ㅤㅤ tonight i can write // one of these nights

• i no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe i love her / love is so short, forgetting is so long
• i, who stopped that day with this old story / i'm going through heartache longer / than the times we loved

ㅤㅤ abbey // charles bukowski // crack baby // adrift // lonely // 4.48 psychosis // valley of the dolls // idontwannabeyouanymore // blue & grey

• i am hungry / i have been hungry / i was born hungry / what do i need?
• there is a place in the heart that / will never be filled / and / we will wait / and / wait / in that space
• it's been a long, hard, twenty-year summer vacation / all these twenty years trying to fill the void
• i don’t know whether i’ve lost the way / or whether from the beginning i was lost, / for whoever i’m with, a corner of my heart is still always lonely
• i can fill my space / fill my time / but nothing can fill this void in my heart
• born with a void, hard to destroy with love or hope / built with a heart broken from the start
• was i made from a broken mold?

ㅤㅤ the idiot // people help the people

• i am a fool with a heart but no brains, and you are a fool with brains but no heart; and we’re both unhappy, and we both suffer.
• oh, and if i had a brain / i'd be cold as a stone and rich as the fool / that turned all those good hearts away

ㅤㅤ nothing new //first love/late spring // can't control myself // but daddy i love him // the 1 // i sing the body electric; especially when my power is out // home is far away // loss

• How can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22??
• and i was so young / when i behaved / twenty-five / yet now, i find / i've grown into / a tall child
• like a grown-up / who grew tall but is still a child
• growing up precocious sometimes means not growing up at all
• and if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow
• i said to the the sun / “tell me about the big bang” / the sun said / “it hurts to become”
• if you don't grow / growing pains is just pain
• the growth / that blossoms from suffering / is finite / when all of the blood / has been emptied / when the limbs / have been exiled / when the room / has been drained / there is only / phantom pain / (taunting and / useless) / a reminder / of what will never be / returned to us

ㅤㅤ your best american girl // buzzcut season // sweet life

• you're the sun, you've never seen the night / but you hear it song from the morning birds
• explosions on TV / and all the girls with heads inside a dream / so, now we live beside the pool / where everything is good
• you've had a landscaper and a house keeper since you were born / the star shine always kept you warm / so why see the world, when you got the beach?

ㅤㅤ por enquanto // so far away // working for the knife // evermore // alone // mi vida eres tu // 100 anos // one of these nights // you never know // right where you left me // the frost

• mudaram as estações e nada mudou / mas eu sei que alguma coisa aconteceu / está tudo assim tão diferente
• o tempo passa mas eu vejo como nada mudou
• why am i here alone when everyone else is running?
• i always knew the world moves on / i just didn't know it would go without me
• i rewind the tape but all it does is pause / on the very moment all was lost
• i become afraid of my current image where loneliness has stopped at that time
• tenho só um coração, canto a mesma canção, vivo uma velha ilusão
• i can’t quickly forget, because even when the pages of the calendar turns, i’m still in the same place
• even as the whole world is changing / it feels like i’m still the same / this path that i’ve been walking on… and dreamed of / just like back then, just like back then / back when i danced everyday / i feel like i’m left at that first spot
• i stayed there / dust collected on my pinned-up hair / they expected me to find somewhere / some perspective, but i sat and stared / right where you left me
• the frost, it looks like dust settled on the world / after everyone's long been gone / but me, i was hidin', or forgotten, the only one left / now the world is mine alone

ㅤㅤ flower // serendipity

• before i called his name / he was only / an object without meaning / when i called his name / he came to me / and he blossomed into a flower
• when you called me / i became your flower

ㅤㅤ fireworks // the cure // my sea // evermore

• one morning this sadness will fossilize, and i will forget how to cry [...] and then, one warm summer night, i'll hear fireworks outside, and i'll listen to the memories as they cry, cry, cry
• i was a little bit lost, but i'm not anymore / i was a little bit hurt, but i'm not anymore / i was a little left out, but i'm not anymore / 'cause the tears fell down, but they don't anymore / it's alright now, baby i've got the cure
• even if i get swept away and get lost, i'm free / i won’t close my eyes at the darkness / that traps me anymore [...] and yet, occasionally still / i may lose to life again / but even if i get lost again, i know the way back
• and i couldn't be sure / i had a feeling so peculiar / this pain wouldn't be for / evermore

ㅤㅤ the show must go on // mirrorball

• inside my heart is breaking / my make up may be flaking / but my smile still stays on
• i know they said the end is near / but i'm still on my tallest tiptoes / spinning in my highest heels, love / shining just for you

ㅤㅤ the god of small things // in my dreams // like crazy // fake love

• if you're happy in a dream, does that count?
• in my dreams, you love me back / in my dreams, you love me back
• no, don't you wake me / i wanna stay in this dream, don't save me / don't you try to save me / i need a way we can dream on
• i grew a flower that can’t be bloomed / in a dream that can’t come true

ㅤㅤ helena // homemade dynamite

• can we pretend to leave, and then / we'll meet again / when both our cars collide
• might get your friend to drive / but he can hardly see / we'll end up painted on the road / red and chrome, all the broken glass sparkling

ㅤㅤ gold rush // ceilings

• my mind turns your life into folklore / i can't dare to dream about you anymore / at dinner parties / i won't call you out on your contrarian shit / and the coastal town / we never found will never / see a love as pure as it / 'cause it fades into the gray of my day-old tea / 'cause it will never be
• you kiss me in your car / and it feels like the start of a movie i've seen before / but it's not real / and you don't exist / and i can't recall the last time i was kissed / it hits me in the car / and it feels like the end of a movie i've seen before / before

ㅤㅤ the truth untold // the 1

• maybe back then / if i had just a little more courage / and stood before you / would everything be different now?
• i persist and resist the temptation to ask you / if one thing had been different / would everything be different today?

ㅤㅤ all too well // 29 // vampire

• and i was never good at telling jokes, but the punch line goes / "i'll get older, but your lovers stay my age"
• i see you're quite the collector / yeah, you're twelve years her elder / maybe now it doesn't matter / but i know fucking better
• went for me and not her / 'cause girls your age know better

ㅤㅤ all too well // driver's license // somebody that i used to know // dear john // ghost // for us // i have questions

• after plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own / now you mail back my things and i walk home alone
• i guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me / 'cause you said forever now i drive alone past your street
• you didn't have to stoop so low / have your friends collect your records and then change your number/ i guess that i don't need that, though / now you're just somebody that i used to know
• and you'll add my name / to your long list of traitors / who don't understand
• i loved you most / now you're a ghost / i walk right through
• you went from my home to / it was nice to know you / and it breaks my heart / that we gave it our best shot
• my name was safest in your mouth / and why'd you have to go and spit it out?

ㅤㅤ come into the water // hurt

• so would you tell me if you want me? 'cause i can't move until you show me
• don't want you to just say the words / you should come and show me first, 'cause i'm not gonna be the one to get hurt

ㅤㅤ adrift // lonely // blue & grey

• i don’t know whether i’ve lost the way / or whether from the beginning i was lost, / for whoever i’m with, a corner of my heart is still always lonely
• i'm sorry, even when i’m with you, i’m lonely / i must be lacking when it comes to love, / please forgive this horrible person i am
• could it be that humans are really the animals of regret? / or is it just me who was created by loneliness?

ㅤㅤ coney island // exile // i guess // francis forever

• if i can't relate to you anymore / then who am i related to?
• you were my town / now i'm in exile, seein' you out
• it’s been you and me since before i was me / without you, i don’t yet know quite how to live
• i don't know what to do without you / i don't know where to put my hands