\..sorry that ive been avoiding the chat today. something was telling me to not join, plus... thoughts. lots of. and phobia was triggered so bad from yesterday. im just a bother though, so bet you guys' days were better with me not in chat. just... tell me if im needed -if i ever will be, because why would a bother be needed- in chat. or if you miss me - again, why would you guys miss a bother and someone whos not good enough- lol.