• magnetized. . .
• energetic waves of . . .
• elusive behavior.
• outside eyes come forth. . .
• awaken my eyes to
• many paths of desire. . .
• cloud the path of determination
• it is easy to isolate. . .
• intangible fluidity of
• boundaries. broken. bound.
• or free.

• i attribute a lot of my successes
• with tea.
• tea is
• an experience
• in which i have learned
• patience
• calm
• reflection
• appreciation
• thankfulness
• mindfulness
• . . .
• in the moment
• i feel at ease
• waiting is part of the process
• and is so essential to recognize.
• without the waiting
• the tea would not fully develop
• the taste would not be full & vibrant
• . . .
• i truly attribute a lot of lessons learne...

• to be whole
• one must be
• able to breathe
• alone
• anxiety dissipates
• stability comes
• from within
• building a foundation
• independence & responsibility
• integrity...humility
• breath in. . .
• joy.happiness.solitude
• the love from an animal
• the love of nature
• respecting
• all around & within
• life is a learning process
• constantly compiling findings
• i have come so far & have yet to
• reach it all
• breathe in inspiration

ab·er·ra·tion noun

the fact or an instance of deviating or being aberrant especially from a moral standard or normal state

: failure of a mirror, refracting surface, or lens to produce exact point-to-point correspondence between an object and its image

: unsoundness or disorder of the mind

: a small periodic change of apparent position in celestial bodies due to the combined effect of the motion of light and the motion of the observer

• Adjective
• Quick to detect or respond to slight changes, signals, or influences: * "spiders are sensitive to vibrations on their web".
• Noun
• A person who is believed to respond to occult influences.
• Synonyms
• susceptible - touchy - delicate - thin-skinned - tender

• death to a dream
• implode
• explode
• deep dark dapper
• anxiety . . .
• overtaking
• panic protruding . . .
• over-articulation of
• patterned
• mirrored emotions
• of atmospheric aberration
• private dreams of past libations
• imitating in my mind
• past. . .
• craving
• idée fixe

• clearing . . .
• nature is my solace
• entangled aspirations emerge
• feelings rise
• . . .
• it's all how it should be
• i feel at peace
• no more compromising my own sanity
• in hopes to obtain faulty connections. . .

incomplete

• dingy
• confused
• eye on the prize
• a cigarette
• a drag of inspiration
• fake/real
• dingy
• dirt
• depressive
• drag of
• hope/despair

• starting to feel like an antisocial . . .
• moth
• i feel like a g h o s t
• hidden in plain view
• exterior shields
• but slowly. . .
• disintegrating
• i feel nauseous

• i crave connection
• like the kind you feel
• when you let go
• no inhibitions
• just p u r e
• i want to fuck in the woods
• & climb mountains
• go where the wind takes me
• & not give two fucks
• about a 9-5
• i want to influence people
• in a positive . . .
• NON
• prepackaged/ synthetic way

• “Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried.”

• breed
• minute
• desolate souls
• emerge
• where am i?
• why
• where are all
• the people
• connected souls
• shared intellect
• wavelength
• shared souls
• emerge
• from the cracks

• comfort
• solace
• nakedness
• books
• conversations
• articulation
• submission
• aggression
• integration
• tangible interaction
• freedom
• safety
• comfort
• ENCODE

• an empty skeleton of a life once lived

• downward
• spiral
• falling
• out of
• step
• in line
• with
• destructive
• cycles
• of
• repeated
• past times
• copied memories
• actuality
• figments of
• past lives
• drowning
• ...
• breathe
• fresh air

• i woke up today
• with pieces of nature
• all around . . .
• dingy dirt of nightime before
• conscious memory of broken
• fires and dirty emotion. . .
• a delicate pine leaf particle
• followed me home . . .
• nature is the greatest protector. . .
• balance me.

• liquid truth spills. . .
• my insides
• via blacked out. rambling. of half truths.
• codes & mistranslated emotions.

"i blame 'social media' for the complete breakdown of social skill in our 'proficient' America. I blame the status updates and comments for creating a new structural system in our social interaction on and off screen. The constant stimulation of information every second is depleting imagination we use to have. I hate the internet but I also love it. I feel entrapped".

• rugged reality
• snapped into perspective. . .
• closed eyes lead to
• unknown territory
• soul is heavy
• bleak . .
• i am panic striken
• emotional sweltering . . .
• sorrow
• engrossed perspectives
• out of
• capacity
• this is how it feels
• severed from the hip of familiarity
• unknown territories lay vaast
• in the landscape
• harsh
• bitter
• icy
• sullen eyes
• and shakey lips

• breath in life
• grasp opportunity
• shatter doubt/confusion/uncertainty
• destined for truth/pure/abundance
• meditate/cleanse/invigorate
• the future holds
• projected . . .---->

• life is not cut & dry
• emotions are tricky
• fleeting
• "movement through feelings"
• awareness
• sensation
• ache ache achy
• . . .
• dull eyes & dry teeth

• random flash of vivid sentiment
• CONCRETE
• hot ashy
• stuffy air . .
• boy & girl together . . . alone
• . . .
• another flash
• of a face i
• remember & use to cause a smile . . .
• but no longer . . .
• people move on. . .
• i have
• a difficult time
• connecting . . .
• & disconnecting . . .

• for those who know the old me . . .she is dead
• 4 years ago i was lost in myself . . .
• self induced psychosis . . .
• my outlook was bleak. . .
• i have come along way over the years . . .
• and truly enjoy the person i am today
• old friends are distant though i crave their admiration daily
• life moves and people either inspire create or
• . . .disintegrate . . .dissipate. . .disconnect & dissociate
• . .
• i aspire to inspire all around me & to learn from others . . .
• i am open and receptive . . .
• i am renewed
• . . .

• in this moment i feel . . .
• happy . . . complete happiness
• bliss
• i feel so lucky . . .
• everything has fallen into place
• my eyes are wide & i am hopeful
• i no longer have that familiar pain
• sweltering in my stomach
• the anxiety . . .
• the deep heavy uncertainty weighting me down . . .
• i feel at ease . .
• in this moment . . .
• i feel calm

• distractions
• inebriation
• . . .
• pleasant surprise
• bourbon
• whiskey
• to the heart
• for the heart
• connections
• . . .
• accidental
• creative chaos
• magnetized

• l i m b o . . .
• floating between
• responsibilities
• empty conversations
• . . .
• & tangible. . .
• bliss

• 2.5 effects me like a freight train
• coming down the tracks
• in the pitch black
• accomplished the goal
• . . .
• i feel down now . . .
• i feel brutally alone
• i find myself wanting
• to reach out to someone
• but finding no one to grasp . . .
• uneasy . . .
• crypsis

• even though i have made some mistakes...
• i have also grown wiser
• i have accomplished goals
• that i have been striving
• to complete
• i sleep much better now
• i think much clearer
• i am happier
• i feel more at ease
• i can now breathe
• & know...where i am
• & who i am
• what it means to be
• myself
• alone
• i feel at ease
• & happy
• i am
• proud
• of what i have
• become

• prescription drugs
• have ruined
• a generation
• crippled motivation
• & the ability
• to form healthy
• relationships
• we just
• WANT
• ...
• quick results
• with little long term satisfaction
• it
• disgusts me

• nature
• no gods no idols
• in the end there is only . . .
• we are all connected
• main reason for life is to live it
• (experience)
• science/nature

• an abyss or chasm
• disorderly mass...confused
• state of utter confusion or disorder...lack of order
• origin 1400-50 late mid english <latin < greek
• synonyms...disarray, jumble, turmoil, tumult
• dark void were everything eventually appeared from
• chasm.abyss

• desolate
• disconnect
• disembark into dysfunction
• at a loss
• ...
• i crave
• to feel
• connected
• why is this place so cold?
• & why do i feel
• so
• alone

• pen & paper
• my true friends
• only they can convey & understand
• what lies within my mind
• only they can truly
• interpret & soothe . . .
• in times of chaos
• . . .
• whenever i am alone
• i am not fully
• if pen & paper is within reach . . .
• i do feel alone a lot. . .
• when i hit that wall
• that is my breaking point
• spilling over
• can only occur
• when pen & paper are close by.
• ink has always been there.
• . . .
• sometimes
• i can't think straight

• awkward air . . .
• the beginning
• of something new
• can always be unnerving at times. . .
• it's how you deal
• with that slight anxiety at the beginning . . .
• that truly determines
• what will be
• the future outcome...
• plan of action can be a good strategy
• but it can also set you up for
• repetitive outcomes. both negative and positive
• . . .
• finding a strategy that works well
• to manage stress
• will help make situations like this into
• a positive learning experience.

• cleansing wave
• changing influence
• purification
• renewal of independence
• shedding of poisonous ways
• detrimental life suckers
• party life/\void
• turn away & start for higher ground
• on my own . . .
• regard
• renew
• in sight
• in the light

• deciduous
• coming from . .
• falling off of . . .
• embarking on. . .

• dancing around decisions
• muscle memory failing. . .
• change ---> enlist
• become changed
• without poison
• eye. . .
• i . . .
• truth . . .
• remove
• ________ ties of dark days
• of past lives
• new anew . . .
• changed eyes
• open . . . close doors . . . towards. . .
• let go to move forward
• scared eyes. . .
• truth begins . . .
• discomforted obligations
• to the self-
• respect of

• swoon
• full moon
• e n e r g y
• heavy . . .
• drain . . .
• heavy
• flow. . .
• inϕ control
• dis. . .
• order. . .
• ..ly. . .
• laying . . .
• l o w

• sorry i have been so distant. . . .
• i will update this sooooooooon
• also . . . http://fugazieyes.tumblr.com/

• close yet far
• i get the urge
• to purge . . .
• all loose connections
• i have no patience
• i feel run down in the ground
• i only get this way sporadically
• but when i am in this state
• i feel dark and desperate
• abbyysss . . .
• i scramble for some connection
• but it is always short-lived
• and ill conceived
• i am compulsive
• i am aware
• i also am many other things
• i wish people could see my thoughts
• my prethoughts before i speak or
• black out spill out half truths & enigmatic codes
• i AM human

• blinded by
• fresh wounds
• i feel scrambled
• i have lost the ability
• to come off
• in a non transparent
• fleshy
• truth spilt
• drunken emotional overload
• naked inhibited
• disarray

• writing is the only thing that keeps me sane. . .
• it is
• essential . . .
• like a detox . . .
• extracting the toxins in the mind . . .
• unloading
• onto paper . . .

• i love the feeling of the air
• just before it rains
• it's like anything else
• in which something
• is about to be released
• divulged
• anticipation
• of . . .
• all pressures. . .
• dissipate

• A:
• he is everywhere &
• no where.
• he neither exists or doesnt.
• or does he.
• there is no god.
• there is no nothing.
• just stuff and things.
• but mostly space.

• at ease
• a tease

• i find
• going through time
• myself...with hands
• still attached
• to the past
• i want so much
• to feel that
• connection
• but it is lost
• no longer feasible
• disconnection...
• disconnected...
• disconnect...

• some people
• get so caught up
• in the little bullshit details
• of life...
• pointless...
• strife...
• sometimes it's easier
• to go through the old familiar pain
• then to make n e w progress...
• familiarity is the problem
• people are so scared of change
• they will put themselves
• in the most
• despicable situations
• just to ease themselves