- connected with myself intimately
- embodied - through dance, breath work, singing, moving my body in diff ways
- got back into painting
- stuck with drawing for months
- went to poetry meet up - cont. on my own, was vulnerable and brave w them
- appreciated tiny details in nature and everywhere
- realised i've been prioritising basics like sleep, eating right, and exercise
- read and absorbed loads of info
- got to Dubrovnik and stood up for myself
- started breaking my massive trauma bonds with my parents
- confronted my abusers
- learned and understood about somatic therapy
- learned and understood about naturopathy / root cause / functional medicine
- learned and understood more deeply about intergenerational trauma, the trauma of colonialism and the secrets my parents have kept about who we really are / where I really come from
- bought myself ankle boots
- bought myself books and food and stuff on my card
- got through the stressful times of AK living here for months on end
- currently getting through the stressful times of the mother being home p much 24/7
- given safety amidst r's violent episode
- coloured with crayons
- prioritised pleasure / tried to
- focused on rest, healing, learning
- let go of hurts that were holding me stuck
- remembered more of what I used to love / parts of my core self
- got back into blogging
- noted more of my symptoms / food intake / etc
- future-self journaling / journaling habit
- switched to many more 'natural' and fragrance-free products
- tried a couple of new recipes
- was there in a time AK needed me when the mother wasn't great to her
- spent time with A and his fam at the Lakes for a weekend
- met Chris again (twice - once for Pizza Hut he got!)
- got more intimate / vulnerable / talked more with Rich - on phone as well
- i didn't even get SAD symptoms much at all through winter; kept productive
- shared more of myself in pictures
- talked to Femi on the phone
- reached out to Mark when needed
- talked to Mark on the phone
- got out to town and stuff
- used the trams for the first time
- went to BK talk
- spent father's day in the park with dad for an afternoon
- got honest and open with dad - went to him for once.
- met Will and am building up a friendship with him.
- went to different coffee shops and had nice banana bread with cinnamon butter!
- got back into drawing after taking a break for many months.
- got back into serious writing.
- started paying for my own groceries.
- started buying more things for myself e.g. boots.
- started going out a bit more.
- made scrambled eggs for the 1st time and then experimented with veg/seasoning.
- dug deep into my well of emotions and felt out my sadness, cried it out.
- listened to a variety of music, loads of music.
- survived AK living here for months on end, and the mother being home for months on end.
- banked - put cash in.
- went to m/cr and found massive waterstones and got treated to a cappucino.
- asked will to go see something at M/cr Home.
- received raspberry and chocolate scones made by Rich.
- starting to write things/feels out a lot more.
- dad and I had deep honest almost 3hr convo about the mother and her fam and living round here and friendships or lack of.
- went to Primark and spent 10 mins there before buying myself a corduroy skirt.
- bought myself a couple of books, or three. bought 2 ebooks.
oct 22 2019 ∞
dec 7 2019 +