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⸻⠀ goals
- ⬚⠀finish that short story about the jungian quote
- ⬚⠀finish that fanfic 1st draft (3/5)
- ⬚⠀read...
- ⬚⠀transfer notion writing notes to obsidian
- ⬚⠀watch a documentary abt ivan illich, descartes and rousseau
- ⬚⠀write the 15 letters
- ⬚⠀donate my good clothes to a thrift store & thrift some pants
- ⬚⠀clean dad's backpack
- ⬚⠀change my documents
- ⬚⠀work on my masters entry
- ⬚⠀study like my life depends on it (it does)
- ✓⠀change my name
- ✗⠀clean the "25 by 25" list
- ✓⠀re-do this list
- ✓⠀deep-clean my browser's favourites
- ✓⠀read the tender narrator
- ✓⠀re-do (or delete) this list.
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⸻⠀ challenges
- ⬚⠀read 3 books (0/3)
- ⬚⠀cultivate autonomy
- ⬚⠀kill n bury dependency (& codependency)
- ⬚⠀learn to cook
- ⠀⠀⤷ ✓⠀chocolate cake
- ⠀⠀⤷ ⬚⠀brownie
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⸻⠀ wishlist
- clothes & fashion
- ⬚⠀clear brown or green shirt (0/1)
- ⬚⠀light dress shirt (0/2)
- ⬚⠀dark dress shirt (0/1)
- ⬚⠀white sneakers
- ⬚⠀straight-cut jeans (2/3)
- ✓⠀clear white shirt (1/1)
- ✓⠀dark grey shirt for winter (1/1)
- ✓⠀baby blue shirt (1/1)
- ✓⠀clear navy blue shirt (1/1)
- ✓⠀navy sweatpants (1/1)
- ✓⠀shorts (2/2)
- ✓⠀boxers (3/3)
- ✓⠀white/clear baseball cap (1/1)
- ✓⠀cotton jumper (1/1)
- ✓⠀clear navy blue shirt (1/1)
- ✓⠀high quality anime t-shirts (2/2)
- ✓⠀silver necklace chain
- ✓⠀every-day sneakers
- home decor
- tech
- miscellaneous
- ⬚⠀pen case
- ⬚⠀black ballpoint pen
- ⬚⠀red ballpoint pen
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⸻⠀ prospects
- 01 ⠀ ideal masculinity. ⠀￫⠀ rome wasn't built in a day.
- 02 ⠀ keep things under control. ⠀￫⠀ i didn't.
- 03 ⠀ become my best friend. ⠀￫⠀ i did.
- 04 ⠀ procrastination is your enemy. ⠀￫⠀ there's no "tomorrow".
- 05 ⠀ go! be brilliant! ⠀￫⠀ i sucked ass bro.
- 06 ⠀ . ⠀￫⠀
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⸻⠀ monthly log
- 01 ⠀➭⠀ it's new years eve n i just realized that the whole "your brain hides some memories for your safety" is not literal. chappell roan n the angels are the only things keeping me sane. hitting the gym w my friend n inviting myself to his hangouts like i'm worth smth. i can't stop thinking about getting a thorn tattoo. remembering 2021. i hate being alive, man "and yet, life is beautiful." praying to angels while screaming at god. heartaches (the 心 kind, not the 心臓 kind.) if i had a nickel for every time someone told me i should become a deputy, i'd have two nickels-- which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice (maybe i should apply for the fire corps or smth.) got a haircut. auntie's b-day n lots of cake (i ate miso soup for the first time n it tasted so bad.) watching queen of tears w her. i saw an old picture of mum & dad that got me emotional. my old cousin said hi. ocd symptoms. LET'S FUCKING GOOO!!! downloaded an amazing photo app that made me realize how cute my uni campus is. exhaustion. working on my undergraduate papers. parenting my own mother because she is this bad at parenting.
- 02 ⠀➭⠀ got more shit done in a single day than in a month. left a program that i actually loved, but that was draining me. realized i have too much going on in my life n that's why i'm so tired. lord help me, i'm overworked. organizing tasks n schedules. writing on a personal blog. taking loooots n lots of pictures! personalizing my desktop n phone. we had a chilean exchange student vsiting uni n that was an experience. also, c being the best in the whole world, as always. guilt-tripping grandma so she won't disrespect me (as if having a healthy conversation w this family would work.) "you don't want love that ain't yours." the puppy/kitten dilemma. talking w maddie. pre-frontal cortex birthday. i've went through a refractive eye surgery n got legally blind for two weeks. i had a lot of fun watching doramas w my auntie, it never crossed my mind we could have so much fun together. there's no trope i hate the most in the world than light girl dark boy. podcasted everything since i couldn't see, which made me return to the welcome to night vale radio show. prayed like a madman for a futile wish, but damn if it didn't work. had a fun night w my aunties (they got drunk on soju, n we had mcdonalds.)
- 03 ⠀➭⠀ first ash wednesday i won't participate officially. full-time sunglasses wearer (also, my eyes are huge, holy fuck.) shopping spree. i'm feeling so frustrated w myself, i can't do this any more, i feel gross. my eyesight is getting better n better every day, i might not use glasses ever again! death, violence n hopelessness. i threw a tiny party at home n my friends brought a portable karaoke, we played scarttegories n shitty friends... it was ok, ig. life is made of love. organizing courses (n getting overwhelmed coz i wanna do everything). journaling. my new keyboard is so satisfying to type, i'm so glad i bought it. darling, you're not catholic, you just like having a religion w rituals n community. find another way to serve your god. got baby in 20 pulls hehe. autumn cleaning spree skinned my fingers. "i wanna be soft only to you."
- 04 ⠀➭⠀ first day of the online exchange program w students from switzerland. i got into more literature programs because i'm crazy. binged a masterpiece. "these female writers were racist" again, of course. reading yay. the death of substack. our greek literature program got the chance to watch n participate in a lesson n interview w madeline miller :') waa. feeling trapped n limited, so of course i'm about to relapse. this cursed neighbourhood n house making me sick. accepting i love myself unconditionally n i deserve the best in the world without having to ask for it. i wouldn't want to be anyone but me. rage & love. vedic astrology n "great, i was a workaholic rebel in my past life" (and my gf was a ruthless diplomat!). eu e o djabo. bird imagery, dragon imagery, angel imagery, flight imagery. wow he's literally me. there's no tomorrow, there's no 'later,' there's only now. i bought a physical copy of the odyssey n the iliad. panicking coz i'm not as brilliant literaly as used to be (i'm just rusty). look, a mbti channel that ain't the worst in the world (this guy is always hurting my feelings). blessed on pity 14 (i was about to SOB).
- 05 ⠀➭⠀ i want too much. revised the goals & challenges section. o show da lady gaga sendo no dia do aniversário da minha esposa. "i eat envy for breakfast like vitamin gummies; it's what keeps me going." who is pearl n why am i sobbing on my hands at 5pm. "my name, my name. you know the one." the damned worshipper & the dying (silent) god. just realized my dad used to bless me in hebraic. nothing is better than a warm heart. bro scolding me for not going back to the gym (i don't have time!!!!). i stop biting my nails n yet i still fuck up my hands wow great. "we process grief by running from it until it finds us in the middle of the street on a beautiful summer's day." a whole week of migraines. ᴜsᴀmerican traditional cuisine is: pies! bro i just adore a classroom, i love being a teacher, i was born to do this wtf. going insane with national songs. hello baby. yeah divas, i couldn't tank it (i got sick). i took meaning for granted, that's why i've been sucking ass, lately (aka. passion, hope, whimsy, etc).
- 06 ⠀➭⠀ if i see another moronic edit of an owl w a crow & some lameass romantic caption, i'll commit a crime. anaxa brainrot still persists, but i gotta go back to myself or i won't make progress (unfortunately). me 🤝 my friend, n our incompetent coworkers. my spiritual animal is a dove (why did i get surprised). this is my favourite image ever. be weary of religion during recession times. hate & rage in this eventful pride month. i am exhausted. eu vou me matar, me jogar ao mar...
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⸻⠀ media
- 🎧⠀ playlist
- 🎮⠀ games & gameplays
- ⠀ 0106 | cod: modern warfare 2 campaign remastered (2020)
- ⠀ 0116 | cod: modern warfare 3 (2023)
- 📺⠀ tv shows & documentaries
- ⠀ 0105 | silo (2023) ⬩ S01
- ⠀ 0107 | the yellowstone supervolcano - america's ticking time bomb (2025)
- ⠀ 0225 | wild wolves: pack life (2025)
- ⠀ 0225 | fight for wolf valley (2025)
- ⠀ 0228 | queen of tears (2024)
- ⠀ 0303 | true beauty (2020)
- ⠀ 0402 | interview with the vampire (2022) ⬩ S01
- ⠀ 0403 | interview with the vampire (2024) ⬩ S02
- ⠀ 0404 | killer whales: up close and personal (2021)
- 💻⠀ youtube
- ⠀ 0107 | why oblivion refused to settle for green screens (2025)
- ⠀ 0114 | when an author writes about themself. (2025)
- ⠀ 0407 | how to identify quality in clothing (a rant) (2025)
- ⠀ 0407 | why koreans dress better (2024)
- ⠀ 0427 | por que eu falo do jeito que eu falo? (2025)
- ⠀ 0504 | how to finally stop feeling ugly (2025)
- ⠀ 0504 | you don't want love—you want to be picked so you feel worthy (2025)
- ⠀ 0504 | you've been playing a role. it's time to come home. (2025)
- 🎬⠀ movies
- ⠀ 0111 | spider-man: across the spider-verse (2023)
- ⠀ 0223 | conclave (2024)
- ⠀ 0329 | secretary (2002)
- ⠀ 0410 | mickey 17 (2025)
- ⠀ 0530 | soul (2020) ♥
- ⠀ 0530 | finding nemo (2002)⠀↺ 3rd
- ⠀ 0607 | only lovers left alive (2013)
- 📼⠀ animations
- 📄⠀ articles
- ⠀ 0216 | dog people and cat people differ on dominance-related traits (2015)
- ⠀ 0322 | “it is not what you said, it is how you said it”: how language choices expose orientalist (world) views (2023)
- ⠀ 0407 | demódoco e as lágrimas de odisseu (2014)
- ⠀ 0526 | a brasileira-francesa, o homem perfeito, a americana patricinha: representações culturais e educação crítica no ensino de inglês em contexto universitário (2018)
- ⠀ 0526 | culture in foreign language teaching (2013)
- ⠀ 0527 | a needs analysis questionnaire (2021)
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