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Wow. There are just so many things occupying space in my mind right now - or consuming my energy, I could say.
There are many things I want to attend to. Yes, that is true. It's also true that I don't have energy for all at the moment. I want to make peace with that or ease into that truth. All in Divine time, is true.
Today, June 27, 2022, I'm thinking of so many things I want to do including:
My brain's going to burst.
I'm just mostly typing away here to clear my head and to purge. Empty the shell. Cleanse and renew.
I feel flooded with insights, one after another. Bombarded. I'm not complaining but I guess I just feel a little stressed out because I might not be acting on them despite being provided with the information, you know? For example, when an insight comes along, do I...apply that insight to my next decision-making or scene in my life or do I just ignore it? Because the purpose of insight is not to ignore but be intentional.
I feel that I am slowly being presented the path. Choose one over the other, choose one over the other - which road are you getting more deeper into? Is it the one leading to your highest version or are you repeating ancient patterns and just rooting yourself more into grounds /soil you swore you would emancipate yourself from?
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I'm disappointed with myself because I feel like I have not done anything to help fight against the injustice my friends and comrades received, second week of June. I feel like I could have been more vocal about it. Maybe more assertive. Maybe more informative / educating. Maybe more supportive. Maybe more expressive. But I feel disappointed that I still cower at the thought of being rejected for what I believe in. I feel sorry that I still place a higher value on my image than what would help revolutionize the conditioning we've all grown up in. I feel unworthy of forgiveness for my lack of participation.
And I wonder, I wonder..._what if the time to rise is now, Aien?_ What if it's not tomorrow, not in two weeks, not in a few months or next year, but now. Every present moment feels so crucial to the history we're creating - not just for ourselves, but the whole society.
A question, Are you on your side, Aien? Do you cheer for yourself? Are you your own cheerleader or are you your worst critic? Which one would you rather be? (I say the former!)