• a prayer for gentleness

may my hands never forget how to be kind. may i meet the world with quietness instead of violence. may gentleness never be mistaken for weakness, but for strength made sacred.

• a prayer for solitude

let me not fear the silence, but live in it as if it were a cathedral. may i learn to hear myself when the world grows loud. may solitude become my teacher, not my punishment.

• a prayer for memory

keep alive the faces and voices i have loved, even if time wants to erase them. let memory be both wound and balm, teaching me where i come from, and where i must return.

• a prayer for health

may my body be steady, may it carry me where i need to go. may strength and rest find me in equal measure. may i not take breath, heartbeat, or movement for granted.

• a prayer for kindness

teach me to be tender with myself, as i would be with a frightened child. let me not be cruel in my own thoughts. may i measure beauty by gentleness, not by mirrors.

• a prayer for glow

may my face reflect peace more than vanity. may health show itself in clear eyes, in laughter, in the way i rise each morning. let beauty be something lived, not painted on.

• current obsessions / causes
• environmental preservation
• human rights and social justice movements
• supporting marginalized voices in literature and media
• labor rights and fair work conditions
• education accessibility and intellectual freedom
• mental health awareness and destigmatization
• digital privacy and ethical tech use
• historical memory: learning from past atrocities
• political philosophy that challenges conventional norms
• community organizing and local activism
• campaigns for artistic freedom and cultural preservation
• understanding global inequalities through personal reflection

tarot cards i feel kinship with

• the high priestess → silence, intuition, secret knowledge
• the hermit → lantern light in solitude
• death → endings as transformation, skeleton flowers
• the star → hope, fragile renewal, water poured endlessly
• the moon → dream, shadow, unseen currents

omens i’ve noticed

• crows gathering on rooftops
• lights flickering at quiet moments
• recurring numbers (11:11, 3:33)
• dreams repeating, half-familiar faces all the time

melancholic / introspective

jeff buckley – grace, last goodbye

nick drake – pink moon, river man

cocteau twins – heaven or las vegas, iceblink luck

pj harvey – let england shake, is this desire?

lana del rey – norman fucking rockwell, born to die

sigur rós – takk…, samskeyti

classical pieces: debussy, rachmaninoff, chopin

ambient / instrumental / post-rock

dead can dance – within the realm of a dying sun

godspeed you! black emperor – f♯ a♯ ∞

explosions in the sky – the earth is not a cold dead place

olafur arnalds – re:member

ambient lo-fi playlists for writing, studying, or late nights

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• Sociopath, A memoir - Patric Gagne
• Paradise Logic - Sophie Kemp
• Geek Love - Katherine Dunn
• Junk - Melvin Burgess
• Perks of being a wallflower - Stephen Chbosky
• Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
• Take me with you when you go - David Levithan & Jennifer Nive
• We are Okay - Nina LaCour

• Flowers in the attic - Virginia Andrews
• The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
• Girl, Interrupted - Susanna Kaysen
• The metamorphosis - Franz Kafka
• Dexter series - Jeff Lindsay
• Beyond good and evil - Friedrich Nietzsche
• The God delusion - Richard Dawkins
• The Red book - Carl Jung
• The Stranger - Albert Camus
• Pale Fire - Vladimir Nabokov
• Pnin - Vladimir Nabokov
• Ada, or Ardor - Vladimir Nabokov
• The Upside of Your Dark Side - Robert Biswas-Diener and Todd Kashdan
• Pet Sematary - Stephen King
• Salem's Lot - Stephen King
• Carrie - Stephen King
• You - Caroline Kepnes

current favorite compositions

• Fauré - Pavane, Op. 50, 1913
• Franz Liszt - La Campanella
• Tchaikovsky - pas de deux
• François-Joël Thiollier - Nocturne

CLASSICAL FAVORITES

• Gabriel Fauré
• Claude Debussy
• Glenn Gould
• Ilyich Tchaikovsky
• Jacqueline du Pré
• Antonín Dvořák

• The Crow (1994)
• Girl, Interrupted
• 500 Days of summer
• Thirteen
• Perks of being a wallflower
• Pearl
• My Girl
• The Virgin Suicides
• To The Bone
• Lolita 1997
• Lolita 1962
• I saw the TV glow
• Full metal Jacket
• Clockwork Orange
• Natural Born Killers

“From my rotting body, flowers shall grow and I am in them, and that is eternity.” ― Edvard Munch.

"Do you understand the violence it took to become this gentle?"― Hayley grace

“It's an extraordinary thing to meet someone who you can bare your soul to, and who'll accept you for what you are." ― Twilight

“Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate.” ― iain thomas

“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” ― rumi

“You don’t have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body.” ― c.s. lewis

• dreamwidth journal
• goodreads
• letterboxd

• dreamwidth
• ao3
• internet archive
• justnotepad
• are.na
• catbox
• radio from the globe

• czech - intermediate/basic, still learning frequently

favorite phrase: "děkuju" = Thank you (it just sounds nice)

• german - semi-fluent/coherent, proficient in most conversation and casual chat.
• spanish - Simple words and phrases, "tourist" level. Still learning, but slowly.

(ie: can you help me with this?, do you know where this is? etc)

• french - 17/9 update! getting arguably better, able to write in french and understand!

• Animal Crossing (New Horizons)
• Terraria
• Minecraft
• Assassin's Creed II
• Mortal Kombat 11
• Final Fantasy VIII
• Final Fantasy VII
• Osu/Osu Mania
• Stepmania
• Tetr.io
• Tekken series
• DMC4
• Team Fortress 2
• ICO
• Resident Evil 4
• Metal Slug series