replacing my feelings with things. replacing my thoughts with wishes. i am up i am down. i cannot get my emotions straight. i am bored yet feel no motivation to do anything about it. i am easily disappointed, is that how everyone is? what a defeated way to be. i should actively try to replace my short-comings with positive actions. i should really truly try. update: trying to keep busy. still not much motivation other than the drive i feel to bake & knead bread.

• lilou chain choker, AYAI
• vintage finds
  • chanel mary-jane heels
  • floral silk skirt
  • mid-century dresser
  • long blazer
• show: the x-files (in love with scully)
• large cardigans & turtleneck sweaters
• forager organic drinkable cashew yogurt
• community loaves country white sourdough bread
• orchid face oil & pink clay soap, herbivore botanicals
• tomato cayenne chao vegan slices
• vegan hotdog w. grilled peppers & onions, chili & cheese, from the vegan hotdog cart in riverside
• fashion month
  • max mara
  • no. 21
  • philosophy
  • zimmermann
  • R13 (!!!)