it's time i re-evaluate my life. i'm going break myself down and then re-assemble the pieces into someone better.

• be a better friend. i think i'm too apathetic to my friends or maybe too self-centered, and that strains my friendships. i will call people more often just to say hey and not discuss my own problems. i will write letters to my friends far away. i will make sure to meet lots of new people in the fall and turn past acquaintances into closer friends
• stop talking about girls behind their backs. whether they deserve my criticism or not, for my own well-being- i shouldn't do this anymore. i don't want to be a shallow bitch- not even for a minute. college is NOT high school. and even so, my judgements were probably wrong in high school too. "great minds discuss ideas. small minds discuss people"
• get over my jealousy complex. in the past i enjoyed my jealousy because i finally got to feel something so intensely. but it's unhealthy and draining. i will try to let things go, allow my life to happen as it's meant to and not as i want it to. i think i'll be much happier that way.
• walk more, see more, listen more, read more, learn more, dance more, experience more
• grow some balls and do the things i'm afraid of. otherwise, i will be paralyzed and life's too short to waste time wallowing in fear