• where?
  • my house
  • a restaraunt
    • Ajax (gift certificate)
    • Tequila's
    • Two Stick
  • my grandmother's
• when?
  • saturday, october 24
  • 6 - 10 pm <--check this.
• what? (if not at restaraunt)
  • marshmallow roasting
  • frisbee/nerf ball
  • poker/other card games
  • other activites that can be outside
• who?

• Find a man, marry.
  • Plays cello or violin.
  • Loves to take pictures.
  • Loves to walk out in pastures.
  • Sensitive, but not in a discouraging way
    • Can laugh at himself.
    • Gets my stupid jokes.
• Document our lives together in pictures.
• Save up a lot of money from our jobs.
• Learn a lot about gardening, etc.
• Buy a farm in the middle of the country.
  • Somewhere extremely green.
  • Cold winters, maybe mild summers.
  • Very remote, but not too far from a near-by town.
  • Huge, open fields (tall grass, perfect for lying in).
  • Wild flowers.

• I think about things too much:
  • Guys; I end up falling in love with their potential.
  • Things I regret (that go back into my early childhood. I don't know why, it's so long ago. I was a kid.)
• I lie with ease (not necessarily often):
  • To get out of explaining things that are "long stories."
  • To avoid conflict.
  • To make me sound more appealing.
  • To make me seem more stable.
  • To feel more interesting, better.
• I feel guilty easy about things I shouldn't.
  • My mother's mistakes.
  • My father's mistakes.
  • Not being able to change things.

• San Francisco, CA
• New Orleans, LA
• Seattle, WA
• Augusta, ME
• Washington, D.C.
• London, England
• Limerick, Ireland
• Reykjavík, Iceland
• Nice, France
• Madrid, Spain
• Venice, Italy
• Bombay, India
• Moscow, Russia

• D.
• Not spending enough time with family.
• Not finding a job i.e. not getting a car.
• Not knowing what to major in.
• Grades.
• relationship
  • being too clingy
  • too much
  • needy
  • in too deep?
  • too high expectations
  • age
• Grammy?

• i have since fallen in love with a boy, the aforementioned C.V. (see birthday party--which never happened, btw)
• yeah, it's been awhile.
• i went to d.c. (talk more in another list)
• i had a thing with this guy before C.V.
  • messed that up.
• went to prom.
• have lost 40 pounds (since july)
• have made fairly good grades (three B's max)
  • AP English III
  • Trig/Adv. Algebra
  • Chemisty
• currently working on pieces to entire into a literary magazine for the high school

• Getting tan.
• Noises while I do things (that seem louder than they are).
  • Pouring cereal, opening/closing the cereal bag, etc.
  • Zipper sounds.
  • Velcro sounds.
• Rap and contemporary country.
• The insignificance of my pinky toenail.
• People who "ride on my tail" (not sure if that's a southern phrase or not; I don't know any other way to put it.)
• The media.
  • Too easy for children to see/hear inappropriate things.
    • Suggestive things on commercials, shows.
    • Profanity on commercials. And this is not because I am not a fan of profanity: tha...

• Mother
  • Stop beating around the bush.
  • Stop trying to placate her all the goddamn time.
  • Talk to her more (even if it's just on the phone.)
  • Ask about HER once in awhile.
• Father
  • Spend more time.
  • Don't get so offended if he's in a bad mood.
  • Tell him to fucking clean up after himself in the kitchen.
  • Offer to help out more.
• Brother
  • Spend more time.
  • Don't be pissy.
  • Tell him you're there for him.

• deep instruments (bass, cello, bassoon, etc.)
• mango flavored/scented things
• yellow or white things (such as furniture, electronics etc.)
• aquatic life (especially coral reefs, and octopae)
• floral patterns
• sneezes
• eyes
• ephiphanies
  • realizing my life is actually pretty swell
  • suddenly remembering good things i forgot about
• dreams
  • the kind that are looping, only filled with good emotions
  • the lucid kind, where i remember the way ...

saw:

• Smithsonians
  • Air and Space
  • Natural History
• Holocaust Memorial Museum
• Arlington Cemetary
• National Mall
  • Washington Monument
  • Lincoln Memorial
• Cherry blossoms

• When I was around seven, I used to have this recurring dream. In the dream I was driving our old, brown cadillac. But the cadillac was operated with buttons like those you find on a VCR. The dream ended with an eighteen-wheeler crashing into me head-on (though I always woke up before impact).
• When the assistant kindergarten teacher, with curly blonde hair, tried to help me put on my sweater, I yanked it back from her because I thought someone was trying to take it from me. She gave me a reproachful look and walked away.
• On the way to Gatlinburg (in third grade) I was listening to music on my CD player on shuffle, and I tried to see if there was a pattern by writing the track number every time it went to the next random song.
• I remember sitting on a highchair and fee...

• starting back to school, bummer anyway.
• starting back to this school with a new assitant principal who micromanages every fucking thing and makes our school seem like a concentration camp compared to last year.
• my inability to be patient with my brother because he happens to not be very observant with computer, etc...
• people being bitchy to me, and me responding in a bitchy manner
• being depressed for who knows why (just one of those days)
• being kind of lonely
• missing my best friend a lot
• not feeling the need to punctuate my sentences
• my father not remembering to ask me how my first day of school was
• being so fucking sensitive
• think about him again, in that way before...

• Get a job.
• Learn to cook.
  • Spaghetti/other pastas.
  • Bake things (bread, cookies, cakes, etc.)
  • Fish (baked.)
  • Chicken (grilled, baked).
  • Casseroles.
  • Breakfast foods (omelets, pancakes, muffins.)
• Open up a bank account.
  • Save money.
• Figure out where you're going.
  • College:
    • Where?
    • Majoring in...?
  • Possible careers.

• I noticed that I drive faster than I should.
  • I take off from redlights too fast.
  • I turn corners faster than I should.
• I realized that maybe my really loud music bothers others.
  • And that it made me like it more. (Revenge?)
• I'm more absent-minded than I thought.
  • I went the wrong way (confused two roads for the other.)
  • I forgot to go over to the left lane, to let a guy merge.
  • I almost forgot my liscence.
• I actually don't like the purple in my hair.
• I'm not happy with my brother moving to Arizona.