result in the morning because i was late, had to wait until the end of the day even though i could have left at lunch, absolutely dying of laughter at lunch with charis and kayley because we found this filter on tiktok and it's the funniest thing, my results were ok (ABC), charis is round!!!, rewatching the video of yuzu dancing to oneokrock and it's still the funniest thing ever, bonding over our love for yuta, crying-laughing at that one photo of yuta with the trianlge chin (i can't believe i forgot it was him lmao), showing charis wayv mvs, watching '100 most iconic kpop songs', watching the exo weekly idol that got me into kpop, we were watching trap — henry and his outfit reminded me of the one from cats so we then watched a bunch of songs from the musical, kiss marry avoid videos, after charis left i watched a bunch more of the nct in osaka vdieos, i should really watch them all at some point, reading this really cute nct dream chat fic — the bestest friends, reading yuta/jaehyun fics because i came across dudes before 'tudes and it's so good, also downloading a bunch of other ones to read with other ships, got to sleep at like 4am whoops.
    • 13. woke up with a really sore throat, looking thorugh the figure skating 4chan cause i saw a tweet about how bad it was and it's such a mess, grannie betty's, the stuff i downloaded didn't save so i just listened to music, playing crosswords, i cheated quite a bit though oof, googling ten's school and it looks so posh wow, also it's weird to think about him doing gcse's and a-level's like me, washed my hair, planning nct dreams, watching jaehyun videos because i love him.
    • 14. adam's dance show, he was so good!, there was a really cool performance to a remix of survivor, emily-kate was dancing to lol, it's so hot!, adam's birthday barbecue, playing swingball, adam is so cute i love him, black on black — nct, the cake was so nice, auntie tu bought me a levi jacket, helped dad with the shopping, jaehyun's so cringe but i love him anyway, i just saw this clip of nct being served a thanksgiving dinner and jaehyun's just like: "wow that's a really big chicken", gives off big kylie jenner and "wow i that a chicken" vibes.
    • 15. caitlin spilled hot water on me in the rp in chemistry, playing with this voice jammer with the girls at lunch, charis and kayley weren't there for lunch but i got along with the others surprisingly well, got my maths results back and they were ok tbh, had some good talks with, mille and walked home with her, looking at nct gfx, talking to mum whilst eating dinner, didn't wash my hair so ik i'm gonna regret that in the morning, found my new favourite nct ship (jaehyun/lucas) except there's only one readable fic in the a03 tag, why do i always like rare-pairs rip, such a late night.
    • 16. hair is so greasy, didn't want to go to school but mama made me, missed chemistry, wore a black turtle neck which was not the best decision in this weather, went over the stats & mechanics test, i had to sit next to molly when i did it ugh, my friends were helping me finish one of the crosswords on my app, nct gfx, reading some felix/hyungjin fics and there's so good i want to stan skz, nomin videos and fics, actually showered at a decent time.
    • 17. feeling ugly today, started listen to a podcast about machine learning in my free, in chemistry we just did a quiz and it was really fun, watched season 2 — episode 12 of mob psycho 100 and there's only one episode left!!, i'm going to be so sad to have finished it, remember my old username 'tranquillitae' lol, watching nct 127 video and interviews, the 'next up' after a nct 127 interview was a stray kids one so i watched it and now i stan stray kids, also watched hwang hyunjin being dramatic for 5 minutes and now i'm in love with hyunjin.
    • 18. too tired for school ugh, playing a quiz in physics, doing an agressive game of word search in my free with charis and kayley, i love hwang hyunjin, watching stray kids videos.
    • 19. i don't have lessons until 11:30 so i'm not going in until then, it's so hot!, talking about conspiracy theories in physics but that's pretty much it, mcmenzie also mentioned the youtuber (willne) that used to go to our school and how he used to be really afraid of blood, context: mcmenzie pricked his finger to talk about blood-cells and then talked about how he had to get tested for HIV???, i couldn't find charis so i just went home to get lunch, talking to mum about conspiracy theories, walked down to charis' just in case, she was there so we walked back to mine, the 'cats' trailer came out and it looks shit, creasing laughing at this lucas being a fuckboi video that had a bad flute cover over it, charis is in love with felix's pretty face and deep voice, we saw this one video of chan putting is hoodie on a hanger so we tried it and it was so funny, playing 'kiss/marry/avoid', watching videos of nct (mainly yuta and doyoung0 being woke, showing charis the mark & haechan iconic summer fight, watching hyunjin videos because i love him, taeten ♡, watched hit the stage — episode 1 and ten was so good!!!, used some of the new silver serum skincare i bought so hopefully that goes well, got to sleep at like 3 whoops.
    • 20. woke up with a sore throat again, looking at kpop journals on instagram, i hope to start one this summer, mum made me a bacon sandwich for brunch,
    • 21. woke up at 12 oops, didn't really do much at all today, grandma at was round and we all slagged off charlotte for a bit which felt good, trying to organise spotify and tumblr, there's barely anything to eat rip, listening to music.
    • 22. reading this really cute nomin fic, i love hyunjin and han's dynamic, watched queer eye — season 4, i especially loved the episode with the old guy,
    • 23. downloading instagram edits, hyunho fics, finally watched bad genius and it was so good, like i was so invested cause everything was so intense.
    • 24. it's so hot today it's like 30 degrees i'm dying, went down to mamas, bad cramps, went for a walk on the beach with adam and mama, we saw a caterpillar, hugo peed on a kids sandcastle lmao, met up with papa or fish and chips, played catch and swingball with adam in the garden, hyunsung fics.
    • 25. i should have washed my hair last night cause it's so greasy ew, watched the last episode of mp100 with tea and now i'm emo.
    • 26. charis and kayley came round!, charis came a bit earlier though and i showed her the omgt mv by madtown cause i totally forgot it existed, it was a bit of a change having kayley join again because it means that me and charis can't do the usual stuff, throwback to house of anubis omg remember, listening to throwback music, watched hunger games: catching fire and it was really good so after they left i rewatched the first one and then catching fire again.
    • 27. watched hunger games: mocking jay - part 1, watching kpop reaction videos idk why, went shopping to the silvelrink with charlotte and dad, feeling ugly though oh no, bought a new pair of trainers, and some clothes from h&m, we had tea at yo sushi but it wasn't as nice as it used to be, stray kids fics.
    • 28. fancy — twice, reading up about the black plague idk why, texting charis, dalla dalla — itzy, watched seabiscuit with the family at dinner time, i actually got pretty invested in it lol, was awake all the way up until 8am but then fell asleep rip me.
    • 29. woke up at 1, so now i hate my life, downloading stuff, itzy, watching a bunch of kpop mvs hyunjin and changbin.
    • 30. woke up at 1 again oh no, packing suitcase, dyeing my hair and it's so itchy, dad's in a bad mood great, my hair didn't even go that blonde tf?, it got a bit lighter but that's it.
jan 1 2019 ∞
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