• I think about things too much:
    • Guys; I end up falling in love with their potential.
    • Things I regret (that go back into my early childhood. I don't know why, it's so long ago. I was a kid.)
  • I lie with ease (not necessarily often):
    • To get out of explaining things that are "long stories."
    • To avoid conflict.
    • To make me sound more appealing.
    • To make me seem more stable.
    • To feel more interesting, better.
  • I feel guilty easy about things I shouldn't.
    • My mother's mistakes.
    • My father's mistakes.
    • Not being able to change things.
  • I don't feel guilty about things I should.
    • Telling those lies.
    • Being pissy with my family.
  • I worry about my strange facial expressions.
  • I forgive really easy.
    • Pros:
      • Less conflict.
      • Closer relationships.
      • Less maintenance.
    • Cons:
      • Not being truthful to myself.
      • It always comes back to haunt me.
      • It gives me more room to go back to the same routine.
  • Pick at my cuticles until I have hangnails, etc.
  • I set too high examples and end up being disappointed.
  • Because I am so happy to be in love, I fall in love deeper than they do and then I end up being more crazy about them and I show it more so I look like a fool.
    • It's crazy embarassing.
    • Kind of depressing.
    • Always the cause of our "spats".
    • Usually because I miss him a lot more.
    • I want to hang out with him a lot more.
      • That one time we could have hung out but he "didn't feel like it."
      • Mondays. He has too much homework?
    • I'm almost positive I love him more than he loves me. And it's kind of scary. Because I don't know if he'll ever get to the point where he loves me that much, and I want to have that security. I want him to be as crazy about me as I am about him.
jul 16 2009 ∞
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