tl;dr of this post: the rejections you don't see coming are the worst. :(

so last night i felt like going out. but as usual, i didn't have the guts to go out solo. so as i was getting ready, i asked jess if she wanted to go out. she didn't respond - i assumed she was at work. at about 7, she replied as much and said we'd talk at 9. so i got ready in the meantime and started drinking a lot of wine.

i was in a great mood, ready to go. and then when she came on at 9, we had a talk and she sounded annoyed that i was drinking. didn't want to go out clubbing, refused to drink, and sounded like a mum lecturing me not to drink too much.

alright then..

that plunged me into a bad mood. i got undressed and took everything off and went to bed. i was quite annoyed.

i know i was acting like a kid, but still...that wasn't nice. i wish she'd just told me she didn't want to go out at 7 so i hadn't gotten all ready and drank some wine to prep myself.

so, to jessica: fuck you. perhaps liz was right. you're not a friend.

~shrugs~

i also spent the day with shon yesterday. it went okay and not okay. but i'm not in the mood to discuss how that went.