• 01 | beginning the year with an ancient aliens marathon - and a migraine - and instacart didn't deliver my crab boils but delivered just an apple pie - tacos
  • 02 | a cycle of nausea and eating - a cycle of getting high and sleeping - crab boils - titanic shows
  • 03 | up at 4.30 - back to sleep and back awake and i wonder if this pattern will persist all day - pattern changed up and it was nausea and then hunger - what is wrong with my body - took all day to try and finish a sleeve (which i had to rip out) and the bottom band of this sweater and it's still not finished - i can't wait until i can go to the dispensary on my own time and not wait for someone
  • 04 | why is it still so dark outside - finished a hat i began a year ago today - nausea, nausea, nausea - had to eat plain spaghetti for dinner because that's apparently the only thing i can eat without getting super nauseated - i know it's 6.30 but i just want to go to sleep; i'm done with today
  • 05 | woke at 4.20, nice - finished my christmas sweater, a day before epiphany/last day of christmas - it's a coconut joint type of night
  • 06 | awake so early - so it's the arizona fruit punch that makes me nauseous, apparently; i wonder if it's the sugar? - um what the fuck is going on in d.c. right now what the fuck what the fuck
  • 07 | happy birthday lewis hamilton, my formula 1 king - went to the dispensary and got some vapes & gummies and it's so nice and good stuff
  • 08 | i feel heavy and depressed - it's been one year since my arwen died - working on postcard organization all day
  • 09 | tired - walgreens, michael's, safeway, post office - i want to begin this new blanket, nevermind the fact i have other projects to do, but none of those are for other people except one and i don't want to do that project at all - so now apparently after i masturbate i get the worst cramps i've ever experienced and i almost throw up from the pain
  • 10 | dreamed of two people whose birthdays are today (my aunt) and a few days ago - slept almost all day
  • 11 | i should clean & work on the chicken, but will i?
  • 12 | so tired - it's been taken me a while to wake up in the mornings and i've been staying up later and later, is my sleep schedule shifting? - i painted my nails - sweater photos
  • 13 | second impeachment? - cross stitched all day and watched cnn and game grumps and ignored pretty much all social media, and it was fantastic
  • 14 | went all the way to michael's and they didn't have the color embroidery floss i needed - cross stitched all day, again, and completed game grumps' firered
  • 16 | i should do this, i should do that, but all i want to do is cross-stitch
  • 17 | we have carolina wrens, thryothorus ludovicianus, in our backyard and they are the roundest chunkiest birds i've ever seen - my hands smell horrible after holding this metal needle all day - my ankle has been killing me all day, and that spray on icyhot dry spray does absolutely shit nothing
  • 18 | woke up late, 730 - did a bit of this and a bit of that but it wasn't much and i feel shitty because my period is tomorrow - pokémon: indigo league and cryptid knitting - making some epic lists that y'all probably won't see, at least not all at once - remember, this site is for me
  • 19 | i had a dream my friend was like 'i don't like you anymore,' and even though i was sad, i was glad i didn't have to make that fucking chicken commission - i'm supposed to crochet today, as i made a craft schedule so i won't cross-stitch all day, but all i want to do is cross-stitch, fuck it, i can't even stick to my own rules lmao - ankle is still fucked up - cross-stitched and couldn't really concentrate or see, maybe this is a really high number count or whatever - just can't concentrate! - pain in my ankle and nausea in my throat - i drank so much high caloric beverages that weren't water, tomorrow needs to be all day water
  • 20 | today's the day! - below is a little to do list - inauguration! - i'm so stressed i've been grinding my teeth when i sleep and it hurts to chew - my friend m. stopped by and gave me a nug, what a good friend, i need to make him something - apparently arts & crafts is one of my love languages
      • ☑ pay bills
      • ☑ organize the little boxes of crochet - 6, plus a lot of must have minis
      • ☑ cross stitch day
      • ☑ 'g' postcard
  • 22 | i physically cannot work on this commission - i started crying, i feel sick, my stomach hurts and is twisted into like, a fist - i think i have to tell him i can't and reimburse him
  • 23 | do not want to participate in life today - period's fucking suck - pip woke me up at 530 for kibble - slept till noon - really tired of all these bernie memes, y'all he could've been president???
  • 24 | at least i didn't sleep all day - i knit a mongolian death worm and watched...what? oh pokémon i guess, then the bigfoot shows - i want to be an organized person, who exercises daily, and doesn't smoke weed vs. i should just accept myself and my disorganized life, the extra pounds because of medication and eating poorly, the weed as medicine... - thought today was monday all day
  • 25 | worked on my temperature scarf and a bright ass shawl - waited for weed and it's 630pm and i'm still waiting, because i did not want to go to the dipensary - i need to organize - HiStOrY bEiNg MaDe as the article of impeachment, the 'incitement of insurrection,' against that unemployed fool - panda express was spicy, flavorless, and the fanta was just bad
  • 26 | do i have celiac ? ? or something similar, and i can't process gluten ? ? -
  • 28 | went to the dispensary - went to michaels and got another happy planner this time to record everything i eat and do and symptoms. i doubt i have celiac, but i should find out what's making me so bloated
  • 29 | an instagram account i follow lost on of their foxes, and it's really brought me down
  • 31 | snow - so tired of nausea - so ready for february
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