index ― ♥: best days

2019

january

  • 0101 | fireworks (cu de copacabana), rio, chan's a pothead and felix's a funkeiro according to stele, reducing sleep meds, hymn of death.
  • 0201 | dreamt of seulgi, tinder boys, rachel comforting me at playground, hanging out with sis, rafa and her cousin.
  • 0301 | i wish that i could wake up with amnesia, yt vids, nap till 7pm, au, ranting to my friends while crying.
  • 0401 | not eating, skiz vids, matricula na escola, call with may (she helped me a lot), getting back with debbie (feeling happy.)
  • 0501 | você não vai parar de sorrir?, eyebrows, going to the pub with sis, rafa and rachel, karaoke night, p.s. still love you (45%).
  • 0601 | watching you, wifi ralph, exchanging affection with sun at the cinema, holding hands with may in the mall, meeting my old school friends. ♥
  • 0701 | family reunion in my bedroom, you, doing nothing, being dirty with fer, sleeping 5am talking to debbie.
  • 0801 | fake married with davi, feeling down, recognize small victories, depression crisis, kaguya and hymn of death.
  • 0901 | still sad, time alone, lady midnight (7%), drawing, watching bunny girl.
  • 1001 | isolated, quality time with my parents, book (17%), accidentally in love, ill never be a normal teen.
  • 1101 | im just gonna stay in bed forever, no meds and no food, a quiet place, taking a nap, thirty but seventeen.
  • 1201 | sleeping 8am, still seventeen, dance medley, i need to **** someone jeez, bingewatching sex education.
  • 1301 | bored, anime and kdrama, lady midnight (25%), i can't sleep without meds, trying to be alone but looking for friends.
  • 1401 | chae day!!, in my bedroom for a week, kubo and the two strings, finishing bunny girl and still 17, i dont feel the same.
  • 1501 | titans, listening to 2000s songs, popcorn, hating myself, taking sleep pilss.
  • 1601 | crying at the therapist, no one can help me, finishing titans, mom saying hyunjin looks like a girl, junkyu.
  • 1701 | YG TREASURE BOX REALITY ALL DAY!
  • 1801 | finishing ygtb, junkyu will make a debut, helping sister with her job interview, laughing at vids with mom. ♥
  • 1901 | stray kids' vlive, burn the stage, horror gameplay, feeling sad and alone, ice cream.
  • 2001 | sky castle, el laberinto del fauno, conversations with lari, ice cream again, maybe i have a date tomorrow.
  • 2101 | scared of stepping out of my comfort zone, skz, games with debbie and davi, sky castle with mom.
  • 2201 | going out of home, listening to songs, visiting the hospital, the mall, buying school objects.
  • 2301 | laying in bed all day, stray kids are saving my life, the haunting of hill house, mingau de aveia.
  • 2401 | finishing hill house, life is strange 2, watching live all day!!, tapioca, rachel.
  • 2501 | grandma is home, sky castle with fam, afternoon conversation, dancing the night away, making future plans with debbie.
  • 2601 | sleeping 8am, my phillipines' friend!, boring day, rabbit with tina, we talked for more than 7 hours.
  • 2701 | boring day.
  • 2801 | talking in baby voice with debbie, fun chat with safadas do johnny, felix is my ex crush (japa), juan is a cutiepie!
  • 2901 | driving grandma home, sky castle, the 9th, tina.
  • 3001 | therapy, talking about killing the old me, kdrama with mom, foda-se, alan.
  • 3101 | making stele's social media au, writing poetry, sky castle!!!, sweet popcorn.

february

  • 0102 | stele's bday!!!, crying bc of k-drama, song hero, talking to davi, am i doing the right thing?
  • 0202 | hereditary, watching horror movies alone is my job, finishing sky castle, i guess i don't wanna die, crepioca.
  • 0302 | flirting with girls, esfiha and ice cream, stray kids!!, talking to davi.
  • 0402 | am i liking her again?, everything is so twisted..., remembering old days, feeling hot in a green shirt, buying tickets for bts movie.
  • 0502 | talking about getting out of comfort zone in therapy, getting eyebrows done, haircut(e)!, lots of selfies, sexy.
  • 0602 | owari no seraph, anxious about school starting, but it didn't actually, making lots of gifs and pics, feeling beautiful. ♥
  • 0702 | ouija, also romance is a bonus book, laughing with my mom, flirting, feeling kinda depressed at night.
  • 0802 | spoiling my girlfriend, bingewatching one day at a time, pretty much it?, oh maybe this girl will come to rio.
  • 0902 | seulgi bday and i did nothng, uniform, cousins, crying at the cinema bc of singularity, rock concert w may and stele and lots of dogs. ♥
  • 1002 | she's using me, caleb day, exchanging lots of midia with the bunny of my kitten, trashy movie with nath and rafa, jennifer's body.
  • 1102 | resident evil 2, first day of school, im very friendly actually, viviane is my teacher Again.
  • 1202 | feeling bad, headache and bodyache, skipping school, dear ex.
  • 1302 | nath and rafa, meteor garden with parents, brooklyn 99, gay panic.
  • 1402 | finishing meteor garden, cólica, napping at afternoon, b99, maybe i have i crush?
  • 1502 | dont remember, b99, late for school, having a crush on this boy.
  • 1602 | resenha, meeting alfa friends again, they were all drunk, making out with breno Oh My God, karaoke night with family. ♥
  • 1702 | driving sister home, yeah everything is upside down, i'm never seeing them Ever Again, davi.
  • 1802 | mariana's birthday rolê, minha vida em marte, misturando as tribos, going to school right after rolê, coming home early. ♥
  • 1902 | romance is a novel book with parents, letícia is also bi!, i hate chemistry, my gf telling me im prettier then usual.
  • 2002 | smiling in therapy, debbie's letter, we went on a call and i cried, i love seeing her face and hearing her voice :<, SHE TALKED TO MY PARENTS, we looking at each other's lips as if we were going to kiss, me skipping class and having an anxiety attack. ♥
  • 2102 | brooklyn 99, monsta x is coming to brazil Oh No, call with debbie again, not going to school, horror stories animated.
  • 2202 | waking up early, 1 fav and ill talk to my crush, brown lipstick, coming home early, call with debbie.
  • 2302 | sam and colby, shopping carnival stuff, mayra and mariana, dancing to my pace in a devil's costume, sleepover. ♥
  • 2402 | strogonoff de cogumelo, i'm a devil girl, bloco das pocs!, walking downtown and actually having fun, ending the day with debbie. ♥
  • 2502 | sam and colby, looking for things to do, feeling kinda sad, remember when we were best friends and confidents, my gf is cute.
  • 2602 | romance is a novel book, popcorn, missing the old days, i hate chemistry, am i feeling depressed.
  • 2702 | catching up b99, packing for the trip, 12 hours with debbie, we got so close and she met my familly, shower and touching, rafa as a nun. ♥
  • 2802 | taking hours to get to araruama, pastel, tio marcio e tia paula, crush at the condo (jorge eduardo), feeling bad at night.

march

  • 0103 | raining, going to the club, quiosque de batata com queijo, dancing kpop, brigadeiro. ♥
  • 0203 | barbecue, swimming pool, laughing a lot with my family bc of shit (literally), baile de carnaval, trying to find weed and jorge eduardo. ♥
  • 0303 | going to cabo frio, rich’s condo, feeling bad on the way back, 3hours in the bus.
  • 0403 | swimming pool!, it was raining so we didn’t go to carnagay, baile de carnaval, devil girl, solta minha irmã! and me hitting on a het girl. ♥
  • 0503 | coming back to rio, listening one direction, feeling empty and alone, i don't really have friends, lobo no telegram, debbie.
  • 0603 | declaring myself to debbie, we did it together, horror gameplay, davi is my sugar daddy.
  • 0703 | carteirinha de estudante, buying a necklace, romance is a novel book, wanting to die, davi's call.
  • 0803 | date with may's friend, captain marvel, we had pizza and went to hotzone with no money, fun day!!!, mom saw me. ♥
  • 0903 | not seeing monsta x :), thinking about coming out to my parents, spiderverse, isolating myself, i wanna die.
  • 1003 | 5 months with her, text with bts lyrics, rei édipo, call with mayra and deb, juventude assassina.
  • 1103 | BUYING TICKETS TO BTS CONCERT!!!, may and sérgio, van gogh went to the petriatian, anxiety attack bc im alone.
  • 1203 | exchanging beef with babi, quiting school and twitter, listening to better days are coming playlist (but they aren't), bad day overall.
  • 1303 | luzes no céu: fireworks, straighten my hair, pushing people away, getting ready to be gone, the umbrella academy.
  • 1403 | davi's bday, anger attack, almost got locked in an asylum, why am i doing this to my parents?, the grudge.
  • 1503 | umbrella academy, rabbit with tina, my friends/mutuals calming me down, lincoln, we hung out in the rain and talked a lot, i came out to my parents and they were the sweetest!! (thanks odaat). ♥
  • 1603 | it's been 9 years since i met stele, we're going to work it out, debbie, i'm going to start living, making promises.
  • 1703 | looking for an apartament with nath and rafa, taking pics in all red, umbrella academy, mingau de aveia, she doesn't care about my words anymore.
  • 1803 | finished umbrella academy, therapist unvalidating bisexuality, having an anxiety crisis bc of school, i dont know what to do with my life.
  • 1903 | mayra really came out of nowhere, queer eye, nath's birthday party!!, all pink and unicorns, it rained a lot, fernanda.
  • 2003 | she's angry at me, feeling guilty but at the same time..., babi and ninha giving me emotional support, juliana's house, we watched movies and caressed her cat.
  • 2103 | happy birthday, vovó, taking naps right after waking up, girl, finishing romance is a novel book, rewatching strong woman.
  • 2203 | sexy dance video, singularity, writing fanfic, watching k-drama all day long, wherever you are, i will find you.
  • 2303 | myles and lincoln, dancing and singing!, i do have friends and they're so good to me, myles will move into my condo, calling debbie in her brother's phone. ♥
  • 2403 | spending the sunday in a videocall with debbie, we talked a lot about everything and nothing, our relationship has matured, finishing strong woman.
  • 2503 | hanging out with may, mariana and sergio, watching us, seeing an old mutual and luiz da sol, domino's, trashy youtube br series. ♥
  • 2603 | queer eye, may is my housewife, oh my ghost again, jealous of davi (or i really hate his gf), talking about sex and girls and friends w benefits with tina.
  • 2703 | don't remember.
  • 2803 | gleyce's back at rio, getting my hair done, and a haircut!, i look bad in the pics tho.
  • 2903 | taking hot pics at 4am, nhoque, finishing oh my ghost, dancing bon bon chocolat, call with debbie (i have no doubts i love seeing her more than anything.)
  • 3003 | i moan like a hentai girl, made my parents watch a sad k-drama, im going to do it with davi, deep conversations with debbie (we're insecure but our love is stronger.)
  • 3103 | hanging out with sis and rafa, buying things for their new house, the handmaiden, feeling a little sick, having conversations with debbie about our feelings. ♥

april

  • 0104 | erotic dream (she was facing me on my lap), a couple listo, queer eye cast interviews, while you were sleeping, almondega.
  • 0204 | mayra came here, queer eye, i'm antoni and she's tan, outside photoshoot with rocker style, kimi no na wa effect.
  • 0304 | finishing wyws, i'm sick, came back with the art thread on twitter, oreos.
  • 0404 | doing nothing, depressed night.
  • 0504 | finding stray kids, dreamt of debbie in rio, trying to watch a lot of things but failing, jaemin's vlive, mom going to the hospital :( and my dad doesn't trust me alone.
  • 0604 | cuddling with davi, okay who's going to play with my hair?, karaoke with may and mari, me not letting him go, kissing mariana. ♥
  • 0704 | mariana woke me up giving me a peck, is she going to be mad at me?, afraid of losing friends, sabrina and hello my twenties, editing pics.
  • 0804 | waking up 3pm, miroh, k-drama, fixing listography, not sleeping at all.
  • 0904 | washing hair 5am, finishing my husband won't fit, nath and rafa talk a lot, did i mess things up with my bff?, mesversário.
  • 1004 | 6 months with debbie, hello my twenties 2, sending a lot of gifts to my gf, davi confessing to me, bad timing.
  • 1104 | skz's variety at 6am, really stressed out, anger and confusion, date in a milkshake shop with lincoln, love, death and robots and chill.
  • 1204 | noah's birthday is the same as mine, american psycho, juliana caressing my hair, messing things up with debbie in a call, can i really change?
  • 1304 | spending all day in bed, dad backhugging me, thinking about isolating myself, tina saying pretty words abt not having to have a dream, finishing hello my twenties :<.
  • 1404 | waking up early, my hair looks pretty, kpop event (dancing tons of twice and skz), eating at a korean restaurant (japchae is so fckng goog), may, sun, lila and lore.
  • 1504 | changing username to monstrayz, watching iu's drama, touch your heart, telling davi im going to live in sp, debbie being needy with me.
  • 1604 | really bad day, eu sou a inválida da família, não tem porquê estar aqui, cutting my bangs and getting ugly, angry and depressed attack, words cut deeper than knives.
  • 1704 | not sure about what to do, trying to hide my ugly self, may is the tan to my antoni and the noah to my mario, The break up, call with rachel's gf.
  • 1804 | touch your heart, selling bts' ticket, quando você vai parar de me perder e me ter de vez?, ranting to babi abt my family issues(she is such a sweetheart), watching the night sky in the playground at 4am with rachel.
  • 1904 | mom's bday, desintoxicating day, laughing with the girls, oliver and company, late night conversations with rafa.
  • 2004 | visiting grandma, vó, cê já saiu do brasil?, am i extrovert or introvert?, dancing likey, sleeping 10pm and waking up 2am lmao.
  • 2104 | NEW GC WITH ANI AND DEBO AND LAURI, it's easter but doesn't really look like it?, family in the living room and me in the bed, she really blocked me lmao, a vida pode separar a gente, mas eu vou atrás de você.
  • 2204 | twt private acc, touch your heart, she blocked me lmao, selling bts' tickets to luma, TWICE'S COMEBACK.
  • 2304 | netflix and chill with davi, kissing and laughing, can i be in a relationship now?, i loved his taste tho, call with aninha. ♥
  • 2404 | going to bangu, spending 5 hours outside, new id pic!!, some random person chatting with me on insta, finishing kdrama.
  • 2504 | not sleeping again, late night conversations, amigas da madrugada bar e banda, finishing my first first love.
  • 2604 | rewatching goblin all day long, taking naps, i'm eating a lot these days, BAD Dream about school and drowning, jaemin's drama.
  • 2704 | waking up and taking naps at afternoon again, meeting rafa's family, você é uma bonequinha, quero te adotar, rachel's birthday, im socially awkward.
  • 2804 | goblin all day long, my dad doesn't really pay attention to me, strong wind, is it a tsunami?, i'm alone. 42 by 3racha.
  • 2904 | sad day. rain. nhoque. re-reading 2018's diary.
  • 3004 | sleeping well!!, 2,37ml x 4 = 10 litros, laughing a lot with rachel, endgame, clowning this kid saying his fav scene was cap with the hammer. ♥

may

  • 0105 | shitty day.
  • 0205 | avatar, laying in bed all day, runaway bride, thinking about taking the pills, suicide letter, i'm probably on my period (i actually am.)
  • 0305 | woke up with may caressing my hair, juliana came to visit in surprise, dying my hair Black again, sleepover and eating lots of shit, rolê inside the condo, calling random people until dawn. (tem um carro de gelo aí fora? ah, é porque derreteu.)
  • 0405 | yoonkook fics, remembering how juliana almost made us break into the rooftop, chambers with may all day long, ovomaltine milkshake, okay i'm really seeing bts, kakegurui.
  • 0505 | waking up 4pm, showing mom how meaningful are bts' lyrics, school 2015, instagram, doing random play dance while everyone's sleeping.
  • 0605 | talked to ana karina all morning, slept from noon till six pm lol, rachel is addicted to kdrama, i look pretty in my id, civil war.
  • 0705 | back in twitter, don't actually remember how my days are passing by, sungjae's acting skills tho, making plans to my bday, okay funny-long-short story: received a nude from a guy i thought was trans, fuck i really confessed to him.
  • 0805 | bridget jone's diary, yoonkook camp au, i tried not to sleep all day long but failed, buying cake and star candles, last day of dancing queen, only seventeen.
  • 0905 | beauty queen of only eighteen, from tina and may, lonely until down, bad day overall, spent it sleeping, my sis made a tribute for me on her insta, talking to dani and deia.
  • 1005 | not sleeping at all, seuigiarts, going to the movies, pet sematary, juju and rachel, trying to watch kimi no na wa, sleeping like 11pm but waking up 3am.
  • 1105 | lunch at a restaurant, i was pretty annoyed tho, snapchat's filters (baby and man), bleaching may's hair with mariana.
  • 1205 | looking pretty in the morning, nhoque at lunch, rafa and nath coming over, me isolated in my room, reseting my notebook, late night nap, i'll have a baby with davi called dante, she came to play with me Oh my god.
  • 1305 | yoonkook fanfics, feeling lonely, random play dance really early in the morning, sam and colby, fck i got scared bc my closet door opened, not in the mood to travel to sp :-/
  • 1405 | not sleeping again (when will i get a good sleeping schedule²), skz's interview, they make me so happy and heartwarmed, dying may's hair in pink (i enjoyed doing it A LOT), make it right, learning fanchant for bts's concert and finally getting excited. ♥
  • 1505 | bts' songs and fics, life is strange 2, oh gosh i gotta lose 5kg in a week, shopping new coats and a boot with mayra, laughing bc of cameo prints that resembles jk and jin's old ppl clothing, a little girl called me aunt.
  • 1605 | nothing relevant, slept all night and day long, davi calling me santiago to his peralta, hmmm trying to take cute pics but looking ugly.
  • 1705 | twt acc got suspended, also yeah i'm feeling pretty ugly, lis2, setting up outfits for sao paulo, doing pretty much nothing all day?, listening to the sy tour playlist.
  • 1805 | slept for more than 12 hours.
  • 1905 | got soft seeing vids of this korean lesbian couple, got soft reading a goody x bad boy yoonkook fic, basicly A GAY SOFTIE all day, school 2015.
  • 2005 | FUCK YEAH i'm sleeping properly, losing my student id, anger attack, fck everything goes wrong in my life, is there a bad energy around me or i'm the bad energy, juliana came here and we made cookies, the society.
  • 2105 | sleeping for 3 hours, diva depressão, making talharim on my own, getting eyebrows done, oh my god im seeing min yoongi for real, eating pastel made me sick, b99 is back bitches.
  • 2204 | sleeping for 12 hours fuck yeah, bingewatching the promised neverland it's so fucking good, making nhoque, lost my earphone and get scared at myself in a telegram video, mayra came here and i'm not asleep anymore. ♥
  • 2305 | stressed about the trip going wrong, but it went well, the night vision through an airplane window is beautiful, seeing tina again uwu, she's shorter than i remember, not feeling so well.
  • 2405 | bts' videos in tina’s tv room, lunching outside, liberdade!!, meeting aninha and lizzie, buying food for the concert's line, it was a nice day but i didn’t get to buy the things i wanted, pastel, soju and saque! ♥
  • 2505 | COLD AS FUCK, waiting in line with may tina luma and beu, selling cards and gaining cards as well, FUCK I GOT IN THE STADIUM I SAW BTS WITH MY OWN EYES, jin bleached his hair bc of us, hoseok was so happy to be here and his chantings were so lound, namjoon literally forgot portuguese and cried, jimin cried during the truth untold and it was so moving i loVE HIM, taehyung with brazilian flag scarf and his FACIAL EXPRESSIONS damn, jungkook was so hyped up and JUNTOS E SHALLOW NOW i love my baby :(, seeing yoongi’s GUMMY SMILE IRL and we singed seesaw so loudly for him, i literally lost my voice bc of yoonjin, only got to film serendipity and it was worth it bc i enjoyed the concert; bts i love you. ♥ ♥ ♥
  • 2605 | encceja!!, going outside for lunch, eating massa at a hipster neighbourhood, bts is breathing the same air as ours, not being able to watch the second concert, showing kpop stages to tina’s lil sister, crying with tina bc of yoongi’s tweet. ♥
  • 2705 | liberdade with the girls, meeting babi, she’s so cute :(, she told me i meow like a cat, buying yoongi’s fake merch, taking pics with jimin’s papelao, eating tobokki (it’s really bad tho). ♥
  • 2805 | time is so slow when i’m anxious, saying goodbye to tina and her family, coming back to rio!! i'm finally home, showing my mom clips from the concert.
  • 2905 | my whole body is numb, my father thinks every kpop group is bts, finishing the promised neverland, can't remember things i've done today.
  • 30-3105 | doing nothing, diva depressão, there's something entertaining seeing sub celebs' parties lmao, rachel, crying because of bts' vids, but seriously it's been pretty boring these day, fanfic after midnight.

june

  • 0106 | pride month!, bisexual and proud, going to the market with dad, feeling like im aging up, yoongi's live, high school musical.
  • 0206 | going to my sister's, imagining a life with jungkook, making a g.f.c. in my own head, yeah pretty much it, oh school 2015.
  • 0306 | waking up 4 o'clock, rewatching clueless, cher is my fashion influence, oh my god i need a bf or gf, going out for mcdonald's ice cream.
  • 0406 | i didn't sleep at all, scared of having a bad sleep habit, watching run in the parking lot of a market, reading yoonkook fanfics, re-watching parks and rec.
  • 0506 | koe no katachi, A FUCKING RAINBOW, french fries, don't remember much more.
  • 0606 | feeling an inner peace, listening better days are coming playlist, my sister is way cooler with me in whatsapp than in real life, ice cream popcorn and pizza, tentacles?
  • 0706 | van gogh is much closer to me these days, staying up until dawn, bangtan's run picnic, changing my phone's pelicula, watching paris' sy tour clips.
  • 0806 | dreamt of giving birth to a boy named samuel/antonio and meeting kim taehyung (he was really nice and sweet), bts' summer package, taking beautiful pics of the sky (it looks like a impressionist painting), hsm2 and die welle, dropping stan twt, i want to find a love like fanfic's ones.
  • 0906 | it's been one month since my bday but it feels like it was ages ago, 2019 seasons greating, pasta and lemon pie, black mirror, enemies to lovers.
  • 1006 | making my own crepioca, aladdin, hanging out with my sister at the mall, playing exo's love shot at renner, buying concealer and brushes, rachel!!, sweet popcorn and happy death day 2.
  • 1106 | frozen, walking around the neighbourhood with rachel, baking carrot cake, i wish i had friends like the hyyh fanfics, something about being loved and taken care of and having someone to pet my hair and cuddle and tell me everything's going to be okay - it's a heartwarming thought.
  • 1206 | spending one more valentine's day alone, when i became this person who hides theirself from friends?, guess i wanna be alone from now on, bts festa!, actually spent hours on youtube at the living room, domino's pizza, realizing i never finished bon voyage 3, disney song's. ♥ [the most fun i had in a long time. all by myself.]
  • 1306 | good amount of time watching film theorist, i miss fullmetal alchemist a lot, wish i had a summer vacation with a campfire, bon voyage, dan howell coming out in video, eating a lot at night, past a.m. conversations with rachel.
  • 1406 | dreamt i was in a bts concert (taehyung and jimin were right in front of me), picking up grandma, disney soundtracks, makeup tutorials (but i don't have any of their products), netflix and chill with rachel, pretty nostalgic day tbh.
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