⇢ february

• 01 | we watched "steven universe" most of the day ⋅ we went out to make copies of the keys that i needed ⋅ we lunch at habib's and ate a lot of pasta during dinner;
• 02 | we cleaned the house ⋅ i spent the day a bit tired and sad ⋅ watched "steven universe" during the whole day ⋅ took a nap during the afternoon ⋅ watched the grammys with chu by the end of the day;
• 03 | i woke ip later than i wanted because i watched the grammys until late ⋅ i studied for a little while ⋅ cleaned the house ⋅ was severely depressed from afternoon until evening ⋅ watched "hilda" with chu and ate pizza;
• 04 | i got my period, which is always good news but also bad news ⋅ spent the day studying but i was having a really hard time concentrating in general but i also had bad cramps ⋅ during the evening i was feeling like shit so i ordered kfc ⋅ spent the evening reading (fucking finally) ⋅ i have no idea when i fell asleep tbh;
• 05 | i had a lot of cramps and honestly i didn't do much because i was dying ⋅ but i did organised some stuff i needed;
• 06 | i woke up early and went to the supermarket ⋅ when i got back i cleaned the house and waited for the tulips to arrive ⋅ we talked a lot, ate pasta, played games on the phone, gossiped a lot -- it was hella fun ⋅ gigi and i were kinda dying because we had really bad cramps;
• 07 | we woke up late ⋅ gigi and mori helped me clean the house ⋅ mori went home and me and gigi had munch later than usual ⋅ we talked for a little and she left right before evening started ⋅ i went quickly to get some groceries and made cookies ⋅ chu arrived and we ate cookies and pizza and watched "house md" and a movie ⋅ we then just spent a little while together ⋅ it was one of the best fridays i've ever had with chu - it was all so chill and nice;
• 08 | we woke up and right after cleaned the house ⋅ we watched a movie before lunch ⋅ we spent the afternoon watching "house md" and watched another movie ⋅ during the evening i decided i wanted to drink and i got really sad and depressed and we ended up watching "one day at a time" to make me feel better;
• 09 - 16 | depressive episode;
• 17 | mori and gigi came to my house and we spent the day gossiping and talking and eating loads of food ⋅ i was still feeling very depressed and tired tho;
• 18 - 20 | lili wasn't feeling good and there was also an issue with her grandma so i went over to help and be with her ⋅ i was very tired and quite sad;
• 21 | i was very tired ⋅ spent the day on a call with lili ⋅ chu and i talked and we spent some time watching a tv show and eating;
• 22 | spent the day organising my home and watching "one day at a time" with chu;
• 23 | we woke up quite late and organised the house ⋅ i spent the rest of the day organising the house while on call watching "one day at a time" ⋅ i ate only one meal because i didn't want stop organising... i guess i was feeling anxioues and needed to do something a bit more concrete and physical ⋅ went to bed quite late because of anxiety;
• 24 - 28 | my sleep scheadule is completely fucked ⋅ i have no idea what i did for most of the time, i feel completey disassociated ⋅ i know i did not eat much, i watched "severance" at some point and that i was fucking depressed and had loads of su!cid4l thoughts when i wasn't disassociating;