• 01 | can you believe it's fucking october already, holy shit;
  • 02 | 6.45; death bus dream; ancient aliens starts at 7, all fuckin' day ya'll; i can't fucking figure out the solo for 'hotel california', learned to play some of 'paint it black' instead;
  • 03 | 6; loveland frog finished for cryptober (my cryptid blog runs on a queue, so that won't be posted unitl tuesday, fyi); finished part i of the scheepjescal, now on to part ii which includes bees, butterflies, and the dreaded french knot; sicksicksick
  • 04 | 6; full metal jacket; cleaning up a bit; personal library & vinyl lists; nap + anger; tropical smoothie; i am the kaleidoscope; a shrewdness of apes; wendy's; added some exes on instagram, whatever;
  • 05 | 7; m. dream - just cause you feel it, doesn’t mean its there; a little bit of crochet, a little bit of violin, a lot of sleep; actually made dinner; why can't my mom treat me like a goddamn adult and let me make my own decisions; i know i can't handle everything, but it's just to renew my driver's license, fuck; i feel sad and shitty and want to smoke; welp now i'm conflicted about picking up and i don't even feel guilty or whatever waaaaaa;
  • 06 | 6.30; my room smells like flintstones vitamins; then glut thy sorrows on a morning rose (keats); a small fight, again; smoke shop with m., might see double m's later!; double m's and some video games
  • 07 | 7.30; went through some old photographs only to find a bunch got wet and stuck together;
  • 08 | 7; why have i been dreaming about making out with him so much wtffff; tired, exhausted i mean, and didn't go to the museum and sleep is good; is this the weed; i guess i need to figure out what to do, in all situations; instead of focusing on the negative, let's list the positive things about today:
    • watched what we do in the shadows
    • played some breath of the wild, even though it was just running around
    • crocheted, which tbh i haven't really done in the past two days
  • 09 | dream where we kissed; feeling alone and empty and just want to lay in bed; crocheted a little; practice 1 & 2 were rained out;
  • 10 | shitty, shitty, shitty;
  • 11 | a bit better; f1, lewis hamilton won; mickyd's; instacart; so yeah, the weed is making things worse;
  • 12 | fuck christopher colombus; 7; where's my medication; grabbed weed and felt well enough to clean a bit, but i cancelled tonight's expedition as i am starting to feel it from the lack of meds; started a hippo lovey for my cousin; dominoes; it's dark and fees like idk, 2am, but it's only 7pm but i'm like 'it's totally normal to go to sleep rn'
  • 13 | 7.40; a fight, but whatever; watched some movie reviews on youtube; cookin some green beans;
  • 14 | 630; scattered mind; scheepjes cal, powering through; some more movie reviews;
  • 15 | dizzy and headachey;
  • 16 | animal crossing and cals and aliens;
  • 18 | read; halloweenie beanie, fuck the waistcoat stitch, we're doing single crochet back loop only; nap and now i feel terrible and the cravings are really bad;
  • 19 | halloweenie beanie came out too small;
  • 20 | finished the hello fall pillow, just have to put it together; pho; why do i keep dreaming of the same person, over and over???;
  • 21 | r.z. dream, and we went to see ninja sex party and the person sitting next to me told me i was loud and annoying and ungrateful and then r.z. turned away, and i woke up crying; crochet & game grumps; ralphthemoviemaker, omg the bigfoot one is hilarious; I'm a failure baby, so why don't you kill me; can't stay away from weed for long, apparently; shrug
  • 22 | headache; gettin stuff done, son; is it weird that i don't really have goals?; talked to my therapist and that helped a lot with the weed situation; avengers movies with mom;
  • 23 | 5.30; fp1; ancient aliens, babey; a miniature road trip
  • 24 | oh, it's today; and by today i mean it's the day frodo reaches rivendell!; co-star: let yourself change your mind about people;
  • 25 | f1 sunday! lewis hamilton won, 92 wins!; nap; truck racing? oh i watched the south park movie wow i totally forgot; made soup;
  • 26 | don't feel like doing a damn thing today; guess i'll try and crochet something; today really sucks;
  • 27 | made plans for tonight and i don't want to go, again, but my mom's all 'if you keep bailing, you won't ave friends' and now i feel guilty :[
  • 28 | michael's & the halloween store; insidious and insidious 2; idk what to do tonight;
  • 29 | 7; truth behind the moon landing;
  • 30 | migraine this morning; lots of things to do today bit eh; i put on fake nails yesterday and it's a pain in the ass to try and type on my phone and crochet is hard lmao;
  • 31 | blessed samhain and happy halloween!
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