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2019

  • December 2 - It's early Monday morning. I'm on night shift right now for work, and I really don't want to go into work this evening xD
  • December 8 - The unfortunate thing about transitioning back to day shift is always the shorter weekend. And the fact that it's just harder to get your sleep back.
  • December 10 - I am frustrated with work. Just so tired. So tired. They put Charles as our lead only because they wanted to get him away from anything that slowed the line down, because they know he's not really capable. I am so tired of being here for thirteen hours five to six days out of the week for every single day, when the only reason is because he won't help us when we need him to, and if we don't need his help he'll get in the way.
    • I am so tired of our new people not knowing that things are going to get better if only they apply themselves. I am so tired of this.
    • This isn't a bad place to work, but I am just so tired.
  • Dec 22 - I "officially" came out as bi to my lesbian co-worker today, but I wish I hadn't. She didn't say anything negative or mean, but I just...I don't know. It might be all in my head, but I make so many lesbian and sex jokes that I'm afraid they'll be taken literally now. I wish I hadn't said anything.
  • Dec 27 - I'm so nervous. Anxious. Not exactly "dead" inside, that's not the word at all--I think it's dread. Day 2 testing for Toyota was yesterday. I don't feel good about it.
  • Dec 28 - My mom kinda/sorta "called me out?" That's not the right phrase at all. Basically, she sort of threw me under the bus--unintentionally--by being like, "If you think THAT'S bad, her ex was 43!!!"
    • WHICH IS NOT EVEN TRUE. There was not one point in our relationship when he was even 40 hahaha
  • Dec 29 - I am terrified that Trump will win the next election. Before I didn't really think he would have another shot, but his impeachment is getting people so worked up. His "us vs them," I'm afraid, is working.

2020

  • Jan 4 - I really feel like all of the uppers (senior team leader, supervisor, manager, etc) are mad at me and it makes life hard.
  • Jan 14 - It is never going to get better. If anything, it will only get worse. I so badly feel like walking out--thinking even harder about not coming in at all on Friday. Hmm....
  • Jan 22 - Overall, I feel like things are on the up. I'm even taking a lunch break!
dec 2 2019 ∞
jan 22 2020 +
user picture juno: hey baby, do you want to talk about what is going on? jan 14 2020
user picture Venus: You're too sweet! I'm sorry, I didn't see this until just now or I would have already responded! I was/am okay though. I was just letting things outside of my control stress me out way too much, and I'm trying to step back from that way of thinking. jan 20 2020