• ちはやぶる 神代も聞かず 竜田川からくれなるに 水 くくるとは。

(impassionate gods have never seen crimson that lies in the tatsuta river), hyakunin isshu: poem 17

  • "it's not myself i hand over to you—that would be too simple—what i hand over to you is yourself, yourself loved in every part." from a to x: a story in letters, john berger
  • "there are not two of us. each of us is alone." from no more/c'est tout, marguerite duras
  • "i really like the ideia of love as a violent act—not to the person you love, but against the world. to say to somebody, 'i love you; by extension, i hate all other things." from an interview, hozier
  • "did i survive? i guess i did. but only because i knew i might get home to you." from stone butch blues, leslie feinberg
  • "what am i, if not yours? / what do i do with my hands when they are just hands?" from the lover as a cult, olivia gatwood
  • "i had two longings and one was fighting ... i wanted to be loved and i wanted to be a... from wide sargasso sea, jean rhys
jun 7 2021 ∞
jul 1 2022 +

january

    • obit, victoria chang

february

    • how high we go in the dark, sequoia nagamatsu
    • artemis, stephanie budin

march

    • conversations on love, natasha lunn
    • our wives under the sea, julia armfield
    • the employees: a workplace novel of the 22nd century, olga ravn ★

april

    • time is a mother, ocean vuong ✩
    • and then i woke up, malcolm devlin

may

jan 1 2022 ∞
jul 24 2022 +

media/literary related [2022?]

  • the elephant vanishes, haruki murakami>esp barn burning; rewatch burning (2018)
  • men without women, haruki murakami>esp drive my car; watch drive my car (2021)
  • children of the new world, alexander weinstein>esp saying goodbye to yang; rewatch after yang (2021)
  • phantom lights and other stories, miyamoto teru; rewatch maborosi (1995) :[
  • dance on my grave, aidan chambers; rewatch summer of 85 (2020)
  • reread annihilation (southern reach trilogy), jeff vandermeer; rewatch annihilation (2018)
  • northern lights/the subtle knife/the amber spyglass (his dark materials), philip pullman; rewatch seasons 1-2
  • the garden of forking paths from fictions, jorge luis borges; rewatch the oa (s1-2)
  • i love dick, chris kraus; rewatch i love dick
  • to live, yu hua; rewatch to live (1994)
  • the king in yellow, robert w. chambers; rewatch true detective (s1)
  • reread on earth we're briefly gorgeous, ocean vuong; before the movie comes out>...
jul 1 2022 ∞
jul 4 2022 +
  • no choir, florence and the machine
  • i know you know i love you, sunset rollercoaster
  • happy together, the turtles
  • i know places, lykke li
  • hummingbird, kyle la grange
  • for lovers who hesitate, jannabi
  • let's stay together, o.zic, martian
  • the end of love, jaurim
  • sea of teeth, sparklehouse
  • if i believe you, the 1975
  • francis forever, mitski
  • out like a light, the honeysticks
  • gymnopédie no. 3, erik satie
  • heartlines, florence and the machine
  • self control, frank ocean
  • loving you is so easy, honne
  • rosyln, bon iver, st. vincent
  • i'll be there, zitten
  • dear dream, nct dream
  • my jinji, sunset rollercoaster
  • together, car, the garden
jun 7 2021 ∞
jun 8 2021 +

REVELATIONS // may your body always be a beloved space for revelations.

PRESENCE // turn me into a boat on a river of stones a rain isolated in my fevered silence

OBLIVION // on the other edge of the night love is possible take me there take me to the sweet essences that die each day in your memory

WORKS AND NIGHTS // i’ve been the full offering the pure wandering of a wolf in the woods on the night of the bodies to speak the innocent word

MEANING OF HER ABSENCE // shadow linked so gently to my name

MEMORY LOSS // i recall with all my lives my reasons for forgetting .

DEAF LANTERN // all night long i make the night. all night long i write. word by word i am writing the night.

PRIVILEGE // the most beautiful of all on the night of those who leave me: you whom i long for , how endless your not-returning, you as shadow till the day of days.

WINTER TALE // the light of the wind through the pin..._do i understand such signs of incandescen..._

oct 3 2021 ∞
jul 2 2022 +