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—— grunge

  • alice in chains · would?
  • nirvana · lithium
  • soundgarden · tighter & tighter

—— rap

  • kendrick lamar · the blacker the berry
  • jpegmafia · rebound!
  • MF DOOM · saliva
  • tyler, the creator · juggernaut
  • run the jewels · holy calamafuck

—— rock / metal

  • deftones · lotion
  • loathe · is it really you?
  • system of a down · aerials
  • arctic monkeys · from the ritz to the rubble
  • the strokes · you only live once
  • car seat headrest · high to death
  • slipknot · (sic)

—— country

mar 31 2024 ∞
sep 1 2024 +
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𝔦. — played

  • inscryption
    • 06.08 — first playthrough
  • a way out
    • 06.12 — first playthrough: as vincent, with evie as leo
  • baldur's gate 3
    • 12.23 — first playthrough: half-elf oathbreaker paladin of vengeance | ♡ astarion | life cleric shadowheart, evocation wizard gale, and thief rogue astarion
    • 01.24 — second playthrough: half-elf lore bard & my brother's pact of the tome warlock | battle master fighter lae'zel and thief rogue astarion ↻
  • metal: hellsinger
    • second playthrough
    • leviathan mode
  • deep rock galactic
jan 20 2024 ∞
aug 26 2024 +
  • a priori: based on theoretical deduction rather than empirical observation.
    • v. a posteriori: reasoning from known facts or past events rather than by making assumptions or predictions.
  • actus reus: guilty act.
    • v. mens rea: guilty mind.
  • ad hoc: to this purpose
    • v. ad hominem: to the person
    • v. ad infinitum: to infinity
    • v. ad nauseam: to a nauseating degree
  • affidavit: a written statement under oath (lit. he has sworn)
  • bona fide: good faith
    • v. mala fide: bad faith
  • cui bono: to whom's benefit?
  • de facto: in fact
jul 28 2024 ∞
aug 31 2024 +

we are what we repeatedly do. excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit. — will durant

+ — more

  • consistency: showing up every day, chooing tasks based on energy
  • healthy habits: hydration, skincare, eating well, dental care
  • organization: decluttering, tidying up to destress
  • social initiative: building new friendships, strengthening old ones
  • academic and career planning: research, networking
  • working on my art skills: anatomy studies, painting

- — less

  • endless scrolling: social media, multitasking
  • inconsistent sleep schedule: staying up late, sleeping in
  • negative self talk: perfectionism, judging myself
  • anxiety: overanalyzing everything, visualizing worst outcomes
  • executive dysfunction: procrastinating
may 11 2024 ∞
jul 22 2024 +
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upcoming events & tasks

  • deep clean and donate old stuff
    • good progress!
  • concert with evie this weekend
  • haircut (??)
  • schedule piercing

currently

  • reading the portable nietzsche & in cold blood
  • listening to ultraviolence — lana del rey
  • watched a bunch of documentaries from my list
aug 28 2024 ∞
oct 4 2024 +
sep 17 2023 ∞
sep 17 2024 +

you are so young, all still lies ahead of you, and i should like to ask you, as best i can dear, sir, to be patient toward all that is unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are written in a foreign tongue. do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. and the point is to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.

aug 26 2024 ∞
aug 28 2024 +
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knuckle velvetabout me

thoroughfareautobio

televangelismfilm & tv

famous last wordsmusic

aug 26 2024 ∞
sep 8 2024 +

inspired by mau & petra, thank you!

  • our grad trip (official), where it poured rain the entire day and we tried and failed to keep dry. eventually, we accepted our fate. me and t skipping stones on the beach and walking along the shoreline.
  • our grad party (unofficial), where we hung out at a's house, i finished g's drinks because he's picky, and i slept over.
  • walking through the snow on grandma and grandpa's farm to watch the sunset, with the dogs (piper and luna) trailing behind me.
  • colouring our wooden playground set with chalk and playing pretend outdoors with e.
  • going to see a local rock concert with evie and p, running into a guy i knew in middle school who shared his roach with me while we stood by the street and chatted music and life.
sep 24 2024 ∞
sep 25 2024 +
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from em

  • 🎧 the magnus archives ✧
  • 🎮 hades ✧
  • 🎮 inscryption

from g

  • 📖 nicomachean ethics
  • 📖 beyond good and evil ✧

from ev

  • 🎮 dishonored ✧
  • 📖 chainsaw man ✧
  • 🎞️ chef ✧
  • 🎞️ the secret life of walter mitty
  • 🎞️ v for vendetta

from c

  • 📖 cosmos
  • 📖 philosophy and social hope
  • 🎞️ audition ✧
  • 🎞️ chinatown ✧
sep 14 2024 ∞
sep 14 2024 +
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✧ — if you ever decide to age, love, invite me. i'll retire my bones to make you tea, and read you poetry.

  • no... to be human. to be the place where the falling angel meets the rising ape.
  • how lucky i am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.
  • look, we are not unspectacular things. what would happen if we decided to survive more?
  • you are the only one who can never see your eyes unless they are dulled by the gaze they rest upon the mirror on the lens (i am interested in seeing my eyes only when they look at you)...
  • i wish you were here, dear, i wish you were here. i wish i knew no astronomy when stars appear.
  • stay close to any sounds that make you glad you are alive. ever since happiness heard your name, it has been running through the streets trying to find you. i wish i could show you when you are lone...
sep 21 2023 ∞
sep 22 2024 +
  • animal ⠀ ⠀fawn
  • art ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀realism
  • bird ⠀⠀⠀ ⠀luzon bleeding heart dove
  • clothing ⠀⠀leather jacket
  • deity ⠀⠀⠀⠀minerva
  • discipline ⠀criminal law
  • feature ⠀ ⠀ eyes
  • film ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ seven dir. david fincher
  • insect ⠀⠀ ⠀death's head hawkmoth
  • monster ⠀⠀vampire
  • music ⠀⠀ ⠀grunge
  • poem ⠀ ⠀ ⠀dead stars ada limón
  • rodent ⠀⠀⠀field mouse
  • season ⠀⠀⠀autumn
  • shoes ⠀⠀ ⠀ black converse
  • song ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ my own summer (shove it) deftones
  • tea ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀earl grey
  • time ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀dusk
sep 26 2024 ∞
sep 26 2024 +
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𝔦. — important

  • new journal
  • matte screen cover for ipad
  • messenger bag

𝔦𝔦. — not important

  • cool lighter
  • small, non-coil sketchbook
  • travel watercolour set
  • one of those vintage lamps that remind me of granny
  • motorcycle helmet (not until next riding season)

𝔦𝔦𝔦. — fall & winter

  • half-zip fleece
  • knit winter hat
  • fleece scarf
  • dark cardigan
  • knit fingerless gloves / arm warmers
  • leather jacket... can never have too many...
mar 22 2024 ∞
sep 27 2024 +
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love is like religion is a trope commonly found in pop songs and other romantic works where religious imagery and terminology are used to talk about love as though it itself were a faith or as though the beloved were a celestial being.

  • unsainted, slipknot — you've killed the saint in me, how dare you martyr me?
  • arkangel, thornhill — are you an angel right now? i need an angel right now, i see red
  • cement, citizen — meet me by the lake, i'm ripe with severed faith. you wear the only scar. if i'm a saint, then you're heaven, my only, if i'm a waste, then you're golden, my only, if i'm shame, you're bolder than all of me. i'll give you myself, give you myself any day.
  • crucify me, bring me the horizon — there is a hell, believe me, i've seen it, there is a heaven, let's keep it a secret
  • de profundis, oscar wilde — love is a sacrament that should be t...
apr 13 2024 ∞
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