❝ Here is how I spend my days now. I live in a beautiful place. I sleep in a beautiful bed. I eat beautiful food. I go for walks through beautiful places. I care for people deeply. At night my bed is full of love, because I alone am in it. I cry easily, from pain and pleasure, and I don't apologize for that. In the mornings I step outside and I'm thankful for another day. It took me many years to arrive at such a life. ❞

Ottessa Moshfegh, Eileen

December 31

Year after year, I record in my Diary my adventures in the world of men and women and my longings for the other things. I am growing older, perhaps more civilized, less timid, prettier (who knows), but my heart is true to the dreams of my girlhood.

The Early Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1920–1923

❝ I am only responsible for my own heart, you offered yours up for the smashing my darling. Only a fool would give out such a vital organ. ❞

• estefany, nineteen
• she/her · infj · 6w5

synonyms: yearner, magnolia, orchid, wishing, praying, hoping, longing, dreaming, aspire, desire, lily, jasmine, pining, craving, petal, blossom, whispering, seeking, anticipating, lusting, envisioning, blooming, cherish, covet, blossom, daisy, marigold, wistful, fervent, ardent, reaching, blossoming, flourishing, unfolding, gazing, nurturing, unfolding, embracing, fawn, muse

"I got this."

me right before doing something that i clearly do not got

me: [on the verge of having a complete breakdown]

"i need to make some kind of list or perhaps sort things into categories."