status: incomplete, there's a lot of logs i have to sort through to find when i recorded lots of dreams

• death by boiling water while being paralyzed from a fall after being unable to go through with self-electrocution for the sake of a potentially easier death (sometime around 2014 i think)
• attended some day camp where the kids would just get tortured all day and couldn't tell our parents in fear of retaliation (unknown time period, maybe around 2018...?)
• watched a small dog be incinerated then relentlessly harassed for daring to be upset about it. including being told to kill myself for continuing to be upset (07/02/2023)
• guacamole piss (08/05/2023)
• death from ass impalement by gigantic evil shadow kiwi bird (12/18/2023)
• botched attempted partial euthanization (?????) (12/27/2023)
• presumed death by drawn-out electrocution in a successful effort to sacrifice my life to save other people in an enclosed arena from massive killer ants while a hunger-games-esque death game was going on (04/16/2024)
• sexually coerced by a friend (???) (05/02/2024)
• popped a pimple and pushed a huge grub out of it, and somehow split my entire right cheek down the middle in the process (11/16/2024)