With a history of depression and self-abuse, I go through many internal struggles. Some days, my problems disappear completely from my mind, but it's not before long when they come blowing back stronger than ever. But I have hope now. I've given my life to God and I'm learning to love Him more, to put Him as the focus and center of my life. It's not easy, but at least now I know that impossibility does not exist with God. I'm becoming a more caring person, even emotional, and that in itself can be a curse and a gift. Even that, I must hone in order to effectively reach out to people.

Everything's getting serious now that I'm completing the second half of my college education. I'm learning that we all have responsibilities and it's hard but necessary sometimes to be separated from people you love. It's not the end of the world, though, now that I truly understand that what's meant to be will happen by His will.

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If I were to have a day completely free of work, even if I got to do all the things I love, I think I'd still feel unproductive. Think this means I'll become a workaholic?

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I am highly uncomfortable with cognitive dissonance and may even be prideful, as I usually self-justify with certain people I end up offending.

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generally:

• dreamer
• sentimental
• introverted
• complex thinker
• indecisive
• hardy
• exacting
• hopeful
• honest, very
• hospitable host
• compassionate
• imaginative
• mysterious
• caring
• conscientious
• open-minded
• lazy but enjoys cleaning
• not book-smart
• demure
• understanding
• faithful
• impartial
• neurotic
• independent
• attentive
• discreet
• clumsy
• forgetful
• logical
• gullible
• hesitant
• disparaging

as a good friend/with:

• childish
• mischievous at heart
• straightforward
• dependable
• sensitive
• fierce
• animated
• bossy
• doubtful
• indelicate

with strangers/elders:

• polite
• dutiful

situational:

• haughty
• insipid
• bitter
• harsh
• eloquent
• moody
• obedient
• critical
• cold-hearted